The North Palace was originally considered gorgeous, but after being abandoned for many years, it looked like a ruins. Only scattered houses could be seen standing on the wasteland, surrounded by overgrown weeds, and occasionally foxes and rabbits wandering around. It was indescribably desolate.
If you ignore the majestic palaces behind you, you will almost feel like you have left the palace city unknowingly.
"Do you still remember?" Although Jieyu's position was still retained for Yun's sake, she was relegated to the cold palace after all. Yunqing had all her hairpins, hairpins, and fine clothes removed, and her face was pale and thin. His stature, the bleak tone when he spoke, revealed a kind of weakness and erraticness that could be taken away by the wind at any time, "In the past, you gave me an idea to secretly visit my aunt. She lives in a place similar to here."
Her tone was very casual, as if the two of them had gotten along before entering the palace.
Yun Fenghuang squinted his eyes, looked at her for a moment, and said slowly: "When did you reach out to my palace?"
"I have that ability, why did I deliberately frame you to enter the palace together?" Yun Qingman tilted her head. She was the most beautiful concubine under Duke Yi, otherwise she would not have been taken in by her aunt to raise her since she was a child.
In terms of appearance, she is actually no worse than Yun Fenghuang.
It's just that because of his forward-looking and hesitant temperament that has come over many years, there is a gloomy air between his eyebrows, which is not as lively as a young man should be, and is far less agile than Yun Fenghuang.
So much so that her originally gorgeous appearance seemed boring.
But at this moment, this dullness seems to have come alive with a few shallow strokes.
There was a rare hint of mockery in her eyes that always showed weakness and hesitation, "The only way I succeeded in tricking you was like this. After that, my sister-in-law is gone, what else can I do?" What?"
Yun Fenghuang remained motionless for a while, then said slowly: "It turns out you really did it on purpose."
At this moment, she had mixed feelings, as she had for five years.
In the past five years, from the initial resentment of entering the palace unexpectedly, to the later acceptance, and now the ambition... As for why she entered the palace, who harmed her, is it fate or the jealous nature of the little Han family, Yunfeng It’s not like Huang hasn’t thought about it.
Because of Yun Qingman's repeated excuses and the knowledge that she was abandoned by her aunt, Yun Fenghuang hated her and blamed her for revenge. Even if something happened this time, he would drag the person out of the tank without mercy, but Regarding the reason why she was selected into the palace in the first place, she actually believed that Yun Qingman was careless or was taken advantage of.
After all, she had been Miss Yun Si's best friend for three years and thought she knew her best.
Moreover, after three years of getting along day and night, and they were only in their teens, how could it be possible that there was no emotion at all
Yun Fenghuang felt that he was cruel, but when he realized that he was inextricably linked to Yun Qingman when he entered the palace, wasn't he shocked
She was like this herself. How could Yun Qingman, who was deliberately abandoned by her aunt, be so cruel
But Yun Qingman said calmly: "Yes, I did it on purpose. And do you know when I decided to do this?"
Before Yun Fenghuang could speak, she was already talking to herself, "I didn't even think of letting you enter the palace with me at first. I was just afraid. I even have to rely on you to find trouble for those cheap maids of the Han family. Only by making suggestions can I cope with it. After entering the palace, even if I have my sister's protection, can I really get His Majesty's favor and have a place in the palace? Although everyone around me congratulates me and says that having my sister in the palace is the fourth As one of the concubines, I will definitely not be wronged after entering the palace..."
"But I was raised by my aunt. How many injustices have I suffered?"
"I have been wronged and I still want to thank my aunt for her grace!!!"
"If my mother is like this, why should my daughter be sincerely good to me? I confided in you at that time, and I still remember clearly what you said. I didn't understand much at that time, so I just tried to remember your advice. Now that I think about it, you are sincerely doing your best for me. You advised me to maintain the same behavior as before entering the palace, not to be particularly smart or shrewd, and to listen to my eldest sister in everything. After giving birth to the child, what will my eldest sister do? Just deal with it however you want, and don't show any unwillingness..."
"At the time, I didn't really understand why I had to feel so wronged. After all, I was younger than my eldest sister, and I wasn't any worse in appearance. I was also my father's daughter. Why couldn't I compete for favor on my own and get rid of the control of my aunt and sister..." Yun Qingman breathed a sigh of relief and smiled helplessly, "Look, how smart are you? Even if you are not of high birth, and even if you didn't know much about the palace at the time, you still saw the most important point: if I enter the palace After that, she showed a little bit of ambition and a little bit of unwillingness. Even if she can get pregnant under the hands of my eldest sister, she still can't escape the fate of leaving a child for her mother!"
"I'm not you. I don't have the ability to resist them."
"Even if I know that my aunt and sister want to use her to give birth to a son, so that I can give birth to the emperor's heir for my aunt and die in an unknown way, there is nothing I can do."
