Jiang Yanyi was stunned for a moment, caught off guard by his words: "Why are you talking about this all of a sudden?"
Feng Shuo looked at her confused expression, sighed softly in his heart, turned his head, and kissed her forehead with his cool lips. There was an undercurrent in his eyes that Jiang Yanyi could not see: "I want to tie you to me, so you can't run away in this life."
Jiang Yan turned his head to look at him: "You said this as if you had done something wrong."
Feng Shuo reached out and ruffled her already not-so-tidy hair, "I have a clear conscience towards you."
He looked at the crescent moon in the sky and said, "I've been having a dream recently. In the dream, you died, but I didn't recognize you. Xizhou City was destroyed, and corpses were everywhere..."
Every time I wake up from a dream, cold sweat covers my back and a chill runs deep in my bones.
Everything in the dream was too real, he couldn't even tell which was the dream and which was the real world. But the boundless sense of vanity and fear almost swallowed him up.
When Jiang Yanyi heard Feng Shuo talking about his dream, his heart was already in turmoil. In all likelihood, what he dreamed about was his original destiny.
Maybe it's time to tell him everything.
She mustered up her courage and said, "Feng Shuo, what if I say that it's all true?"
Feng Shuo's eyes became cold almost instantly, and the hand around her waist unconsciously increased its strength: "What do you mean?"
Jiang Yanyi looked into his eyes and said, "Do you remember what I said before? I said that Jiang Yanyi from Beijing and I are not the same person."
Her heart was beating wildly. At this moment, she was not sure what she would face after she told everything. Perhaps her family and loved ones would turn against her. But she also knew that it was time to tell Feng Shuo all this.
She calmed herself down and continued, "The real daughter of the Jiang family died by hitting her head against a wall on her first day in Xizhou."
There was a heaviness in Feng Shuo's eyes that Jiang Yanyi couldn't understand. He stroked Jiang Yanyi's cheek and asked, "If all that is true, am I dreaming now?"
Jiang Yanyi shook his head: "This world, in the world I originally lived in, is just a book. What you saw in your dream was the original ending of the book. I don't know how I ended up in this body after I died in my original world. What you see and experience now is real, but there are differences from the trajectory of the original book."
Feng Shuo found it ridiculous, but he had investigated Jiang Yanyi before because of suspicion. She was a completely different person when she arrived in Xizhou than when she was in the capital.
Now, this seems to make sense.
It's just a bit ridiculous. Everything he had gained by fighting for his life for more than 20 years, whether it was pain or joy, was just a fate determined by others with just a few strokes of the pen.
Feng Shuo closed his eyes and asked, "Then who are you?"
"My real name is Jiang Yanyi. In the world where I used to live, I was a restaurant owner."
Feng Shuo said: "The person I met from the beginning was you?"
Jiang Yanyi could feel that his arms were a little stiff. The ancients revered ghosts and gods. In their eyes, he was almost a wandering ghost.
This embrace may no longer belong to her.
There was a sharp, suffocating pain in my heart, as if a sharp knife had stabbed into it, causing blood to flow.
Jiang Yanyi stood up. She was smiling, but she couldn't hide the sadness in her eyes. "Yes, and no. This body is not mine. I wasn't this pretty before. I was so ordinary... If I blend into the crowd, you might not recognize me."
When tears welled up in her eyes, Jiang Yanyi realized that she was even more deeply involved in this relationship than she realized.
It was also at this time that she realized that she was very afraid of losing Feng Shuo.
The soberness and rationality we promised have all become a joke.
When they first met, he stood under the wind lamp in Huotou Camp with cold eyes and brows. After they got to know each other, he always had a bit of rebelliousness on his lips when he smiled. Later, when he looked at her, his eyes would soften unconsciously.
Past events flashed through Jiang Yanyi's mind. She was playing chess in his room and had notes stuck all over his forehead. When she made him medicinal food, he refused to eat vegetarian food. She said she wanted to keep a cat, but he said he disliked it, but when the kitten climbed into his boot, he just looked helpless. When she learned of Madam Jiang's death, she took her out of the city on horseback to relax. In the plum forest, she shook the plum trees to shake off the snow on his body...
It turned out that without realizing it, she and he already had so many memories and pasts.
To let it all go is like pulling out a vine whose roots have penetrated into your heart.
Does it hurt
How can it not hurt
But if you choose to confess, then all this should have been expected.
Feng Shuo was silent for a long time. Jiang Yanyi didn't dare to look him in the eye again. She turned her head away to hide the tears on her face and said in a casual tone, "Did I scare you? This is the secret I mentioned before."
Feng Shuo finally spoke, his voice hoarse: "I'm sorry."
What are you sorry for? Are you sorry that you can't accept her like this anymore
Even though he had anticipated such an ending, Jiang Yanyi's heart still ached at this moment.
My mind was in a mess. I felt cold before, but now all my senses seemed to have become dull. Only my heart felt like it had been cut by a sharp knife and was hurting from the cold wind.
Jiang Yanyi just wanted to escape from here quickly. She stood up. Without her cold cloak, the chill of the north wind blowing across the roof penetrated into her bones.
"It's nothing. It's late and I should go back. Please help me find a wooden ladder after Your Highness goes down." She tried hard to cover it up, but her strong nasal voice still betrayed her.
Tears couldn't stop flowing, Jiang Yanyi wiped his eyes in embarrassment.
