“… Ok, ok, thank you, thank you. I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve it. Haha.”
Chi Jixia spent half an hour to finally deal with the group of directors and producers. Among them, the usually serious producer Zhou looked him up and down, which made Chi Jixia's scalp numb. In the end, he actually touched his head lovingly: "You have grown up, Xiaoxia. Not bad, you are a handsome guy now."
That’s right, the last time Producer Zhou saw him, he was only 12 years old.
The old men's reactions made Chi Jixia feel a little warm.
As everyone knows, Chi Jixia has lived under the shadow of his mother's dream of becoming a star since he was a child. His mother lives in seclusion, and he has no friends of his age, no relatives, and no elders. From childhood to adulthood, the people he interacted with the most were the people in the crew.
My mother once said that to be the best actor, one must not make any mistakes. The entertainment industry is a very deep place, and one wrong step could lead to falling into the abyss. Rolling your eyes at someone could affect the opportunities you should have gotten in the future. Not to mention fighting back against those arrogant and domineering big names - who dares to act wild these days without a backstage? It's not easy to become a saintly actor and leave a name in film history.
Chi Jixia believed this. So he developed the skill of speaking to people in a different way since he was a child. He didn't have many friends, so he could only try to figure out the behavior of the "high EQ" characters in the movies to please everyone. Every director has different preferences. Some like lively children, and think silent children are dull and unspirited; some like well-behaved children, and think lively and impetuous children can't calm down.
All directors must be pleased, this is the death order from mother Chi Qiu.
Thinking of this, Chi Jixia glanced at Director Ye.
Director Ye had aged a lot compared to ten years ago. His originally serious face had been pulled into a kind look by age. Every wrinkle was embedded with traces of time, and even the hair on his head was almost completely white - this look made Chi Jixia a little sad.
Even though he still remembered a lot of things between himself and Director Ye.
At that time, he had just received the Golden Finger Award, and was praised by Director Ye during the audition. All the crew members treated him like a star, so he thought that everything would be fine if he had good acting skills. Otherwise, why would there be the term "being arrogant because of one's talent"? Isn't this society based on strength
At that time, he didn't talk to the system that often. Since every performance was done in one take, and Chi Jixia was young, he had a stronger desire to express himself than anyone else, so he would call everyone in the crew sister and brother every day, and chat with everyone. Actually, looking back now, he didn't do anything out of the ordinary, didn't play pranks, didn't bully people, it was just what a child would do.
Later, Chi Qiu came to the crew to pick up Chi Jixia, and Director Ye had a chat with Chi Qiu.
Then came the things that happened repeatedly in Chi Jixia's life. Chi Qiu took Chi Jixia back home with a cold face, without looking back or speaking. It was a cold violence as dark as the abyss with no visible boundaries. Chi Jixia was scared, and he cried loudly in his room - until now, Chi Jixia still didn't understand why he was crying loudly in his room, which should make every child feel "safe". Obviously, his mother didn't scold him or beat him.
Maybe it was because he wanted a response, or maybe it was because he was too lonely and too scared. Since the surroundings were so quiet, a little more of his own voice, even crying, would make it more lively.
The crew had a holiday for the National Day. Four days later, I went to the crew again and picked him up again. This time, Chi Jixia was silent in the crew. Director Ye talked to Chi Qiu who came to pick him up. On the way back, Chi Qiu was still quiet, and Chi Jixia didn't even cry. He knew crying was useless.
He cried in his room until his voice became hoarse, but his mother would not pay any attention to him.
At the dinner table, Chi Qiu finally spoke. She looked at Chi Jixia who was eating her nutritious meal obediently and said softly, "Chi Jixia, why are you always naughty or rebellious? Can't you understand something?"
This was a scolding, but Chi Jixia was relieved. He could no longer hear the slight "hum" of the microwave at home. As long as Chi Qiu opened his mouth, the war would be over for the time being.
But he understood one thing, at an age that belongs to children rather than adults: many people will say that they like lively and cute children, but they do not like “lively and cute” children.
Many people would say that they like the sound of their children chattering, but they do not like their children’s chattering.
