After living and eating for so many years, Qin Jue had the idea of meeting his brother again for the first time.
At 10 a.m. the next day, Qin Jue woke up and felt an itch in his stomach. When he looked closely, it was Qi Ji with warm palms touching his scar.
This was originally the position where he was most ashamed of his past and most afraid of being touched by others, but when Qi Ji touched his face and hugged him and said, "Senior, sleep a little longer," he could not help but obediently lean on his shoulder and closed his eyes again. Eyes for a while.
Half an hour later, the two of them went out.
Qin Jue met Shen Ye and Cui Xuezhi first. The two of them probably went back to their original dormitory to sleep last night. As soon as they saw him, they came over happily.
"Yanshen can actually get out of bed and walk?" Shen Ye joked, "Cui Shen and I failed to fulfill our obligations as guardians, so the coach will deduct money."
But Qin Jue did not blush and retort like usual. Instead, he replied: "Captain... I have something to discuss with you."
Several people were leaning against the railing, and his serious expression made Shen Ye become serious: "Ah? What's the matter?"
Qin Jue looked at him and didn't know why he was no longer afraid to say: "I... have a half-brother who came to Shanghai to find me... I want to meet him."
Shen Ye was extremely vigilant: "... You still need to discuss this with me. You don't want me to treat you to dinner, do you?"
Qin Jue shook his head: "Because I'm not sure yet what will happen after I meet him and whether it will affect the game. But if we don't meet, I'm afraid my condition will be even worse."
As he said that, Qin Jue's voice paused: "He has been mixed up in society. He was too serious in gang fights and caused death. He was punished for betrayal. This time, he is probably looking for trouble."
Shen Ye was stunned, but Cui Xuezhi on the side said calmly: "Trouble you? Let him come, and I can meet with him."
Shen Ye turned his head in surprise: "Don't scare me, Cui Shen, are they true that you have been on the road?"
But Cui Xuezhi shrugged: "You don't know? Until I was 20 years old, there was still a younger brother who would reluctantly come to the stadium to cheer me on and try to persuade me to go back. Unfortunately, my girlfriend's fan later forced me to give her a support card, and it still said Cui. God, if I want to give you a child, I will shame Him to death and never dare to come again."
Then, he raised his eyebrows and glanced at the frightened Shen Ye before calling Qin Jue: "Where is your brother?"
The gentle sunshine jumped to the corridor, and Qin Jue couldn't help but clenched his fists. It wasn't until Qi Ji shook his hand that he mustered up the courage to answer: "It should be near the base these days."
***
Calculating time, Lu Yang was imprisoned for 4 years. After he was released from prison, Qin Jue hid from him for 6 years. Come to think of it, the two had not seen each other for ten years.
In Qin Jue's memory, his elder brother Lu Yang was gentle and calm, and was his biggest support in life.
Even if Lu Yang would take the lead in bullying him later, he would pull him to apologize afterwards, and would often use potion to rub open the bruises on his joints with his own hands, saying, "My brother was just too impulsive today, Xiaojue, can you please forgive my brother?"
The little Qin Jue always couldn't help but nod his head when he heard this, took the candy handed over by the other party, and replied with a smile: "Brother, you can't do this again next time."
At that time, he couldn't tell right from wrong. He only knew that his brother was still good to him.
Even if his neck, face and abdomen were burned, the other party would still confess and apologize before his hospital bed, and shed tears several times, looking very distressed.
During this period, Qin's father also came back for a visit. When he heard that he needed money for multiple follow-up treatments, he immediately waved his hands and disappeared.
There were often only two brothers in the ward. Under his brother's meticulous care, Qin Jue finally raised his little hand to wipe away his tears and said, brother, stop crying.
It wasn't until Qin Jue was two years older and finally had his own consciousness and vaguely wanted to escape from this endless cycle and stop responding to Lu Yang's apology that Lu Yang's violence intensified. Even the elders in the family would be punished for trying to control him. He beat—Later, Lu Yang had just left school without authorization for two months when something happened.
At that time, Qin Jue could already understand the news. The only local newspaper's front page headline reported this incident of a gang of delinquents fighting and injuring people, which almost caused public opinion in the small county that had not had any major incidents in decades to boil.
Qin Jue still remembers the fragments of the incident: the food stall in the early morning, dissatisfaction with the high school graduates at the next table chatting too loudly, resistance when someone lifted a stool, and several people turned around and broke into the kitchen of the food stall to grab knives. One of the students died on the spot.
Lu Yang stabbed one of them, but not at the critical part. At that time, the deceased had been fatally wounded several times, so he was given the lightest sentence.
The large pool of black blood on the mosaic-covered picture had been lingering in Qin Jue's mind for too long, always making his legs weak.
At least, Qin Jue never thought that the reason for killing could be so simple.
Until Lu Yang was imprisoned, his biological parents had never appeared. He only smiled and said to Qin Jue without warmth, "Wait for me to come out."
