Jian Yan has been feeling uneasy ever since she received Su Ziqi's call.
"Yan Yan, the date is set. It's the day after tomorrow at 3pm. I will arrange an operation for you. You will need to rest for a week after the operation. I have already thought of a reason. I will inform the show and the crew."
Su Ziqi had arranged everything. She didn't need to worry about anything, all she had to do was show up. But she - Jian Yan was sitting in the shed. She lowered her head and touched her belly. She hadn't felt the presence of the baby, hadn't felt her heartbeat, hadn't felt the fetal movement, she hadn't felt anything, and yet she was about to lose her.
Her eyes turned red again, spreading around the corners of her eyes little by little. She blinked, and tears appeared in her eyes. Jian Yan placed her right hand on her lower abdomen and rubbed it gently, saying sorry a thousand times in her heart.
I'm sorry, baby. It's mom's fault. I'm not qualified to be your mother.
She will never be qualified to be a mother again.
She doesn't deserve it.
Jian Yan's thoughts became more and more extreme. She took a deep breath and gradually regained her composure. People around her came and went. The curtain was lifted and Director Gu's assistant shouted, "Get ready for the next scene."
"Do you want to feed me some milk first? I'm afraid you'll cry if you get hungry later."
"See if you need a diaper change."
Several artists in the shed were busy circling around the child. The child's mother changed the child into a red blanket and checked it inside and out before saying, "That's it, that's it."
Several people walked out of the shed one after another. Jian Yan was in a daze for a few seconds, then stood up and followed them out.
The scene with the child was not easy to shoot. After all, unlike adults, she cries unpredictably. She cries before the time comes, or she doesn’t cry when the time comes. Director Gu shot it four times and sighed, “It was too difficult to shoot.”
Jian Yan followed behind everyone and watched the child being held in the assistant's arms and teased: "Little ancestor, it's up to you."
The child seemed to understand what she said and suddenly grinned, her round eyes curved into a slit, looking endearing and cute. Jian Yan's heart softened when she saw her smiling face, and she subconsciously placed her hand on her lower abdomen.
"Prepare for the next one!"
Director Gu called out, and everyone else stood up and prepared. In the room, Gu Kexin was walking back and forth in a long gown, and the man following her also looked anxious.
"Brother, don't worry, sister-in-law will be fine."
As soon as he finished speaking, a loud cry came from the room. Director Gu smiled and said, "OK! Next scene!"
Finally it was over, and several people breathed a sigh of relief at the same time. The next scene was the one with the children, so they went to work on it again. Jian Yan took a few glances, said hello to Director Gu's assistant, and went back to the hotel first.
When she left, a man followed her. He was wearing a black down jacket with a hood and kept his head down. When she got on the elevator, the man glanced in Jian Yan's direction and slipped into the corridor next to her.
After Jian Yan returned to her room, she didn't expect to meet someone at the door. Ji Yunxin was still wearing a professional light gray suit. She was tall and the tight suit made her figure look slender, with narrow shoulders and a thin waist. The pair of legs hidden in the suit pants were long and straight. She had her back to Jian Yan, with her hands on her chest, as if she was deep in thought.
"Boss Ji?" Jian Yan asked, "Why are you here?"
Ji Yunxin turned around when she heard a voice behind her. She put down her hands and looked at Jian Yan gently. After a long pause, she said, "You're back."
Jian Yan lowered her eyes: "Looking for me? Why didn't you tell me when you came?"
Ji Yunxin's voice was gentle: "I want to try what it feels like to wait for someone."
Jian Yan felt a lump in her throat. She didn't say anything, but swiped her card to open the door and went in. After entering the door, she turned around and asked, "What do you want from me?"
Ji Yunxin took a step forward: "Let's go in and talk?"
During the day, the crew was in the film and television city, and there was no one at the hotel. Jian Yan looked at the empty corridor and nodded: "Come in."
Ji Yunxin followed Jian Yan in. After Jian Yan entered the room, she took off her heavy down jacket. She was wearing a light blue sweater and jeans. The loose-fitting, slightly large clothes made Jian Yan look delicate and charming. Ji Yunxin's eyes fell on Jian Yan's still invisible belly. Jian Yan said, "What would you like to drink?"
"Sit down."
Ji Yunxin sat on the sofa and said, "No, don't be busy."
Jian Yan turned around and paused for a moment, then walked into the kitchen. She poured out two cups of warm water and handed one to Ji Yunxin: "What do you want to talk to me about, Mr. Ji?"
She asked straight to the point, and Ji Yunxin's lips moved: "I have something to tell you."
