Three and a half years ago.
Hospital building.
heavy rain.
In front of the ward.
The day before Yu Rongshi was recruited.
"Her condition has stabilized. Fortunately, she was just too frightened and drowned." The woman sitting next to him said, "Let me introduce myself again. This is not the first time we meet. I am Director Du's secretary. You can call me Qiu Yue."
She wore glasses, a ponytail, and a white windbreaker. She had an ordinary appearance.
"The department we belong to is responsible for handling abnormal incidents like yours." Her style was very cold, not as enthusiastic as the previous lobbyists, "Like this time."
Lower your head when expressing your feelings.
"I came too late." He bit his back teeth and said, "I should have come earlier. I didn't know that the 'male protagonist' who counterattacked in the end would be so crazy..."
The woman glanced at him and said nothing.
Time passed by minute by minute, and they were the only two people in the gray corridor. Finally, someone came out.
"She said she wanted to see you."
Yu Rongshi nodded and went in. The woman with glasses did not stop him. She watched him enter the ward through her glasses and lowered her head to continue looking at her phone.
Five minutes.
Ten minutes.
Twenty minutes.
…
Yu Rongshi saw the girl sitting on the bed in a daze.
There were bruises on her neck, which were left by the man before he died. When Yu Rongshi saw the bruises, she clenched her teeth tighter.
He still arrived too late.
He was hard on himself.
He was too slow to notice the story happening in this corner. It was too late to build trust, and the girl was too alert. It was too late to make up a story, so he could only tell her the truth in a hurry...
What he finally did was to skip his work, rush to the beach, and rescue her from the male protagonist...
"I assure you, that man will not stand a chance of escaping," he said.
"Yu Rongshi." He heard the girl's voice.
He repeated again: "You are Yu Rongshi."
"Um."
Yu Rongshi raised his eyes. Suddenly, he realized that the look in the eyes of the girl he rescued was not of relief or gratitude.
…
The hysterical shouting continued. The woman pulled Yu Rongshi out of the ward.
"… If I can't trust him, why do you think I can trust you?!"
"If he is playing with me, why can't I think that I have the same ability as him... In my opinion, you are a person with the same ability as him... You won't play with me?"
"You are all monsters, all the same monsters!"
"You're a monster too. Why are you telling me that without you, he wouldn't become... like that?"
…
"Sit down." The woman took him to sit next to the vending machine. "You want something to drink... Some people are meant to die."
Her voice was almost cold. Yu Rongshi suddenly raised his head to look at her.
The woman turned her back to him and spoke as if to herself, "Everyone has their own place in life. Whether it's the 'male protagonist', the supporting role, me, or you, it's the same."
"… "
"Or do you want to talk about philosophy? Then let's talk about philosophy. Do you think that if you eliminate these 'male protagonists', there will be no new 'male protagonists'? Even if there is no 'script' as you said, there are still people who deceive their superiors and bully the weak."
"In fact, everyone has a script in their mind. The person they like is the poor and persecuted 'female protagonist'. The opposite of the 'female protagonist', or even the supporting characters who are involved from the side, are the cannon fodder they want to arrange all the rumors and kill as soon as possible."
"What is your purpose in eliminating the 'male protagonist'? To save the world? But does the world need your salvation? Have you ever thought that it is everyone's instinct to instinctively seek the difference between the 'protagonist' and the 'supporting role' and to construct a thin script world in your mind. Everything you seek is anti-human."
"You can't understand why, can you? Because everyone seeks a simpler life. Simple, clean, without having to spend thirty seconds or a minute on everyone to understand them... So do you really think you're helping ordinary people, seeking justice for them? For example, right now -"
The woman took two cans of Coke from the vending machine. "In her eyes, you'd better be a villain. This will make her feel more comfortable. Don't argue with me. I know you are not a 'villain'."
"… I don't want to argue with you about anything about myself. You can understand me however you want." Yu Rongshi's voice was a little hoarse, "I went too late."
"It's not a matter of sooner or later." The woman said, "You want to gain their trust, but that's impossible. Because you are a superpower, you are not them. People who betray their own class cannot be understood and trusted by another class. Just like Chi Xu."
"Besides, if everyone is used to living in this world, then as the one who disrupts their lives, are you also just a disruptor who creates chaos?"
Yu Rong is silent.
"I thought you were here to recruit me as well," he said softly.
"In a sense, yes. Because we don't have members like you. Who are capable, not affected by the Heavenly Dao, and don't affect others much." She said.
"There are no 'members like me'?" Yu Rongshi said carefully, "Because they are unwilling to give up their own power, right?"
“… more than that,” the woman said.
