Can't find it.
I can't find it anywhere.
In the streets near the rental house, even if I ran a few streets away, I couldn't find the park I had been to... I couldn't find it.
Zhuge was already sweating profusely, and the sweat drenched his whole body, but he still couldn't find it.
"Excuse me! Have you ever seen a girl this tall, she... she is really beautiful, very cute, and sweet when she smiles... Her name is Nanako..."
The passers-by asked one after another, some shook their heads and said they didn't know, and some simply waved their hands and walked away.
Zhuge suddenly felt dizzy and had trouble breathing. He supported the green trees on the side of the road, his legs seemed to be filled with lead, and he couldn't move.
For the first time in his life, he hated his own physical strength so much... He hated himself for not exercising properly. Obviously have a lot of time.
Panting, he had a feeling that Nanako was beside him, watching him silently from somewhere.
She's thinking... she's not just clay.
Zhuge just sat on the big horse like this, lowered his head that day and looked at Nanako with disdain and fear of approaching, whether it was already like a knife that had already cut her feelings and thoughts hard puncture
Zhuge felt that he was no different from those who have always ridiculed him and those who once disliked him.
People used colored eyes to separate him from them... He also used the same eyes to separate him from Nanako.
the same.
It's the same... I and those people are the same.
Although I didn't say anything or express it, I never forgave those people... Naturally, Nanako couldn't forgive herself
"My life... really, really sucks."
Zhuge sat quietly, and the people on the street walked by, took a look, and then continued walking. With a beard all over his face, he looked particularly vulnerable at this moment... like a homeless man on the street.
If you can't make Nanako forgive yourself... no matter how hard you search, is it just a waste of effort
Trembling, he reached into his pocket... the black card that had been hidden by his side ever since Nanako appeared.
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Familiar pine doors, familiar bells, familiar shop owners, and familiar decoration styles full of weird atmosphere.
After all, it was the third time.
The boss sat here quietly, as if he was waiting for his arrival early in the morning. Zhuge silently opened the chair, and this time he sat down without anyone's greeting.
"Guest, is there anything I can do for you?"
"I want to find Nanako." Zhuge took a deep breath and looked at Luo Qiu seriously. There was a firmness in his eyes that was not there in the previous two times. "Originally, this was not what I planned at the beginning."
Luo Qiu sat like this, "Please tell me."
Zhuge took a deep breath and said, "At first I planned... I thought about what to do, I wanted to make Nanako forgive me. It's fine, as long as she can forgive me... as long as she can forget the harm I have done to her."
Luo Qiu said indifferently: "We can indeed do this."
Zhuge shook his head and said: "However, I gave up this idea... I realized that I don't have the qualifications. I have already hurt her. If I still use this despicable method to get her forgiveness, then I... then I still have What qualifications can I continue to see her and face her. I don't have this qualification."
"I was scared at the beginning, I avoided her, I timidly walked away from her sight. I have never hated myself so much for a moment." Zhuge smiled bitterly: "In the end, I still can't do anything... In the end, I'm still the same Zhuge who didn't accomplish anything. But this time... but this time..."
He said heavily and loudly: "This time, I hope to use my own efforts to make Nanako forgive me! So, I just want to know where she is."
Luo Qiu thought for a while before slowly asking: "Guest, allow me to ask curiously, how do you plan to get Miss Nanako's forgiveness?"
Zhuge was startled, "I... I don't know... I just wondered how I could find her."
Luo Qiu nodded: "If the guest is looking for it by yourself, as long as she hides from you, you probably won't be able to find it for the rest of your life. Do you believe it?"
Zhuge nodded helplessly.
"How about using up your three days of life?"
Zhuge nodded without thinking about it.
"As you wish, honorable guest."
Luo Qiu stood up at this time, walked to Zhuge's side, reached out and pressed his shoulder, and the scene in front of him began to spiral away from Zhuge's sight.
When he regained his sight, he found that he was suddenly downstairs of the rental house he was renting.
"This...here..." Zhuge looked at this familiar place in surprise: "Nanako...is it here?"
Luo Qiu held the black cane in his hand and pointed upwards: "To be exact, it's in your room."
"How can it be… "
Luo Qiu said indifferently: "When you left, she came back, and after you came back, she left early. She pinpointed the time for you to go out and return, and prepared in advance."
Zhuge shook his shoulders, "She...she alone..."
Luo Qiu suddenly said: "It shouldn't be boring, after all, Miss Nanako has more work recently than before."
Looking at Zhuge who showed a puzzled expression, Luo Qiu said to himself: "I clean up the room every day, but I am afraid of being discovered, so after cleaning it, it will return to its original appearance. I will see you every day. Watch the movies, videos, etc., and then delete the records... etc."
That must... must be more lonely than ever
Zhuge couldn't imagine...how she spent those hours.
"So...you have done so much for me all this time." Zhuge stared blankly at Luo Qiu: "I...I also want to do one thing for her...I, can I still buy something from you?"
"Of course! You have always been our respected guest." Zhuge took a deep breath: "I want to go to a place."
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TV station.
The Diamond 120 Seconds column program group broadcast live. As the most popular program in the city, no, it is the most popular program in the surrounding provinces, and it seems to have a terrifying ratings.
On such a stage, even if he stepped down in ten or eight seconds, he would have enough bragging rights!
"Mr. Chen Jiaming is ready, you will be on stage in a minute!"
