The interactions between people are not just about appearance and material support; the key is feeling.
Sometimes, the atmosphere, timing, and just the right emotions, even something as simple as holding hands or patting the head, can make people extremely happy and blessed.
"I absolutely want to be with her!"
Just a kiss and a few words that were a little shy and evasive, directly ignited Kurosawa Hikaru's heart.
He couldn't even describe how charming Miss Ninomiya was at that moment.
But the feeling at that moment was as if when he fell off a cliff and had lost all hope, a hand suddenly reached out and pulled him up, as if he was in another world and was reborn.
"How could he do this..."
The mouth-to-mouth kiss made Ninomiya Chizuru's brain go blank.
Because Kurosawa changed the way he addressed her and even acted like a spoiled child towards her, she was unable to hold on to her psychological defenses and softened her heart.
But she was soft-hearted and agreed to let him kiss her on the cheek, which was not a kiss at all.
But this kiss felt really good.
The hot breath and the contact of soft skin were like a warm current flowing into her cold body, which was very comfortable.
The kiss lasted for more than ten seconds before Kurosawa Hikaru stopped.
As their lips parted, Ninomiya Chizuru still felt a little unsatisfied. After she came to her senses, she raised her eyes and met a pair of beautiful eyes as dark as ink.
Eyes are the windows to the soul... Through these eyes, she can feel Kurosawa's hot and strong love.
"I want to go back."
Seeing this scene, Ninomiya Chizuru woke up instantly, her heart was very flustered, even a little scared, and she turned around and left immediately.
But just as she turned around and took a step forward, a hand suddenly reached out and grabbed her wrist.
"Don't go."
Then, an urgent voice of retention came from behind, causing Ninomiya Chizuru to pause.
"… "
Ninomiya Chizuru instinctively wanted to look back, but she suppressed the impulse, shook her head, and struggled to move forward.
"Are you leaving again?"
Kurosawa Mitsuru, who was standing there holding her wrist, felt her weak struggle and couldn't help but say.
With that kind of strength alone, there was no way she could escape from his grasp... But the way she struggled was very heartbreaking.
Was my behavior just now too excessive
But he had no choice. How could he stay rational when he felt her closeness and doting on him
Hearing these heartbreaking words, Ninomiya Chizuru couldn't help but turn around and look at him.
"Hei Ze, I'm afraid I'll go back on my word and hurt you like before."
Faced with his retaining and expectant gaze, Ninomiya Chizuru couldn't help but speak.
"Go back on your word?"
When Kurosawa Mitsuru heard this, his expression was a little stunned.
"I'm sorry for that day. I thought I could accept the fact that you had three girlfriends and that you were a playboy, so I mustered up the courage to kiss you... But I found out that I couldn't bear it at all and couldn't accept such a thing, and I hurt you."
After all, they were face to face. Ninomiya Chizuru saw that he was unconscious, took a deep breath and revealed her true feelings.
At that time, she was on the verge of a mental breakdown. She could not bear such a blow and chose to turn around and leave.
But when she turned around, she avoided Kurosawa's attempts to keep him again and again.
Whenever she thought about this incident, she felt tormented and guilty.
If she had realized earlier that she simply couldn't accept it and hadn't kissed Kurosawa, things wouldn't have turned out like this.
"You don't have to say sorry."
After hearing this, Kurosawa Hikaru released her wrist and stopped holding her.
When a person wants to leave, even if you use all means to keep her or imprison her, you cannot erase her will.
"Hei Ze, I'm afraid I'll hurt you again... Can you give me some time to think it over?"
When she noticed that he had let go, Ninomiya Chizuru felt that he was in a very low mood, so she explained and made a request at the same time.
"How long will it take you? A day? A month? A year? A lifetime?"
Kurosawa Hikaru took a deep breath, stood with his hands in his pockets, and looked at her with complicated eyes.
During this period of time, he had thought of many ways to reconcile with Chizuru.
