Wang Jiexiang didn't go back to Yin Xian to reconcile, she went back to him to quarrel.
If she took the initiative to be with him, should she also take the initiative to break up? It's not that she wants to share, but whoever wants to share should take the initiative.
Wang Jiexiang believes in one sentence: no tears will be shed when you see the coffin.
She will never rest until she sees the worst, if she is not told.
Having successfully convinced herself, she set foot on the way home.
It had been a long time since Wang Jiexiang had someone to pick her up, so she didn't have to walk the dark road downhill from the village in the city alone. Walking to the place where Yin Xian was waiting for her, she couldn't help but look around.
If he didn't know where to find her, he should wait here, this was the only way she had to go home.
Once again, Wang Jiexiang was disappointed, there was no one around.
She continued walking listlessly until she reached a downhill bend, and the headlights were not on at home.
— Yin Xian always waits for her with the light on, is he not at home
Thinking of this, Wang Jiexiang ran to the door of the house in three steps and two steps in parallel.
"Dong dong dong." She knocked on the door vigorously, hoping that no one would answer the door.
After knocking about seven or eight times, there were footsteps in the room.
The door was opened from the inside, and Yin Xian was at home.
The two looked at each other with surprise in their eyes.
Yin Xian was surprised by Wang Jiexiang's embarrassment. Her face was stained with dust, her hair was messy, her eyes were red and swollen; her bare feet were black.
Wang Jiexiang was surprised that Yin Xian was clean and tidy. He changed into his pajamas, his hair was wet, obviously he had taken a shower not long ago.
The tempting aroma of rice wafts from the house...
She ran out and her whereabouts were unknown, but he actually wanted to cook at home. It took a while to open the door, probably because he was eating.
Sure enough, looking at the lunch box in her hand, Yin Xian turned sideways to make way, and the first thing he said to her was.
"The rice and vegetables are ready, do you want to eat?"
Wang Jiexiang's face turned blue and white.
She opened her mouth dumbfounded, her tone distorted: "Do you think I can still eat?"
—No boyfriend, no family, they are going to break up.
In Wang Jiexiang's heart, it was the end of the world.
Judging by his reaction, it seems that she didn't run away from home, but she went to the toilet on the opposite side and came back.
Yin Xian nodded, expressing his understanding.
He kept the door open, as if to let her do what she wanted, and went to eat by himself.
For the first time, Wang Jiexiang had the idea of "is this person abnormal?"
She followed him into the room, and Yin Xian sat down to eat by himself.
He stewed the fish she brought home yesterday, remembering to pick out the bones as he ate it.
If Wang Jiexiang doesn't come back tonight, it is estimated that Yin Xian will clean up the table and wash the dishes after dinner, and then lie down to sleep. He didn't even remember to leave the headlight for her, so quickly, he returned to the mode when he lived.
The strings in Wang Jiexiang's mind completely collapsed.
She could hear her own voice, hoarse and high-pitched, like a roughly pulled instrument, making weird, piercing noises.
"Do you know how to get along with people close to you?"
"Do you know how to love her, care about her, respect her and protect her?"
"Do you understand that people cannot be hurt at will?"
At this moment, Yin Xian's performance was completely indifferent to her appearance.
However, Wang Jiexiang didn't believe it deep down.
She really didn't believe it, so she was still standing here; shameless and self-respecting, no one was looking for her, she came back by herself.
She received and felt love from him solidly, even though he didn't say "I love you" himself, even though many of his actions made her heartbroken.
What exactly went wrong
Wang Jiexiang didn't believe it. But standing in the current situation, she couldn't help but start to think: Could it be that she is always self-indulgent
"I said break up. If you don't want to break up, at least keep it. If you want to break up, please say it directly."
She spoke to Yin Xian's back, like a stone, a wall.
She couldn't see his expression clearly.
But she was already tired of seeing his expression.
Nothing more than frowning with a cold face, or simply, expressionless.
Yin Xian put down his chopsticks.
He turned to look at her with a smile on his face and a slight relief in his eyes.
"Everyone has to leave sooner or later."
He said, "You too, it's fine to leave."
Wang Jiexiang couldn't imagine what Yin Xian was thinking.
He felt from the bottom of his heart that no one loved him, no one cared about him.
He felt from the bottom of his heart that others would be better off without him.
He was always calm, he was able to say goodbye as soon as he picked up his luggage.
