After that, He Yu didn't reply a word.
Jiang Xiaozhen didn't look for him either.
This time there was a surprisingly tacit understanding, and the two of them broke off contact.
After the winter vacation, Jiang Xiaozhen returned to campus, still working her two jobs, and insisted on her path of becoming beautiful.
Buy cosmetics, buy clothes, learn makeup and dress up, continue dieting and exercising. A few months later, she finally saved enough money for orthodontics, and went to the hospital to make an appointment with a doctor to extract her teeth and prepare to wear braces.
"Have you considered it?" The dentist said to her facing the film, "I mean, the teeth are not aligned. In fact, it does not affect your normal life. If you do orthodontics, you have to pull out four teeth." Tooth, the time required for orthodontics is also very long.”
"I'm going to do it," Jiang Xiaozhen said. "They hurt me."
The doctor shook his head: "It's impossible to hurt, crooked teeth like yours won't hurt."
She fixed her gaze and said, "It just hurts."
Lying in the consulting room, Jiang Xiaozhen looked at the orange light above her head.
When the tooth was pulled, she clearly felt the pain.
From the root of the tooth to the jaw, throat, and then to the heart. The loosening of the teeth, the pulling out after loosening, and the collapse with a series of vibrations. Things that were buried deep, they were pulled out forcefully and spread out, bloody.
She heard a whining sound in her ears, and she was dizzy for a while, and she closed her eyes.
The small humming turned into a more specific sound in the buzzing, it was someone's whisper, it was some kind of crack, she held her breath to listen.
"Your family's Mingzhen is too introverted."
"Jiang Mingzhen, ugly thing."
"Miss Jiang? Big Fat Pig Jiang is about the same."
The chest rose and fell violently.
The corners of his eyes became hot, and tears trickled down his temples, one drop after another.
"Is it hard?" The doctor stopped, feeling that the situation was not normal: "The anesthetic didn't work?"
"Uncomfortable."
Jiang Xiaozhen was trembling, speechless.
"It feels bad."
"I am afraid."
"It's okay," the doctor reassured: "Don't worry."
He turned his head, ready to give her a shot of anesthesia.
"Will I become beautiful?" Jiang Xiaozhen asked suddenly from behind.
"Wearing braces has a chance to change the shape of the face, but..."
She interrupted him and asked again: "Will I be beautiful?"
Staring at her flushed eyes, the doctor let out a long sigh.
"You little girls, is appearance so important?"
Jiang Xiaozhen nodded: "Yes."
"Okay," he smiled at her, "then you will become beautiful."
Jiang Xiaozhen was also laughing.
Her lips were numb, but she pulled the corners up as hard as she could.
It's important and beautiful.
All the way up to now, being coldly ridiculed because of her appearance has long been a natural daily routine for Jiang Xiaozhen.
She could have lied to herself in her own little world and said: I am the most beautiful. Wait here silently, her season will come, or it will never come.
But the light, it broke into her world, so bright and warm.
She approached the light, and through the light, she saw her true appearance.
She was burned by the light.
The closer I get, the more embarrassing I get, the more I feel how ugly I am.
Jiang Xiaozhen didn't dare to look at the light anymore.
She withdrew her hand, retracted into her own small world, and tried her best to become beautiful.
Like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly, one day shed its heavy shell and unfold its colorful wings that will amaze the world. Enough to dance with the light and shine brightly in the big world.
The doctor picks up the needle.
Jiang Xiaozhen cooperated obediently and closed her eyes.
…
After wearing braces, the teeth are sore all day long.
Jiang Xiaozhen replaced all three meals a day with porridge that was easy to swallow.
Her tongue licked the cavity left after the teeth disappeared, and the thin wire of the braces. She frowned at a tight pain. Jiang Xiaozhen did this when she was hungry, and then she didn't want to eat much.
One day, she went to tutoring class without eating.
Coming out of the student's house and walking up a flight of stairs, Jiang Xiaozhen fell down the stairs while bouncing her legs.
Wearing jeans, she didn't feel much pain when she first fell, so she patted her pants and got up to take the bus.
On the bus, Jiang Xiaozhen caught a glimpse of the reflective glass of the door, and saw that her knee was soaked red with blood.
She was surprised for a moment, and her eyes were quickly attracted by other things.
"Is that my leg? It's so thin."
She raised her toes, and the legs of the girl in the mirror also moved.
Have you lost so much weight unknowingly recently
Jiang Xiaozhen was so happy and couldn't wait to share the good news with others.
Click on the phone's call history and look for the person's name.
Turned to the end, did not see him.
If it is set on the mobile phone, the call history of more than two months will be automatically deleted.
It's been so long without a phone call.