Until today, after hearing Fujiwara Rikka's thoughts in the office, he thought he had found the right way forward, which was to admit his mistakes and show his true remorse, and definitely put an end to the meeting of several girlfriends.
But in the end, the fundamental reason why Chizuru kept her distance from him was not because of this incident, but because of her personality.
Plan carefully before acting, this is a principle that all smart people can learn, and he naturally understands it as well.
But this principle does not apply to the vast majority of situations in reality, especially romantic relationships.
If someone can withdraw from love unscathed, know his limits and remain calm, it only means that this person does not love the other person at all.
Precisely because he loves Ninomiya Chizuru so deeply, he makes many decisions and actions without consideration and sober thinking.
"I don't know. I'm not angry when you kissed me just now. In fact, I'm very happy. But before I'm sure I can accept this, we can't do this. That would be too hasty."
Faced with his questioning, Ninomiya Chizuru was a little at a loss and explained.
To be fair, she really wanted to kiss and hug Kurosawa, and act together like they did before, travel together, play together, and make progress together.
But she knew very well that this was an impulsive act without considering the consequences.
"Do we have to see the outcome clearly before we can reconcile? Do you only read the last page of a book?"
Kurosawa Hikaru looked at her straight in the eye, unable to help himself.
It is unrealistic to look at the results before starting, unless you have the super power to predict the future.
"Kurosawa, I'm afraid I'll delay you."
Faced with his pleading and eager gaze, Ninomiya Chizuru was speechless, and then smiled bitterly.
"Are you afraid you'll delay me?"
After these words were spoken, Kurosawa Hikaru was suddenly amused as if he had heard a joke, the corners of his mouth slightly raised as he confirmed.
"I'm afraid we won't have a future, I'm afraid we'll end up apart... What I'm most afraid of is that I'll hurt you again."
Seeing his sudden smile, Ninomiya Chizuru's heartstrings trembled, and she quickly added.
"good."
Hearing this, Kurosawa Hikaru stared at her, thought for a long time, and nodded slightly.
When Ninomiya Chizuru saw his expression change, her heart couldn't help but skip a beat.
What a change in expression... from self-deprecating ridiculousness to guilt, sadness, regret, and a deep sense of powerlessness.
"Kurosawa."
Upon realizing this, Ninomiya Chizuru felt very distressed and regretful, and couldn't help but reach out to him, wanting to grab him.
But when she stretched out her hand, just when it was about to touch Kurosawa, it stopped in mid-air.
But after a brief pause, she continued to reach out and touch his chest.
"Is that really the case?"
Kurosawa Mitsuru lowered his eyes to watch her every move, then raised his eyes to see her complicated expression and realized something.
He has fully realized the truth. Even if he has the help of the system and tries every possible way to reconcile with her, it will be as difficult as ascending to heaven.
Because Ninomiya Chizuru has not reconciled with him until now, it’s not because she still holds a grudge against what happened that day, but because she has a psychological trauma.
On that day, I tore her heart apart with my own hands.
Even though her heart gradually healed over time, the scars could not be erased.
I feel powerless, so powerless. There is nothing I can do.
His idea was too naive. He thought that as long as he mustered up the courage to retain and make amends, he would be able to reconcile like before.
But the reality is cruel, a broken heart can never be restored to its original state, just like when he heard Ninomiya Chizuru say sorry, he would instinctively feel fear.
Now, if Chizuru Ninomiya wants to even touch him, she must muster up the courage.
"Sorry, I was too impulsive. You go back first."
After much thought, Kurosawa Mitsuru took a step back and chose to bow his head and apologize.
"Are you angry?"
When Ninomiya Chizuru found that he was no longer trying to keep her, she couldn't help feeling a sense of panic.
She felt that if she really just left like this, the connection between the two of them would be severed.
"I'm not angry, I just figured it out."
Kurosawa Hikaru shook his head.
Under the influence of the dating mission, he was even grateful for being able to discover her love and care for him, and he even went a step further, acting like a spoiled child to get her to pamper him.