He is always ready, he has no regrets or sadness.
"Is it okay to go?" She asked him back, "Where am I going?"
"I run out at night, where do I go? Do you think I will live well without you? Do you think I will not be sad if I lose you? As I said, I want to be with you forever , do you think I'm joking? Tell me, where am I going?"
Yin Xian was thinking about her words.
His eyes, which were always shrewd and squinting, were gradually covered with a layer of confusion, making him look a little dull and dull.
"I have no idea."
Turning his head sideways, Yin Xian extracted the chaotic memories in his mind word by word without much confidence.
"You like rabbits. You like to eat milk flavored ice cream, you like to drink carrot juice, you are always angry, you miss your mother... I don't know the rest."
So, he asked her sincerely: "Where can I find it?"
What he said didn't match what he said, and Wang Jiexiang, who was so angry, was dumbfounded.
—What do you like to drink carrot juice and ice cream? Where does the conclusion of being always angry come from
Being brought into a trance by him for a while, she suddenly felt a certain sense of detachment. She was obviously very sad and heartbroken before, but now her mood has mostly eased. As if from the perspective of a bystander, he took a hasty look at the emotions that tightly bound her. Returning to this scene, Wang Jiexiang was still angry, but felt that the problem was not that serious.
She still remembered what she was going to say, the first sentence Yin Xian said, she was ready to refute.
"It's okay if you don't know, because I have nowhere to go."
Yin Xian didn't speak.
Wang Jiexiang stared at him, motioning for him to respond.
He replied: "Oh."
Only then did she agree to continue: "You don't know where to look for it, and you have to look for it; I have nowhere to go, and I may not necessarily come back... It would be embarrassing for me to come back by myself."
She glared at him, but he answered again: "OK."
Okay, Wang Jiexiang finally figured it out.
Encouraging Yin Xian to speak and stimulating Yin Xian to respond to achieve her goal, he would not accept it at all, it would be easier to express his needs.
Whatever she wanted to do, she just chased him and asked him to do it. Instead of asking "Can you tell me about the past", use the imperative sentence.
"I want to know about your past!"
If at this juncture, Yin Xian still doesn't understand the reason for her recent sadness, or the way she refused to talk in the past, Wang Jiexiang still wants to part this hand.
Fortunately, Yin Xian made a change.
"Which thing?"
He didn't reject her right away.
The truth is that truth, and Wang Jiexiang's awkwardness still lingers.
Ask her to ask one by one, and he answers one by one, which is not like a couple talking, like a talk show.
She puffed up her cheeks in boredom: "If I have to take the initiative to ask questions, you can't express yourself freely, can you tell me?"
Yin Xian propped his chin, deep in thought with a dignified expression.
Wang Jiexiang took it.
She still had a lunch box of beer duck legs in her hand.
Look out the window, it's late at night.
She waited and waited, all the senses of her body that were temporarily shut down came back: she was hungry, her feet hurt and she wanted to wash her feet, her legs were sore, her back was sweaty and sticky, she wanted to wash her face...
Otherwise, feel free to ask.
Wang Jiexiang scratched the back of her neck: "Let me tell you one thing today, and answer it honestly! Who is your first love?"
—Among his nonsense just now, who likes to drink carrot juice? Who loves milk-flavored ice cream? Yin Xian remembers the taste of his ex-girlfriend as hers, right
"First love..."
Yin Xian had a serious expression and said the man's name in a serious manner.
"Wang Jiexiang."
Seeing his serious face, Wang Jiexiang couldn't help frowning.
Unexpectedly, he would say her name, she burst out laughing, and the bitter and bitter face instantly thawed.
Yin Xian also laughed.
She stared at his smiling face for a moment.
Another name that came to her mind when he spoke suddenly appeared in her mind: He Shan.
Who is He Shan? Wang Jiexiang thought about it, but couldn't remember.
And very quickly, she forgot both the question and the name.
Handing over the lunch box to Yin Xian, Wang Jiexiang was really exhausted.
Time to put some final touches on their current relationship.
"Can I come back?" she asked.
He said, "You are the one who has to leave."
"Can I still be a couple with you?" she asked.
He said, "You are the one who wants to break up."
Wang Jiexiang withdrew all the strength in her body, and the bones were pulled out of her straight back.
True to its exhaustion, her final question was…
"Then eat?"
He said, "Okay."