Jian Yan took a sip of warm water: "You say."
Ji Yunxin put down the cup, put his hands on his knees, and thought for a few seconds before saying, "Yan Yan, did you open the gift I gave you that day?"
Jian Yan didn't expect her to suddenly ask this. What gift did you give her that day? Jian Yan thought about it. It seemed that she was too excited that day because she knew she was pregnant. She forgot about the gift. She shook her head: "No, what's wrong?"
Ji Yunxin slowly crossed her hands. She looked calm, but her ears were slightly red. She asked, "Do you still remember the first gift you gave me?"
Your first gift for her
Jian Yan thought of the first gift she gave to Ji Yunxin, which was a fountain pen. At that time, she had not yet completely gotten over the grief of her parents' death, and she often sat on the bay window for the entire day. She still remembered that Ji Yunxin would come to her room every night to study and accompany her. She would sit at the desk with a desk lamp on. The room was quiet, with only the rustling sound of the pen tip rubbing against the paper. She would just lie on her knees and tilt her head to look at Ji Yunxin who was writing.
She looks so pretty when she studies hard, her writing posture is also pretty, everything about her is pretty.
It's a delight to the eyes.
Then Ji Yunxin frowned while writing and looked at her. She didn't say anything at that time. She heard Ji Yunxin apologize and said, "I'll go out for a while and change the pen."
She came back in just a few minutes and continued to do her homework, but her words were engraved in her heart. The first time she went out from Ji's house was to buy a pen for Ji Yunxin.
Jian Yan came back to her senses from her memory and nodded: "I remember, what's wrong?"
Ji Yunxin said: "I gave you a pen that day."
Jian Yan frowned: "Why did you give me a pen?"
Ji Yunxin looked calm. Although she had repeated these words in her mind many times, she still stumbled when she spoke them out loud: "Yan Yan, I want to give you everything you gave me."
Jian Yan's frown deepened: "Give it to me? Do you mean return it to me? You have already returned everything to me. I don't want the things before."
Ji Yunxin opened his mouth and said, "That's not what I meant."
Jian Yan looked at her: "What do you mean?"
Ji Yunxin slowly clasped his hands together and said, "What I mean is, I will buy you the same gifts you bought, go to the places you've been to, walk the paths you've walked, do the things you've done, and like someone like you."
"Yan Yan, didn't you ask me the other day why I let Dad join the company after the New Year? I can answer you now, because I need time to do something."
Jian Yan turned around: "What's the matter?"
Ji Yunxin shook his hand: "I want to pursue you."
Jian Yan's brain suddenly went dark, as if the power went out. After a few seconds, she blinked and said, "You want to chase me?"
Ji Yunxin nodded: "Yes, I want to pursue you."
It didn't seem so difficult to say it anymore. The words that were buried in my heart could now be said fluently. Ji Yunxin continued: "Actually, I..."
Jian Yan interrupted her: "Mr. Ji, if I understand correctly, you mean that you want to pursue me now?"
Ji Yunxin swallowed his words and nodded: "Yes."
Jian Yan said slowly: "I understand."
"You want to remarry?"
Ji Yunxin continued to nod: "Yeah."
Her eyes were burning, her expression had lost its calmness and turned into a bit of nervousness. Jian Yan chuckled, and she knew that her guess was correct. All of Ji Yunxin's recent abnormalities were explained, because she wanted to remarry, and why remarry, she thought, she should know the reason.
"Actually, you don't have to do this." Jian Yan looked up at Ji Yunxin's eyes and said, "Because I don't plan to keep this child."
When the word "child" was mentioned, the expressions of both of them changed. Jian Yan didn't expect that she could talk to Ji Yunxin calmly about the child. Although she had been venting before, her voice still trembled slightly when she mentioned the child. Ji Yunxin clenched and unclenched her hands, and her throat seemed to be strangled, making her unable to speak.
In the morning, she guessed that Jian Yan didn't want a child. In the afternoon, she met Su Ziqi in the hospital. She also knew the date of the operation. But when these words came out of Jian Yan's mouth, it was like a death sentence with no possibility of appeal. She still couldn't suppress the discomfort in her heart. Her heart was swollen and sour. Ji Yunxin's eyes were almost red. Since she became an adult, she has always managed her emotions very well, with very few fluctuations. But at this moment, she couldn't hold it back. Jian Yan glanced at her expression and said, "I just found out a few days ago."
She turned to look at Ji Yunxin: "You should have told me earlier."
Ji Yunxin's body tensed up, and all the nerves in her body were pulled. She heard Jian Yan continue, "But it doesn't matter. I don't want this child."
