For Lin Tantan, the biggest ups and downs in life are seeing her lover succeed in his career and being proposed to, and making plans to spend the rest of her life with him, but the next moment she finds out that everything she has now is just a fantasy, and she is a rootless wild ghost who can be driven away at any time.
She was completely depressed.
She knew very well that she was an outsider, but she had never thought that this body she had taken from someone else would have to be returned one day... Maybe there would be a day, but she never dared to think about it. Without this body, where would she go, or would she even exist? Then all the plans based on this body would become an illusion.
She stayed in Ye Xiao's arms with her eyes open until dawn, but she looked haggard as if she had not rested for ten days or half a month. Her eyes were bloodshot and she looked anxious and listless.
Ye Xiao asked her with concern and anxiety, but she just shook her head and couldn't tell the reason.
The next day Ye Xiao wanted to accompany her again, but she refused.
"I want to be alone and think about it," she said.
"I want to help you." Ye Xiao said, "Please don't hide anything from me, okay?"
Lin Tan Tan thought about it and said okay, but in his heart he said you really can't help me with this matter.
She sat alone for a while. Her mood was so low that the animals, big and small, that were used to playing with her didn't dare to bother her. They just watched her from afar. After thinking for a long time, she tidied herself up and went to find Xu Tianjin.
Xu Tianjin is different from her who is an idle person. Now the information technology group, oh, has now been established as a formal department. This department is very busy. The internal communication network of the base has been completed, and small-scale Internet connectivity has been achieved within the base. Everyone's entertainment activities have suddenly become richer, and they can watch dramas, download music and listen to songs.
Now, this department is actively contacting other bases, striving to grasp the latest developments in the outside world in a timely manner.
Lin Tan Tan talked to Xu Tianjin and asked him in the small garden outside the department: "Since you came here for so long, have you ever felt the consciousness of the original owner of this body?"
Xu Tianjin was stunned for a moment, a little confused: "No, in fact, I haven't thought about the past for a long time. It seems that I am a person of this world. Doctor Lin, why do you suddenly ask this?"
Lin Tan Tan adjusted his latest thin windbreaker from the garment factory, looked at a pink and white flower in the flowerbed and said softly, "I dreamed of her. She told me to leave this body."
Xu Tianjin was a little slow to react for a moment. When he understood what she said, he was shocked: "Really? How is this possible? Are you saying that she, she still exists?"
He pointed at Lin Tan, his face full of disbelief: "Are you overthinking? Dreams don't necessarily mean they're real, right? Have you ever felt her presence or heard her voice when you were awake?"
Lin Tan Tan rubbed his head: "Not yet, I don't know..." Her mood did fluctuate a lot yesterday. First, the base was established, and then Ye Xiao proposed to her. She really felt that she had achieved her goals and her life was perfect. Could it be that she felt that she had done everything she wanted to do after traveling through time, and even the things she hoped for, and she had no regrets and could leave, so she thought about it day and night and dreamed about it
Not really, she still wants to spend her whole life with Ye Xiao.
She asked Xu Tianjin: "Why do you think we were able to travel through time? What exactly is time travel? What kind of power allowed us to come through time?"
Xu Tianjin was unable to answer the question, and after a while he said, "I don't know. I think I was influenced by you, Doctor Lin. I came here during your memorial service, and that was when I was very close to your... body. I don't know if that's the reason. Only you, Doctor Lin, did you want to come here on your own?"
Lin Tan Tan was silent. She did have this wish before she died. Three hundred years later, she felt that she had done her best to repay everyone, including her country, teachers, parents and relatives.
She began practicing when she was five or six years old, and officially started working as a therapist at the age of fourteen. Her entire life seemed to be spent in practice and work. Her only entertainment was chasing stars, and she had to fight against the energy in her body from time to time. She was very satisfied with her final achievement, but also very tired. She was tired of living like that.
