Jiang Zhiyi hung up the phone with Jiang Zhida and sat there for a long time without moving, with a lot of random thoughts in her mind.
Could she really lose Qian Ran
Jiang Zhiyi asked herself, she didn't know, she just knew that when she thought about this question, her heart ached so much that she couldn't breathe.
And her parents.
Could she really give up her family completely? Impossible. Her parents had always been very good to her except for wanting her to follow the route they had arranged. She couldn't just stay away from home and contact her parents forever.
And just as Jiang Zhida said, her parents are old, her grandfather is old too, and she is indeed very selfish.
That evening, Jiang Zhiyi sat in the embassy office with her face covered and cried silently, tears flowing out from between her fingers.
The problems that she had avoided before were ruthlessly exposed by Jiang Zhida. She could no longer deceive herself. In fact, she was just a coward.
Because she couldn't resist her parents, she ran away. Because she offended someone in Guangzhou, she fled abroad.
She knew that Qian Ran loved her, so even though she knew that their current situation was not suitable, she never thought of letting Qian Ran go.
Jiang Zhiyi really loves her dream, but she knows in her heart that the dream can also be realized in China. She is just afraid that she will offend people again and that those people will hurt her family.
When she went abroad before, Jiang Zhiyi thought she could give up everything for her dream, but now when she was asked if she could, she found that the answer was no.
She couldn't abandon everything, but could she give up everything she had worked so hard to achieve abroad? Jiang Zhiyi was reluctant to do so.
In order to get the truth, Jiang Zhiyi was willing to risk her own life. She and Heida encountered many dangers abroad, but she also got a lot of valuable news.
In this country, Jiang Zhiyi worked hard to integrate with the local people and tried hard to find news worth reporting. Finally, her strength was seen by domestic units and she also gained a foothold in the local area. If she leaves now, all these will be gone.
Jiang Zhiyi was caught in a dilemma. Dusk was falling and there was no one else in her office. Darkness slowly enveloped her from the window.
But Jiang Zhiyi seemed not to feel anything at all. He sat on the chair with his head down, his whole body immersed in the night.
After a long time, there was a knock on the door. Jiang Zhiyi's body moved suddenly, and the whole person seemed to wake up. He asked in a hoarse and tired voice: "Who?"
"Miss Jiang, it's time to eat."
It’s Heilongjiang University. He has never returned to China since he followed her here.
Because he received Qian Ran's order, he was responsible for protecting himself and even reminded her of things like eating late which would affect her health.
Jiang Zhiyi didn't move, but just said: "Brother Hei, come in, I have something to ask you."
Heida opened the door and came in. He found that the light was not on. He did not move, but just stood at the door and asked, "Miss Jiang, what do you want to ask?"
Jiang Zhiyi turned his back to Heida, and said in a hollow voice, "Brother Heida, do you miss home?"
Heida: “I want to.”
Jiang Zhiyi: "Then why didn't you tell me you wanted to go home?"
Heida: "My boss gave me money to protect you. He also gave money to my family. They live very well."