"So, Mr. Ji, let's keep the same old saying, bridges are bridges, roads are roads, okay?"
Ji Yunxin shook his head, his voice lowered to a hoarse tone: "Not good."
Jian Yan frowned and said, "Boss Ji, I can't have a baby now, you know? I can't joke about my future anymore. I've experienced what it's like to have nothing, I can't make the same mistake again."
"Then don't." Ji Yunxin gritted his teeth: "Since you don't want it, then don't."
Jian Yan raised her eyes and looked deeply at Ji Yunxin, and said angrily: "You are so fickle."
Ji Yunxin frowned at what she said: "Yan Yan."
Jian Yan raised her hand: "Okay, we have said what we need to say and made the decision we need to make. I want to see you off now."
Ji Yunxin was pulled by her to stand up: "Yan Yan."
Jian Yan didn't want to hear anything. She pulled Ji Yunxin to the door. Before she opened the door, her wrist was held by Ji Yunxin. She turned her head and Ji Yunxin said with a firm look: "Yan Yan, I know I am not qualified to decide whether this child should be kept or not. I just want to-" She paused and continued: "I just want to hug her, can I?"
Jian Yan looked at her clear eyes. She thought of what Ji Yunxin had done recently, things she had never done before. She was even willing to remarry for the child. She must care about the child, at least more than she thought. Jian Yan's heart softened a little, and she nodded silently: "Okay."
Ji Yunxin let go of her hand, squatted down, and moved closer to Jian Yan. She put her arms around Jian Yan's waist and put her face on her belly. Her movements were pious and cautious. Jian Yan lowered her eyes and saw her nervous expression. Her nose felt sore and she looked away.
She didn't let go, and Jian Yan didn't push him away. The two of them kept standing and squatting for nearly half an hour. Finally, Jian Yan asked, "Is it okay?"
Ji Yunxin stood up with her legs numb. She said, "Thank you. I'm done."
Jian Yan's expression changed: "You can go."
Ji Yunxin nodded: "You have a good rest."
Jian Yan didn't want to listen to her instructions anymore. She stretched out her hand and held the door handle. The door opened with a click. Jian Yan said, "Go slowly."
Before Ji Yunxin left, she couldn't help but turn her head to look at her. The door closed gently, blocking her sight. She lowered her eyes and turned to walk towards the elevator. When she got on the elevator, she received a call from Fu Qiang, saying that there was a problem with the N2 project and she would go back to decide on a plan. She hung up the phone and walked out of the elevator. It was cold outside. The severe winter had just passed and the snowflakes had not completely melted. The wind blew and it was chilly. Ji Yunxin took a breath of cool air when she walked out of the hotel. The sky was dark and some street lights were already on. The crew members had just finished work and came back. When they met her at the door, they shouted, "Mr. Ji."
Ji Yunxin responded indifferently. Just as she was about to leave, she noticed a person in a black down jacket in the crowd. He looked very similar to the person she saw in the morning. She paused for two seconds and walked towards that person. When Qin Yao saw Ji Yunxin coming over, she bent down and took a few quick steps. When she reached the corner, she dodged and turned the corner. Ji Yunxin looked around and didn't see the person just now. She frowned. Director Gu asked, "Mr. Ji, what's wrong with you?"
"fine."
Ji Yunxin replied calmly: "You guys go back."
Director Gu then said hello to her and led everyone back. Ji Yunxin watched them get into the elevator together with a frown on her face. A few minutes later, she turned around and walked towards the garage. Before getting in the car, she thought more and more that something was wrong and had a bad feeling in her heart. She never acted on her intuition, but this time she wanted to trust her intuition once, so she called Jian Yan.
Jian Yan was on the phone. Luo Jing called her after returning to the hotel and asked her to come down for dinner.
"Now?" Jian Yan felt exhausted after chasing Ji Yunxin away. She leaned against the door and said, "You guys eat first. I'll come down later."
Luo Jing heard her weak voice and asked with concern: "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"
Jian Yan whispered, "No, I haven't had a good rest recently, so I want to rest early."
"How about this, you take a rest first, and I'll pack a portion for you after you finish eating?"
Jian Yan said lightly: "Okay, thank you."
"You're welcome."
Luo Jing was relieved to hear that she did not resist his request. They hung up the phone. Jian Yan just got up and walked towards the room when she heard the doorbell ring behind her. She frowned. Luo Jing wouldn't be so quick, right
"Who is it?"
No one spoke or moved outside the door. Jian Yan saw no one through the peephole. She frowned and was about to leave when the doorbell rang again. Jian Yan opened the door: "Who..."
No one.
