Before that, although Zhang Shuang had begun to believe that the bank robber Liu Qinghai was her biological father, he did not appear to be too sad about his death. After all, Liu Qinghai was a robber who committed a felony, robbed a bank, shot and killed money transporters, and resisted arrest with a gun!
For a person like this, even if he is likely to be his father, Zhang Shuang didn't feel that she should hate anyone. As a policeman, at least this point can be clearly distinguished.
But because Zhang Shuang has been an orphan since she was a child, her inner world is actually very fragile. What she can't tolerate most is being deceived! Especially to be deceived by the closest person, that is to challenge the bottom line in her heart!
Therefore, when Zhang Guofeng said that the person who killed his own father was the martyr Zhang Yunsong, Zhang Shuang's mentality became unbalanced!
At that time, Zhang Shuang cared most not that his adoptive father shot and killed his father Liu Qinghai, but that he cared that after so many years, the adoptive parents and the family had kept everything from her!
In fact, Zhang Shuang does not have a zero tolerance attitude towards concealment and deception. She can still understand and accept white lies on certain things. However, it is about her real life experience and the truths of the year. She cannot So calm!
In other words, Zhang Shuang, who was just still upright, was prompted by Zhang Guofeng and suddenly realized that everyone was actually lying to her!
Although Zhang Shuang knew that Team Zhang's family did not tell her, because she was afraid that she could not accept the cruelty of the truth, and felt that not telling her was the best choice, but she couldn't get around this corner at the time!
Zhang Shuang’s thought was that when he was young, he didn’t tell me, but when he grew up, why didn’t he tell me!
Zhang Shuang felt that no matter how terrifying the truth was, one should tell her the truth, believe that she will make a wise choice, and believe that she can accept the cruel truth.
However, Team Zhang's family did not tell her the truth, which means that they do not believe that they can accept reality, let alone that they can make their own correct judgments! This is tantamount to depriving yourself of the right to choose how to accept it, and it is a manifestation of distrust of yourself and yourself!
Thinking that the adoptive parents, whom he has trusted and relied on for many years, are still so separated from him, Zhang Shuang is sad, and even feels a little angry.
This is a complete and realistic reason why she refuses to accept other people's deception!
"Xiao Shuang, we won't tell you, it's because of loving you!" When Zhang Shuang talked about this, Team Zhang eagerly explained.
"Love? Do you deceive me if you love me?" Zhang Shuang retorted with a trace of sullenness.
"Then... you broke up with me because I concealed your injury?" I asked quickly.
"Yes! Just like them, you have chosen not to believe that I can accept the reality, and deliberately concealed it. In fact, you don't trust me!" Zhang Shuang said his own logic! "To love someone is to be completely thorough, without a trace of concealment, sincere and relative! No matter what, you must believe in the person you love so that you can face and accept the truth!"
When I listened to her logic, I always felt something was wrong. It seemed far-fetched, but there was no way to refute it! It is true that deception is deception. I was not only hiding it, but also deliberately coaxing her to say that she was fine and that she would be able to return to work sooner or later.
But I think this was done out of caring for her. It shouldn't be that heinous!
"So, precisely because of Zhang Guofeng's visit to you, when you learned the truth about your physical injury, you can't accept what I did?" I then asked.
"Maybe... Without Zhang Guofeng's sudden appearance, I would choose to forgive you, because... I actually like you very much..." Zhang Shuang explained the reason.
I see. That day, Zhang Shuang suffered a double blow! Because Zhang Guofeng revealed her true life experience before, Zhang Shuang was very dissatisfied with the practice of adoptive parents and family. As a result, when I concealed her injury, it was exposed, making her feel that no one is reliable!
No wonder Zhang Shuang looked a little weird when I went to the hospital, and after Liu Qiang said that she leaked her mouth, her reaction was so big that she directly asked to break up!
"Like me, why do you want to break up with me?" I finally raised this question.
"It's my business that I like you, and your behavior proves that you don't really like me at all!" Zhang Shuang suddenly raised his head and stared at me.
"I have very high demands on the feelings of two people, and I must be happy. Since I only like you and you don't like me, then forget it, there is no need to entangle again..." Then she explained.
But after hearing this, I still felt something was wrong. Since Zhang Shuang had such an idea, why did she still use the inexplicable blood stain on the bed sheet to create the illusion that I and her have a physical relationship
You know, because of this incident, I was very traditional in my bones, and the balance of emotions was tilted towards Zhang Shuang, and because of this, I took a detour. Otherwise, Wang Nan and I may have always been fine!
I think Zhang Shuang’s state at this time seems a bit irrational! It seems that she can only see that others are not, but she can't see that she has actually done many things that are unacceptable to her! This is typical only for state officials to set fires and not people to light lamps!
"Then how did you collude with Zhang Guofeng?" I feel that there is no need to continue entanglement with Zhang Shuang on this matter at this time. The key is to figure out how all this happened.
So he quickly changed the subject and asked.
"I didn't collude with him, we were never in the same group!" Zhang Shuang resolutely rejected my statement, and then began to recall a period of mental journey.
She said that on the same day, Zhang Guofeng wanted to bring her into the group, saying that he wanted to avenge his father together, but Zhang Shuang was emotional, but his mind was not lost. She knew that Zhang Guofeng must have some purpose in doing this, she wanted to use her, so she rejected Zhang Guofeng's proposal.
However, after Zhang Shuang broke up with me, she was very depressed. Suddenly she felt that the world was full of lies and deceit, and she looked at no one pleasing to her eyes. Especially later, when Uncle Zhang and her husband came to take care of her, watching the old couple who had raised her for many years still looked like nothing had happened before, and she felt a sense of disgust in her heart!
At that time, she lost her temper inexplicably, and resolutely asked to be discharged the next day!
However, after that, Zhang Shuang herself began to secretly investigate what Zhang Guofeng said. She deliberately transferred to the Municipal Bureau, and even actively asked to work with Liu Bureau for this purpose.
However, the more investigation, the colder her heart, especially when she learned that the leader of the roundup of robbers was Director Liu in front of her, she suddenly developed a kind of hatred!
This kind of hatred is actually not as simple as killing her father, she feels that the whole world is fake! Zhang Shuang's emotions were completely broken, and she was at a loss, not knowing where to go.
At this moment, Zhang Guofeng found her again and made another request for admission. Zhang Shuang pretended to agree to him, and also complimented Zhang Guofeng's many words. Only then did he realize that there was a mysterious figure behind him!
Zhang Guofeng said that the mysterious figure hoped that she could be by Liu Ju's side, pay attention to his every move at any time, and report it to him. Zhang Shuang pretended to agree, but in fact already had his own plan in his heart. She decided to avenge her father herself!
Rather than saying that she wanted to avenge her father, it was better to say that she was actually avenging the whole world! At this time, Zhang Shuang's mentality has been distorted, and he has a serious hatred of the world!
I understand how all this happened, but there is one problem, but I still haven't figured it out, and that is about the bomb!
"Since you said that you are not in the same group with Zhang Guofeng, why give him the bomb? Don't you know what he is going to do with the bomb?" I suddenly asked Zhang Shuang sharply.
"Hehe... Of course I know that he is going to kill you!" Zhang Shuang suddenly laughed and responded coldly.
"Then you still..." I was stunned after half a sentence, because I clearly saw that Zhang Shuang had pointed his gun at me! (End of this chapter)