They just like their children to be lively when they want and say whatever "chirps" they want.
If it were a normal child, they would have collapsed under this kind of pressure. But Chi Jixia was very open-minded. After two cold violence incidents, he learned to talk to the system, secretly, so that he would not be too scared, and his mother would not find out that he was not "reflecting". The system was very cramped at first, and no one taught it what to talk to its child host. But soon they all learned to adapt to each other.
Chi Jixia no longer told people in the real world what he wanted to say. He was luckier than other children who had the same experience, because he had a golden finger simulator. He could simulate the appearance of anyone he liked.
Since you can "perfectly pass" in interpersonal relationships by substituting the right person with the cheat code, why spend time figuring out what "you" are like
But thinking of Chi Xu... Chi Jixia's heart suddenly moved.
It is difficult for people to have feelings for someone they can never remember. He knew that he had a brother, and knew his brother's heroic deeds. What did it matter? Chi Jixia still couldn't have too many feelings for all that vagueness. But at this empty moment, he wondered, in some time and space that he couldn't remember, in addition to the system, he had also confided in Chi Xu
Chi Xu must be very gentle. He is willing to sacrifice his life for the innocence of a girl he has never met. He will be just as gentle to his brother.
Then besides the system... he will also have another relative.
Chi Jixia didn't know that the system was dark at this moment.
"Are you in that boy band or something now? Singing and dancing? What a pity, you are so talented..." Producer Zhou sighed again, "Besides that, are you acting in some idol dramas for little girls and boys? I saw a clip before. Jixia, your acting skills haven't deteriorated. Why don't you act in something better?"
He and the other old people were all concerned. Chi Jixia felt a little guilty and said, "I... let's wait a little longer."
He was a little touched, but also a little guilty. After so many years, these old men still treated him as a child who grew up under their care. Since Chi Qiu's accident, he has never played a serious role again, and has never contacted them again - from trying to please others with all kinds of character settings to completely giving up, sleeping all day and ignoring people, there was only a superficial failure of a movie and an accident in the inner world where his mother was admitted to a mental hospital.
But they talked about his recent situation in great detail and were obviously still paying attention to his growth.
Besides, he felt a little guilty - after all, he relied on the golden finger. He relied on the golden finger to act, and he also relied on the golden finger to simulate emotional intelligence when interacting with them. Don't you see that his four current teammates all think he is a bad mouth. So this worry was so heavy that he couldn't accept it.
So instead of talking to the old men, Chi Jixia would rather stay with her teammates. Even if it was Yi Wan who always had bad words to say, or Ding Biehan... Speaking of which, where did this girl go? You can't eat weird things at the banquet...
Chi Jixia looked around. The old men went to chat with each other. He came to his senses and wanted to leave, but he heard Director Ye say, "Hey, Jixia."
Why hasn't Director Ye left yet? Chi Jixia put on a business smile again: "Thank you Uncle Ye for giving me this opportunity."
Apart from the initial "unpleasantness" between him and Director Ye, the subsequent cooperations were all "perfect answers". This is why Chi Jixia was confident enough to ask Director Ye for this opportunity - you can see that the protagonists of other novels with golden fingers are all domineering and they only need to make a phone call to ask for any major role. He only asked Director Ye for a minor supporting role, which was already very considerate.
Director Ye did not smile, but took him to the balcony. The moon was bright and the stars were sparse on the balcony. It seemed that Yi Wan and...
Qin Xuexin is standing there?
Chi Jixia wanted to stretch his neck to see again. He asked the system: "What do you think Director Ye wants to say?"
The system thought for a moment and said, "Maybe it's asking you to act well."
Chi Jixia felt that the system was right.
When he came to his senses, he realized that he had been absent-minded. Director Ye would definitely be angry... As soon as he thought of this, the system immediately said, "I will immediately retrieve the personality data of the juniors for Director Ye."
Chi Jixia and the system really have a tacit understanding. Many times he feels that it is the system that raises him, not Chi Qiu.
Moreover, the tacit cooperation of the system made Chi Jixia feel that the past years between him and the system had returned. It was as if the rift behind Lushan Sanatorium had disappeared. Chi Jixia was very happy and immediately entered the first level combat readiness state.
