Ji Rang stayed up almost all night.
He couldn't imagine how desperate such a soft little girl would choose to commit suicide to end her life and pain. Even more unacceptable, her optimism all the time is actually an illusion.
How did she emerge from the shadow of suicide, how did she swallow the unbearable pain of ordinary people alone, and finally smiled softly at the world.
The thought of this breaks my heart.
It wasn't until early morning that the sky was foggy and light, and then he fell into a light sleep. But it didn't last long. Qi Ying was on a plane at 12 noon. Before leaving, he had to go back to his home to take a look. He only got up after squinting for more than an hour, his eyes flushed with blood to wash.
After checking out, wearing a hat, sitting on the sofa in the lobby waiting for her.
It didn't take long for Yu Cheng to bring Qi Ying down.
She didn't look abnormal, but her eyes were a little red. When Yu Cheng spoke to her, she raised her head and responded obediently, without seeing any hurt in her heart.
Ji Rang was heartbroken to death.
He put on his hat and walked beside her across the road.
They are going to have a look at the home before Qi Ying. It's not far, a straight road, and it takes more than ten minutes to get there.
In the spring streets, the pink cherry blossoms on both sides are blooming, clusters crowded on the branches. His tall and thin figure shuttles among the pink double-flowered cherry blossoms, like an unrelated passerby, with his hands in his pockets, strolling in the courtyard, no matter when she tilts her head, she can see him.
Qi Ying felt so relieved.
Her family lives in an old community, and the security guard at the door is reading a newspaper wearing a pair of reading glasses. He also knew Qi Ying and stood up a little excited when he saw her: "Isn't this Ying Ying? I haven't seen you for a long time."
She politely greeted Grandpa Security. The Qi family’s accident was not spread, and it was only said that they had died in the line of duty, and even the people in the community thought they had moved away.
Yu Cheng chatted with the uncle and led Qi Ying in.
She walked a few steps and looked back. Ji Rang was standing under the street lamp across the street, leaning on the telephone pole with his hands, his hat on the eyelids, and his face was too far away, but she knew that he was watching. Own.
She waved at him secretly.
Sure enough, he also raised his hand and waved.
She feels so happy, and even the tingling sensation that comes from going home has alleviated a lot.
There was a lot of dust in the house, and the furniture was covered with dust-proof white cloth. Yu Cheng was choking and coughed. She covered her nose and opened the window to ventilate. She walked back to her bedroom and took a look.
It was strange, it was the first time she came, but she was familiar with every corner. She opened the suitcase and packed some small things that she didn't have time to pack when she left in a hurry last year.
She has the most comfortable pen, her favorite strawberry hairpin, a diary full of the girl's thoughts, a bear doll that has accompanied her for many years, and a family portrait.
She squatted on the ground and looked at the family portrait.
It was taken in Ocean Park. Behind you is the Mermaid Pavilion, and you can see a golden mermaid in the water. All three of them laughed happily.
For a long time, she whispered and hesitantly: "Dad... Mom..."
She still didn't understand where the sense of familiarity and pain came from, but after crying and revealing her heart in front of Ji Rang yesterday, she found that this body was not as violently repelling things about parents as before.
Yu Cheng shouted outside: "Yingying, let's go, we won't be able to catch the plane anymore."
She rubbed her eyes, put the photo in her suitcase, and answered obediently: "Okay."
When leaving the community, Ji Rang was still standing in the same position. When Yu Cheng finished waiting for the car, he looked around at random and muttered to himself: "Did I see this person in the cemetery yesterday? It's impossible, right? What a coincidence?"
He has always been a careless person, and he didn't think about it, so he got in the car and left as soon as the car arrived.
Ji Rang waited for them to leave before calling a car to the airport.
He said he would stay with her, so he really stayed with her all the way, waiting for her to pass the security check before sending her a message: See you in Haicheng.
Qi Ying replied with an obedient "good".
He did not board the plane.
Changed the itinerary to the evening, and then turned back to the place where I visited with Qi Ying last night.
He was alone again, walked the way she had walked, ate at her favorite restaurant, and finally went to her school. Yan Qi is in class, and the Security Department will definitely not let him in, but it doesn't trouble him.
He can turn over two of Yan Qi's old wall at once, not joking.
Turned into the school and wandered around at random, he actually saw her picture in the school's faded bulletin board.
She was rated as an excellent student in the first semester of high school. The profile under the photo said that she was admitted to Yancheng No. 7 Middle School with the fourth grade in the city entrance examination.
