When you look at the world from another angle, you will find that many things are different from what you think.
Lu Zhengfei always felt that he protected Chen Qianqing very well, but when he became Chen Qianqing, he realized that this so-called good was just wishful thinking.
At that time, Chen Qianqing was still weak, and a single negligence was enough to hurt him deeply.
Whether it was Lu Yiqin who appeared in the ward, or Liu Jingyang who uttered vicious words, or the lipstick mark that was deliberately put on Lu Zhengfei's neckline, they all explained the fact that Chen Qianqing's situation was far from being as good as he imagined.
Because the relationship with Lu Zhengfei is not good, even if Chen Qianqing encounters someone who hurts him, he will not use Lu Zhengfei's strength to fight back. He just keeps forbearance until it breaks out completely.
And this is also one of the reasons for the tragic ending of Lu Zhengfei and Chen Qianqing. Without communication, it is doomed not to see the truth.
After Chen Qianqing came home from school, he saw Lu Zhengfei sitting gloomily in the living room.
Chen Qianqing does not smoke, so Lu Zhengfei rarely smokes in front of him on weekdays, but today is an exception. Lu Zhengfei is sitting in the living room with an ashtray in front of him full of cigarette butts.
Chen Qianqing walked in with a cane, but his expression did not change because he saw Lu Zhengfei. He walked to the sofa, sat down, picked up an apple and started nibbling, as if he hadn't seen Lu Zhengfei.
"Qianqing." It could be seen that Lu Zhengfei had been sitting on the sofa for a long time. When he saw Chen Qianqing coming back, he put out his cigarette and said, "Yesterday..."
"Give me a cigarette." Chen Qianqing, who had finished eating an apple, interrupted Lu Zhengfei's words.
"When did you start smoking?" Lu Zhengfei was stunned for a moment, and then his eyes were a little angry: "Who taught you to smoke?"
Chen Qianqing said: "Give me a cigarette, and you can talk about what happened yesterday."
Lu Zhengfei didn't expect Chen Qianqing to have such an attitude. He thought that Chen Qianqing would at least show anger, but when he really wanted to discuss this matter with Chen Qianqing, he only saw that it didn't matter.
Yes, it doesn't matter, as if Lu Zhengfei had nothing to do with him no matter how he explained it.
Lu Zhengfei was silent for a moment, but still handed a cigarette to Chen Qianqing.
Chen Qianqing wanted to smoke, but he didn't. He didn't intend to do anything harmful to his body, not even smoking, so he put the cigarette in his nose and smelled the tobacco, which was better than nothing to satisfy his craving.
"It's a good thing Ruan Wenhong did." Lu Zhengfei said, "I deliberately printed lipstick on my collar."
Ruan Wenhong is Lu Zhengfei's cousin. In fact, neither Lu Zhengfei's father nor his mother support his affairs with Chen Qianqing. However, Lu Zhengfei is not too stupid. 's infatuation.
But even so, Lu Zhengfei's family still disliked his doting on Chen Qianqing.
Chen Qianqing lowered her head, shredded the cigarette a little bit, and put a bit of tobacco on the tip of her tongue before she raised her head and said, "Is this what you want to say?"
Lu Zhengfei was stunned: "Qianqing, don't be angry, I won't go to other women behind your back."
Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei's panicked appearance, but just wanted to smile bitterly. Young Lu Zhengfei only thought that Chen Qianqing's lack of love for him was the biggest obstacle between them, but he didn't think that his weakness and naivety were the biggest obstacles in this relationship. stumbling block.
Chen Qianqing spat out the tobacco in his mouth, took a sip of water and said, "Lu Zhengfei, can you really protect me?"
Lu Zhengfei said, "Qianqing, what do you mean?"
"It's okay for your sister or your cousin." Chen Qianqing said, "Can they send me to hell as long as they want?"
Lu Zhengfei took a breath. In the past, Chen Qianqing would never say these words to him. The deep meaning of these words is that Chen Qianqing has accepted him?
Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei's expression coldly, as if looking at a poor and naive child: "Lu Zhengfei, it's not a problem for you to be with me, the problem is, do you want to be with me like you are now?"
Can only be with the same person by breaking the leg and closing the door, and then go to the end of destruction together
"I see." Lu Zhengfei is not stupid. He has no love experience. He has never thought of his infatuation with Chen Qianqing before. No matter how smart and alert he is, he is only in his twenties. After all, his life experience is too much few.
Lu Zhengfei may be impeccable in his career, but emotionally, he can't even match the original Chen Qianqing.
Seeing that Lu Zhengfei understood, Chen Qianqing felt exhausted. If there was someone by his side who could remind him of his mistakes, he and the original Chen Qianqing would not have reached that point.
For a while, neither Chen Qianqing nor Lu Zhengfei had any major incidents.
