255 Extra Story: Wei Lan (35)
Extra: Wei Lan (35)
"Most of the time, we stayed in this room. Your elementary school is too far away from me, so I didn't go to find you, and my high school was too far away from you, so you didn't come here, so our intersection is only in In this room, I thought, your world is only so big."
Wei Lan felt that she seemed to be able to vaguely guess what it was.
Wei Xun poured out the dishwashing water in the bowl, refilled the clean water, and washed the dishes quietly. His voice is very calm, those things that he used to care about are now relieved, he said, "No."
"Your world is not so big. Your world is big. Even if I walk in, I am there, and I am similar to other people. I may be important to you, but this importance is not irreplaceable. It's not essential, you like me like you like your friends, you can have many friends, likewise you can have many brothers. I'm not your ideal brother, am I? You like it, It should be the kind of gentle and sunny person who is as kind and enthusiastic as you, but I am not. I am a person with indifferent feelings, cold nature, selfish and cruel. I have never been a good person, but you have always been a good boy. If It wasn't because you happened to go wrong that day and came to my house, if it wasn't because you didn't have any friends here to play with, the two of us wouldn't have met."
"No." Wei Lan whispered unconsciously, but Wei Xun didn't hear it. He was calm and rare. For the first time, he expressed his thoughts to a person. Although the other party was still very young, he did not. Without being perfunctory, he was very serious and said to Wei Lan very slowly, "We are different, our worlds are different, and our personalities are different, so that day, after I realized these, I had a problem. I Be strong by nature, I can't accept that you occupy my whole world, but I'm just a dispensable corner of your world, and I don't want to tell you these things to make you pity me. So I made the simplest My choice, I chose to let you go, as long as you leave, then everything will return to before. My world is still only me, and you, you are gone, how many people are in your world? It has nothing to do with me. This was the easiest and most suitable method for me at that time."
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Wei Lan's tears flowed unconsciously, he thought of the day when he returned to Wei Xun's house, he went into the study, Wei Xun talked to him very calmly, saying that he didn't look at his phone, that the game was over, Don't come to me again. Wei Lan has been wondering why, Wei Xun still cared about him very much at noon, and would teach others because he was almost bullied by others; when he told Wei Xun that he would not walk with him after school in the afternoon , Wei Xun is also the same as usual, why suddenly, in just a few hours, everything has changed, now, Wei Lan knows.
No matter how much Wei Lan thought about it, he never thought that it would be this. Wei Xun actually drove him away for this reason, and they had been separated for so long because of this reason. Wei Lan was angry and distressed, got up from the sofa, and walked to the kitchen .
"In that case, why do you still come to me?" Wei Lan asked him, "Don't you think it's best for me to leave?"
Wei Xun was silent for a while, and said softly, "It's all here, it's not like you can go if you say go." @无限好文，在杰米哒
He thought that Wei Lan's arrival was just a breeze blowing on his face, making him feel comfortable and natural, but it wasn't until Wei Lan really left that he realized that Wei Lan's arrival was more like a typhoon entering the country, changing everything . It's not that he didn't want to really break up with Wei Lan. He told himself over and over again that Wei Lan's world was no different with him or without him. He didn't lack himself, and he didn't need to find him. But even if he told himself that every day, he would still stare at the window and watch Wei Lan pass by his house again and again every day.
This is an experience that Wei Xun has never had before. He experienced and felt it, and finally compromised to himself after realizing that all resistance was futile. Wei Xun has always been a very honest person, he faced his own psychological feelings honestly, so after discovering that the relationship between him and Wei Lan was not equal, he chose to let Wei Lan leave; When he still wanted Wei Lan to be by his side, he chose to pick Wei Lan back.
Every move he made was his truest state of mind at that time, he would not embarrass himself, nor would he wrong himself, in this regard, he and Wei Lan were almost like brothers.
Wei Lan walked to the door of the kitchen and looked up at him. Wei Xun was washing the dishes with his head down, with earphones in his ears, and said to him unhurriedly, "I'm sorry."
Wei Lan looked at him, and suddenly found that between them, every time, it was Wei Xun who was apologizing. Of course, Wei Lan didn't think there was anything wrong with her. Every conflict between them was caused by Wei Xun, and Wei Lan felt that his apology was justified. But for a person like Wei Xun, it was so wrong for him to apologize.
Wei Lan recalled that Wei Xun once said to Yun Ying indifferently after he had a conflict with Yun Ying, "Wei Lan will not apologize, he will never apologize." Only now did he realize that this sentence was not simply saying What was for Yunying was also for Wei Xun himself, so Wei Xun played the role of giving way every time in their quarrel.