The photo has faded a lot, and it is not difficult to see the cute smile on her face.
He took out his phone and took a picture of it.
As soon as the filming was completed, I heard someone screaming out from behind: "Which class are you in? Walking outside during class hours without wearing a school uniform?"
Ji Rang was about to run, and the students who stood behind the bulletin board and posted the campus newspaper came out and looked at each other, staring at each other.
Fu Nanxun thought he was dreaming.
He stared at the indifferent boy in front of him in a stunned mouth, and for a long time he shouted in shock: "Ji Rang?!"
The security guard behind him has approached and patted Ji Rang on the shoulder, "Which class are you in?"
Fu Nanxun walked out from behind the bulletin board, holding the campus newspaper and glue in his hand, and smiled and said to the security guard: "He is a freshman in our class and has not received the uniform for the time being. We are changing this issue of the campus newspaper."
The security guard naturally knew the first grader, who was loved by the teachers and students of the school, and nodded and left without doubting him.
Fu Nanxun put aside his smile, and looked at him in a word: "You... why are you here?" He glanced at the picture of Qi Ying in the bulletin board, paused for a while, and yelled in disbelief: "You won't Did you steal the photos from all over the world?"
Ji Rang: "..."
What's wrong with these first graders
Twenty minutes later, Ji Rang and Fu Nanxun sat in the stands of the school playground alone with a bottle of Coke.
The temperature in Haicheng has risen to the point where you can wear spring clothes, but the wind in Yancheng is still chilly, and there is a class on the playground that is taking physical education class, running and jumping, very energetic.
"That said, you made a special trip to accompany her back to worship? Then she's gone, why didn't you go? You even came over the wall and came to our school?"
Fu Nanxun thought it was incredible.
During the week as an exchange student in Haicheng, every meeting he had with Ji Rang was not friendly. He doesn't like these bad boys who fight and fight. In the second class, he heard about Ji Rang's bad rumors on and off, and he didn't have a good impression of him.
But Qi Ying liked him.
I like it very obviously.
The person that the little girl would like should not be a hopeless bad person.
It's just that he didn't expect that one day he would sit in the stands of his school with this bad boy and drink Coke.
This is magical.
The boy next to her had a cold breath, and his voice was indifferent: "I want to come and see where she lived."
"You..." Fu Nanxun organized a few words: "It's quite romantic."
Ji Rang played with the Coke bottle in his hand. After a long time, he hesitated to ask: "What was she like before?"
"What kind of?" Fu Nanxun leaned back, with his arm resting on the arm of the chair, and thought for a while: "It's still the same as it is now. Very good, he smiles at everyone, and will not complain if he is wronged. Wipe your tears."
When he thought of it, his voice was smiling: "When we first entered school, everyone was not familiar with it. The seats in our class are arranged according to the results of the high school entrance examination. I am the first in the city, and she is the fourth in the city, because the second and the third are before She was in the same class and asked to sit together, so I became the same table with her."
"At that time, everyone was unfamiliar. She was soft-tempered, laughed at everyone, and she was very beautiful. She was confessed within two days of coming to class. She rejected the boy, but the boy has been harassed. , Go to school and stop her. She asked me, Fu Nanxun, what should I do? I said, if you tell your dad, let your dad wear a police uniform to pick you up and down, he will definitely not dare."
"Guess what she said? She said, no, my dad knew he would kill him. He just confessed to me, and it would be very sad to be rejected by me. It would be so miserable if I were to be beaten again. ."
Ji Rang couldn't help but laughed.
Fu Nanxun also laughed and sighed: "At that time, I was thinking, how could there be such a cute little girl in this world."
When the wind passed, the smiles of the two teenagers were blown away.
After the laugh, there was another moment of silence.
For a long time, Fu Nanxun said in a low voice, "I don't know what she suffered. She disappeared suddenly and didn't say hello. I still hated it for a while. I thought to myself, this is nothing, although I don't like me, but At any rate, let's also play at the same table. As for so unfeeling?"
She didn't know what she had experienced until she went to Haicheng.
He was uncomfortable just listening to other people's reports, and imagined if these things happened to him, he would be able to survive.
"The answer is no, I can't do it. I definitely can't be as strong and gentle as her to face life. So when I saw you, I was actually very grateful." He patted Ji Rang on the shoulder. "Your appearance should have given her a lot of strength."
