Ji Rang looked pale when he looked at the little girl crying in his arms until she died.
It turned out that she was not unrelated.
She was not as optimistic as she seemed.
It turned out that she was not proud of it, just like herself.
He was extremely worried, when she learned the truth, when she knew the reason behind all his rebellious behavior, she would no longer run after him. As Fang Xu said, she was proud of it, and he was ashamed of it.
It turned out not to be.
But at this moment, he peeped into her true heart and knew that she was like himself, but he was not very happy.
She cried so much that he was going crazy. If someone told him to give his life, she would not be so uncomfortable, and he would definitely give it away without hesitation.
The little girl touched his chin with her forehead, and when she raised her head, tears touched his face. She tugged at the corners of his clothes tightly with her fingers, like a life-saving straw, and tremblingly asked him, "I shouldn't blame him, am I?"
The long-standing belief in her eyes is thin and fragile.
On this rainy day, it will be broken easily.
But when she asked this sentence, she was clearly expecting. It's like hoping that someone will stand up and stitch her beliefs together again.
Ji Rang knew that he shouldn't lie.
How can you not blame him
This resentment has been in his heart for more than ten years. It has taken root and sprouts, and it has become an obsession that hurts when he touches it.
But he can't let the little girl be like him.
She loves the world, and should be treated tenderly by the world. She is pure and soft, with a flawless heart, and cannot fall into the abyss of resentment and pain like him.
Ji Rang lowered his head and kissed her wet eyes, her voice was deep and mute: "Yes, he is a hero."
He is a hero.
We can not be proud of him, but this does not prevent him from being a hero.
Ji Rang suddenly remembered that day, and his grandfather sternly said to him who was crying and making noises: "He is a soldier first! Your father is second! It is his wife's husband! Soldiers should do what a soldier should do!" That is his mission!"
He has been unable to understand, and he resents it to this day.
But remembering the photo of the police uniform on the tombstone, he suddenly realized when he looked at the little girl in his arms who finally stopped her tears because of his words.
A soldier or a policeman means sacrifice.
There are always people in this world who are not so selfish.
The rain outside the window finally stopped.
Qi Ying hugged his neck softly. After the tears were dry, his eyes looked red and watery, which made people feel distressed.
Ji Rang stood up holding her in his arms, then went to the bathroom to wet the towel, and came to wipe her face. Her skin was white and tender, even with very light strength, she still blushed after rubbing it.
She cried like this in front of him for the first time, a bit embarrassed, and she dared not look at him with her eyes down.
Ji Rang wiped her face for her, and asked her in a low voice, "Are you hungry?"
After all, crying is also a physically demanding thing.
She touched her stomach, a little embarrassed, but still obeyed the stomach's real thoughts and nodded silently.
He laughed and took her hand: "The rain has stopped, let's go have supper."
The city is particularly refreshing after the heavy rain. The neon lights illuminate the night, the stars flicker in the night, and the store that was forced to stop by the rainstorm opened its doors again.
Qi Ying walked down the street, and felt familiar with everything here.
Her voice was urn, with a nasal voice after crying, her little finger pointed at the front corner, and she said softly: "There is beef rice rolls there, which is very delicious."
Ji Rang led her to walk over. The owner of the rice rolls store was putting it in the basket. He said, "A beef rice roll."
The boss is beaming: "Yes."
He came here very fast, and when he saw Qi Ying at the door, he smiled and said, "Oh little sister, you haven't been here for a long time."
Qi Ying also smiled at him obediently.
After eating rice rolls, she licked the corners of her mouth and said: "I want to eat the spicy soup at the back of the school."
So Ji Rang took a taxi and took her to Yancheng No. 7 Middle School.
Yanqi seems to be much older than Haiyi. It is an old key high school in this city.
The wall outside the campus looks old, covered with creepers, and there are unknown purple flowers blooming on the wall.
Ji Rang made her happy: "I can turn over two walls of your school at once."
Qi Ying: "Wow, that's amazing."
Ji Rang: "..."
