There are many things that you are doomed to never understand unless you experience it yourself.
Lu Zhengfei knew that Chen Qianqing was in pain when his parents died, but he didn't expect him to be in such pain.
It was a kind of despair that would seem pale no matter how you describe it, and you can only know what it feels like if you experience it yourself.
In this life, without Lu Zhengfei's participation, Chen Qianqing's parents still died. And still died in a car accident, on the highway leaving the airport.
It was as if the god in charge of fate was mocking him in his own way, telling him that he had to taste the things that made Chen Qianqing extremely painful.
In the end, Chen Qianqing did not go to see Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang for the last time. This is the first time he has tasted fear since he came to this world.
The doctor said that when Chen Qingyang was pulled to the hospital, he was already dead, and Liu Huamei died on the rescue platform. Their dead faces were not very good-looking, Chen Qingyang's head was almost cut off, and Liu Huamei was not much better.
The driver who caused the accident also died on the spot, and the reason for the accident was simple and ridiculous—the driver who caused the accident was smoking on the highway while talking on the phone, leaning on the steering wheel with his right wrist. car.
The reason is ridiculous, but the result makes people not laugh at all.
Chen Qianqing felt that his entire body was hollowed out. He felt this way only when the real Chen Qianqing died in his previous life. The feeling that his head was blank and the people around him couldn't understand anything made him very tired.
Lu Zhengfei saw Chen Qianqing's reaction in his eyes. He knew that the words of comfort at this time were pale, so he just hugged Chen Qianqing and let him lean against his arms.
It was always a little strange that the two big men were leaning against each other like this.
The news of Chen Qingyang's accident quickly reached the ears of Chen Qingyang's sister and sister, and that night, Chen Qingyun and Chen Qingyu came.
Chen Qianqing didn't hear a word of what they said. He and Lu Zhengfei sat in the corridor in the middle of the night until it was almost three o'clock before Lu Zhengfei helped him to find a hotel near the hospital to stay.
Chen Qianqing took a bath quietly, then sat silently beside the bed with wet hair.
Lu Zhengfei was worried about him. While taking a shower, he kept looking in Chen Qianqing's direction. Fortunately, Chen Qianqing didn't respond until he came out of the bathroom after washing.
Lu Zhengfei sat beside Chen Qianqing and hugged Chen Qianqing's shoulder.
Chen Qianqing said after a long time, "Give me a cigarette."
Lu Zhengfei took out a cigarette from his pocket and handed it over.
Chen Qianqing put the cigarette in his mouth, lit it with a lighter, and took a deep breath. He said, "Lu Zhengfei, I'm a little scared."
Lu Zhengfei was stunned. He had almost never heard Chen Qianqing's weak words. He said, "Qianqing, I am here."
Chen Qianqing exhaled the smoke and looked at Lu Zhengfei indifferently: "Do you know what I'm afraid of?"
Lu Zhengfei said, "What are you afraid of?"
Chen Qianqing laughed sarcastically, and said, "I'm afraid, I know, but I can't change things." Such as the death of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang, such as Chen Qianqing's injury, such as their ending.
Lu Zhengfei looked at Chen Qianqing's pale face and indifferent expression, and felt distressed. He tightened his arms and said, "Chen Qianqing, I love you, and I am willing to shelter you from the wind and rain."
Hearing this, Chen Qianqing shook his head slowly. In the end, he didn't say anything, threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray, and lay on the bed ready to sleep.
Lu Zhengfei wanted to do something for Chen Qianqing, but he found that what he could do was pitiful.
Chen Qianqing hadn't slept all night. As soon as he closed his eyes, fragmentary pictures and sounds began to appear in his head. Those pictures and sounds were so real that they seemed to appear in front of him and sounded in his ears.
Lu Zhengfei didn't fall asleep either. He hugged Chen Qianqing and wanted to use his own temperature to warm this cold man who seemed to be curling up.
Early the next morning, Chen Qianqing's first words when he woke up were: "Lu Zhengfei, take me to see a psychiatrist if you have time."
He couldn't take it anymore.
Lu Zhengfei should have been happy, but now he is not happy, so in the end he didn't say anything, just nodded.
No matter how sad you are, you still have to do what you need to do.
After breakfast, Lu Zhengfei and Chen Qianqing went to the hospital. Lu Zhengfei contacted the family and began to prepare for the burial of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang.
Chen Qianqing went to a nearby cemetery that afternoon and chose a cemetery. Prepare to bury Liu Huamei and Chen Qianqing together.
Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang died unexpectedly, not a happy funeral. According to local rules, they could not make a big deal, so Lu Zhengfei asked someone to watch the day and was going to take the two of them to cremation.
Chen Qingyang's sister came again during this period and gave Chen Qianqing three red envelopes.
Chen Qingyu comforted Chen Qianqing clearly, but she was asking how much Chen Qianqing could get in compensation. Chen Qianqing just pretended that she didn't understand and ignored her, her whole person was dumbfounded.
In the end, Chen Qingyun, who came together, couldn't stand it anymore, glared at Chen Qingyu several times, pulled her and left.
