There are two black and blue lines on the paper, interspersed with the causal love and hate of the previous life, entangled in the true and false past.
Song Yu lowered his head and stared blankly, looking shocked and confused.
He was frightened.
Xie Sui said, "Who wrote "Gentle Control" and where did you read it? Can you tell me, Yu Yu?"
Song Yu stepped on the blanket with bare feet, and felt a chill spread all over his body, and his head was in a mess.
He pursed his lips and scratched his hair, his heart was ruthless, and he decided to confess: "At first I thought I was not from this world."
"I saw this book in another world. After I slept, I wore it."
"There was something that claimed to be the system. It told me a lot, to the effect of telling me to follow the plot, but I didn't listen. I chose to go to Jingcheng to find you, and then it disappeared in anger. When it came back, it told me not to like you. , but I still fell in love with you, and it left angrily."
Xie Sui nodded with gentle eyes.
Song Yu's mood slowly stabilized, and he was silent for a while. He didn't plan to tell Xie Sui about the revenge and regret that 008 said, but was serious and calm: "Xie Sui, if one day, I suddenly fainted or fell into a deep sleep, you Don't be afraid, at that time I should meet the system and the main god it talks about. I will definitely kill them and wake up to find you."
Xie Sui held his cold hand and said in a low voice, "Well."
Song Yu raised his head and carefully traced his face with his eyes under the light. Eyebrows, nose bridge, lips, familiar and intimate. The chill in his heart was driven away by the warmth, and he laughed again: "Finally, let's talk."
Xie Sui also smiled and kissed the corner of his eyes.
"Speak up."
Song Yu felt that he couldn't understand Xie Sui's mind.
But all the root causes and crises lie in him. As his boyfriend, Xie Sui should not feel well.
Song Yu said comfortingly: "Don't panic, since I woke up, I did not say anything that the system said, and it can't do anything to me now."
"It's too powerful, Yu Yu."
Xie Sui said with a smile, but his eyes were cold.
Song Yu felt a little sour in his heart, he knew that speaking of 008 and the Lord God was just adding to his troubles, how to solve the two ideological things, but this is how he can give Xie Sui a sense of security now.
He changed the subject: "You came back from rebirth, did you think I was stupid at first."
"what?"
"...I think it should be."
Thinking of this, Song Yu cursed inwardly.
Xie Sui said, "No, it's love at first sight. I like everything you do."
Song Yu was appeased, and his eyes fell on the diary next to him again.
"Is that written by Aunt Xu?"
"Well," Xie Sui opened the diary and said softly, "Do you want to see it?"
With the yellowish light of the lamp, the words above took him into the life of a woman who died for love.
Xie Sui said slowly: "When I was born, she cut off contact with the Xu family and lived in a villa in the mountains, focusing on painting. There is only one nanny in the family, and my father may come once a few weeks. What to say, she has been living in her own world, and no one can disturb her."
"After she died, I always hated her. In the eyes of many people, she was a beautiful and stupid woman. No one sympathized with her. She felt that everything was her own fault."
Xie Sui paused and said calmly, "in my eyes, it was the same before."
Song Yu quietly held his hand.
"She gave me indifference before her death, and torture after her death. She gave me life, but she didn't ask me if I wanted to come to this world to endure this."
"She ended her life on my birthday." After a pause, Xie Sui said lightly, "Life and death are on the same day."
He turned the diary to the middle pages: "This diary has always been in the cabinet at Jingcheng's house, but I haven't read it. In my last life, Xie Sinian handed it to me and asked me to see it."
"When I started getting to know her, I realized that hatred was meaningless."
"She's just a failed mother."
"She was pampered since she was a child, only others gave her thousands of pets, and she would never love anyone. Xie Sinian was only one of the reasons for cutting off ties with the Xu family. It was her family who broke her down. The parents who had petted her for more than ten years began to Pushing her to those high-ranking men in city A like an auction, her marriage became a deal. She was sad and collapsed, so she chose to have a cold war with her family first."
Song Yu looked at Xu Qiao's small print on the diary. During her time at the villa in the mountains, every word could tell her care and fear, and her cautiousness as a mother for the first time.
"Today Asui was praised by the teacher again, he is really a smart boy" "I want to do something for him, but I don't seem to know anything" "Asui drew me a picture, I should praise him for touching The head encouraged him, but what have I done?" "My Asui is awesome, but I can't even let him go to school normally." "Xie Silai is here, we had a fight, and Asui was frightened. Well, I was so embarrassed by crying during the day that I didn't dare to see him, the nanny said he was asleep, so I dared to see it secretly"
Xie Sui didn't speak any more.
Song Yu held the diary, but slowly turned it over. Xu Qiao rarely mentions Xie Sinian in the back, and records Xie Sui's growth bit by bit. She is aloof and withdrawn, and she doesn't know how to get along with her own children, so she can only learn to respond slowly and clumsily. One page of the diary was wrinkled a lot, and she must have been wet with tears countless times. When she knew the truth, she collapsed and was speechless. Why, the three words keep repeating.
When Qin Qiuyun was framed and hid in Jingcheng, the diary was empty for many days.
When she picked up the pen again, it was already the third day in Jingcheng. In Xie Sui's memory, her mother, who had driven herself crazy in her room because of love, was sometimes calm and sometimes crazy. When she was calm, she thought about her future and Xie Sui's future. She thought that she could still paint. She can support her children to grow up healthy and healthy. She actually pushed open the door countless times. When Xie Sui was sleeping in the middle of the night, she stared at her child. It was all night and she wept silently.