He was happy, but what about Ninomiya Chizuru
Even though she was hurt and felt wronged, she still felt sorry for him and doted on him.
He only noticed that Ninomiya Chizuru loved him, but did not consider her difficulties, but now he realized it.
"What did you figure out?"
Ninomiya Chizuru found that his expression became very calm, so calm that it was a little scary.
"Your words reminded me... You said you were afraid of hurting me, and I am the same. I think if I continue to pester you, it will only hurt you more."
Seeing her timid reaction, Kurosawa Mitsuru still spoke his true feelings.
It is better to suffer a short pain than a long one. Looking to the future, everything is full of uncertainty. Even if he is determined to reduce the meetings between his girlfriends as much as possible, there is no way to guarantee that they will never meet.
No one can predict what will happen tomorrow.
It was as if he was in an online romance with a campus beauty from another school not long ago, and they were so sweet every day, but in the blink of an eye, she was sold out, and the system was awakened, and his life changed drastically since then.
"How could it be... I'm very happy that you are still willing to coax me."
Hearing these words, Ninomiya Chizuru felt as if he was breaking up, and she immediately became anxious.
Although their relationship is very strained now and they have even quarreled, they addressed each other in a very distant manner not long ago, calling each other by their surnames. They were not intimate at all and did not act like a couple at all.
But she knew that before the quarrel, they were more like a couple than any other couple.
Go to the amusement park together, travel together, play in the creek, have picnics, hold hands, hug, and kiss.
"… "
When Kurosawa Mitsuru heard her words, he just remained silent.
What happened that day at the Budokan had consequences.
He was once sad, painful and heartbroken.
She once broke down and cried, unable to speak.
"Kurosawa, please don't be like this, okay? I was wrong."
Seeing that he remained silent, Ninomiya Chizuru reached out her hand again, grabbed his wrist, and begged.
"Don't indulge me like this anymore... I can't guarantee that I won't hurt you in the future."
Faced with her pleading, Kurosawa Mitsuru felt a little soft-hearted, but he still exerted force with his arms and broke free.
"I'm not afraid."
Ninomiya Chizuru grabbed his wrist again, this time with great force.
"You are obviously afraid. You are afraid of delaying me. You are afraid that we will have no future. You are afraid that we will break up in the end. You are afraid that you will hurt me. But I am the same."
Kurosawa Hikaru shook his arms, but couldn't break free easily, so he could only harden his heart and speak frankly to her. He struggled as he spoke, gradually gaining strength, and his excitement burst out.
After what happened just now, he has personally verified Ninomiya Chizuru's true feelings.
Letting go sooner is better for both of you.
"I am afraid of these things, but I am more afraid of losing you!"
Although he was very strong, Ninomiya Chizuru still held his arm tightly and refused to let go. She also became excited and spoke loudly.
"!"
Kurosawa Mitsuru, who was originally very excited, felt as if his soul was hit by something when he heard this shout. His body, mind, and even emotions were frozen.
The excited expression and emotions gradually calmed down, and Kurosawa Mitsuru looked at her in astonishment.
"I know I'm humoring you, but I do!"
Seeing that he stopped struggling, Ninomiya Chizuru could no longer suppress her inner thoughts at this moment.
"I wanted to leave just now, not because I was angry, but because I was afraid that I would not be able to control myself and would do more things with you impulsively.
I need time to think clearly because I'm afraid that I will be like that day before. I clearly promised you, gave you hope, and made you so happy, but in the end I made you so sad.
Even though it's hard to accept, I'm still slowly adapting to it, because I really don't want to lose you!
But you are like this, and you even said that you can't keep pestering me. Do you really want to break up with me?"
His emotions completely burst out, and Ninomiya Chizuru found that he didn't say anything, and his voice became louder and louder.
She was really scared just now, so she was very angry.
"If I really wanted to break up with you, I wouldn't have messaged you before. I said at the beginning that I would respect your decision, but I still shamelessly messaged you because I didn't want to lose you."
