Kurosawa Hikaru stood there in a daze, his thoughts in a mess.
Scenes appeared before his eyes.
In the student guidance office, Miss Ninomiya said that in order to avoid being influenced by other girls and affecting her studies, she proudly agreed to go on a date with him.
At Shinjuku Station, Miss Ninomiya appeared wearing a pair of frameless glasses, so beautiful that his heart was moved.
While riding the roller coaster at the amusement park, he took the opportunity to hold Miss Ninomiya's hand.
There are many more. In every scene, she makes Kurosawa Hikaru fascinated and infatuated, making his heart beat fast, and it is so sweet that he smiles even when he goes to sleep.
But at this moment, everything was shattered.
Come to think of it, these memories and scenes were probably the strength that supported Miss Ninomiya until just now.
However, no matter how precious and sweet their memories were, his actions still deeply hurt Miss Ninomiya.
Even when she caught Koyuki hugging him, Miss Ninomiya still remained rational and did not make a big deal out of the matter, thus maintaining her dignity.
Even when she walked into darkness, she still remained calm and tried her best to figure out the situation.
Although she looks strong on the surface, her heart has probably been deeply wounded by herself.
He completely ignored what kind of psychological preparation and construction Miss Ninomiya had made to muster up the courage to come up and kiss him.
It's ridiculous that he had the thought of "Let's just die" just now... Even if it's unfair, he really shouldn't have kissed everyone just for the sake of fairness.
If he could do it over again, he would have to find a way to get the matter over with, and then compensate Koyuki and Mirai privately afterwards.
Because it is too cruel to let them watch him having intimate contact with other women.
Thinking of all the details that just happened, Kurosawa Mitsuru stood there in a daze, without any reaction for a long time.
"I'm sorry, it seems I've done more harm than good."
At this moment, a subtle and apologetic voice sounded.
The word "sorry" made Kurosawa Hikaru react.
He turned his head and saw that Shifengyuan Mirai had walked to his side and held his arm.
Unlike her previous calm and confident self, her little face was now filled with guilt and sadness.
"This is not your fault, it's mine."
Kurosawa Hikaru came back to his senses, realized what she said, and shook his head.
How could he blame her for this... He could only blame himself for not being able to seize the last chance.
Although he said so, Shifengyuan Mirai was still concerned about it in his heart.
She could see that Kurosawa really liked Miss Ninomiya, and Miss Ninomiya's love for Kurosawa was already extremely passionate.
This Miss Ninomiya is not only cool and mature on the surface... Even when she completely broke down, she maintained her dignity until the very end and only cried without making a fuss.
It is hard to imagine what kind of psychological process she went through to show such an expression just now.
"Brother Guang... I'm sorry, if I hadn't let you kiss me just now, it would have been fine."
Yuki Ichinose also came up and held his arm, feeling extremely guilty.
She shouldn't have been so competitive just now. If she hadn't taken that initiative, perhaps this wouldn't have happened.
As the saying goes, there is no acquaintance without fighting. After the argument just now, she has actually noticed that... Miss Ninomiya only looks strong on the surface, but in fact, she is extremely fragile inside.
"Don't say that. This is not your fault. I only blame myself."
Seeing her pitiful and frightened look, Kurosawa Hikaru shook his head, forced himself to cheer up and smiled.
"… "
Yuki Ichinose felt distressed when she saw his bitter smile that made people feel distressed.
Sadness is contagious, making the atmosphere extremely heavy.
"Huh... It's okay, it's okay."
Realizing that both girls were upset because of him, Kurosawa Mitsuru took a few deep breaths and forced himself to speak.
Only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it. He realized how cruel it is to ask girls to accept that he is a playboy. Facing Yuki Ichinose and Mirai Shifeng, he feels grateful and guilty.
I am grateful that they want to be with me.
I feel guilty about the harm that today's incident has caused them. I must compensate them much more in the future.
"How can it be okay..."
Sifengyuan Mirai was a little anxious.
Although she had not experienced it personally and could not understand his pain, anyone with a discerning eye could see from Kurosawa's sad and lost expression how painful it was for him to have Chizuru Ninomiya leave.
“Brother Guang, why don’t you chase her? Miss Ninomiya should not have run far now. If we let her go this time, she might really leave.”
Ichinose Yuki also felt that this matter was very important, so she grabbed his arm and shook it, begging.
"I said I would respect her choice."
Seeing that they all wanted him to chase after them, Kurosawa Mitsuru pulled his hands out of theirs and reached out to touch the two people's heads.
As long as he remains the same, does not love only one person, and is not a devoted man, he has no right to keep her.
He had already realized very deeply that he had done something wrong this time and had hurt her thoroughly.
It's a tangled mess and if he goes back on his word and continues to pester her, it will only ruin Miss Ninomiya's life.