It was raining heavily. The crying in the deep corridor gradually died down. Yu Rongshi said:
"… more than anything."
silence.
"What did those people say to you? Dedicating yourself to society and contributing to stability? An enforcer of justice? Or a compensator who feels guilty for not fulfilling the obligations that are as great as your ability?" The woman said slowly, "Find your own position and see what others think of you."
"… "
"I'm not going to tell you any of that high-sounding stuff," said the woman.
“… What are you going to say?” Yu Rongshi said.
He felt very tired. The sound of rain, wind, hysteria, and the name "Chi Xu" that kept being mentioned in his ears. All his talents that were emphasized seemed like a tight hoop that he shouldn't have, perfect, but every word seemed like someone was roaring about his debt to the world.
And he took it as if he deserved it.
But he didn't understand why he was so tired this time.
“Don’t you understand?” the woman said. “We are the department that handles abnormal incidents.”
The sound of wind.
"In our eyes, you are also a freak accident."
ACCIDENT.
Not people.
Thunder finally exploded.
Thunder exploded and lit up the whole sky. Yu Rongshi saw his own face in the shining glass.
Still handsome.
But tired and expressionless.
In the eyes of others, is there any difference between him and those "male protagonists"
At that moment, Yu Rongshi felt that all emotions were far away from him. He was no longer angry, tired, or moved. He seemed to be watching his younger self holding a racket, walking a long, long way home alone. The woman beside him put her hair back.
"Excuse me, but do you know my life?"
"Poverty, hardship, and toil were the background colors of my childhood and adolescence. I was not as lucky as you. I didn't have so much time to think about love, the world, or fate. There is a dilapidated dirt road near my home. If you shout there, there will never be any echo."
"This is our life, this is the world we see. So when those people sit in air-conditioned rooms and use theories, books, quotes from Camus or Dostoyevsky to explain their ideological frameworks and cite classics to understand my life, I don't feel anything."
"I just want to laugh."
"Yu Rongshi, you want a normal world, but where is a normal world? Everyone has already recognized and accepted the existence of the 'protagonists'. When it becomes a rule and is accepted by society, even if it is abnormal, it will not be abnormal. You think it is you who do not accept this abnormality, but in fact it is this society that does not accept you. Because abnormality has become a part of society. You are just being unique."
"…" Yu Rongshi said, "It has become a part of this society, right?"
He tilted his head back and let his bangs fall into his eyes.
"It's not the protagonist who's causing trouble, it's me who's causing trouble. Is that what you mean?"
"Yu Rongshi, I used to be your fan. You probably don't know what it felt like when I had the chance to buy a movie ticket with my own money for the first time and saw your face in the theater with others. You may also not know how those people on social media and in real life were inspired by your excellence." The woman said, "You will say that it's just talent. But you know better than anyone how much practice and effort you have put in to live up to that talent. Even in a world like this, talent alone is not enough to achieve success."
"If you don't do those things, you should have saved a lot of time. You don't need to snipe those 'protagonists', you can already live a happy and perfect life. Take care of your family, care about others, and make the world a better place... instead of causing trouble for others. In this case, why bring so many conflicts to the world?"
People cannot exist independently of the masses, just like fish cannot exist without water.
"If in their eyes, even you, who should be the happiest and most qualified to be satisfied with life, don't think so, then the world will be turned upside down. Your position, your help, your excellence and perfection will be the best inspiration to other people in this world. This is also your responsibility as a lucky person with these talents."
So this should be the responsibility
Couldn't it be some other responsibility
"Also, your brother Yu Qichen has applied internally to be transferred to our department."
"… "
After a long time, Yu Rongshi suddenly started laughing.
He laughed harder and harder, holding his face in his hands, his shoulders shaking. Finally, he put his hands down and whispered, "That sounds good."
"Um."
“Maybe it was supposed to be like this from the beginning.”
"Um."
“It seems like there is no other way that works.”
"Um."
"So am I still an 'anomaly' in their eyes?" he said.
“The only way to prevent them from seeing you as an abnormal accident is to become an ordinary person.” The woman said after a pause.
"Is this what ordinary people in this world look like?" Yu Rongshi said, "It's really troublesome. This world is ever-changing."
"… "
They were silent. The woman said, "Do you have anything else to say?"
"If you haven't tried a healthy lifestyle, how would you know that you don't like it?" Yu Rongshi said in a relaxed voice, "Please help me arrange a meeting with Director Du. I want to talk to him."
The woman said, "Okay, would you like a drink?"
She handed him the Coke.
"No Coke, let's have milk," Yu Rongshi said. "In this chaotic world, we need to stay healthy."
