All this stems from the mistake I made that night. That girl Zhang Shuang refused to give up. After receiving the award for her meritorious service, of course, she came to the clinic to confess me the first time, and it was at this time that Wang Nan came too!
I have been busy with the clinic and the case. I haven't contacted Wang Nan for many days. Especially after that night, I was ashamed to face her, and I didn't make a phone call or send a message.
Wang Nan didn't feel anything for the first few days, because she was very busy with her own work and was so tired every day, so naturally she was not in the mood to look for me. But then, the intuitionistically sensitive she noticed something was wrong, so she went straight to my clinic, wanting to see what happened.
That day was the most embarrassing, helpless, and most ashamed moment in my life. Two women who are related to me gathered at the clinic at the same time! One is Wang Nan, who I really love, and the other is Zhang Shuang, who has a close relationship with me!
Wang Nanbing was smart, and he saw the problem as soon as he entered the house. Because Zhang Shuang was like a little girl, excitedly showing off her photos when she was awarded the award, and the big red-skin honor certificate!
Although we didn't have very close physical movements at the time, Wang Nan could still see that Zhang Shuang's relationship with me was definitely not ordinary.
Zhang Shuang, she knew him. As early as when Xiaohan was investigating the rape case, Wang Nan had seen her. So, as soon as she entered the house, she didn't say anything, and even said hello to Zhang Shuang.
"Officer Zhang, how are you!" Although Wang Nan didn't have a smile on his face, he still looked more polite.
"Ah... hello, Doctor Wang..." Zhang Shuang, who was in excitement, suddenly froze, and stammered in response. She obviously doesn't have a deep city, otherwise she wouldn't have been entangled with Zhang Wu about whether there are any good women in the world.
Faced with Wang Nan, Zhang Shuang panicked, and all the honor certificates in his hand fell on the sofa.
Not only her, but I also panicked in the face of such a scene, and my face was very unnatural. "Nan Nan, why are you here?"
How shrewd Wang Nan is, just by looking at our abnormal expressions and actions, she guessed what was going on. She paid no attention to Zhang Shuang more, but glared at me.
I was so ashamed by her electric gaze that I wanted to find a place to sew in.
"Gaoxin! I really misunderstood you!" Wang Nan then dropped this sentence and turned away.
"Senior, you are going to chase it!" Xiaofeng quickly reminded me when things were not going well. At this moment, I glanced at Xiaofeng and Zhang Shuang again, hesitating whether I should chase him or not.
"Go, you have to make it clear, one day sooner or later..." Zhang Shuang didn't stop me, so he suggested.
So, I hurriedly chased it out. Wang Nan walked very fast, and got into a taxi when I left the door. I was one step short of catching up. Looking at the shadow of the taxi going away, I flinched.
I am a person who is very courageous sometimes, such as when I am nosy, and when the road screams when the road sees unevenness, I am quite dazed by the courage. But when dealing with the problems of my own feelings, I lost all courage and became lacking in courage at all!
What I thought at the time was that after catching up with Wang Nan, I couldn't explain anything, and I was a little afraid to face her directly. Therefore, seeing Wang Nan leaving in the car, I just stood there blankly and did not continue to chase.
My mood at that time was like knocking over a five-flavored bottle, sweet and sour, bittersweet, salty, and all tastes. Of course, more regrets are beyond your reach.
Zhang Shuang also chased me out and saw me standing alone by the side of the road. She gently held my arm and said, "I'll go back first, too, waiting for your news..."
At this moment, she was not as savage as before, but she suddenly became empathetic. Zhang Shuang knows that in this situation, it is useless for her to force me. I need some time to deal with all this and adjust my mentality.
I didn't keep her either. After a brief goodbye, I went back to the clinic in despair. Without letting me think about it, the patient came. I could only cheer up and concentrate on treating the patient and stay busy until the evening.
When it was finally time to get off work, I wiped the sweat from my forehead, and the tangled feeling in my heart struck again. To be honest, it's better to be full and busy than to be free!
Before me, it seemed to be a multiple choice question, two girls who should I give up and whom should I choose. But I was wrong, this is simply a multiple choice question. Because Wang Nan is destined to decide to give up.
When I got home in the evening, I was not in the mood to eat, so I plunged into my room and lay down on my back, wondering whether to call Wang Nan to explain. In fact, after thinking about it, I still feel that I like her more.
For Zhang Shuang, I admit that she also has a lot of cute things, but the reason why I am entangled is not because of how good or how cute she is, but because I have had a bed relationship with her!
I am a more traditional man in my bones. In fact, I also hope that my first time and my girlfriend's first time will be perfectly combined, pursuing a Freudian perfect love. But under the circumstances, this was the first time I was with Zhang Shuang!
Moreover, Zhang Shuang... is also the first time, and this is also an important reason why I am so entangled. The tradition in my bones makes me feel that since she gave it to me for the first time, I should be responsible to her for the rest of my life.
But the true feeling in my heart told me that maybe I like Wang Nan better!
As a result, I was stuck in repeated struggles and entanglements, unable to extricate myself. I picked up the phone countless times to make a call, but then put it down again.
Suddenly, the phone rang, and I quickly picked it up and saw that it was actually a call from Wang Nan. I quickly connected, "Nan Nan..."
"I apologize for my performance during the day..." I just called her name, and Wang Nan apologized first. She is not wrong, why should she apologize? This sentence really stunned me.
"Um... Nannan, actually..." I want to say, I love her. But Wang Nan didn't give me this opportunity, and the next sentence came.
"You still owe me an explanation!" Wang Nan's tone was affirmative and firm, as if I could not refute it at all.
There is no way. I told the whole story, including what happened during the investigation with Zhang Shuang. Of course, I also said that I had already slept with Zhang Shuang.
On the other side of the phone, Wang Nan's breathing became hurried. Obviously, she was very angry! However, the well-taught, she did not freak out, but was silent for a while, and then said something that made me feel like a knife: "Let's break up!"
Only then did I realize that I was about to lose Wang Nan because of various stupid performances! I hurriedly tried to redeem it, and said something soft that I might not be able to say in my life.
"Gao Xin, you don't need to say, I know your intentions, but in my dictionary, there is absolutely no room for the word betrayal!" Wang Nan's attitude was very firm, and her words reminded me of the past she once recalled.
Yes, I actually knew at that time that the most unbearable thing Wang Nan could not bear was betrayal. No matter how much I like her, even love her, and do things that betray her, she cannot tolerate it.
My attempt to redeem failed. Wang Nan refused to forgive me, and then hung up the phone. I put down my phone in silence, slapped myself twice, regretting it.
At this moment, Zhang Shuang called in again. She waited for a day, but she was obviously anxious without any news from me.
"Wang Nan... broke up with me..." I answered the phone without any extra greetings, and said directly.
"Oh..." Zhang Shuang's tone was not happy, he looked very low, "I'm sorry, Gaoxin, I didn't mean it, I just like you so much..."
"Don't blame you, it's all my fault, if you blame it, you all blame me!" I replied directly.
"Blame you? Do you mean..." Zhang Shuang was puzzled, and started a long tone.
"I'm sorry, Xiao Shuang, although I broke up with Wang Nan, I can't accept you..." I was talking about my true feelings at the time.
"Why? I know you are very sad, I am not in a hurry, I will give you time... but you..." Zhang Shuang looked very anxious on the phone.
"Don't talk about Xiao Shuang, we are still friends, just other things, in the future... Let's avoid it!" At this time, I resolutely said. (End of this chapter)