Later, her supernatural powers collapsed and she knew that she would not live long. However, she did not feel very sad at all, and even faced such an ending very calmly.
My only wish is to meet Ye Xiao, and preferably to help him change his fate, and to be able to stand up and run and jump in the next life.
Then she opened her eyes again and came into this world.
Was it her wish that brought her here? Could her one thought have such a powerful force
So now that her wish has come true, her power to stay here is gone, should she leave
She suddenly remembered one thing. After her superpowers began to show signs of collapse, she accepted her fate very smoothly and felt that death was nothing. Then her superpowers collapsed very quickly. The professional doctor who examined her told her that how long a patient with a terminal illness can live is closely related to her willpower. A person with a strong will to survive can live longer.
Finally, he said to her, "I can't sense your will to live, Doctor Lin. Is there nothing in this world worth your attachment?"
At the time, she smiled and said, "What's the point of living a little longer? If this is the destined ending, why should I struggle so miserably?"
"Think about the people who love you, think about the patients who need you, you are a huge asset to the entire country."
"But I can't work anymore. Instead of waiting for me, those patients should find another doctor in time. Instead of continuing to place their hopes on me, my parents should focus on my brother. And the country... I heard that the National Psychic Association has begun to promote a new batch of wood-type psychics."
"I'm already, dispensable." She even knew that some people hoped that she would die sooner after learning that the collapse of her superpowers could not be reversed. A five-element superpower user who could almost become a legend should also have a life experience to match it. Either live perfectly until old age, or die at the most regrettable age. Only in this way can she leave behind the most significant mark.
For example, during an interview after she became ill, she heard a TV crew member who was hiding and smoking an e-cigarette complain at the stairs: "He was already 20 years old. If he died at 19, that would be a blooming age, and it would be more shocking."
In fact, Lin Tantan had no reaction when he heard this at the time, and even found it funny. It was not until later, when his reaction time was too long and he recalled these words at night, that he began to feel a chill in his heart.
She admitted that she was a relatively emotional person. She could laugh off everything most of the time, but occasionally she would be upset about something someone said. Her body was very strong, but the heart contained in her body was not as strong as steel.
That is, after hearing those words, she, who had originally accepted her fate quite easily, became even more indifferent about her body and even became a little negative. As a result, her condition progressed more rapidly. In just a few months, she fell from a level close to the maximum, becoming a weak and powerless patient, and finally died quickly.
At her level, state of mind and belief are really important. If you are not careful, the overly powerful supernatural power may go wrong. If a fragile body wants to control powerful power, it needs the help of belief and willpower.
But is this kind of thing really that important
Lin Tantan looked expressionlessly at the flowers and plants in the flowerbed, at the pedestrians passing by in the distance, at the hills farther away, at the bright sunshine, and the vast blue sky.
But she doesn't want to leave here now.
Xu Tianjin looked at her anxiously as she stood there expressionlessly for a long time, as if she was thinking about something. Then her expression gradually became firmer, so firm that it was even a little sharp, and an extremely strong fighting spirit seemed to emanate from her body.
…
After saying goodbye to Xu Tianjin, Lin Tantan went back and closed the doors and windows, locking herself in the room. She sat in the dim room and said to herself, "Lin Tantan?"
There was no physical change, and no sound responded.
She continued, "Are you just a dream I had, or do you really exist?"
"Aren't you dead?"
"what you up to?"
"If you really exist, come out and talk to me."
She muttered to herself like a lunatic for a long time, but got no response. She was not in a hurry and slowly poured herself a glass of wine. It was so small that it was not even as high as a finger. It was a small sky-blue porcelain cup, and it felt delicate and warm to the touch. She specially collected it because she thought the color was very similar to Ye Xiao's supernatural color, and she liked it when she saw it.
She held the small wine glass, with no particular emotion on her face, took a deep breath, and drank it bit by bit.
It was as if she had returned to her previous life. A tiny bit of alcohol almost caused her supernatural powers to go out of control and her life was threatened.
