Lu Zhengfei never dreamed that the scene where he and Chen Qianqing were eating cake in the courtyard was the last time he and Chen Qianqing met in the past few years.
During the three years of parting, the clearest picture in Lu Zhengfei's mind was that Chen Qianqing was sitting on the swing, looking forward silently. The petals of the cherry blossoms fell from the tree, and some fell on Chen Qianqing's hair. He stretched out his hand and pinched it. Take a slice, and then blow it gently.
Some things, when you think it will not happen, it still quietly develops according to the established trajectory.
Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang did not die on the way to see Chen Qianqing, but on the way to see Chen Qianqing off. Lu Zhengfei was not locked up by his family for forcibly coming out of the closet, but because his affair with Chen Qianqing was exposed, he was locked up for three years.
Chen Qianqing sat by the window of the house, watching Lu Zhengfei get into the car sent by Huang Yuping, and then Han Huaiyun's voice sounded behind him, he said, "Hello, Mr. Chen, I'm Han Huaiyun."
Chen Qianqing turned his head and looked at Han Huaiyun: "Okay."
Chen Qianqing is very clear about what the real Chen Qianqing did back then, because he investigated everything Chen Qianqing did three years later.
To put it bluntly, what the real Chen Qianqing thought about was just the life of an ordinary person. Find a good job, find a girlfriend, have a baby, and grow old.
Han Huaiyun said, "Do you agree with my proposal?"
Chen Qianqing said: "Agree."
The conditions Han Huaiyun gave to Chen Qianqing were similar to what he talked about when he came to Chen Qianqing at that time. To sum it up, he gave Chen Qianqing a sum of money, arranged a psychotherapy institution for him, and even went through the formalities for admission abroad.
Chen Qianqing was wearing a white high-cold sweater, holding a spoon in his hand and slowly stirring the coffee in front of him, he said, "I want to go back to China."
Han Huaiyun had no reason to disagree. What Lu Zhengfei did was too obvious. His family would never tolerate what he did. Playing with men and falling in love with men were two completely different concepts.
Chen Qianqing knew that Han Huaiyun would agree, so he casually glanced at the courtyard outside the window, where the sun was shining and the spring was just right.
The next day, Chen Qianqing returned to China.
For the current Chen Qianqing, the most terrifying thing is that he has no goals. He had no idea what he wanted to do at all, or even the meaning of his rebirth—if suffering was a meaning, of course.
Han Huaiyun represented Lu Chonggan's will, so he generously gave Chen Qianqing a large sum of money, more than what they had agreed upon.
Han Huaiyun even apologized to Chen Qianqing for Lu Zhonggan. Chen Qianqing listened and listened until Han Huaiyun finished explaining the matter and was about to leave, he asked Chen Qianqing, "Don't you care about what happened to Lu Zhengfei?"
Chen Qianqing raised her eyes and looked over, still silent.
Sometimes silence is an answer, Han Huaiyun sighed: "His leg was broken by his father yesterday."
Chen Qianqing said: "You should go."
Han Huaiyun said no more, turned around and left. He is now completely convinced that Chen Qianqing doesn't like Lu Zhengfei anymore.
Chen Qianqing sat in the room for a long time, until he felt a dull pain in his bones, so he changed his posture.
If the body wasn't his own, he might have chosen death long ago.
No matter how painful, no matter how desperate, the sun still rises as usual, and life is still how to live.
Chen Qianqing didn't contact anyone after returning to China, and found a job as a clerk in a company. With the money Han Huaiyun gave him, as long as he doesn't squander it, his life is enough, but he also knows his psychological state. If he is bored alone for a long time, he is really not sure if he will die at home like this one day. .
Without a university degree, Chen Qianqing found a job similar to the front desk, with a low salary, but it was easy.
He didn't go back to city a or city b, but just bought the fastest train ticket and went to a completely unfamiliar city.
The psychological treatment Han Huaiyun arranged for Chen Qianqing was once a week. Chen Qianqing visited once and never again. Because he couldn't tell his true thoughts to the psychiatrist, he could only be silent. Facing the psychiatrist's inquiries and kind conversations, he just sat there without saying a word.
While working in D city, Chen Qianqing met Wang Wulin several times.
The first time, Chen Qianqing didn't care too much, but after several encounters later, Chen Qianqing realized that he really couldn't escape something like fate.
Wang Wulin came to D city purely by coincidence. His sister Wang Wuxiao fell in love with a man—to say that she fell in love, it was more like she could not ask for it. The man was from City D, so Wang Wulin often went to City D to arrest people, but he did not expect that he would meet Chen Qianqing several times. Second-rate.
Wang Wulin has retired and started to accept family affairs. At first, he wondered if Chen Qianqing was a deliberate encounter, but when he found that Chen Qianqing often pretended not to see him or walked around him, he thought that Chen Qianqing was probably with him. He was very suspicious...
Since it's not a conspiracy, it's fate. Wang Wulin knew what happened to Lu Zhengfei, so he had some sympathy for Chen Qianqing.