Kurosawa Hikaru looked at Ninomiya Chizuru, who was clenching her fists in front of her, and was so excited and anxious that she seemed to be very angry, and responded.
"When I went to your house before, even though you looked at me like a heartless man and said all kinds of sarcastic things to me, I still stayed there because I didn't want to lose you.
And what did you say about you being afraid of hurting me again? I never felt that you hurt me that day, because I was the one who was cheating on her, and I wasn't so shameless as to be angry even though I was in the wrong."
The two people faced each other, talking loudly as if they were arguing, completely losing their usual calmness and rationality.
"Really?"
Revealing her true feelings, Ninomiya Chizuru was not afraid to see him so angry and excited, but asked.
“It’s all true.”
After the excitement, Kurosawa Mitsuru calmed down a little and said affirmatively.
"You never felt like I hurt your feelings?"
"No." Kurosawa Hikaru shook his head.
"You obviously did. The way you looked at me at that time was full of sadness, pain and despair!"
Ninomiya Chizuru didn't believe his nonsense.
"I was like that because I saw you crying and it broke my heart."
Kurosawa Hikaru was speechless.
"I cried because I like you too much. I can't be like them and watch you kiss other girls. I can't easily accept you being intimate with other girls."
"I feel bad for you because I know I love you, and I also know that what I did hurt your heart. I thought I was going to lose you, so I was so desperate."
"I… "
He responded in kind, and Ninomiya Chizuru wanted to respond, but she choked on the words.
Because after she calmed down, she found that such a conversation was very embarrassing and not reserved at all.
After a big quarrel, things calmed down and the two looked at each other in silence.
After reviewing what happened that day face to face and opening their hearts, they realized each other's true feelings.
Without the ability to read minds, no one can guarantee that they know what other people are really thinking.
Perhaps you can feel the general idea, but the specific details are unclear.
Because I love you, I get so upset when I see you kissing another woman.
Because I love you, I feel so desperate when I see you are leaving.
The two people had similar feelings, but after this quarrel, they clearly felt each other's intentions.
I don't want to lose you, but I still want to be with you.
"Drink some water."
Ninomiya Chizuru felt a little thirsty and couldn't help but say.
"Um."
Kurosawa Hikaru nodded.
After saying that, Ninomiya Chizuru sat back in her previous seat and picked up a glass of water.
As for Kurosawa Hikaru, he stood up, picked up the cup of water, and drank it down with big gulps.
The cool water flowed down their throats, washing away the heat from their bodies, but their heartbeats were still fast.
Because when people quarrel, they are often very emotional.
Soon, Kurosawa Hikaru finished a glass of water, licked his lips, and looked at Ninomiya Chizuru beside him.
When he looked up, he met a pair of gazes, but they quickly looked away.
Compared to his heroic way of drinking, Ninomiya Chizuru's way of drinking is very ladylike and elegant.
She sat on the sofa, her snow-white, slender and smooth legs pressed together and placed sideways. She held the cup in one hand, put it to her mouth and drank slowly, while stealing glances at him.
However, after their eyes met, she pretended not to be looking and looked away.
"You really don't want to lose me?"
Seeing the change in her arrogant look, Kurosawa Mitsuru's heart moved. He plucked up the courage to walk next to her, sat down and asked.
"If I wanted to lose you, would I still be sitting here now? Wouldn't it be better for me to go to bed earlier?"
Faced with his actions, Ninomiya Chizuru glanced at him and was speechless.
You ask even though you already know the answer. I have already made it so clear just now.
"That's true."
Perhaps he was asking the question even though he already knew the answer, but Kurosawa Mitsuru never got tired of it and just smiled.
The relationships between people are maintained by social software, and constant contact is necessary so that the feelings will not fade, but it is impossible to make them better.
This is especially true for couples who are still connected. Relying solely on mobile phones to maintain the relationship between two people is simply of no help.
Instead of hiding behind social software and worrying about gains and losses, it is better to meet in person and make things clear.
Only in this way can the relationship go a step further and give people courage.