It turns out that she and alcohol are natural enemies.
After drinking the high concentration of alcohol, she felt a burning sensation in her esophagus and stomach, and soon the alcohol took over her head. Her mind started to become cloudy and drowsy, her heartbeat quickened, her breathing became hot, and then the supernatural powers in her body gradually became dull. It seemed as if something deep inside her body was stirring and trying to emerge.
The original owner was indeed there, and was her appearance related to the strength of her own supernatural powers
Lin Tan Tan pondered secretly. After waiting for a long time and seeing that he still couldn't communicate with the other party, he thought, does he have to fall asleep
After thinking for a while, she set a very loud alarm and lay down on the bed. Her thoughts were in a mess. She closed her eyes and tried to make herself fall asleep. She didn't know how much time had passed before she found herself sinking into the dark and cramped space in her dream again.
The shadow appeared again.
But this time, Lin Tantan was not as defenseless as last time, and was not frightened by her identity.
She asked, "Are you Lin Tantan?"
The shadow replied: "When will you leave my body?"
Lin Tan was silent for a moment: "What if I don't leave?"
The shadow raised his head and said angrily: "This is my body!"
"You are already dead."
"I'm not dead!"
Lin Tantan said calmly, "You are already dead. Don't forget what I am. You can't fool me. When I traveled through time and space, your body had already died."
"That's just a breath of air!"
"No, you're dead. You had a high fever because you were awakening your powers, and you died because the awakening failed. I guess it's because I traveled through time and took over your body, so your soul didn't dissipate and was able to continue to stay in this body."
Lin Tan Tan said calmly, "I don't know why you didn't show up before but are now, but if it weren't for me, this body would have rotted away long ago. Why do you still say this is your body? This has been my body for a long time."
The black shadow was furious and wanted to pounce on Lin Tan Tan, but for some reason she couldn't. She said angrily: "This is my body, I would rather it rot than let others use it!"
Lin Tan Tan seemed not to feel her anger and continued, "It has come to this. I have already used this body and I don't intend to give it back to you. You should not be able to do anything to me. Let's talk about it. What do you want in order to give me your body completely?"
The shadow said: "I won't let you. Do you have any way to deal with me?"
Lin Tan was silent, and she really didn't have any either.
What worries her most is that the other party has been quiet for more than a year, and now suddenly appears with such a tough attitude. What trump card does she have? Will she become more and more powerful in the future? What if she appears every time she sleeps? Even if she can hold on, how can she live with Ye Xiao peacefully with such a thing in her body
If a person does not work for himself, he will be punished by heaven and earth. If there is a way at this moment, she will not negotiate with the other party, but kill her directly.
The other party must have the same idea.
As if sensing her killing intent, the other party shrank back and his momentum weakened. After all, he was just an ordinary, silent and timid college student in his lifetime. She took the initiative to back down: "You want to continue using my body. We can take turns using it. You use it on odd days, and I use it on even days."
Lin Tantan refused without even thinking: "Impossible!"
The shadow got angry: "This is my body. I've been hiding in it for so long and it's already suffocating enough. Why don't you let me out? Giving you half of my time is already generous enough!"
Lin Tan Tan just said: "Do you know why I must have your body?"
The shadow was stunned. He needed a reason? "Because you want to live."
"No, because I have someone I love. He is my only bond in this world. We are getting married soon. Do you think I will allow another person to use my body and my name to go around him?"
Of course, if that situation really happens, she will confront Ye Xiao and tell him everything. Ye Xiao may not care, but she can't stand such an abnormal life. And when the person opposite her controls her body, can she bear being controlled and monitored and living a life without freedom
In short, Lin Tantan will never give in on this step.
Sharing a body, like split personality? Impossible!
"This is not possible, and that is not possible. What do you want?" the black shadow said angrily.
Lin Tan Tan said: "Whatever wish you have, I will fulfill it for you, and then you can leave."