The corridor was empty, no one was there. Jian Yan stood at the door and looked outside suspiciously. She frowned and prepared to close the door. When the door was half closed, she saw a small box on the ground. There was a bow on the top, the size of a courier, and there were words written on it. Jian Yan bent down to pick up the gift box and saw a card on it. The words were printed on the computer:
—Hello, Yanyan, I am your fan. I especially like your dramas. I am very sorry to bother you today, but I want to give you a gift on my birthday. I hope you will always be happy.
fan
Jian Yan received the card and smiled. She bent down to pick up the gift, and a voice came from the elevator entrance: "Jian Yan!"
Jian Yan looked up when she heard Ji Yunxin's voice. She was still bent over, but Ji Yunxin quickly walked to her side and pulled her up. Jian Yan was surprised: "Why are you back?"
"Why didn't you answer my call?" Ji Yunxin was still holding the phone. She ran over from the elevator, her breathing a little disordered. Jian Yan was a little puzzled: "I didn't hear the phone ring."
Ji Yunxin pulled her two steps inside: "What were you doing just now?"
Jian Yan felt that Ji Yunxin was a little strange, so she replied: "Nothing, why are you back again?"
Ji Yunxin wanted to say that she was worried, but she was afraid that Jian Yan would worry if she said something without basis, so she said, "It's okay, I'll come back to see you."
Jian Yan frowned: "Hurry up and leave. The crew will be back soon and they will see you."
After she finished speaking, she bent down and picked up the gift. Ji Yunxin saw the gift in her hand and asked, "What is this?"
“It was given to me by a fan.”
Ji Yunxin looked stern: "What fans?"
Jian Yan felt that Ji Yunxin was a little weird tonight. The questions he asked were weird, and the words he said were weird. She was a little unhappy and said, "She's just a fan. What's wrong with that?"
Ji Yunxin followed her into the room. Qin Yao stood at the corner of the door, waiting for the scream to erupt from inside. She couldn't wait to hear that kind of heart-wrenching sound. She wanted to hear it so hard that she was almost possessed, but she never heard it.
The gift was not opened. Qin Yao's face was gloomy and her eyes were fierce. She glared at Jian Yan's room, then turned and left.
After Jian Yan entered the room, she placed the box on the coffee table. Ji Yunxin followed her and said, "Yan Yan, I think it's better not to open this gift."
"Why?"
Ji Yunxin moistened her lips and said seriously, "You just said that this gift was given by a fan."
Jian Yan nodded: "Yes."
"But how would your fans know which floor and room you live in?"
Jian Yan was slightly startled when she heard this. Yes, her fans only knew that she was filming in the film and television city and staying in this hotel. It was impossible for them to know that she was staying in this room, unless they were staff members of the crew. But she didn't hear that anyone had a birthday today? Seeing her frown, Ji Yunxin said, "So it's better to just throw away this kind of gift of unknown origin."
Just as Ji Yunxin finished speaking, the box moved, as if there was a living thing inside. Jian Yan was a little scared after hearing what Ji Yunxin said. She turned pale and asked, "What's inside?"
Ji Yunxin shook her head solemnly. She took Jian Yan's hand and took two steps back. Both of them looked very nervous. The box on the table was no longer moved. Ji Yunxin looked at Jian Yan and said, "I'll throw it away. Don't touch it."
It was like a time bomb. Jian Yan felt a little nervous when she saw her approaching. She said in a trembling voice, "Ji Yunxin."
Ji Yunxin turned around and said calmly, "It's okay, don't be afraid."
Jian Yan's heart was hanging behind her. Ji Yunxin took off his coat and wrapped the box. After tying it up, he said to Jian Yan: "I'll take this away first. Don't open the door casually, and don't open the gift casually, Yanyan..."
"Why?" Jian Yan had almost come back to her senses at this time. She asked with clear eyes: "Do you know something?"
Seeing this, Ji Yunxin had no choice but to say, "I suspect it has something to do with Li Weiqing."
Li Weiqing
Jian Yan hadn't heard this name for a long time. She hadn't paid attention to Li Weiqing's movements since Su Ziqi said she went abroad. Why would she come back? And give her such a gift? What on earth did she want to do
"Are you sure?" Jian Yan's throat tightened.
Ji Yunxin whispered: "It should be related to her, I will find out as soon as possible."
"During this time, I'll let Miss Su come over to accompany you."
Jian Yan was a little uneasy after what happened just now, and her face was still pale. Ji Yunxin was about to go out with the gift. When she was about to reach the door, she turned around and said, "Yan Yan, I have always regarded Wei Qing as a friend. I never thought there would be such rumors on the Internet. I'm sorry."