He immersed himself in the movie personality data of that junior, lowered his head, humble and gentle, frowned just right, and was ready to perform... But Director Ye said, "You have a good relationship with your friends in that boy band, right?"
Chi Jixia was stunned.
This was not something the system's database could have foreseen. He paused for a moment and whispered, "It's OK..."
Director Ye smiled.
"That's great. You seem to be in much better condition and in a better mood, right? It's really fun to make new friends," he said.
Under the moonlight, Director Ye didn't look like a silhouette of a character that could be conquered by the male protagonist of the Golden Finger. His hair was gray and his eyebrows were sparse. He looked like a messy and unrefined old man. Chi Jixia couldn't even notice what Yi Wan was doing. He said in a low voice, "It's okay..."
Can Yi Wan and the others be considered my friends
On normal days, Chi Jixia would definitely say something mean, and Yi Wan would have to say yes even if he didn't say yes - he helped him survive in the wilderness for free, and got his help in acting, and based on these two favors, Yi Wan would have to admit that he was his good friend - and he must have said this to tease Yi Wan. After all, he always got humiliated, and he had never seen Yi Wan change his expression. Every time Chi Jixia thought about this, he felt uncomfortable.
But this time Chi Jixia couldn't give a definition.
What are friends? Sharing happiness, sharing worries, sharing pains... Thinking about it this way, the whole group is quite abnormal.
An Yelin, who usually crosses his arms and wears earrings all day long, looks like a proud and arrogant little genius, but has a chaotic life that no one can compare to. He is still involved in the gossips of the rich family. Moreover, when he mentioned Mr. Fu, he became mentally abnormal and cried like a reincarnated Qiong Yao heroine. Even now, An Yelin is not very normal. He is chased and surrounded by domineering CEOs all day long... But he looks more lonely than anyone else. He doesn't have any friends either.
Bo Jiang, who looks cold or gentle in the eyes of outsiders, is actually surrounded by depression and melancholy all day long, like Lin Daiyu who learned that Baoyu is about to marry Baochai. Moreover, in this information age, Bo Jiang can't even use a vending machine, let alone navigation software, food delivery software, etc. Bo Jiang is also very lonely, and is cynical to the point that she can't be considered cynical every day. She speaks in a bland tone all day long, expressing that "there is nothing good in this era."
… So it’s only natural that I don’t need to learn how to use software or vending machines, right
Needless to say, Ding Biehan was also very lonely, and even a girl dressed as a man. Sometimes Chi Jixia thought that if Ding Biehan had any friends in this world, it would probably be a talking smart toilet.
It seems that the only normal person among them is Yi Wan - although Yi Wan is a little autistic, he is also the one who cares the most about the four of them. He patiently queues up for An Yelin's CEO style, helps Bo Jiang get drinks from the vending machine, and explains to Ding Biehan every time that he has gone to the toilet, and also helps him resolve the knot between himself and his mother.
Even when salaries are paid every month, Yi Wan is the only one who uses a calculator to calculate the tax rate.
But Yi Wan was also very strange in the eyes of others. He was silent, quiet and withdrawn, and would lie down wherever he could without working... It was normal for a person like him to enter the entertainment industry and not have any friends.
From this perspective, their group looks like five completely unwelcome monsters gathered together for warmth.
"… It's OK." Chi Jixia said again, "All four of them are pretty good."
Everything is fine. If anyone else said this, they would be so embarrassed that they would not be able to speak up even if their conscience was eaten by a dog.
Director Ye smiled again. Facing the wind and the moon, he said, "Actually, when you called me and said you wanted to play this role, I was very happy. Because this is probably the last film I will shoot."
Chi Jixia sensed something was wrong: "Huh?"
Director Ye said lightly: "I was diagnosed with cancer last year."
Chi Jixia: “Ah!”
"It wasn't the most serious stage, so I had to cut it off. But my health is not good, so I have to rest well. So this is the last one." Director Ye said, "I first helped people hold the camera when I was 15 years old. So far, Ye Youliang's works have won three Golden Crane Awards and dozens of film festival awards. I have been in the entertainment industry for a long time, and I have done my best for the TV station, the predecessors who supported me, and all the people I have worked with."
