The midwife stretched out her hand to block me, not letting me go forward. I was anxious and wanted to see the real situation in the small hut, but the midwife with her waist and white hair was like a mountain at this moment, blocking the way. , So that I can not go beyond.
I wanted to go around, but the midwife kept blocking, blocking back and forth. I became impatient, suffocating in my chest, trying to suffocate me alive.
I am restless and want to lose my temper. The truth of a matter is right in front of my eyes, but I can't see it. This kind of anxiety is like a fire, which makes me feel uncomfortable.
The midwife raised her head. She was a very kind old man. Looking at such an old man, she couldn't make a fire.
"Don't go there." The midwife shook her head gently at me: "There are some things, even if you see it, it won't help."
"why?"
"You always want to get to the bottom of it, but have you ever wondered whether some results are something you can bear."
"I can bear it." I said desperately to the midwife: "I just want to know my life experience."
"But… "
I was so anxious that I didn't wait for the midwife to finish, and suddenly stood up and rushed over. The midwife hurriedly pulled me, but I was already at the door of the hut.
A stern cold wind blew, and the broken door of the small hut was slightly blown open.
Through this gap, I saw a large charcoal fire burning in the room and a person lying on the bed.
I was inexplicably excited, I didn't know how long I thought about it, how long I searched, and finally saw the scene in the hut. I was born in this small hut. Except for the midwife, the person in the hut must be my mother.
Mother, what is it like? I have never had an impression. When I was young, I avoided these things. Because other children in the village have fathers and mothers, fathers go out busy, and mothers take care of the children at home.
At that time, I was envious of them. Looking at them, and thinking about myself, I felt like a needle in my heart.
I don't know how many tears I shed silently, although the villagers never laughed at me because I was a childless child, but some suffering, even if others don't say it, still hides in my heart.
Later, when I grew up, I knew that the past has passed and cannot be changed. I have no other extravagances, but I don't want to be so confused all the time. I at least need to know what my mother looks like.
"Don't look..." The midwife dragged me tightly behind her, preventing me from taking a step forward.
Unwilling to reconcile, I stretched out a hand vigorously and pushed the door open again.
The small hut was very small, and there was only one person on the bed, but when I pushed the door a little open, I suddenly found that there was a man lying on the bed.
I didn't see what the man looked like, but I could see the pair of shoes by the bed. It was obviously a pair of men's shoes, stained with mud and blood stained faintly.
"What's going on!" I was stunned at once, and what I saw now was something I couldn't understand or accept.
When I suddenly yelled and wanted to ask the midwife, I suddenly woke up from my dream. I sat up straight, panting.
The room was dark. After I woke up, it might have disturbed Wan Miaoran, who was asleep at the table. She hurriedly lit the lamp and asked: "
what happened to you? Had a nightmare again? "
"It's okay, it's okay..." I just felt that there was sweat on my forehead, and I took a heavy breath again, and then I broke free from the nightmare.
People say that dreams are nothing but some people say that if you think, you have dreams at night. My feeling is very strong. I think this dream I have had should be real.
Everything in the dream really happened more than 20 years ago.
However, things backfired, the more I wanted to see the truth, the farther the truth seemed to be. Recalling memories now, I still remember that dream. I just thought it must be my mother in the little hut, but in that hut, it was a man.
"Drink a sip of water." Wan Miaoran gently brought me a glass of water. I drank two sips and she said next to her: "No matter what dreams are, they can't be real. Don't think about it or believe it. Dreams are just dreams after all. …"
"Yeah." I turned my head and looked at Wan Miaoran, suddenly feeling a little ashamed. Wan Miaoran has a smooth temper. She never disputes or cares about anything. She probably knows that I always have a lump in my heart, so she doesn't force me to do anything.
But she always stood by my side in such obscurity, serving tea and water, doing everything. My heart is also long. Looking at her red eyes, I was thinking, how can I have such a woman in my life.
Maybe when you put it on someone else, you can wake up with a smile in your dreams, but the lump in my heart can't be completely solved.
I remembered what Dad said before, that doing so was actually unfair to Wanmiao. She didn't do anything wrong. It was because of my own reasons that she was left out in the cold.
"Sleep for a while, it's still early."
"I missed the sleepy head, most of it can't fall asleep."
"Then lie down and keep your mind up." Wan Miaoran said, "After the New Year, there must be many people coming to worship the mountain. When the time comes... you always have to go out to support..."
"Don't sleep, get up and talk." I put on my shoes and got out of bed, sat at the table, and chatted with Wan Miaoran. I didn't say anything important, it was just gossip, but she listened with gusto.