"Impossible!" Shadow was shocked and refused without thinking.
Lin Tantan frowned. There was nothing more to talk about.
Yingzi was also nervous. The words "I will fulfill your wish" shocked her. Lin Tantan might have forgotten that she said something when she first entered this body. She said, "Lin Tantan, I owe you a life. If you have any wish, I will fulfill it for you."
It was this sentence that injected a force into Lin Tantan's soul, which was supposed to dissipate, and it remained dormant in her body. She didn't quite understand why, but after regaining consciousness recently, she vaguely realized that this was the promise made by the outsider to her, or the contract that the other party borrowed her body.
Once this promise is fulfilled and the contract ends, she will no longer owe him anything, and this body will completely belong to him.
As long as this promise is not fulfilled, the other party will always owe me, and will not be able to hurt me or drive me away. And it seems that because the other party's original wish has been fulfilled, it is time to leave. As long as she does not completely occupy my body, she will become weaker and weaker until she disappears, while I will become stronger and stronger.
So, just keep on spending.
Shadow Lin Tantan thought so.
As long as she keeps on trying and the opponent disappears, this body will belong to her again, and the opponent's abilities, status, fame, prestige, and even his lover will all be hers!
The more Shadow thought about it, the greedier her eyes became. She suddenly realized that she was too impatient and shouldn't have confronted the other party. If the other party told the man everything, even if this body belonged to her in the future, she would not get any benefits.
Shadow suddenly said, "You, let me think about it."
Lin Tan Tan was stunned. She didn't expect her to give in. She felt relieved, but something seemed wrong. However, the shadow had slowly disappeared, and it seemed that she was really thinking about what wish she wanted to make.
Lin Tantan opened her eyes from the bed, her head still groggy. She looked at the time and saw that only a dozen minutes had passed. She canceled the alarm clock, sat for a while, opened the door and walked out.
The sun was shining outside, but she was still confused about her future.
Love brings worry, love brings fear. In her previous life, she could count her days in peace and wait for death, but now she is afraid of death and does not want to die.
"Chirp." A little white mouse ran up to her. She lowered her head and looked at the little thing, then squatted down and tapped it: "It's you, hello."
Lu Xin opened his eyes wide, and was shocked to find that the powerful soul in her body had dimmed a little, while the originally dim soul had become a little brighter. Although the difference between the two was still huge, it was obvious that the gap was gradually narrowing.
What exactly is happening inside her body
Lin Tantan's thoughts drifted away again. In her dream just now, she had been looking for ways to attack the other party, but it seemed that something restricted her and prevented her from attacking the other party.
There is no way to hurt or expel them, so I can only wait for the other party to agree. This is too passive, but it seems that this is the only way.
She sighed softly: "How come such a good world suddenly becomes so unscientific? Isn't the soul too mysterious?"
Lu Xin froze, almost thinking that she saw through him, but when he saw her self-deprecating and bitter expression, he realized that she probably knew the condition of her body.
Lu Xin looked at her with his eyes wide open. Lin Tantan was amused by him and tapped his nose: "Little guy, are you worried about me? Don't worry, I'm not so easily defeated. If I can survive, that would be the best. If things develop beyond my ability..." She paused and lowered her voice, "Then this is my last time. I can't always look sad."
She stood up and looked at the rolling forest in the distance. Her eyes were illuminated by the sunlight and seemed to have something tiny and brilliant about to fall, but in the end it didn't. She curled her lips and said, "Okay, let's go play."
With that she went back into the house.
Lu Xin stared blankly at the closed door. Thinking of that expression just now, he suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.
Can't survive? Will she die
If that dim soul eventually became stronger than hers, would she really die
After a while, Lin Tantan came out of the room again. She must have taken a shower and changed her clothes. It was a skirt that she rarely wore. It was a sky blue plaid skirt. She looked very fresh and elegant. Although her hair was not tied up, it was combed neatly and she wore a very ladylike headband. She exuded a quiet and beautiful atmosphere, which made people feel comfortable and happy from the bottom of their hearts.