Chi Jixia's eyes were filled with tears. Director Ye was clearly counting the awards he had won, which was what he had wanted to get since he had linked the system. But he felt that his feeling of being touched did not come from those awards, but from the look on Director Ye's face when he said those words.
So proud, so proud but indifferent... Just like my life is really great and fulfilling, filled by the career I love and my own efforts. I don't regret wasting my time, but spend every day of my life fighting for the art I love!
"That's great." He lowered his head and said something that was totally out of context, "Uncle Ye, it's perfect."
Director Ye smiled, and the wrinkles around his eyes relaxed a little. He said, "I was very worried about you in the past few years..."
Chi Jixia said: "I will definitely act very well this time."
He said this sincerely. This was Director Ye's last work, and Director Ye must have high hopes for it. In this case, he couldn't let Director Ye down.
The most foolproof way is to use the cheat code...right
Goldfinger...
The simulated sound of jumping off the building and the screams flashed through Chi Jixia's mind. In a trance, he saw Xie Ziyu's smug and indifferent face again. Xie Ziyu's golden finger did not bring any good changes to the world. Chi Xu died, Chi Qiu went crazy. And what about Chi Jixia's own golden finger for acting? In the end, he brought only misfortune to his family.
Chi Jixia felt his scalp tingling and he wanted to vomit. But he controlled himself. He had to fulfill Director Ye's wish.
"Don't worry." Chi Jixia said with a smile, "You know me, I will definitely perform well for you..."
"I'm not looking for you for your acting skills." Director Ye interrupted him. He sighed softly at Chi Jixia's stunned expression and said, "... Xiaochi, are you happy acting?"
“…” Chi Jixia was unable to answer.
"… I always feel like I did something wrong. But I can't figure out why. Over the years, I've thought about it again and again." The old man said softly, "You know I value talent. From the first time I saw you, I felt that this kid would have a lot of success when he grows up, and would definitely become a very good actor! Later, when I asked you to film our first movie, I was under a lot of pressure... The investor's capital chain had problems, and they wanted the funds to come back as soon as possible. The original eight-month project was required to be completed within four months! I couldn't sleep or eat every day..."
"… "
"Now that I think about it, it's okay for children to be a little naughty. Isn't the first lesson for us actors to liberate our nature? But at that time, the pressure was too great..." The old man's eyes drifted a little. It was really strange that a sixty-year-old man didn't dare to look directly into the eyes of a twenty-year-old young man. "I told Chi Qiu that the crew is under great pressure to make progress and needs to improve efficiency. I hope she can discuss this with you."
Chi Jixia's eyes were not hot. He just felt as if there was an empty place in his heart. At this moment, there was wind blowing. But since there was nothing there, the wind could not blow any echo.
"… When I came back later, I saw that you had changed. You were not so talkative and you didn't smile anymore. In fact, you did smile, but it wasn't the happy smile you had before." The old man sighed, "I was too busy at that time… But then I thought, which stage of life is not busy? Busy with filming, will you stop being busy after filming this scene? Promotion, taking on new dramas, discussing scripts, going out to socialize, which period of time is not busy? You are just using being busy as an excuse for your bad mood. And no matter how busy an adult is, can't they allow a child some time to laugh? And sensible, an adult himself can't control his emotions and be sensible, he brought a child into the adult world, and asked him to act like a child in the adult world... How can you ask a child of that age to be as sensible as an adult? It is the adult who brought him into that precocious world who is obviously sensible."
“I always want to be busy and it will be fine, but I can never say it out loud…”
I know because I was a child at that time. How can an adult apologize to a child
Chi Jixia was silent for a while. He really didn't know how to answer. The old man didn't speak for a long time, as if his emotions were out of control. The system was a little anxious, so it reminded Chi Jixia: "We will still need to cooperate later. You can tell him that you forgive him..."
Chi Jixia then said: "I don't care, because everyone has their own hard times."
This didn't sound like the "forgiveness" the system said. Chi Jixia noticed that her response was out of control.