Although the river beach is poor, the New Year’s taste is very strong during the New Year. From the first to the third day of the new year, there are banquets and drinks on the top of the mountain. The people in the Wuxian Temple treat me seriously, even though I am here when I go to the Wuxian Temple. It's not long, but some elders regard me as a child of Wuxian Temple, drink and chat together, and always make jokes from time to time.
By the third day of the junior high school, people who worshipped the mountain came in an endless stream. The so-called mountain worship is actually what the folk people say about New Year greetings, but there are notches in the rivers and lakes, and New Year greetings are called mountain worship. Those who came to worship on the third grade were basically friends and relatives from the Wuxian Temple, as well as people who had been favored by them.
Wan Yuxiang has always been very grand. People who worshipped the mountain came, and would not come empty-handed. They brought some gifts, and Wan Yuxiang doubled in return. I am also from the Wuxian Temple. Wan Yuxiang has no sons. She vaguely said several times that the foundation of the Wuxian Temple will be taken care of by me in two years. Therefore, I accompany Wan Yuxiang to receive the worshippers, and I have been busy all day long, so I can't stop for a while.
That's it until dusk, when the last group of guests also left. I was finally relieved. As soon as I wanted to sit down and rest, the guardian hurried to report, saying that there was another visitor.
Wan Yuxiang was a little surprised, worshipping the mountain, one
They usually come during the day, and I haven't heard of people who come to visit the house at night to pay a New Year's greetings. However, it is a festive celebration for the New Year. Some friends live far away. If there is an accident on the way, the journey will definitely be delayed.
"Which family's friend came to worship the mountain at this time?" Wan Yuxiang just wanted to take a rest, and when he saw someone worshiping the mountain, he stood up and said, "The door is a guest, please come in."
"This is a stranger..." The guardian looked at Wan Yuxiang and then at me, and said, "They said they came from... from Xiaoshan."
"Xiaoshan?"
"Yes, it's Xiaoshan, Xiaoshan Jinyutang." The guardian said: "The leader is a girl. People around me say she is the main hall of Jinyutang. I am a soil bun, and I have never travelled far, let alone seen Jinyutang. The main hall, I don’t know if it’s true or not..."
"Jin Yutang?" Wan Yuxiang frowned slightly, and she couldn't help but look at me. When I first joined the Wuxian Temple, I told Wan Yuxiang about myself. She knew Jin Yutang and even Fang. sweet.
"Yes, they said it belonged to Jin Yutang."
My head is also dizzy. I can't even think that Fang Tian will come to Wuxian Temple. What is she here for? What does she want to do
For a while, I felt as if I had knocked over the five-flavored bottle, and the ups and downs came to my heart together.
"Xiaoshan is far from here, Jin Yutang is interested." Wan Yuxiang immediately recovered his expression and said to the guardian: "Please invite them in."
The group of people in Wuxian Temple was about to go out to eat separately, Wan Yuxiang left the people behind and ordered them to clean up the hall. As soon as he cleaned up here, the mountain guard brought several people and came over from the mountain gate.
I stood still, but when I looked around, my heart snorted. I could recognize it. The one who walked in the front was amazingly Fang Tian.
I couldn't figure out what idea Fang Tian was playing. I ran to Xiaoshan on my own, and she refused to see it, but at the time of the Chinese New Year, she came to the Wuxian Temple.
I couldn't say a word, standing still, in a daze, Wan Yuxiang looked as usual, and walked out of the hall to greet him personally.
As soon as the two parties meet, they will be treated according to the courtesy of the arena as usual. After they talked a few words, I recovered and hurriedly crossed the threshold.
"I really didn't expect that the Fang Zongtang of the Jinyutang would come here." Wan Yuxiang was very thoughtful and polite: "The journey is far away, and it's freezing in this cold day. Everyone is working hard. Please come in and serve tea first."
"No need." Fang Tian may be really exhausted. Her expression was a little tired. She smiled faintly, and said: "I came here today, just to worship the mountain. Before Jinyutang and Wuxian Temple had little contact, I took the liberty to visit the door. It was really abrupt. Here. Come, bring the present up."
"Since we are here, we can see our Wuxian Temple. If you have anything, we will talk about it when we enter the house."
"No, just come here to have a look and give me a small gift by the way." Fang Tian waved her hand gently, and the few people behind brought up two mouthfuls of the box.
The box was placed on the ground, and the person carrying the box opened it easily. As soon as the box was opened, a golden light appeared in the eyes. It's not that the people in Wuxian Temple haven't seen the world before, but they were still surprised when they saw Fang Tian's gift.
In one box, there are hundreds of gold-cast jujubes, and in the other box, there are gold-cast peanuts. The two boxes are placed side by side, and the golden light is brilliant.
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