Is the little girl really complimenting him or hurting him
The street outside the school has been around for quite a while, and the roots of the trees on the street have been turned out of the ground, intertwined, and surrounded by small stone bricks. The branches and leaves above the head are lush, and the dark green leaves are hidden under the street lamps. Because of the heavy rain just now, water drips from time to time.
The Mala Tang at the back door was still open, and several students in Yanqi school uniforms ate and laughed.
The lady boss greeted me and asked with a smile, "Are you two?"
Ji Rang nodded and took her to a seat near the door. Qi Ying was familiar with the road, carrying the plate to get the vegetables, and asked him softly, "What do you like to eat?"
He said: "I will eat whatever you eat."
She didn't have much greed, the little girl was always satisfied easily, took two or three skewers like the dishes she liked to eat, and after giving it to the lady boss, she sat back next to him obediently.
Ji Rang took her a bottle of soy milk, opened the cap, plugged in a straw, and handed it to her.
She sucked twice, and smiles in her eyes: "It's so sweet." She leaned closer, and said softly to him: "I liked coming here when I was in junior high school. Once after school, my tablemate and I ate here. There are so many skewers that I ate up all my money."
She lowered her head in embarrassment, "Later, the lady boss underpaid me two yuan, so I had the money to take the bus home."
Ji Rang was laughing to death.
Just listening to her memories, I think Xiao Yingying was so cute at that time.
He squeezed a smile and touched her head: "Well, the lady boss is really nice. I have to eat more today and give her back."
She nodded happily, and went to the street to buy milk tea after eating Mala Tang. Which one has the most pearls, which one has the most delicious red beans, which one has the most authentic taste, is obviously just a memory of her never been involved, and it sounds like a treasure.
They ate her favorite food and walked the way she once walked. He accompanied her and relived her past.
There was no him in the past, but in the future, when she recalls again, she will remember the way the young man took her by the hand and listened carefully to her words on this rainy night.
Ji Rang sent her back to the hotel at eleven o'clock in the middle of the night.
She was a little sleepy, dragging the corners of his clothes all the way, rubbing him away. Ji Rang's heart was so soft and itchy, he whispered to her ears and asked her, "Why don't you go back with your brother?"
She shook her head and whispered, "I can go by myself."
After finishing talking, rub your eyes, straighten your body, and cheer up.
Ji Rang laughed, knowing she was shy, after all, there were still people on the street at this time, and they didn't force her to send her back to the hotel room all the way.
Worried about being discovered by his uncle, he didn't wait much. He turned down after watching her return to the room and close the door. He lives on the downstairs floor. After returning to the room, he takes off his wet clothes and hangs them out again.
When lying in bed, I can't fall asleep tossing and turning.
As soon as he closed his eyes, the little girl’s eyes that broke his heart appeared in his head.
He felt that he was not something, and he had never found her pretending to be strong for so long.
After tossing and turning for half an hour, he got up and called Yu Zhuo.
Yu Zhuo was probably asleep, and his tone was irritable after connecting: "I'm sick, call so late!"
Ji made his voice calm: "I ask you, is there anything unusual about your sister before?"
Yu Zhuo was too annoyed: "Are you sick!"
Ji Rang: "Do you want to be beaten? Give me a good answer!"
The other end was rustling, as if getting up from the bed, and reluctantly asked: "What is the abnormality? She has always been quite normal. The only abnormality is that I don't know how to blindly look at you."
Ji Rang: "You fucking talk to Lao Tzu. She cried a lot when she returned to Yancheng to worship this time. I am worried that she will have psychological problems."
Yu Zhuo said "Ah" before he woke up and said hesitatingly, "No... She, although she was very serious before, she became very calm after waking up after the suicide, even the doctor. They say she is cured."
Breath stopped on the other end of the phone.
For a long time, I heard Ji Ran's stiff voice: "What suicide?"
Yu Zhuo was surprised: "Don't you know? After my aunt and uncle had an accident, my sister committed suicide by taking sleeping pills and was rescued. Maybe she died once? She will accept it slowly."
Ji bit the tip of his tongue with blood, and his heart hurts so much that he almost collapsed.
After a long while, he cursed in a low voice: "She accepts a fart."
She just hid the pain.
In order not to worry the people around me anymore.
His baby...