"That's different, because you should be a genius. Every genius has his own nature!" The old man suddenly retorted fiercely, "Why do different people play the same role differently? Because geniuses have their own interpretations. People don't want to see the role, but the hidden nature of the role that has been excavated by geniuses! Even the character himself cannot fully understand what kind of person he is. Later, I kept thinking, did I ruin you..."
Chi Jixia: “…”
The director in front of me is old. He is no longer as vigorous as he used to be. He is old, tired and fragile, looking like an old man who loves his grandchildren. The old man leaned on the balcony and expressed his regret to a young man impatiently.
Why did he remember it for so long? Was it because of his acting skills? Was it because of his movies? After so many years, for such a small thing, this old man seemed to be living in a shackle of nothingness.
Is it because you think Chi Jixia is a genius who was ruined by him
"I'm actually a very bad actor..." Chi Jixia's eyes were filled with tears, "Those acting skills..."
He heard the system alarm.
The existence of the system must not be disclosed to the outside world - this is the bottom line. When Chi Jixia was a child, he once let the secret slip to his peers and was almost killed on the spot.
That time I was just showing off - so what if you guys are jealous of me and exclude me in the crew? I have something good that none of you have!
But this time he finished the second half of the sentence amid the alarm: "They are all fake. I don't have anything that good."
After saying this, Chi Jixia felt relieved.
Director Ye said, "I've seen the last movie you acted in. That director and I are good friends. After that movie, you never acted again."
Chi Jixia's ears were warmed. He knew clearly what he looked like without the golden finger, not to mention the performances when he had a breakdown due to Chi Qiu's illness, and felt ashamed. But Director Ye said the next sentence: "I watched the original film without editing. There were a few clips that I thought were very well acted... You are trying hard to figure out the role, right?"
Chi Jixia: …
"This is the only regret I have in my life." Director Ye said, "I really hope you can be happy acting, Xiaoxia."
"It's difficult." said Chi Jixia.
The alarm in my head stopped.
Director Ye smiled deeply. He squeezed Chi Jixia's shoulder with his hand, very hard: "As long as you are happy acting, it's fine, really. Besides, I have already identified you as a genius since I saw you when you were 7 years old."
Chi Jixia was the only one left on the terrace. He stared blankly at the sky, and suddenly a strange thought flashed through his mind.
He first obtained the system when he was 8 years old.
But Director Ye said that when he was 7 years old, he felt that he would be an acting genius.
What a lousy chicken soup.
"… What a rotten chicken soup, system." He said softly.
But all I could hear was the crackling sound of electricity. After the alarm, the system unexpectedly went silent.
Chi Jixia suddenly felt a little panicked, but the sound from the balcony next door diverted his attention.
"… what are you doing here."
A very disgusted tone.
It’s Xie Ziyu.
I got a big melon?
Chi Jixia turned around in amazement to listen to the gossip. He saw that beside Yi Wan was no longer Qin Xuexin, but Xie Ziyu in a baseball cap. Standing on the terrace below Yi Wan was…
Chi Jixia: When is the metaphor used?
Isn't this his childhood idol
Facing Xie Ziyu's aggressiveness, Yu Rongshi seemed very friendly - so friendly that it was hard to imagine that his cousin had just been turned into a vegetable because of Xie Ziyu. The young man, as handsome as ink, smiled and said, "Come here to work. Several employees of your company were guests in my variety show, don't you remember?"
It seems like he is really a little confused.
Xie Ziyu's face turned ugly. His eyes crossed between Yi Wan and Yu Rongshi, and suddenly he sneered and said, "Yi Wan, is this the new friend you are talking about?"
Yi Wan remained silent. Yu Rongshi said, "Obviously, it seems that Yi Wan thinks that we are more compatible."
Xie Ziyu said: "It's normal for trash to have similar tastes."
Yu Rongshi blinked, and finally, a slow smile appeared on her pretty face: "Xie Ziyu, are you crazy because of loneliness? That's why you are so sensitive about other people having normal social relationships?"
It was just a simple sentence. Outsiders like Chi Jixia couldn't even find out where Xie Ziyu's defense was broken. But he was surprised to find that Xie Ziyu's defense was broken like crazy.