She said calmly, "The more I thought about it, the more scared I became, and the more reluctant I became. After all, it was convenient for us to meet at home, and I suffered a loss. I told you in private that you would always have a way to deal with it, and even seek justice for me." . But after I entered the palace, how could it be so easy to see you again? I ran into trouble, was bullied, and was wronged, so I had to think of my own way. But I’m not smart, and my aunt doesn’t even like me to read more books. My intelligence is only mediocre... No matter how much you tell me or give me more advice, I can’t see the hope that I can have a good death.”
"Then I thought, why can't I let you go into the palace together?"
"This way we can always be together. If anything happens to me, I can continue to find you."
Yun Qingman smiled softly, "Even if you hate me for this, are unwilling to give me advice, or even suppress me in turn, that's okay. Because you will definitely hate my aunt and sister, and you will also suppress and retaliate against them. ... It doesn't hurt if the knife doesn't cut you. Even though we have known each other for three years, you have always given me advice, but you have always been in control, because it is not you who is bullied, suppressed and controlled. You are just trying to win my favor. He just gave me some advice, so of course he couldn’t be as dedicated as his own experience.”
"For example, it started out so dangerously when you first entered the palace, and you quickly turned the situation around, but you never told me about your thoughts and plans."
"I don't have the ability to take revenge on my mother-in-law and my sister-in-law. I want to take revenge on the Yun family who gave birth to me and raised me but didn't treat me as a human being. If I don't count on you, who else can I count on?"
She raised her head and glanced at the expressionless Yun Fenghuang, and said softly, "And you are more capable than I thought, you know? The day my sister-in-law died, I almost crushed my palm with my hand in my sleeve. , so that I could pretend to be devastated, otherwise, I almost laughed out loud in public! Since I was a child, people around me have often mentioned her. She is the lifeblood of my father’s beloved mother-in-law, with both talent and beauty. Ming Dayi, everything is better than me. My aunt raised me personally, but at the same time she despised me for being inferior to her... My father didn't say it explicitly, but the implication behind his words was that I would give birth to her children and then go. Death, it’s nothing.”
"But what? She's dead."
"I've only been in the palace for a few months, and it's gone if I say no."
"I thought about what my father and aunt would think when they heard the news, and I felt so happy!"
"I even thought that even if I died immediately, I would have nothing to complain about."
"After all, when I hated the Han mother and daughter the most, I never thought that I could eradicate the dignified Concubine Zhenxi Shu!"
"The fourth prince is gone, but your aunt is still in the palace." Yun Fenghuang finally said, "So now you don't even care about your aunt?"
Yun Qingman said lightly: "Don't you know yet? Also, what is my aunt's identity that deserves your concern? She was pregnant a few days ago."
There was clear sarcasm on her pale face, "You know very well what kind of character my father is. In the eyes of outsiders, he is loyal to the emperor and the court. At home, the rules are always good. He respects his wife and treats his concubine with respect. ... Even though Han’s temperament and appearance did not please him, he still did not allow any concubines to provoke his first wife. As for children of concubines like us, we must be more disciplined. But even if he abides by the rules, he actually doesn’t do much. You can see us. But if you don't follow the rules, you will definitely be rejected. Because I was raised by my aunt, I have always been jealous of my brothers and sisters. But you know, my aunt actually just wants me to give birth to her biological daughter. Girl, you don’t have any sincere feelings for me.”
"My direct brother is not close to me either. In fact, he has a better impression of you."
"My legitimate sister is actually pretty good to me, but I also know that it's only temporary."
"She treats me well, just like how I treat cats and dogs... giving her good food and fun, and even condoning a little willfulness and ignorance."
"However, if it interferes with oneself, it is also very refreshing to throw it away or give it up."
"Apart from you back then, the only one who has always been sincere to me is my aunt."
"But now my aunt is pregnant again. She has other children, and I am not favored. Even the fourth prince is gone. How much will she remember me?"
"So you don't want to live anymore? Because you think your aunt won't want you anymore if she has an old man?" Yun Fenghuang said sarcastically, "Isn't this normal? If I were your aunt, I wouldn't want you either. Who would You are such a waste, you even have to design others to deal with the enemy you cherish."
Yun Qingman was unmoved by these words and only said calmly: "Although you are not from a noble family, you have been loved by your father and mother since you were little. Your brothers and sisters-in-law, your direct grandparents and your grandparents all like you. You also have your childhood sweetheart fiancé, and you obey in everything. You. You grew up in such a situation, so naturally you won’t understand the sadness of a so-called noble girl like me. Things that seem natural to you are in the eyes of people like us who have never received sincere love and indulgence. Here, it is extremely difficult."
"Otherwise, why do you think His Majesty likes you? To be honest, His Majesty and I are from the same family. We have been unable and afraid to be comfortable since we were children."
"No matter how noble and respected my status is now, it's still hard to forget the fear and fear in my childhood."
"What people like us envy the most is your freedom and freedom."
"His Majesty hasn't liked me very much since I entered the palace. I'm not surprised at all."
"Although I'm not bad in terms of appearance, but... when Your Majesty sees my dull and boring character, I'm afraid he will think of himself when he was a child, right?"