She saw the white mouse: "You haven't left yet, then come and play with me." She picked up the little white mouse and saw that it was not very dirty. However, she still washed its paws with water and then put it on her shoulder: "Let's go, let's go find Ye Xiao."
Lu Xin: “…”
Lu Xin froze in place, and his first reaction was to wonder if squatting on a girl's shoulder was too rude.
Then he felt a deadly gaze and when he looked up, he saw a chubby hamster crawling out of Lin Tantan's small bag, climbing up along his clothes, and staring at him fiercely, as if it felt that he was a threat to its position. Before Lu Xin could figure out what it was going to do, he was kicked out by the little furry ball.
Lu Xin: “…” I’m so angry, you stinky rat! But he still got up and followed after him with a grunt.
However, before it could catch up a few steps, the person in front turned a corner and stopped. A car stopped at the corner. In the car, Ye Xiao had one hand on the window and the other on the steering wheel. It was unknown what he was thinking, but his eyes lit up when he saw Lin Tan Tan appear.
Lin Tantan was stunned for a moment: "Why are you here? How long have you been here?" She walked over with a smile, "Are you here to pick me up for dinner?"
Ye Xiao got out of the car and was stunned to see her wearing a skirt, which was rare for her. Then, seeing her energetic smile, he relaxed secretly: "Yes, I came to pick you up for lunch. What do you want to eat for lunch?"
Lin Tan thought for a while and said, "Let's go eat noodles."
Ye Xiao walked over and opened the door for her: "Get in the car."
Lin Tantan did not move. When Ye Xiao turned to look at her inquiringly, she suddenly went over and hugged his waist, leaning on his broad shoulders: "I'm sorry, I made you worry. Have I always made you worry?"
He was still wearing the clothes he had worn this morning, with the wrinkles still not smoothed out, his hair not as neat as usual, and his brows furrowed. She probably had been staying here since he left her in the morning. She hadn't taken this route to find Xu Tianjin just now, and she hadn't thought of this possibility.
Thinking of him sitting in the car alone and worrying about her, her heart ached. If possible, she hoped that she would not have to go through so much trouble.
Ye Xiao held her in his arms, and stroked the back of her head with his big hand: "I'm glad you're okay. What was that dream about? Is it related to me?"
Lin Tan Tan shook his head: "This has nothing to do with you. It's my own problem."
Ye Xiao frowned slightly, but didn't ask what the problem was. He just said, "Do you want to find Zhang Jiujiu?"
Lin Tantan was slightly stunned: "You can try it when necessary." She smiled and said, "After a while, whether I have overcome this dream or not, I will tell you its content, okay?"
Ye Xiao looked at her deeply, with worry and helplessness in his eyes: "Okay."
…
At the same time, a large group of ragged survivors were heading towards the Zhengyang base.
A month ago, in southern China, a few ragged Taoists finally found their target.
This south is really very south, very close to the sea. As large numbers of mutant marine creatures invaded the land, this only remaining base that stubbornly refused to migrate was on the verge of destruction. The Taoists risked their lives to save their target.
They are Lin Tantan's parents, brother, sister-in-law and a niece.
In order to persuade them to cross half the country to go to Liang City, the Taoists used many reasons, but they refused to go. Finally, the Taoists could only tell them that their daughter was a well-known five-element supernatural being and a very important figure in the Zhengyang Brigade. After they went there, they would definitely enjoy the preferential treatment of the leader's family and would never have to worry about their lives.
I can only say this. You can't say that your daughter's body is now occupied by an evil person who came from nowhere and has great powers, and that you were called over to awaken your daughter's soul which is either sleeping or too weak.
If that's the case, the Lin family will definitely not go back. They have also seen that this family is timid and selfish, and have long forgotten that they have a daughter. If they want them to save their daughter, don't even think about it.