This is so weird.
In the years before Xie Ziyu got into trouble, he was like a "god" in the entertainment industry.
Whatever he plays becomes popular; whatever he sings becomes a big hit. No one wants to offend Xie Ziyu, because everyone admires him. Even after the news of him bullying girls came out, some people even said that with Xie Ziyu's charm, he didn't need to do such a mean thing to abuse people. As long as he is willing to make a move, people will throw themselves into his arms one after another.
Such a person was actually broken down by such a simple sentence.
Xie Ziyu said: "You think highly of yourself, don't you? You are a piece of trash that has never caught the eye of Heaven."
Yu Rongshi was very calm: "What a coincidence, Yi Wan and I have never seen you in our eyes."
Chi Jixia saw Xie Ziyu's eyes moving back and forth between the two of them. Finally, Xie Ziyu sneered and said "OK", "OK".
Xie Ziyu finally turned to Yi Wan and said, "You will regret this. He is much scarier than you think. You'd better be more wary of him."
Yi Wan: “Oh.”
He just replied "Oh".
Yu Rongshi: "Walk slowly, you don't want to be photographed by paparazzi on the road and look frustrated, right?"
Xie Ziyu sneered three times and walked out to the balcony. Chi Jixia quickly hid herself behind the wall... and then saw Ding Biehan hiding behind the curtains on the other side.
… How many people are hiding and eavesdropping on this balcony? !
Yi Wan leaned against the window with his head down, and it seemed that he had a few more words to say to Yu Rongshi. Chi Jixia only vaguely heard a few words from Yi Wan: "He seems very angry."
Yu Rongshi: "I am also very angry. He actually dared to come to you."
Yi Wan: “Oh.”
Yu Rongshi: "Why are you blinking... Did you eat enough at the banquet?"
Yi Wan: “No.”
… and said “No” in a cold and clear voice.
Yu Rongshi: "Come down later and I'll take you out for dinner. It's not convenient for me to go to the party upstairs."
Yi Wan: “Okay.”
…I can’t listen to it anymore.
Chi Jixia turned around and tried to sneak down from the balcony. These two men were really unbearable to watch. But when did Yi Wan and Yu Rongshi become so close
He was obviously the one who came first!
Chi Jixia was a little unhappy again. He felt that he was already very tolerant. It was fine that Yi Wan had a good relationship with other people in the team, because they were all in the team. But Yi Wan had such a good relationship with people outside the team... What happened to the agreement that all the members of the Rainbow Group were lonely monsters?
He was complaining in his heart, his sentimental mood had temporarily disappeared, and he was thinking of finding Ding Biehan to go and say a few bad things about Yi Wan...
When I looked up, I saw someone.
Thanks to Ziyu.
Xie Ziyu stood in the corner and looked at him. He didn't know when he came over, and his steps were silent. Although he didn't do anything, Chi Jixia felt creepy.
Especially when those empty eyes looked at him.
Xie Ziyu's eyes were dark and empty - empty like a bottomless hole. This kind of emptiness was different from Yi Wan's slightly blank and dull look.
It gives people a feeling of suddenly falling into a depth where the bottom is invisible.
"… Is there anything?" Chi Jixia calmed down and raised his eyebrows cynically.
When it comes to people outside the team, Chi Jixia never gives up the opportunity to show off.
"... Very angry, right?" Xie Ziyu suddenly said.
"angry?"
"...very angry, feeling ignored, feeling betrayed. How much have you done for him beyond the scope of your job duties? Will anyone else do this for him? No. But what did he give you in return..." Xie Ziyu whispered, "Do you know why Descartes died? He gave everything for the princess, and in the end..."
"He died of betrayal. If you want to talk, come find me."
"What nonsense are you talking about?" Chi Jixia was puzzled and a little dumbfounded, "I don't have such deep feelings for Yi Wan..."
But Xie Ziyu just looked at him deeply, as if he had seen something particularly funny, waved goodbye and left.
Sizzle.
Sizzle. Sizzle.
In the deep corner of Chi Jixia's brain where she couldn't hear.
There is always a flashing sound.