Ji Rang shrugged and shook his hand off: "You don't need to be grateful, it has nothing to do with you."
Fu Nanxun: "..."
Is this person soaked in a jar of vinegar
But the first grade has always been a big measure. He doesn't care about such bad boys. He checked his watch and said, "I have to go back to class. When are you leaving? I'll treat you to dinner after school."
He glanced at Ji Rang's indifferent expression, and choked at him: "Although I don't want to see you very much, since you are in Yancheng, I still want to do my best as a landlord."
Ji Rang said: "No, I don't want to recall the scene of eating with you when I recall her hometown in the future."
Fu Nanxun: "?"
Damn, is it still too late to report to the Security Department to catch him
The first grade was almost turned into a pufferfish.
Ji Rang got up from his chair, patted the corner of his clothes, turned and left, walked two steps, and waved back: "Thank you, your Coke. Next time you come to Haicheng, I will invite you to dinner."
Fu Nanxun: "No thanks! No need!"
Who doesn't have a temper yet.
Ji Rang laughed silently, jumped from the stands, put on his hat again, and walked away with the bottle of Coke.
It was early morning to return to Haicheng.
He should have taken a taxi home, but after getting on the bus, the address of Qi Ying's home was reported for the exit.
The taxi drew him to the Haitang Street.
Begonia flowers are already in bloom, and there is a faint fragrance all over the street. Under the illumination of the street lamp, the flower buds were like a cage with a thin halo, the fragrance mist was empty, and the moonlight was filled.
He didn't know what he was doing here.
At this point in time, the little girl must have fallen asleep.
But he just wanted to come and see her.
Even if she can't see anything, she can't even see her window across the building. But getting close, knowing that she is within a hundred meters, I feel very relieved.
He has quit smoking for a long time, now he is squatting under the shadow of Begonia flowers, but he can't help but want to smoke.
The door of the 24-hour convenience store not far away was still open. He glanced twice, got up and walked over.
When he came out, he was holding a lollipop.
Can't smoke.
He always hugs her, and she smells the smoke on her body, which is not good.
He squatted on the side of the road to eat a lollipop.
Occasionally there are passers-by who come back from the night shift, and see him taking a detour to hide away. He wears a sweater and a hat, looking like this, like a bad guy with bad intentions.
After eating one after another, candy paper scattered all over the ground.
He stared at the misty night in the distance, for a long time, took out his cell phone and dialed a call.
It took two hits before someone picked it up. The other end was obviously awakened, and he smiled helplessly: "My little master, you tortured people this big night?"
"Big night?" Ji Rang frowned, "isn't it daytime on your side?"
"I'm not in New York." The other side turned over and sat up and yawned: "I'm back home. Didn't your sister tell you?"
"I didn't contact her." Ji Rang squatted a little tired, and sat down on the steps. "It just so happens that I have something to ask for you. Which private hospital do you work in? Or opened the clinic yourself? I will come to you tomorrow after school."
"None, I'm on vacation, I won't take orders. And I heard you right? Come to me after school? When did you go to class properly?"
"I didn't talk to you for fun, business."
He heard his tone serious and laughed at the other end: "I used to tie you to see me. If you didn't come, you would jump out of the window when you came. If you didn't finish the run, you also threw my Jingde Peony Porcelain that I had finally bought back. Now. Are you going to take the initiative to lean in front of me?"
Ji Rang was too annoyed: "Why do you talk so much? Just forget it, you are not the only psychiatrist in the country."
Seeing him angry at the other end, he finally stopped teasing him: "See, see, how can I not see the young master, I will send you the address, and you can come here anytime."
Ji Rang responded, and before hanging up the line, he said quietly: "Don't tell Ji Qian."
"Yes, what can you bribe me?"
Ji Rang was about to laugh at him: "Chen Fengzhi, do you know that you can't catch up with my sister because of this annoying thing?"
The other end sighed helplessly: "I can't catch her even when I pretend, just get used to it."
Ji Rang didn't want to talk to him anymore, so he hung up the phone.
The night is already very deep.
After eating the last lollipop, he picked up the candy paper on the floor and stuffed it into his pocket. When he stood up, his leg was a little numb. He looked at the night in the distance for a long time, and whispered: "Yingying, don't be afraid."
Don't be afraid, I will always be with you.
Be with you, come out from the unknown pain, accompany you to drive away those shadows and sorrows, and make you become the really happy little girl once.
I promise.