As he said this, he suddenly laughed again and took the Coke: "Forget it, throwing away the Coke is not environmentally friendly."
Drink the Coke.
Drink down your past madness and unwillingness.
Drink up the "greediness" in everyone's eyes.
Isn't it a common human nature that those who can adapt to this world perfectly choose to adapt to this world perfectly
Yu Rongshi was very calm. He thought he had been completely cured.
He loves this world.
…
"It's raining again." Yu Rongshi said.
"Have you been here before?" Lao Zhang said.
Not far away is the hospital where Yu Qichen was being treated.
“… a few years ago.” Yu Rongshi said.
This round of cooperation investigation was over, and Yu Rongshi was able to take a break.
What brought this period of time was a document.
A document found at the crash scene.
The scene of Yu Qichen’s car accident.
It was lucky. The car accident was serious, but the document placed on the passenger seat was intact. After hearing the news, Lao Zhang couldn't help but sigh that Yu Rongshi had indeed kept a backup plan.
If one way doesn't work, choose another. Over the years, Yu Rongshi has been collecting evidence related to Xie Ziyu's crimes. In the game of interests, one party will always stop temporarily.
It was just that Yu Rongshi was not allowed to leave the city during this period. After he came out of the police station, Lao Zhang also made things convenient for him and drove him to the hospital.
"I originally wanted to keep it a secret from you." Lao Zhang lit a cigarette, "You don't mind if I smoke, right?"
Yu Rongshi raised his eyelids and stared at the cigarette. Lao Zhang thought he would say he didn't mind. Just like he was always so decent.
"Give me one." Yu Rongshi said suddenly.
Lao Zhang gave him the remaining pack and the lighter.
"The opposite of a healthy lifestyle is an unhealthy lifestyle. I used to think so." Yu Rongshi put the cigarette in his mouth, frowned and lit it with a lighter.
"And now?"
“It feels so good.”
Yu Rongshi spat out a mouthful of nicotine.
He looked very good when he blew out the smoke, and his movements were very skillful, because he had acted in movies and TV dramas many times. As he parked the car, Lao Zhang asked, "How does it feel?"
Yu Rongshi was holding a cigarette and gazing at the building.
"I seem to be bringing tragedy to the world all the time," he said.
"Other people have brought more tragedies than you," said Lao Zhang.
"That's different." Yu Rongshi said, "That's different."
He was silent, and Lao Zhang continued, "Yu Qichen went out to see someone off at night. That person should have come to the hospital today."
Yu Rongshi looked out the window from afar. He saw a nanny car belonging to at parked there.
…
"Name?"
"Yi Wan."
"When was the last time you met him?"
"What was his condition when he left last? Did he eat anything?"
"Why do you meet at night?"
"What did you do after you met?"
…
"Thank you, thank you... It's okay, you guys have worked hard... You must be tired this morning after running all night..."
Zhang Jianhua handed the officer coffee. Yi Wan stood outside the window, looking inside.
The policewoman saw Yi Wan's back and thought he was worried about his friend. It was hard to comfort him now. She just said to Yi Wan: "The doctor will do his best."
"Where is the driver who caused the accident?"
"driver… "
Logically, she couldn't tell Yi Wan about this. The most common thing in an accident is the family members who grab the driver and make a scene because their relatives and friends are seriously injured. But Yi Wan's eyes were too dark, and there was no anger at all that a human being would have.
Or sad.
Intuition generated by association is one of the mechanisms that the human brain often uses for early warning and self-protection. At that moment, the policewoman suddenly remembered a case she had handled when she first joined the police force.
On a rainy night, in a dark office, when the antisocial killer was arrested, he looked up and met her eyes...
Yi Wan reminded her of an inhuman monster.
He brushed past her and walked away.
The driver's ward was deep in the corridor. Zhang Jianhua grabbed Yi Wan's arm from behind before he arrived at the commotion—he only had a moment to communicate with the police, and without keeping an eye on him, Yi Wan ran here.
"Yu Qichen's parents haven't come here to find them - before the trial, they can't be left with any excuse to shirk responsibility, especially since Yu Rongshi is still in a troubled time." He said quickly.
He meant it in a meaningful way, to prevent Yi Wan from acting on impulse.
"It's good that they didn't come. It saves a lot of trouble. I don't want to waste time watching that kind of quarrel." This was Yi Wan's reply.
Zhang Jianhua was stunned. He unconsciously loosened his hand and found that Yi Wan was completely different from what he thought.
The crowded ward was the curtain, the white bed was the prop, and the driver and several relatives and policemen around him were the actors.
“… I really didn’t do anything. The car lost control and went over there. It had nothing to do with us!”