Xie Sui remembered a past event in Jingcheng: "Do you know why Zhu Zhixing's family hates me so much?"
Song Yu was stunned: "What?"
"She actually tried to go out to work, but was followed upstairs by Zhu Zhixing's father on the first night. He forced her at the door, I rushed out of the room, pushed the man downstairs, and broke his leg. ."
Song Yu's throat was dry.
For a while I didn't know what to say.
Xu Qiao was well protected. She was like a fragile and precious flower, which was unbearable and could be easily destroyed by any wind and rain outside. The Xu family raised her like this, hoping that she would live docilely and beautifully as a canary in a gorgeous cage in the future. She is completely helpless against the sinister world, beauty is the original sin.
She is such a proud person who lives in the vicious language of women every day.
After her death, Song Yu also slowly found clues in the diary at the back.
"I'm sorry, I have not been a qualified mother since you were born. I didn't give you a splendid childhood. I didn't fulfill any obligations related to the word 'mother'. I even have to learn how to communicate with you little by little. I didn't even hug you until you were a year old."
"You were born when I was at my worst, so I left my worst and worst side to you."
When writing this jargon, she seemed really sad, her handwriting trembled, so sad that she couldn't hold the pen and couldn't write a single word.
There were no tears on the paper, but it was more desperate than any previous collapse.
"She already knew Xie Sinian's identity at that time, she couldn't face it, and she felt that her existence was destined to drag me down."
"She wrote a letter to Xie Sinian before she died, but the phone didn't get through. She sent messages and emails, and contacted the Xu family."
"She felt that she was the sinner who caused all my suffering, and wanted to use her own death in exchange for Xie Sinian's guilt, or the Xu family's forgiveness, to give me a good future. But it's too naive, there are Qin Qiuyun in the Xie family, and there is that in the Xu family. With Xu Shien on the side, how could she get her wish. And I don't like this birthday present at all."
There was a bit of sadness in Song Yu's eyes, and he quietly raised his head, only to see Xie Sui's expression of neither joy nor sorrow.
Xie Sui said to him softly, "It's just the past."
Song Yu nodded slowly.
He turned the diary to the first page. On the title page was a line of words written in pen. It seemed that Xu Qiao heard the play on the old TV when he first came to Jingcheng. It may also be that Grandma Chen whispered in her ear. Thoughts. The strokes were rushed, as if to vent all the anger and collapse in my heart, but the last two words slowed down, stopped for a long time, and the ink penetrated into the paper. "He taught me to let go of the remaining hatred, avoid anger, and reform, change my feelings, break my love, turn around from the bitter sea, and realize Lan Yin early."
She didn't realize Lan Yin early.
Instead, he fell into a sea of misery and swallowed the fruit alone.
End with death.
I don't know why Song Yu's heart was shattered when he saw this jargon, and he didn't know what he had done in the forgotten memory.
Xie Sui said, "Are you sleepy?"
Song Yu shook his head. He was in good spirits. He closed the diary and whispered, "You don't ask me about Zhao Ziyu."
Xie Sui rubbed his hair: "He also remembered the past life, I know."
Song Yu's eyes widened slightly: "Did you hear that?"
Xie Sui smiled: "Well." Not only did he find it, but perhaps he also found clues to breaking the game from these messy things.
Song Yu sighed, scolding the system and the Lord God half to death again in his heart. Isn't their life very good, why do so many bad people and things come.
Thinking of this, Song Yu said, "After the New Year, you...?"
Xie Sui said, "You promised to accompany me through three years of high school, so you won't regret it."
Song Yu: "That's because I didn't know you were reborn before!"
Xie Sui smiled and said, "I'll follow you. Where do you go and where do I go."
After talking about so many heavy topics, Song Yu's feet were freezing cold, and his whole body was shaking. Xie Sui raised her eyebrows, bent over, grasped his cold ankles with warm hands, and urged him to go to bed irresistibly.
Song Yu lay in bed and couldn't fall asleep. When he turned on his mobile phone, he saw the explosion information that he hadn't read yet.
The "Thank God for being a boyfriend" on the forum also became popular with a high-rise building.
Song Yu received a question from Ma Xiaoding.
Heartbroken.
[Sadako did not forget the well digger: Brother Yu, you have always lied to me! unacceptable! What is your relationship with Xie God?]
Song Yu was stuck for a second, thinking about how to explain it. After all, he was still talking about the theory that love is not as good as learning in the psychology lecture, so he couldn't slap himself in the face.
what relationship.
The relationship of sleeping in a bed.
[Your husband, Brother Yu: A serious relationship.]
[Sadako did not forget the well digger:? ? ? You've only recovered until now, I already know! I got it! Not only did I guess, I'm going to go out and talk!]
The sky is high and the emperor is far away, and he is really getting more and more itchy.
Song Yu gritted his teeth.
[Your husband, Brother Yu: Then you can do the math for yourself first, if the score is less than 6, it is a big murderer]
Xie Sui said, "Why didn't you tell him?"
Song Yu hurriedly put away his mobile phone and hesitated: "This, we are still too young."
Xie Sui smiled, leaned over and hugged him, the heat between his lips was in his ear: "But we have done everything we should have done in our last life."