When someone hugged her tightly from behind and wrapped her in the warm cloak again, she could no longer hold back her sobs.
"What nonsense are you talking about?" Feng Shuo's voice sounded like a sigh.
"If I had known earlier that I didn't have much time left, I might not have provoked you. If I can't change the destined outcome and I die, how will you protect yourself?" He once said that he would teach her how to ride a horse, shoot arrows, wield a sword, and enable her to protect herself.
But if he died, she would be like a fish on the chopping board, at the mercy of the royal family and various princes in order to divide up his power.
Jiang Yanyi didn't expect that this was the reason why he said "I'm sorry". He was so sad and happy that he couldn't speak: "Aren't you afraid of me?"
Feng Shuo asked her to turn around and wiped away the tears from her eyes: "Why should I be afraid of you?"
"I am a lonely ghost from another world..."
"Luckily, you came. Fortunately, I met you." Feng Shuo stroked her cheek with his thumb. "When I had those dreams, I was thinking, what would I do if you were really gone? Now I tell you, Jiang Yanyi, I will go crazy."
"If you say this is a dream, and what's in my dream is the real world, I probably never want to wake up."
"Before you, I didn't know what love was. After I met you, I realized that a person's heart can really accommodate another person. When it snowed, I wanted to show you the first thing. I found a pearl hairpin by chance and bought it because I thought it would suit you. When I was looking for a book, I found a travel journal and thought you might like it... I didn't think about you on purpose, but whether I opened my eyes or closed them, you were all there."
Jiang Yanyi hugged Feng Shuo tightly, sobbing on his shoulder.
Feng Shuo gently stroked her long hair on her back: "When people forget another person, the first thing they forget is his voice and appearance. Those things that people remember at first are actually the easiest to forget. When we are both old, maybe you don't even remember what I look like now. What you still remember are the decades we have walked together, the things I taught you, and the little habits you have inadvertently developed."
"We will grow old together. Appearance is the first thing to fade away over time. For a long time, we will see each other's aging. I don't even mind what you look like when you are old. Do you still think I care what you look like now?"
He lifted Jiang Yanyi's chin with one hand, and kissed her eyelids, making her cry uncontrollably: "Are you stupid?"
"Feng Shuo." Jiang Yanyi called him with a strong nasal tone.
"Um?"
"Marry me."
"good."
***
After being blown by the cold wind on the roof for most of the night, Jiang Yanyi fell ill the next day. He felt dizzy and couldn't get out of bed.
Aunt Guo got up early in the morning and cooked porridge in the kitchen. When it was time for dinner, Jiang Yanyi still hadn't gotten up. She went to her room to call her, only to find that Jiang Yanyi had a fever. Her whole body was burning hot, and her eyes were swollen like walnuts.
"Oh, boss, how come you are so sick?" Aunt Guo was shocked and asked Yang Xiu to go out and call a doctor.
Jiang Yanyi had a headache, his eyes hurt, his limbs were sore, and he felt weak all over. When he spoke, he realized that his voice was hoarse. "It's okay."
"That's not a big deal. Don't go out in the wind today and take good care of yourself." Aunt Guo pushed Jiang Yanyi, who was struggling to sit up, back into the quilt. She looked around the room and couldn't figure out how Jiang Yanyi caught a cold. She said, "Is the room too big to heat with a charcoal basin? I'll get another charcoal basin."
Aunt Guo was quick and nimble and quickly found a charcoal brazier.
When Qiu Kui heard that Jiang Yanyi was ill, she was so anxious that tears came out and she stayed by Jiang Yanyi's bedside and refused to leave.
It is said that illness comes like a mountain falling. Jiang Yanyi now feels chest tightness and nausea, and can't eat. If she didn't know that this is just a common cold in later generations, she would have thought she had a terminal illness.
However, the medical level in ancient times was not as high as that in later generations, and many people died from colds and flu, so everyone regarded colds and flu as serious illnesses.
The doctor came to check Jiang Yanyi's pulse and prescribed some medicine. Aunt Guo went to the kitchen to boil the medicine, while Qiu Kui used a warm cloth to apply to Jiang Yanyi's forehead.
Chu Yangui also wanted to come and see Jiang Yanyi, but considering that Chu Yanyi was already in poor health and was afraid of infecting him with the cold, Jiang Yanyi did not let him go.
As moved as she was on the rooftop last night, Jiang Yanyi now regrets it. Why did she go to the rooftop in the middle of winter to experience a life-and-death farewell with that guy Feng Shuo
Even if we have to confront each other, it would be better to find a safe and warm place.
As expected, when emotions arise, people act without thinking.
She collapsed on the bed, her head covered with a towel, and couldn't stop sighing.
At this time, Feng Shuo, who was discussing matters with a group of aides in the study of the palace, was sneezing continuously and felt dizzy.
During the break, Xing Yao couldn't help but whispered, "Master, I'm afraid you have caught a cold. Let the doctor in the mansion take your pulse and prescribe some medicine."
Feng Shuo raised his eyes and said, "I will catch a cold? A-choo—"
The study was silent.
The King of Liaonan, who had always been vulnerable to knife and sword wounds, caught a cold for the first time in his life.
The author has something to say: Soldiers: Our prince is as strong as an ox and never gets sick!
Servant of the palace: It’s just rumors, all rumors. He is sick.
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