Chen Qingyu walked out of the hospital door and complained at Chen Qingyun's grievance: "Sister, I didn't ask this on purpose. My brother is gone, but Qianqing is still alive. I'm not thinking of him!"
Chen Qingyun snorted. She sneered: "Chen Qingyu, don't call me sister. Did Qing Yang benefit you less when he was there? You are thinking about his life-buying money when he is gone?"
Chen Qingyu said: "What do you mean by worrying about me? Isn't Qianqing still a child? Before the compensation was paid, he was taken to cremation. What if the driver who caused the accident defaulted on his bill?!"
Chen Qingyun said angrily: "Otherwise? You want Qingyang to wait for the money to come down before going to the ground? Chen Qingyu, why didn't I find you so vicious before?"
Chen Qingyu sneered: "Chen Qingyun, what are you talking about, let me tell you, don't pretend to be a good person here..."
The two were arguing at the door of the hospital, and they were met by Lu Zhengfei who just came to the hospital. After these few days, Chen Qingyu got to know Lu Zhengfei. She hurriedly stopped and greeted, "Yo, Xiao Lu, come to the hospital to see Qianqing?"
Lu Zhengfei glanced at Chen Qingyu indifferently: "I advise you not to mess with anything."
Chen Qingyu was annoyed: "Can you talk, this child, I'm Chen Qianqing's aunt, why are you outsiders telling me not to be a fool?"
Lu Zhengfei asked nonchalantly, "Do you know that your daughter has an abortion again?"
Chen Qingyu was taken aback.
Lu Zhengfei said: "It is said that I have been pregnant for more than three months, and it is still a boy."
Chen Qingyu's face was extremely ugly for a while, and she didn't know how to refute Lu Zhengfei. She spat on the ground and turned away.
Chen Qingyun's face was not very good-looking, she said hello to Lu Zhengfei and left.
Lu Zhengfei entered the hospital with a blank expression. He didn't have the time to care about what Chen Xiaohui was doing recently, those words just now were nothing more than casual remarks. Unexpectedly, Chen Qingyu had no confidence in her daughter, and left without saying a word.
Lu Zhengfei is the kind of person who is careful in his bones. He is usually forced to be generous in front of Chen Qianqing. Once someone else provokes him, he will never be tolerant and retaliate with virtue.
As soon as Lu Zhengfei entered the room, he saw Chen Qianqing sitting in a chair in a daze.
Liu Huamei has brothers, but they are far away from here. It is estimated that they will be able to come over in a few days, so when Chen Qingyu and Chen Qingyun left, the whole house was deserted. The mournful music made it even more desolate.
Lu Zhengfei said, "Qianqing, the time is set. The day after tomorrow, the funeral will take place in a dozen days."
Chen Qianqing said, "Thank you."
Lu Zhengfei said, "Qianqing... If you feel uncomfortable, just cry." When he heard the news of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang's death, Chen Qianqing hadn't shed a single tear, but even if he didn't shed a tear, it could make people look at his face. And mentally, to see how distressed he was.
Chen Qianqing glanced at Lu Zhengfei indifferently, and said more indifferently: "I'm not Chen Qianqing, why should I cry."
Lu Zhengfei was immediately dumbfounded.
Chen Qianqing didn't explain what he meant by this sentence, he just got up, took out his cigarette, lit it and walked out.
Lu Zhengfei knew from Chen Qianqing's masturbation in the mirror that Chen Qianqing's mental state was not right. Now that he heard Chen Qianqing's words, it was as if he had understood it.
Xu Shaoren's split personality theory is obviously confirmed perfectly.
Since Chen Qianqing's leg was broken once by him, his whole person seemed to have changed. Not only could he not play the piano, but his personality also became softer, so... All this is caused by split personality
Lu Zhengfei remembered Chen Qianqing's indifferent and disgusting expression when he looked at him.
Taking advantage of Chen Qianqing's time to smoke, Lu Zhengfei sent a text message to Xu Shaoren, briefly explaining the situation here.
Xu Shaoren replied to the text message in seconds, with the sentence "Professional examination, early treatment if you are sick"
Lu Zhengfei gritted his teeth. Although Chen Qianqing agreed to go abroad to see a doctor, he didn't have time right now. But the fortunate thing in misfortune is that Chen Qianqing is not yet prone to self-mutilation.
According to Xu Shaoren, as long as you don't commit suicide, everything is easy to say.
After Chen Qianqing finished smoking, she returned to the room and sat on the chair again without speaking.
Lu Zhengfei thought about it for a long time, and didn't know what to say. Finally, he said, "What would you like to eat at night?"
Chen Qianqing glanced at Lu Zhengfei wordlessly.
Lu Zhengfei: "..." Well, he also knows that this topic is terrible, but it's better than saying nothing...
As a result, Chen Qianqing actually answered Lu Zhengfei's question, he said, "Have some porridge."
Lu Zhengfei sighed, originally because Chen Qianqing's heavy heart finally eased a little. He thought, as long as Chen Qianqing is willing to live hard, he will come out of the shadow one day, right