He has been giving in, even though he is wronged and uncomfortable, but he is still giving in.
Wei Lan hung up the phone and put it back in his pajamas pocket. He walked up behind Wei Xun, poked Wei Xun, and then, after Wei Xun turned around in surprise, he hugged Wei Xun tightly.
"No," he said, "It's not what you think, no brother." Wei Lan hugged him, her eyes a little sour.
Because Wei Xun couldn't speak to Wei Lan, he chose to make a phone call. He couldn't even concentrate on talking about this matter, but needed to do other things to divert his attention so that he could not talk about it. Then feel unspeakable. So while he was washing the dishes, he was wearing headphones and talking to Wei Lan. It was precisely because he was wearing headphones and his mind was on the phone that he didn't realize that Wei Lan had walked behind him.
He looked at Wei Lan in his arms, at a loss, and could only whisper, "Why did you come in?"
Wei Lan looked up at him, and said seriously: "It's not what you think." He looked at Wei Xun, a little anxious, and a little afraid that he couldn't explain clearly, so his brows frowned, "You are different from them, You are not dispensable, you are obviously the most ideal brother in my heart."
He unconsciously grabbed Wei Xun's clothes, and explained to him, "Other people around me, whether it's Lingling, Xiaopang, or other classmates who have a good relationship, are all approached by them. They wanted to play with me, so they came to me first. Only you, only you I approached actively, you are the only one, you are not dispensable, you are obviously very important."
He looked at Wei Xun, "When I was young, when I was very young, I thought brother Yu Rui was very good, because he was Lingling's brother. When we were young, he always took us to play together. The idea of the idea came from him, but brother Yu Rui is just Lingling's brother, he is not my brother, nor is he my ideal brother."
"My grandfather is very powerful, my mother is very powerful, and I am also very powerful, so my brother should also be very good, but brother Yu Rui can't even beat me, so he is not the brother I want. I want the kind of very Great brother, like my grandfather and mother, no matter what I do, I don’t think it’s my fault. If someone bullies me, they will teach me a lesson. No one can beat them, so no one can bully me But brother Yu Rui can't do it, he doesn't know how to fight, and he is not strong enough, he can't even beat me, and he doesn't like to beat people, but you can, you are very good, you can do everything, you are my ideal brother."
"As I said," Wei Lan repeated, "you all think my grandfather is terrible, but I don't think that I like my grandfather very much because he is good to me. So, I don't think there is anything wrong with you, even if So what if you are like what you said, you will not treat me like that, as long as you treat me well, I don't care how you treat other people, because I am not them, I just want to make myself happy. "
He kept explaining, and tried hard to recall what Wei Xun said just now, but found that no matter how he explained and how to do it, he couldn't put himself and Wei Xun's world on an equal footing. He liked Wei Xun, but he also liked his own. Family and friends, he can't let him be the only one in his world like Wei Xun did. Wei Lan was a little anxious. He couldn't think of a reasonable way to solve this problem. He felt that this was unfair to Wei Xun, but he didn't know what to do.
Seeing him frowning, Wei Xun comforted him and said, "I see, don't feel bad, it's okay, it's okay."
Wei Lan shook his head, he tried hard to think of a way to balance the relationship between them, he didn't want to be unfair to Wei Xun, he wanted to do his best to treat Wei Xun better, he suddenly said, "I'll give you Would you like to build a house?"
Wei Xun froze for a moment, not understanding what he meant by this sentence. @无限好文, all in Jamie
Wei Lan suddenly understood, "I'll build you a house, and you're the only one in this house. I'll surround this house and keep no one close. Only you, okay?"
Wei Xun was a little dazed, he didn't even know how to answer Wei Lan, Wei Lan raised his head and smiled at him, and asked him, "Brother, don't you like me calling someone else's brother?"
Wei Xun didn't expect him to realize this. He didn't express this clearly in what he said to Wei Lan just now. He thought Wei Lan wouldn't see it, but Wei Lan still saw it.
Wei Lan smiled and said, "Then I won't call other people's elder brothers in the future. I call them elder brothers, such as Brother Yu Rui, because they are older than me and take good care of me. If you don't like it, I won't call them elder brothers, or When calling them, put their name in front."
Wei Lan's words were very gentle, he looked at Wei Xun, his eyes sparkled slightly, and he said, "I will build you a house, only you live in it, I will only call you brother, and then I will not let others approach you."