I have always regarded Weiqing as a friend.
sorry.
Jian Yan closed her eyes. She had been waiting for this explanation for three years. She didn't dare to ask. Every time she saw the rumors, she digested them silently and licked her wounds silently. Those ugly scars were torn open every time she saw those rumors, over and over again. She thought she was completely indifferent, but when Ji Yunxin explained to her in person, she realized that she was not completely numb, she still had feelings.
Jian Yan calmed down and said, "Let's not talk about the past anymore. You don't have to say sorry to me. It must have been a coincidence."
If she had been bolder and confirmed it with Ji Yunxin in person, she would have gotten the explanation long ago and she would not have been holding a grudge. If Ji Yunxin was wrong for not giving an explanation, then she was wrong for not daring to question. She was too humble and too selfless in this relationship. Therefore, it was not Ji Yunxin's fault and they were even.
Ji Yunxin was silent for a few seconds: "Then let the past be the past. From now on, can you give me a chance?"
Jian Yan looked at Ji Yunxin. She didn't expect that she hadn't given up yet. She shook her head and said affirmatively, "No."
After Ji Yunxin left, Jian Yan sat on the sofa. After a while, Luo Jing sent her a message saying that she was at her door. Jian Yan took the lunch box she handed in and thanked her. Seeing that she looked pale, Luo Jing asked with concern, "Are you okay?"
Jian Yan shook her head: "It's okay, thank you."
Luo Jing was still a little worried, but Jian Yan didn't need her too much care. When she wanted to go out to see Jian Yan again and ran into Su Ziqi, she greeted him, "Sister Su."
"Writer Luo." Su Ziqi smiled at her and said, "I was just about to call you. I heard from Yanyan about your new script. I'm sorry, but Yanyan has to shoot other dramas next, so she may not be able to catch up with your next drama."
Luo Jing nodded: "It's okay."
She smiled and went back to her room. Su Ziqi patted his cheek and walked to Jian Yan's door and knocked: "Yan Yan."
Jian Yan opened the door: "Sister Su, why are you here?"
"Why didn't I come? President Ji told me that Li Weiqing is back, right? And he left a gift for you? Do you know what's in the box?" Jian Yan raised her eyes and asked, "What is it?"
Su Ziqi's face looked serious. When Ji Yunxin called her into the office, she was seeing a professional opening a box.
"It's sulfuric acid."
"sulfuric acid?"
"Look how bold she is. She is simply trying to commit a crime!" If Ji Yunxin hadn't been here today, the sulfuric acid would have sprayed all over Jian Yan's face as soon as she opened the box. This Li Weiqing was getting more and more outrageous. Su Ziqi said, "So from now on, I will follow you everywhere."
Jian Yan looked at her: "Then your job..."
"My job is to take good care of you. If anything happens to you, it will be useless for me to find so many notices. Don't worry, President Ji has asked someone to investigate, and there should be news soon."
Jian Yan nodded silently.
After taking a shower at night, Su Ziqi slept on the sofa outside. Jian Yan wanted to give up her bed to her. Su Ziqi said, "Do you think I would let a pregnant woman sleep on the sofa?"
Jian Yan held it in for a moment and swallowed the words. After she returned to the room, she tossed and turned, unable to help thinking about what Ji Yunxin had said and what she had done today. Her thoughts were churning and she finally sat up and fumbled with her phone. She caught a glimpse of the black bag hanging on the shelf out of the corner of her eye. She thought for a few seconds before getting up and picking up the bag, and she took out a gift box from it. It was a gift box that Ji Yunxin had stuffed into her. She opened the box, and inside was a pen, exactly the same as the one she had given Ji Yunxin before. This one was no longer in production, and no one knew where she had bought it from. Jian Yan shook her head. She glanced at the box, and suddenly remembered that when she gave Ji Yunxin a pen, she had secretly stuffed a note into it. She had placed it under the foam of the pen. The foam was very tight, and the note could not be seen at all unless it was lifted up. She relied on this to stuff her confession into it. Later, she didn't have the nerve to ask Ji Yunxin if he had seen the note.
Jian Yan put the pen aside, picked up the box, and after a while lifted up the foam in the box. There was a note stuffed inside. Her expression changed.
The note read: Yanyan, I want to pursue you, is that okay
The handwriting was beautiful and powerful, and she recognized it at a glance. It was Ji Yunxin's handwriting.
The author has something to say: Thirty random lucky little red envelopes, muah!
Ji Yunxin: Yanyan, I want to pursue you, is it okay
Jian Yan: No.