Chen Jiaming took a deep breath. In a minute, he will be on this big stage... and become famous in one fell swoop! When the time comes, go to the goddamn food company king!
Labor and capital want to become celebrities and make a lot of money! !
After jumping a few times casually to move his tense nerves, Chen Jiaming began to adjust his breathing. But just for a moment, he seemed to have a flash in front of his eyes.
Wiping his eyes, he saw a huge figure coming out of the locker room. Chen Jiaming was stunned for a moment, and said in a daze, "Zhuge? Why are you here? This is the backstage... Well, but you are here to cheer me on? Hahaha! Thank you!"
Unexpectedly, Zhuge suddenly rushed in front of Chen Jiaming at this moment, raised his fist without saying a word, and hit Chen Jiaming hard in the stomach!
"This punch is for you to delete my game!"
"you!"
Zhuge twitched his knees fiercely again, and once again, he pressed against the opponent's abdominal cavity... Although he is a fat man, the strength of his legs cannot be underestimated. Chen Jiaming immediately squatted holding his stomach I fell down, spit out the bitter water, and almost passed out from the pain!
"This time... there is no reason, I just want to hit you!!"
"you… "
"What are you! I was also unhappy seeing you early in the morning!" Zhuge took a deep breath, suddenly jumped up, and pressed down hard on Chen Jiaming.
Such a heavy blow made Boss Luo next to him feel very painful when he looked at it... He shook his head, and touched Chen Jiaming's body with his cane, causing him to fall into a coma.
"Chen Jiaming! Chen Jiaming! Are you ready?"
"Ready...ready!" Zhuge glanced at Luo Qiu, seeing that he didn't respond, he quickly responded.
Without changing any clothes, he just opened the door, passed under the eyes of the program assistant, and walked to the backstage preparation of the stage. After hearing the introduction of the host on that stage, he walked onto the stage superior.
The host was taken aback for a moment, but he couldn't speak for a while, and actually stepped back step by step... to the edge of the stage.
"... Isn't this Zhuge?"
"It's Zhuge? Where's Chen Jiaming?"
"Fuck... what's going on?"
Under the spotlight, Zhuge walked to the center of the stage step by step, passed the microphone from his assistant, and glanced at the audience in the recording studio... There were more than five hundred people, as well as the jury, and seven or eight cameras. VCR.
He has never shown his face in front of so many people, and he has never stood under the sight of so many people, but he knows that there are not only these, but also the countless audiences in front of the TV.
He didn't dare to imagine how he came up here... Fear and nervousness made the palm of his hand holding the wheat soaked, and he had to hold it with both hands, lest it might fall off anytime.
Zhuge found that even if he spoke, it was extremely difficult... He subconsciously lowered his head, not daring to look at the eyes of the audience, the jury.
Nanako... is looking at me.
Thinking of her staying in that small house by herself, silently taking care of it, and silently restoring things to their original appearance, Zhuge felt a pain in his heart, and raised his head.
"I... my name is Zhuge, and my full name is Zhuge Cong."
My name is Zhuge, I am not Zhuge.
"I... I have been a very timid person since I was a child, not smart, and very fat. I failed the exam, I couldn't even run 200 meters in running, and I didn't even have a girlfriend until I graduated from college. Can't deliver."
But...but now I have someone who has always cared about me.
"After graduation, I just worked as the most useless odd job in a food company. I thought I would be like this for the rest of my life..."
"I want to work hard, but I'm afraid of failure. Although I look like I'm fine, I care about other people's eyes all the time."
"I don't have extra activities, I come home from work, I can't do anything after I get home, I play games, I watch anime... In the eyes of others, I am just an escapist."
"I am indeed a person who denies myself... I have been thinking about why others have always disliked me. But recently I suddenly discovered that it is not others who dislike me... but myself who dislikes myself. "
"I met a... a girl who is beautiful and cute, who even understands me, supports me, despises me, and will watch those childish and ridiculous cartoons with me, and will watch me play games by my side."
"But I actually dislike her...I actually, actually hurt her..."
"I'm really the worst person..." Zhuge said here, showing a self-deprecating smile: "Even just now, I directly knocked out my colleague and walked up here instead of him."
When the director team in the audience heard this, they immediately panicked.
The director suddenly slapped the table, "What are you panicking! Fuck! Continue the live broadcast! This is the ratings!!! Continue to continue!!!"
"... Looking back, she has been silently doing a lot of things for me, but I seem to have done nothing for her."
"So, please give me time for a song." Zhuge lowered his head silently: "Let me express what I want to say... what I want to express, my apology, my thoughts, everything about me... I only care about you."
"If I hadn't met you."
"Where will I be?"
"How's your day going?"
"Whether life should be cherished."
Nanako, I'm sorry. Now…
"maybe know someone"
"Live an ordinary life."
Now, please look at me... look at me, I'm right here.
"Let time not pass by"
"I only care about you"
"Willing to infect your breath"
I'm not afraid of anything anymore.
"So I... please... don't let, don't let, I leave you!"
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"Zhuge..."
cry.
She was sitting in front of the TV, and the suddenly turned program made her stunned for a moment, but when she saw that clumsy figure appearing, she never left her sight.
I covered my mouth with my hands... I felt that it was not enough, and then covered my mouth with both hands.
"Zhuge... I really want to see you."
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