"All right."
When Shifengyuan Mirai saw him say this, she raised her head and understood something when he touched her head.
As a bystander, she naturally thought it would be better to save the situation... But for the person involved, it was not that easy.
"Um… "
Kurosawa Hikaru realized that she had given up and no longer forced himself to chase her. He looked at her with some gratitude.
He really didn't have the courage to chase after her... because he had already tried it just now.
It's not that he didn't think about keeping her. At that moment, he was more anxious than anyone else. He wanted to do something to seek forgiveness and make amends.
But Miss Ninomiya was completely hurt by him, and no matter what he did now, it would be of no avail.
"But… "
As a girl, Yuki Ichinose felt that this matter could not end like this.
"I'm fine."
Seeing that she was still very anxious, Kurosawa Mitsuru turned around and touched her head.
"All right."
Ichinose Yuki looked up at him, then looked at the corner where Ninomiya Chizuru disappeared, and finally met the eyes of Shifengyuan Mirai beside her before nodding.
"So good."
Seeing her approval, Kurosawa Hikaru rubbed her head and smiled.
"Let's go eat something?" Shifengyuan Mirai suggested.
"Sorry, I don't have an appetite right now. Can you leave me alone for a while?"
When Kurosawa Mitsuru heard this suggestion, he smiled bitterly.
Although he was indeed a little hungry, he really wasn't in the mood.
"Okay, but I hope that next time I see you, you won't have this expression on your face."
Seeing that he finally made this request, Shifengyuan Mirai looked at him deeply and said.
"I'll try my best."
Kurosawa Hikaru choked when he heard this. He didn't have a mirror, so he didn't know what his expression was.
"May I have your name?"
After getting his reply, Shifengyuan Mirai suddenly looked at Yuki beside him.
"My name is Ichinose Yuki."
Faced with this question, Xiao Yuji was stunned for a moment and then responded.
"Ichinose Yuki, let's go."
Shifengyuan Mirai pondered the name, memorized it, waved his hand, turned around and left Kurosawa Hikaru's side.
"ah?"
Upon hearing this request, Ichinose Yuki was stunned.
Go? Where are we going? Brother Guang is so sad, he needs comfort.
"Leave him alone for a while."
Seeing that she still wanted to stay, Shifengyuan Mirai explained.
There are two kinds of human sorrow: one that can be expressed, and the other that cannot be expressed.
When a girl is facing troubles, she can usually talk about them if she has a close friend.
But men are different, because every man is very strong-willed, so they seldom complain to others.
In her opinion, Kurosawa's current troubles are impossible to confide... Even to anyone.
This matter is too complicated. It is not as simple as work troubles or study troubles.
"oh oh."
Yuki Ichinose was stunned for a moment, looked up, saw Guang Ge's eyes, nodded, and acted obediently.
"Oh?" Hearing this response, Shifengyuan Mirai couldn't help but look at her again and repeat it in his heart.
Although they didn't have much contact, she always felt that Yuki Ichinose was stupid.
Soon, they walked away, taking the maid with them.
Until they left this place, Kurosawa Mitsuru looked at the empty space in front of him, then looked at the corner in the distance, then walked to the wall and sat down.
"… "
He said nothing, but just sat there quietly, not caring that his long Kyudo hakama dragged on the ground.
Unlike Ninomiya Chizuru and Igarashi Runa who really left, a head popped out at the corner on the other side.
With strands of wavy golden hair falling down, Ichinose Yuki's green eyes looked at Kurosawa Hikaru.
However, before she could take a closer look, she was forcibly dragged back.
"What are you doing? I want to see if Guang Ge will cry."
Being forcibly pulled back by the shoulders, Ichinose Yuki was speechless and angry.
"Leave him alone for a while... Do you really want him to cry?"
Shifengyuan Mirai stood beside her, holding her shoulder with one hand, and asked.
"yes."
When she found that she was not arguing with her but asking questions instead, Ichinose Yuki was stunned for a moment, but couldn't argue anymore and nodded immediately.
"Why?"
After getting this answer, Shifengyuan Mirai suddenly couldn't understand her.
"Because Guang Ge's crying means he is venting. If he doesn't vent and keeps the negative emotions in his heart, he won't be able to get over this."
Seeing that she didn't understand but didn't care, Ichinose Yuki explained to her.
When she was in junior high school, she hid in her room and cried for a long time, and had heart-to-heart talks with her parents many times before she was able to come to terms with it.
The pain caused by Miss Ninomiya's departure to Guang Ge is definitely more than the bullying she suffered in the past.
"indeed."
After hearing this, Shifengyuan Mirai thought for a while and nodded.
From what she had read about psychology, she knew that people’s emotions needed to be expressed.
If you keep suppressing your emotions and not letting them out, it is very likely to turn into a mental illness.