The driver had a dark and rough skin. The woman next to him, with a weather-beaten face, cried and described her family situation: she had two daughters and a son, and the family depended on this trailer for food.
“…It’s also pitiful.” Zhang Jianhua said.
"Sister, brother-in-law, that Yu guy is an official. I heard them calling him director!" The young man next to him, who was wearing the same clothes, jumped up and grabbed his phone. "What good can come out of an official going out at night?"
"Since he is so rich, can we pay less? Are you guys helping him to bully us for money?"
“…” Zhang Jianhua was silent.
"This world is like this. Sometimes it is pitiful and simple, and sometimes it is greedy, prejudiced, and hideous." Yi Wan said, "Let's go."
He turned his eyes away from the family and said to himself, "I can't get anything out of them."
hot.
Hot and stuffy.
Since the afternoon, all the moisture in the sky has been brewing a heavy rain.
Yi Wan received a reply letter under the eaves.
He entered the eleven digits on the dial pad, put the phone to his ear, closed his eyes, put it down, and put it back to his ear.
When he finally made up his mind and pressed the dial button.
He saw the man across the corridor.
The man was wearing a black windbreaker, with his back to him, facing the gray sky outside the window. He held a cigarette between his fingers, the fire at the end of the cigarette flickering.
Noticing someone was watching him, he turned his head.
"… "
Yi Wan felt that there was something indescribably different about Yu Rongshi today.
Yu Rongshi raised his eyes and smiled.
"haven't seen you for a long time."
"… "
He shouldn't have smiled at him, Yi Wan thought.
"You can be out for a week. After a week, the questioning will continue." Yu Rongshi said, "The main reason is that Yu Qichen is in trouble. I came to take a look."
Pop.
The first thunder exploded in the distance.
Yi Wan slowly put the phone down from his ear. The phone, with the screen still on, fell down the middle of his trousers.
He pressed it down.
"Last night, Yu Qichen sent me home, and after he left..." he said.
"I know." Yu Rongshi said.
Yi Wan felt a little bit difficult to breathe. Yu Rongshi's next words were...
"Are you okay?"
"… It's okay." Yi Wan said, "I."
"That's good."
sorry.
Yi Wan suddenly felt it was ridiculous. He actually wanted to say sorry.
"Would you like a cigarette?" Yu Rongshi said.
He handed him the cigarette box. Yi Wan looked into Yu Rongshi's eyes. Yu Rongshi then raised his lowered eyes and looked at him.
Yi Wan took the cigarette.
Yi Wan doesn't know how to smoke. He lit a cigarette with a lighter and put it in his mouth and started choking. He coughed a few times and heard Yu Rongshi's voice: "If you don't know how to smoke, don't smoke."
Yi Wan: “Oh…”
He still had the cigarette butt in his mouth and looked up at Yu Rongshi. Yu Rongshi looked down at him for a while, then took the cigarette out of his mouth with two fingers.
"If members of a newly debuted group are photographed smoking in the hospital, it will make headlines," said Yu Rongshi.
Yu Rongshi was not angry.
Yi Wan said: "But won't your smoking make the headlines?"
"Why."
"You are a well-known good man in the entertainment industry, a perfect idol."
The kind that debuted for n years without any scandals... although there was one recently.
Yu Rongshi said: "I won't smoke one."
As he said that, he put Yi Wan's cigarette into his mouth as well: "Unless you smoke two."
Holding two cigarettes.
… it’s so cold.
Yi Wan kindly reminded: "I just smoked the cigarette you are smoking..."
Yu Rongshi took out one of the cigarettes. Yi Wan looked at him and was too lazy to remind him that he had taken the wrong cigarette.
"But is he really perfect?" Yu Rongshi said, "The most imperfect time for a person is when everyone says he is perfect. This means he is trying to please everyone. There is no price and no goal."
He smiled self-deprecatingly.
"Now that I think about it, I should have envied those male protagonists. They have their own destiny, but I have no goal - who on earth should I fight against? Maybe I was indeed abandoned by the heavens... But I don't care about that."
He took another drag on his cigarette.
“… I want to know what’s going on.”
His voice sent chills down one's spine.
"I went to your house yesterday." Yi Wan said, "Tian Dao chased me, and when I got to your house, Tian Dao disappeared. I met Yu Qichen. So I stayed at your house for a while, and something happened in the group in the middle of the night. So he sent me back."
He briefly described what happened last night and the strangeness of the car accident.
As for the document taken away by Yu Qichen.
Already as
"Natural disaster, huh?" Yu Rongshi smiled, "Another natural disaster."
Yi Wan shook his head: "I don't know."