"I don't like Your Majesty either. When I see Your Majesty's gentle and elegant appearance, I think of how I learned the rules when I was a child. My aunts all said that I was not born from my legitimate mother. It is my blessing to have someone to teach me the rules. I must cherish it."
She sneered, "You only learned to be cautious after coming to the Imperial Capital, so you don't understand at all. A serious person who walks on thin ice will not dare to walk openly even if he steps on solid ground one day."
Yun Fenghuang was silent for a while and said calmly: "Since you have so many opinions about me, why did you admit those crimes just now in front of the emperor?"
Yun Qingman's expression suddenly softened, and she said: "My various views on you are nothing but envy and jealousy. If I could choose, I would rather choose a life like yours. Even though my background is not that noble, at least I have a biological father." You are like your father, your biological mother is like your biological mother, your brothers, sisters-in-law and sisters will all remember you in their hearts, and your aunt who married far away will treat you like your own flesh and blood... I don't want to live anyway, since you need a scapegoat, then I will accept it. Come down, this can be regarded as repaying some of the grudges that caused you to enter the palace and miss the Qi family!"
After a pause, she said slowly, "Maybe you don't believe it, but I really didn't know that Mrs. Qi would come to Imperial Capital at that time. Otherwise, I might not have done that. In fact, I have always liked you. I said , in this life, except for my aunt, you are the only one who has treated me sincerely. Even though you hated me when you didn’t know anything after entering the palace, you deserved it."
Yun Fenghuang looked at her and sneered: "Even if the fourth prince dies, you still don't hate me?"
"It's not you who caused the Fourth Prince's death." Yun Qingman didn't have any strong emotions after hearing this. Instead, he said calmly, "It's a good thing that he's gone. After all, this child has passed on the same fate as me. My biological father It doesn’t hurt, my mother is useless, and my aunt doesn’t even exist in her eyes. Even if he is a prince, he will definitely be able to be crowned a vassal king when he grows up, but is it interesting?"
She said calmly, "After my sister died, and after you and Duke Yi officially became enemies, I often thought, what's the point of living in my life? The people who gave birth to me and raised me don't care about me at all. I am serving your awe-inspiring Majesty, and you have no regard for me. Even if I rely on Duke Yiguo's palace and your banter to continue living in this palace with fine clothes and fine food, it will only be a waste of time."
"It's better to reincarnate as soon as possible. Maybe in the next life, my family will be kind to me?"
Yun Fenghuang couldn't understand the idea that she couldn't live because of her family and because the people around her didn't treat her sincerely. From Yun Fenghuang's point of view, she didn't live for the people around her. Of course it was good for the people around her to be nice to her. , it’s not good for her, then wouldn’t it be better to just step on them and climb up without any burden
Isn’t it good to take revenge after gaining power
Wouldn't it be better to live a better life than them and make them envious, jealous, and hateful
… Why can’t you think about it
However, it was also a good thing for Yun Fenghuang that Yun Qingman was willing to bear the blame for the brother and sister's fight, which aggravated Princess Zhaoqing's injuries.
As for unraveling the truth of that year... now that the matter is over, the answer is no longer important.
She then said to Yun Qingman: "In that case, after you go on the road, I will ask someone to help you do some extra prayers at the dojo. I hope that in your next life, you can be like me, with a pampered father and a mother who loves you, and a brother and sister-in-law who take pity on you. Take care of me, elder sister.”
Anyway, she wouldn't let Yun Qingman survive today.
If we don't eradicate the troubles caused by a moment of weakness five years ago, who knows whether there will be another turmoil in the future
But when Yun Qingman agreed to go into the house, Yun Fenghuang remembered it, stopped her again, and asked: "When Your Majesty was practicing Zuo, all the ministers were frightened by the Ji family, but Duke Yi was the only one who surrendered without hesitation. … Do you know why?”
"... I'm afraid even my concubine brothers don't know about such a thing. How can I, a concubine, hear about it?" Yun Qingman looked at her in surprise. Seeing Yun Fenghuang frowning, she waved her hand to indicate that she had no other questions. She thought for a while and then said, "But you can ask my brother-in-law."
Yun Fenghuang sneered: "Have you become confused after being ignored all these years? Can Yun Qike and I still have a good conversation?"
Yun Qingman pursed her lips: "When he fell in love with you at first sight, he secretly wanted me to help you deliver a message. For this reason, he went out to buy a bracelet and gave it to me. That bracelet is now at the bottom of my makeup box. Underneath, there are red gold threads wrapped around branches, pomegranates inlaid with turquoise. But I saw that you were afraid of being accused of using me to seduce the son of a wealthy family, so I declined and asked him to find his parents to discuss the marriage with a matchmaker. Later. You also know about it. I have always told my aunt, you don’t know anything."
"I understand." Yun Fenghuang nodded thoughtfully, "Do you have anything else to say? If not, I will leave in a while."
Yun Qingman smiled, shook her head, and went in.
After a long while, Chen Jing lay down in the crack of the door, took a look, and said softly: "Mother, Yun Jieyu is hanging."