When the Lin family heard the news, they were shocked and excited.
They had indeed forgotten about their daughter who was attending university in Yang City. After the apocalypse broke out, the family quickly packed up and headed for the nearest safe zone. They had never thought of looking for their daughter who was not valued in university, nor did they want to bring along another burden.
Later, the safe zone was destroyed, and they moved to several places, and then went south. In fact, they didn't know they were going south. Anyway, they followed the large group and stopped every day, living a muddled and difficult life. When they finally stopped one day, they were told that they had arrived at the southernmost city.
Then I took root here.
Now they don't know where to go. These people told them that they could go to join their daughter. It's a bit far, but these Taoists are willing to protect them for some reason, so there is nothing to hesitate about, let's go!
This news was also known by the people who fled with them. When they asked, they found out that Lin's mother was a simple-minded and ostentatious person, so her purpose was quickly discovered. So those who wanted to take advantage of them stuck to them and spread the news to ten or a hundred people.
Uncle Jin and the others were a little worried that too many people would cause trouble, but they couldn't resist the Zhengyang Base - some people here already knew that they had upgraded to a base - and Lin Tantan was very famous. When they heard that there were relatives in the team, and they didn't know where to call home in this vast world, they decided to go to the Zhengyang Base together!
These people could not be driven away, and the Taoists had to give up struggling. Moreover, having more people also has its advantages. Although their ability to attract swarms of zombies became stronger, their fighting strength was not weak either. A group of people rushed all the way from the south to Liang City, and they were on the road almost throughout the hot summer, and many people died every day.
During the time they were on the road, the souls of Lin Tantan and Lin Tantan had met several times. Lin Tantan always said that she had not thought of any wish yet, and Lin Tantan suspected that she was procrastinating.
Lin Tantan appeared to be very calm and cheerful on the surface, but she was already very anxious inside.
Ye Xiao had mentioned the wedding to her, but she refused, saying she wanted to postpone the wedding, including going to the newly established Civil Affairs Bureau to register for marriage, which she also postponed. Ye Xiao accommodated her without any objection and did not complain at all, but she still felt bad when she saw the couples going to register in the base.
Originally, she and Ye Xiao should have been the first couple to register. She knew that this was Ye Xiao's plan. This man who paid attention to rituals had his own unique romance.
But there was still someone in her body, and she felt a little uncomfortable. She didn't want to be tied to Ye Xiao in name in this state.
She couldn't even kiss or hug as usual.
"See, subconsciously you also feel that this body is not yours." A vague voice sounded in Lin Tantan's mind. Lin Tantan's expression remained unchanged, and he said in his heart: "Shut up."
The thing that she was most worried about happened. The guy became stronger and stronger. From only being able to appear in her dreams, he could now vaguely make sounds when she was awake.
Lin Tantan is in the hospital at the moment. There is a big hospital in District 1, where wood-type mutants and ordinary hospitals work together. Lin Tantan is naturally the dean, but her hard work has not helped her current situation at all.
Love doesn’t work, and neither does a sense of responsibility at work. Even though my beliefs are very strong, I still feel like I’m slowly drifting away from this world.
Lin Tantan seemed to be stalling for time again, and she felt that she didn't have much time left.
So that night, when they met each other again in that strange space after falling asleep, she asked directly: "What is your wish? If you continue to be so uncooperative, there is nothing to talk about. Let's just die together."
Lin Tantan stammered, and seeing that she couldn't drag the situation any further, she simply ignored her. She was sure that she couldn't do anything to her, and she felt extremely fearless.
Lin Tantan narrowed her eyes, and he really refused to cooperate. She carefully looked at the figure of this guy, which had become clearer and clearer in the past month. His facial features, hair, and even clothes had taken on a specific shape.
She is indeed getting stronger little by little.
She was resurrecting, and I was dying.
She curled the corners of her mouth coldly, stretched out her hand, grabbed Lin Tantan's hair and pulled her over.
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