He felt that Yu Rongshi was even more silent than he had imagined, so he waited quietly for him to speak. Finally, as the rain splashed against the glass window, Yu Rongshi finally spoke.
"I never thought such a natural disaster would happen to my family," he said.
Yes, Yi Wan thought.
This was also the reason why he had never thought of Yu Rongshi rebelling against fate before.
"Yu Qichen is a few years younger than me. Before he came along, I had no brothers or sisters," Yu Rongshi said. "Later, we often participated in the same activities. From musical instruments to model airplanes, it was actually very simple. Adults naturally liked to send their children to the same place to learn the same things."
“I always learn better than him.”
"It was not until later that I realized that I had caused him so much trouble. He said to me, 'I wish I didn't have a brother like you.'" Yu Rongshi said, "Later, we went on different tracks in life. Later..."
He shook his head and said, "Forget it. Yi Wan, you were at my house yesterday..."
"Yu Qichen saw the file you wrote for him, and also saw the painting inside. He was suspended from work these days, and has been running around for your affairs." Yi Wan said, "Yu Rongshi, he doesn't hate you. Even in a false destiny, there are real things."
Yu Rongshi was silent for a moment. He took a deep puff of his cigarette and said, "Thank you."
"Yeah." Yi Wan said.
Yi Wan's response was indifferent. But Yu Rongshi could see that there seemed to be a hint of smile in his eyes. His mouth suddenly moved.
"What about you?" he said.
"Huh?" Yi Wan was puzzled.
"For you, what real things are left in your destiny...are they still there?" Yu Rongshi said.
Yi Wan finally said: "I don't care..."
He opened his eyes.
Because of a hug.
He was held in the other's arms, and his cheek brushed against the other's ear. Yi Wan suddenly remembered that they first met after a variety show, and it was also a rainy day like this.
A bit stuffy.
And it's very powerful.
After a long time, Yu Rongshi heard Yi Wan's muffled voice.
"There is no thread in the sky this time," the voice said. "This is nothing."
“…I can’t help myself.” Yu Rongshi felt a little embarrassed.
He remembered that his brother was still lying in the ICU, and he had just been released from police station... But Yi Wan seemed to be a little thinner than he had imagined.
When hugging, the hands should be placed at the waist, which is quite slender. Uh... does this count as their first hug
Yu Rongshi didn't have such a boundless love, so he was a little nervous.
Come to think of it, Yi Wan didn't seem to resist.
"Is it the kind of feeling you can't help but have when you hug a stray cat on the street, Teacher Yu?" Yi Wan added, "If so, I will push you away."
"No." Yu Rongshi said, "I don't hug stray cats on the street."
Yi Wan stopped struggling.
After a while, Yi Wan said sullenly, "How long are you going to hold me?"
Yu Rongshi: "Uh, does it feel weird?"
Yi Wan: “Not knowing the exact end time makes me nervous.”
Yu Rongshi said: "Are you nervous? Do you think we hugged each other well?"
So unromantic
This sentence sounds a bit weird.
Yi Wan was silent again.
"Your face is so hot..." Yi Wan said.
"Um, excuse me, can I bother you for a moment?" Zhang Jianhua's voice came from behind.
Yu Rongshi then let go of his hand. Yi Wan nimbly got out from beside him, with a blank expression on her face.
Zhang Jianhua: "I'm really a little embarrassed. But there is something that needs to be dealt with in the company, and Yi Wan really has to leave now."
Yi Wan looked up at Yu Rongshi. Yu Rongshi smiled and said, "See you later."
"See you later."
Yi Wan followed Zhang Jianhua and walked quickly through the corridor. Seeing that there was no one around, Zhang Jianhua whispered to him, "You'd better stay away from him for the time being. I know you have a good personal relationship, but he has been uneasy lately."
"I know." Yi Wan said.
He looked down at his phone. There were already three more text messages on his phone.
"What do you want to ask?"
"how."
"If you want to ask me anything, come to the Children's Palace at 7pm."
Among the three messages, Yi Wan read out two words: "Anxious".
Zhang Jianhua was still whispering. Yi Wan then said, "It's okay, I have to go out tonight..."
Zhang Jianhua: "Who are you going to find?"
Yi Wan: "It's not Yu Rongshi, it's Xie Ziyu."
Zhang Jianhua: "This is even worse, okay."
…
Yu Rongshi looked at the backs of Yi Wan and Zhang Jianhua until they disappeared into the depths of the corridor.
Lao Zhang: “Shall we go?”
Finally, he replied to Lao Zhang's text message.
He knew that Yi Wan was trying to change the subject. He knew that he might be lying.
But he still wanted to hug him. !