I saw He Yu's name again, it was on the list of the senior graduation party.
When Jiang Xiaozhen passed the bulletin board at the school gate, she happened to see that leaflet.
The party was held in the school auditorium, and He Yu was the performer that night.
The propaganda language reads in artistic fonts: "Way farewell to the campus and move towards the future".
Jiang Xiaozhen stared at the line and suddenly felt dazed: He graduated.
Which city will He Yu go to after graduation? What work do you do
Before they fell out, they always felt that that day was still far away, and they never had a discussion...
Taking a deep breath, Jiang Xiaozhen thought again: However, as powerful as He Yu, he can live a good life wherever he goes.
On the day before the graduation party, during the night chat before the lights were turned off, the roommates were discussing that they wanted to go to the senior year party.
"Can we go? Only graduates can participate?"
Another roommate replied: "There are so many seats in the auditorium, we sit behind and watch, who will pay attention to us."
Yeah, it won't be noticed either. Are you going? Jiang Xiaozhen asked herself.
On the second day, she had classes and work, and was busy enough to live the day to the fullest...
But.
After losing weight for so long and spending so much effort to become beautiful, He Yu didn't see it all.
Jiang Xiaozhen decided to ask her students for leave for the tutoring class tomorrow night.
Throughout the day, Jiang Xiaozhen tried her best to dress herself up.
After taking a shower, I carefully put on makeup for three hours, curled my hair, changed back and forth to choose the most beautiful dress, sprayed perfume, and put a lot of thought into small accessories such as earrings and necklaces.
Finally, facing the girl in the mirror, she smiled with satisfaction.
Branches on the moon.
When Jiang Xiaozhen finally stepped out of the dormitory, she happened to bump into the dormmates who came back.
From their mouths, she knew that the graduation party was over.
"Has everyone in the auditorium left?" Jiang Xiaozhen asked in a low voice.
The roommate didn't notice the frustrated look on her face, and said bluntly, "Yeah, let's go."
Jiang Xiaozhen nodded in a daze.
"Huh?" They took a closer look at Jiang Xiaozhen's attire, and all praised: "Why are you so good-looking today? Where are you going to play?"
Lightly, the word "good-looking" is like a switch, bringing the listless Jiang Xiaozhen back to life.
"I..." She stroked her hair, raised her head, and said to them, "I'm going to meet someone."
After finishing speaking, before they could ask any more, she ran downstairs to the dormitory.
Running all the way, she stepped on thin high-heeled shoes, ran through the bushes, the small shop, the playground, and ran in the direction of the auditorium.
With the night wind blowing past her ears, Jiang Xiaozhen ran towards the only destination in her heart, praying that he would wait for her.
Obviously, she ran towards him.
If he didn't know, if he didn't have a chance to know, then what would Jiang Xiaozhen do.
Fortunately.
The lights around the auditorium were still on, and a few sparse figures could be seen faintly.
Jiang Xiaozhen spotted a few people in costumes with sharp eyes, and went over to ask, panting.
They told her that the auditorium was empty and the performers had almost left. They didn't see He Yu. If he hadn't left, he might still be backstage.
Seeing Jiang Xiaozhen's anxious look, they pointed her to the entrance of the stage.
After she thanked her, she didn't dare to delay at all, and ran again.
Walking through the corridor, and walking forward is the dressing room, Jiang Xiaozhen was overjoyed because she heard He Yu's voice.
He hasn't left yet!
Jiang Xiaozhen held her pounding heart, gritted her teeth, and rushed into the dressing room in one go.
A row of large mirrors, plenty of light, when she broke in, He Yu was talking with a girl.
They looked at her at the same time.
He Yu is so pretty, with a handsome face, bright eyes, and a smile hidden in the corner of his mouth, which he didn't have time to put away. She happened to come in, caught the attention of others, and caught a glimpse.
The girl finished removing her makeup and kept her face plain. The eyebrows are dark without drawing, the lips are red without pouting, the skin is white and clear under the light, and the pores are as perfect as it is invisible.
Jiang Xiaozhen looked at them, and the thought that flashed in her mind was: So good.
She couldn't help looking away, and suddenly caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror.
Heavy makeup is used to modify the shortcomings of facial features. Under the strong light, her face appeared to be abnormally stiff, as if she was wearing a mask.
Jiang Xiaozhen lowered her head and tugged at the hem of her skirt, laughing at herself: What are you doing dressed up for, you're not the main character.
When her name was Jiang Mingzhen, she liked to grab the leading role, and she had to be the bride in every play.
Later, Jiang Xiaozhen, who wore pieces of Jiang Mingzhen, still loves to be the protagonist, and she does many things to attract attention, and she wears a princess dress so that everyone hates it.
This time, Jiang Xiaozhen couldn't be the protagonist.
She knew, never more than at this moment: that she would never, never, ever acquire the kind of natural beauty that was good enough to match her sweetheart.
With sour bubbles in her heart, Jiang Xiaozhen turned around and walked out of the dressing room.
She was not surprised that He Yu came after him.
He is the kind of boy with a very good heart, and he has been so good since he was a child.
Jiang Mingzhen from kindergarten received slippers from him, Jiang Xiaozhen from high school was carried out by him from the school where the lights were turned off, and Jiang Xiaozhen from college gave him trouble, but he still chased him.
Hearing footsteps, Jiang Xiaozhen turned her head.
They were separated by a distance, and the lights in the auditorium were turned off.
She smiled at him, not sure if he could see it.
"Can we still be friends?" he asked.
He Yu's voice is far away, his volume is not low, but it is far away.
"No more." Jiang Xiaozhen said.
She raised her hand and waved him as a farewell.
He Yu didn't seem to have anything to say, Jiang Xiaozhen waited for him for a while, but he didn't move.
She had to go first.
"You don't have the courage to face me, you don't have the courage to ask me to wait for you. Only when you leave me, you are so decisive, you don't lack courage."
She didn't stop.
Jiang Xiaozhen heard what He Yu said, and he was right.
She was wrong, and she was wrong a lot.
"Jiang Xiaozhen."
He didn't chase, he let her go, he said.
"Then I won't wait for you."
Jiang Xiaozhen's throat choked.
She has something to say.
She knew that if she didn't say anything, it would be too late.
There was a misunderstanding between He Yu and her, and she had to explain it.
Jiang Xiaozhen thought and thought, what should I start with, it seems that those little things are not worth mentioning.
Like her, it's not worth mentioning.
She really wanted to tell He Yu that she loved him.
It's a pity that she couldn't pass her own test, from the moment she knew she was in love with him.
There was nothing she could give her that could inspire her courage and convince herself that He Yu had to wait for her, let alone persuade her to persuade He Yu.
Jiang Xiaozhen didn't believe it herself, and when she could wait for a good result, she would feel that she was bad.
She has no courage.
In the past, she was nothing but courage, but now she stands here, empty-handed, and chooses to shrink into the turtle's shell.
Her heart throbbed and hurt, and Jiang Xiaozhen's mind was in a mess.
She was so tired, and this time was exhausting, she wanted to end it as soon as possible.
In order not to cry again in his presence, she put on the king's new clothes again.
"If you don't wait, don't wait."
Her voice was dry and stiff, and she said the last sentence without turning her head: "You will regret it, He Yu."
Jiang Xiaozhen couldn't tell what she meant by saying this. Did she want to make He Yu regret not waiting for her, and make him look sideways after making persistent efforts to get better, or was she simply trying to make him hate herself more thoroughly.