After the Lu Yiqin incident, Lu Zhengfei took out the person who dared to act beside him - that person had been with him for six years, and he didn't mean to harm Chen Qianqing. That's why Lu Yiqin insulted Chen Qianqing.
Lu Zhengfei has no mercy for this person. Today he can do something because he can't stand Chen Qianqing, and tomorrow he can do worse things because he can't stand him.
Everything seems to be moving in the right direction.
As soon as May passed, Chen Qianqing was about to start preparing for the final exam. In order to facilitate the review, he resisted Lu Zhengfei's protest and stayed at the school for two weeks. He went to the library with Zhu Mao every day, and finally he covered several courses. It passed by accident.
During this period, Lu Zhengfei visited Chen Qianqing several times, and asked people to bring him lunch and dinner every day.
"Qianqing, is this your brother?" Zhu Mao asked while eating.
Chen Qianqing said, "No, my friend."
Zhu Mao said: "He is so kind to you..." Chen Qianqing just smiled and didn't say much.
After the results come out, it's summer vacation.
Chen Qianqing didn't plan to go home this summer because he disagreed with Lu Zhengfei because of the inconvenience of his legs.
When Liu Huamei came to take care of Chen Qianqing, she knew that he would not go back for the summer vacation, but at the end of the semester, she called over, told Chen Qianqing something, and asked him again whether he would go back.
"Mom, I'm not going back." Chen Qianqing said to Liu Huamei on the phone: "You and Dad pay attention to your health and come here to play when you have time. It's much cooler than City C."
Liu Huamei responded with a smile. She was worried about Chen Qianqing at first, but she didn't worry so much when she knew that Lu Zhengfei was also there.
Chen Qianqing was very speechless about Liu Huamei's reassurance. He didn't know what made Liu Huamei feel so reassured about Lu Zhengfei that he gave himself to Lu Zhengfei very calmly - you know, back then, Liu Huamei was very suspicious of him.
Chen Qianqing didn't go back, just in line with Lu Zhengfei's intention. He originally planned to take Chen Qianqing out to play, but Chen Qianqing said directly: "Am I going out with you on crutches?"
Lu Zhengfei had to ask Chen Qianqing how he wanted to spend this summer vacation.
It's funny to say that Chen Qianqing has never had a so-called summer vacation. Every vacation he schedules is very tight. It's not so much a vacation as a study in another place.
"I don't want to go out." Chen Qianqing said, "Just read a book at home and take a rest."
Seeing this, Lu Zhengfei wanted to say something, but he finally held back. Chen Qianqing has really changed a lot. In the past, if he was unhappy about something, he would definitely only keep it in his heart, but now, he will directly say it one by one, even with a taste of hating iron.
Lu Zhengfei guessed that Chen Qianqing really wanted to have a good time with him.
But in fact, I'm afraid it's fake to live well, and it's real to hate iron.
In fact, the relationship between the two is quite harmonious, and the only thing that cannot be reached is that they have sex.
That's right, it's sex. After being raped by Lu Zhengfei once, Chen Qianqing has developed a skill, even in deep sleep, he can wake up very quickly when Lu Zhengfei is close to him.
Lu Zhengfei didn't like Chen Qianqing struggling too much, so he wanted to take advantage of Chen Qianqing's sleep like last time, but obviously, his plan was not so easy to achieve.
Chen Qianqing woke up too easily, almost as soon as he approached, he could see Chen Qianqing, who should have been sleeping, open his eyes and stare at him, and Lu Zhengfei, who was looking at him, was embarrassed.
Chen Qianqing also knew that this was not going to happen. Sooner or later, Lu Zhengfei would break out, so he thought about it for a long time, and after a long time of mental construction, he finally said to Lu Zhengfei: "Lu Zhengfei, I will make it out for you by hand. Bar."
At that time, Lu Zhengfei was watching the news on his tablet, and when he heard Chen Qianqing's words, the tablet in his hand smashed to the ground. Then he got up quickly and touched Chen Qianqing's forehead with his hand: "You don't have a fever, right?"
Chen Qianqing: "..." Seeing such a hopeless self, I feel extremely sad.
Seeing Chen Qianqing's expression as if he was joking, Lu Zhengfei said, "Are you sure you want to get it out with your hands?" Maybe no one would believe it. Lu Zhengfei has a special plot for Chen Qianqing's beautiful hands that play the piano. , so when Chen Qianqing said to help him do it with his hands, his first reaction was to be happy.
How could Chen Qianqing not know what Lu Zhengfei was thinking, he clearly told himself to hold back, but when he saw Lu Zhengfei's eyes, he was still angry: "Lu Zhengfei, can you make a difference? Don't think I don't know you are here. What are you thinking!"
Lu Zhengfei said, "How could you possibly know what I'm thinking!"
Chen Qianqing said, "Aren't you fucking in the dark, the corners of your mouth are so high that you think I'm blind?!"
Lu Zhengfei: "..." Hey, is it really that obvious...