Later, Chen Qianqing figured it out. Since he can't resist fate, let's enjoy it.
When Wang Wulin was in City D, he would invite Chen Qianqing to drink tea.
Chen Qianqing had nothing to do anyway, so he accompanied Wang Wulin to bask in the sun and eat typical dishes. Wang Wulin spoke less, and Chen Qianqing didn't speak much, so the two often sat for an afternoon without saying a word.
Wang Wulin admired Chen Qianqing very much. He felt that without Lu Zhengfei, Chen Qianqing probably wouldn't be in this situation today. Smart and quiet people are always more popular than dumb and loud people.
As a result, one day, Wang Wulin suddenly called Chen Qianqing and said, "Chen Qianqing, be careful recently."
Chen Qianqing: "Huh?"
Wang Wulin said, "Lu Zhengfei escaped from home, so he should be looking for you."
Chen Qianqing paused for a moment: "He escaped? How did he escape?" When he and his family confronted each other head-on, his father arranged for two security guards to follow him around the clock, even guarding the door when he went to the toilet. Think beautiful.
Wang Wulin said, "I don't know that."
Chen Qianqing hung up the phone, and after thinking about it, he found that there was only one way for Lu Zhengfei to escape - that was to surrender. In fact, Lu Zhengfei and Lu Chonggan have the same personalities. They are terribly stubborn. When their father and son meet, there is absolutely no possibility of any compromise between them - until Lu Zhengfei becomes smarter.
It's not even half of the time, how did Lu Zhengfei realize that Chen Qianqing felt this butterfly effect was completely inexplicable.
Not long after Wang Wulin hung up, Han Huaiyun, who had not been in contact for a long time, called and said, "Hello, Mr. Chen, I am Han Huaiyun."
Still the old-fashioned opening remarks, Chen Qianqing said: "Is something wrong?"
Han Huaiyun said, "Mr. Lu may come back to you in the near future. If you see him, can you call me?"
Chen Qianqing said, "Aren't you going to send someone to follow me?"
Han Huaiyun laughed and said, "Mr. Chen, everyone is a law-abiding citizen."
Chen Qianqing also laughed, and after hanging up the phone, he walked into the kitchen.
The fish was just bought, and its mouth was still opening and closing. Chen Qianqing skillfully cut open the fish, removed the scales and removed the gills, then chopped them into pieces, and then marinated them with salt and pepper.
Vegetables are cabbage, remove the rotten leaves, and put them in boiling water to prepare soup.
A person's life is very simple, Chen Qianqing feels that he can live a good life, although he feels more and more that his soul is drifting to an unknown place.
It's been a year since I left Lu Zhengfei, and it's another summer. Chen Qianqing has become accustomed to living alone, and he's used to it. Every day he looks at the face in the mirror that should be familiar, but is becoming more and more unfamiliar.
Some people will ask, why do you feel unfamiliar with the face that grows on you? Chen Qianqing didn't know it himself, he only knew that he couldn't remember the expression of the real Chen Qianqing. There was nothing but indifference and calmness on his face, nothing that could attract him.
So for Lu Zhengfei, does he still love this person
After Chen Qianqing finished dinner, it started to rain heavily in city D. While cleaning up the dishes, he felt very comfortable listening to the rumble of thunder outside the window.
After washing the dishes and watching TV for a while, Chen Qianqing went to bed and went to bed.
Insomnia is still bothering Chen Qianqing, but compared to before, he can only sleep for ten minutes a day. Now he can sleep for two or three hours.
The bedside lamp was on, and the small bedroom was filled with orange lights.
Chen Qianqing stared at the ceiling above his head, and began to recall what the strangers he had seen today were wearing and what they said.
Time passed bit by bit, and the phone on the bedside suddenly rang.
Chen Qianqing picked it up and looked at it, it was an unfamiliar number.
It seems that the moment you see the number, you already know who it is.
Chen Qianqing picked it up. Sure enough, it was the voice of the fugitive. He was breathing and seemed very tired. He said, "Qianqing, Qianqing..."
Chen Qianqing listened quietly.
The fugitive's voice was trembling. He said, "Qianqing, I escaped. I'm right downstairs. Come down and see me, okay?"
A loud thunder suddenly exploded.
Chen Qianqing said: "I have already slept."
The fugitive said: "Can you come and see me? I'm right by the window... Qian Qing... "
Chen Qianqing said: "It's thundering, I'll hang up first."
Then, he hung up the phone and turned off the phone.
The pouring rain seemed to crush the whole world, Chen Qianqing slowly sat up from the bed, walked to the window, and looked out the window silently.
He lives on the third floor. At this time, there is a person standing in the open space downstairs, without an umbrella, like a wet chicken.
Chen Qianqing picked up the phone again, turned it on, and sent a text message to Han Huaiyun: He is downstairs in my house.
After he was done, he turned around and went back to the house and lay back on the bed.