Turns Out I’m Crazy

Chapter 59: I wish you happiness

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On the second day of arriving in country Z, Lu Zhengfei arranged a relatively comprehensive psychological examination for Chen Qianqing.

Facing the psychiatrist and some professional tests, Chen Qianqing cooperated very well.

As an accompanying family member, Lu Zhengfei was also asked some questions about Chen Qianqing.

According to Xu Shaoren's observation of Chen Qianqing and some of the situations Lu Zhengfei described to him, Xu Shaoren guessed that Chen Qianqing should not be the main character of this body. But in general, split personality is accompanied by a series of sequelae such as amnesia. In Lu Zhengfei's description, Chen Qianqing did not have such a situation.

After the results of the diagnosis came out, Xu Shaoren's guess went wrong. Chen Qianqing did not have a split personality, but had a depressive disorder - commonly known as depression.

Depression can be said to be a common disease that appears in everyone's sight now. The cause of depression is still unclear, but when depression is more serious, there will indeed be hallucinations, delusions and other symptoms that appeared in Chen Qianqing. situation.

Chen Qianqing accepted the result calmly.

He has long noticed that his mental state is wrong, but he has been suppressing it. It was not until the death of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang that his symptoms broke out completely, so that he could not control his behavior and thoughts at all.

The doctor prescribed some commonly used medicines to Lu Zhengfei, and then gave some advice about Chen Qianqing.

For many people who don't know it, depression is more like a disease that is obtained for fashion. In the eyes of normal people, there are so many things that can be sad, as long as you are positive, you will always come out.

In fact, this is not the case at all. Only people who suffer from depression understand how hopeless it is. It's like all your joy, all the things that can bring you happiness, are gone, your positive, positive emotions are all sucked in by something like a black hole, and these emotions are still leaving you continuously body of.

Unfortunately, fortunately, the diagnosis showed that Chen Qianqing, who was suffering from depression, did not have a tendency to self-harm. At least in the test, and in the questioning of Lu Zhengfei, this did not happen.

The current diagnosis given by the doctor is that moderate depression, visual hallucinations, auditory hallucinations, accompanied by insomnia, can be given drug treatment and psychological treatment.

However, psychotropic drugs are usually dependent. Chen Qianqing asked about the side effects and made a request to Lu Zhengfei - he does not take drugs, but only accepts psychological treatment.

Lu Zhengfei wanted to persuade Chen Qianqing, but he was silent again when he saw his stubborn gaze.

The two of them had a tacit understanding in some respects, and Lu Zhengfei found that sometimes a look from Chen Qianqing could make him understand what the people in front of him were thinking.

Lu Zhengfei wanted to persuade, but couldn't say it. In the end, Chen Qianqing reached out and patted Lu Zhengfei's shoulder: "Don't worry, I know my own body."

Lu Zhengfei looked at Chen Qianqing and finally agreed. The most important reason why he agreed is that Chen Qianqing has no tendency to commit suicide at present. He also knows that some drugs will cause dependence and even burden on the body after use, so he thought about it several times. Then, he agreed to Chen Qianqing's proposal.

The streets of country Z are very clean, Chen Qianqing and Lu Zhengfei walked towards home one after the other.

After setting the time for psychotherapy, Lu Zhengfei took Chen Qianqing to a restaurant for dinner, then he asked the driver to drive the car back, and walked home with Chen Qianqing.

This villa in country Z was a twelfth birthday gift from Lu Zhengfei's mother. In his previous life, the real Chen Qianqing also lived here.

But then a fire broke out and the villa was burnt to the ground. The real Chen Qianqing lost the beautiful eyes that fascinated Lu Zhengfei because of this fire.

The surrounding scenery was familiar. The early spring came, and the trees began to sprout new shoots. Chen Qianqing walked forward, suddenly turned around and stretched out his hand towards Lu Zhengfei who was following behind him.

Lu Zhengfei was stunned for a moment, then took Chen Qianqing's hand. This is a pair of hands belonging to a piano player. The fingers are slender and soft and delicate to the touch. As soon as you touch it, you know that the owner of the hand has not done heavy work. The only fly in the ointment is that the temperature of the hand is a little cold.

Chen Qianqing turned his head and continued to walk forward. Lu Zhengfei was holding his hand, as if he had returned to a certain point in time, and the person behind him was naturally not Lu Zhengfei.

Lu Zhengfei, who was held by Chen Qianqing, was a little overjoyed. He held Chen Qianqing's hand tightly, as if he was holding the string of a kite. I am afraid that if I push too hard, the kite will fall from the sky, and I am afraid that if I hold it too lightly, the kite will fly higher and higher and eventually disappear without a trace.

Chen Qianqing said: "Lu Zhengfei, you like Chen Qianqing, right?"

Lu Zhengfei replied, "If you weren't called Chen Qianqing, I would have liked you too." The voice answering this question was young, cheerful, full of hope that never faded away.

Chen Qianqing smiled: "Then do you like me now, or me in the past?"

Lu Zhengfei said, "I like both."

What a tricky answer, Chen Qianqing turned his head and looked at Lu Zhengfei: "Why did you break my leg before, but now you are so kind to me?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "Because I'm afraid, you leave me." And now - I know you won't leave me.

The smile on Chen Qianqing's face faded, and he said, "Really."

Lu Zhengfei showed a helpless smile.

Chen Qianqing thought, if he hadn't fallen in love with that Chen Qianqing at the beginning, would the ending for the two of them be much better.

Cherry blossoms are planted in the courtyard of the villa.

At this time, the pink flowers are blooming all over the branches. Occasionally, a gust of wind blows, and the pink petals are scattered all over the place. Coupled with the unique villa, it is like a castle in a dream.

After the fire broke out here, Chen Qianqing never lived here again. Although sometimes he would come to Z city, or even come to see this house that was renovated and better renovated, but he never Haven't even walked in. Because this house has captured his lover's eyes forever and left him with nightmare memories.

Lu Zhengfei went to open the door.

Chen Qianqing stood outside watching the cherry blossoms. There was a swing in the yard that no one had ever used. After standing for a while, he sat there.

After a while, Lu Zhengfei came out of the room with two freshly baked lava cakes in his hand. He handed one to Chen Qianqing and said, "The chef just baked it, try it."

Back then, Chen Qianqing didn't like sweets, so he didn't even eat Lu Zhengfei, but now, there are two people who both like sweets.

Chen Qianqing scooped a spoonful and stuffed it into his mouth.

Because it was just baked, as soon as the spoon was inserted, there was liquid chocolate flowing out, and the temperature at the entrance was slightly hot, so Chen Qianqing swallowed the first mouthful.

Lu Zhengfei was also very happy to eat. He sat next to Chen Qianqing, lowered his head and took a bite, like a child who hasn't eaten candy for a long time, and the corners of his mouth are covered with dark chocolate.

Chen Qianqing stared at Lu Zhengfei for a while, and was a little lost.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, I may go to my mother tomorrow to report a story, and come back the day after tomorrow to accompany you to the hospital."

Chen Qianqing knew what Lu Zhengfei was going to do, and he even knew that Huang Yuping knew about him at the moment.

Only this time, Lu Zhengfei couldn't find an excuse anymore.

If it's just for fun, how can people travel all the way to foreign countries for treatment? Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei with a little pity - because Lu Zhengfei probably won't be able to come back.

This may be the last time they meet in the past few years.

The taste of chocolate was slightly bitter. After Chen Qianqing finished eating the cake, she picked up a tissue and wiped her mouth.

Lu Zhengfei said, "Do you want to eat another one?"

Chen Qianqing shook his head.

Lu Zhengfei said, "Then I'll eat another one."

Chen Qianqing laughed, and he said, "Let's eat." Anyway, we were about to separate.

Lu Zhengfei picked up another one and ate it. This one was sprinkled with some white powdered sugar, and it should taste sweeter.

Chen Qianqing leaned on the swing and slowly rocked with his feet on the ground. A piece of cherry blossom fell on Lu Zhengfei's hair who was sitting beside him. Chen Qianqing reached out and took it off, and then blew it gently.

Lu Zhengfei said, "Qian Qing, are you in a good mood?"

Chen Qianqing narrowed his eyes and smiled: "Yes."

Lu Zhengfei said, "Do you like cake? I'll ask him to make it tomorrow..."

Chen Qianqing did not speak, and continued to smile. Is he going to tell Lu Zhengfei that because he knew they were going to be separated, he was in a particularly happy mood

Lu Zhengfei was still chattering: "Qianqing, do you want to go to school here?"

Chen Qianqing said, "No way."

Lu Zhengfei said: "It's okay if you don't, the doctor said that you need to communicate with people more, and I'll help you find some suitable clubs..."

Chen Qianqing said, "I don't know the language of Z, how can I communicate with people?"

Lu Zhengfei was stunned, he didn't seem to have thought of this at all.

Chen Qianqing said, "Did you not think about this when you brought me out?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "Then, then I will first help you find a teacher of the Z language, learn slowly, and you will learn."

Chen Qianqing said, "No need." Of course he knew the language of country Z, but he didn't want to tell Lu Zhengfei that he would.

What else did Lu Zhengfei want to say: "Qianqing..."

Chen Qianqing got up directly, ignored Lu Zhengfei, and walked into the house. He had just gone up to the second floor and was about to enter the bedroom when his cell phone rang.

The words "Han Huaiyun" are displayed on it.

Chen Qianqing stared at the phone for a moment, but picked it up and said, "Hey, what's the matter?"

Han Huaiyun's voice was soft. He said, "Mr. Chen? I'm Han Huaiyun. Can I chat with you tomorrow?"

Of course Chen Qianqing said yes.

Han Huaiyun said, "Please don't tell Mr. Lu yet."

Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei who was sitting on the swing in the courtyard from the window, and said, "No problem."