Qin Jue has been hiding in Shanghai these years, and occasionally hears that his brother still goes in because of fights every now and then. Qin Jue doesn't know what kind of life he lives, and naturally he doesn't know what he wants to do with him, but he can vaguely feel it. However, the other party never gave up on pulling him back into the abyss.
But he didn't want to go back to the abyss.
He has sunshine and a future. He has met too many gentle and kind people, and the world has opened up. Only then did he realize that before Qi Ji said he wanted to give him "energy", he had already received it from all kinds of people. A lot of energy passed through.
He should have realized that he had to take this step.
So on this day, he finally made up his mind to tell his teammates and management team everything about Lu Yang, and also confessed that the scar on his neck was caused by Lu Yang.
Shen Ye was confused from beginning to end and had no choice but to poke Cui Xuezhi with his elbow: "Cui Shen... are you like this too?"
"... Get out." Cui Xuezhi made everyone dumbfounded, "Damn... we nobles just perm our hair."
Manager Cheng of the team pondered for a while and replied: "It is difficult for the team to deal with such desperadoes."
"Let's tighten security for the next two days." Yanagisawa frowned, "But we can't sue him for anything. We can bring him in, ask him what he wants, and send him away."
"What if he asks for money?" Manager Cheng glanced at him and said, "Will it be deducted from your bonus?"
The two joked, but at this time, Qin Jue replied: "... He doesn't ask for money, he wants people."
Looking at the people around him, Qin Jue lowered his eyes and exhaled heavily: "... He will definitely want me. Want me to go back and live with him."
"Are you kidding?" But Manager Cheng was even more excited than the angry Qi Ji, and accidentally said what was in his heart, "Does he know how much you are worth! I dug you here to make you famous. Make money for me all over the world!"
Suddenly, all eyes turned to Manager Cheng with disgust. Manager Cheng then cleared his throat and became serious: "Ahem, negotiation, we must negotiate, so as not to disturb your training - find him and call two more security guards. Don’t make any mistakes.”
***
At the end of April, the continuous rain has almost ended. Summer comes early in the south. Sometimes when the weather is hot, there are already boys wearing short-sleeved clothes hanging out. It was in that patch of sunshine that was already starting to heat up that Qin Jue saw them. Lu Yang after ten years of absence.
The other person was exactly the same as he remembered. He was tall and thin, and his eyebrows were opposite to his. He inherited his mother's gentleness. The sunlight fell on his face like a golden thread. He probably had the appearance of a clear-minded young man that everyone would like. Just look at the appearance. , no one can imagine his character.
It can even make people think that with Qin Jue's skills, he should be able to make his brother cry in just three sentences.
When Lu Yang saw Qin Jue, his gentle eyes didn't even show the slightest surprise. Instead, he glanced at the scars on his face and smiled softly: "Xiao Jue? Is that you?"
The warm tone was the same as before, but it was much more mature and hoarse. There was a trace of sourness in Qin Jue's chest, and he replied: "...it's me."
"I haven't seen you for a long time. My little Jue has grown so tall." Lu Yang stepped forward, like every elder brother who dotes on his younger brother, "I see that you are now a professional game player? You are very powerful. .”
Qin Jue instinctively took half a step back, and Qi Ji immediately stood in front of him and glared at Lu Yang.
The other party looked at Qi Ji's face and was stunned for a moment, then immediately turned his eyes and asked Qin Jue: "... Won't you invite me in to sit down?"
Everyone was surprised by Lu Yang's gentle appearance, but Qi Ji coldly protected Qin Jue behind him and said, "Go in, you go in front."
After arriving at the team meeting room, Manager Cheng poured a glass of water for Lu Yang and got straight to the point: "Although it's not a good thing to say, my friend, you have been frequently around our base recently, and we don't welcome you very much."
Lu Yang took the water with a calm expression: "The road is built by the state. I shouldn't be breaking the law if I take a walk, right?"
Everyone else was about to make a move, but Manager Cheng raised his hand to signal the group of children to stop talking, and continued to say to him: "Okay, let me tell you straight, how do you want to disappear without causing trouble?"
Lu Yang smiled slightly in surprise: "That's what I said. How could I be looking for trouble?"
However, he then revealed his identity as a murderer as if nothing had happened: "There are a lot of security guards in your place, and I don't know where the kitchen is. I wouldn't rush in to grab a knife and kill people like I did in the past, right? What do you think, little one? Jue?"
The pool of black blood flashed through Qin Jue's mind, and he clenched his hands unconsciously to hide his nervousness: "...Brother, please go back, and don't come to me again in the future."
Lu Yang's calm eyes trembled slightly and he glanced at him: "You can go back, but I'm here to take you back with me."
Sure enough, everything was consistent with Qin Jue's guess, and no one else interrupted their conversation. However, as Qin Jue said, "I can't go back with you," the temperature in Lu Yang's eyes suddenly cooled, and it took a long time. He calmed down and said: "...You should know the consequences of not going back with me, right?"
That familiar coldness surged into Qin Jue's heart, making him realize that the pain caused by his childhood experiences would not be dispelled so easily, even if his lover, his friends, and his "teachers" were all around him at this moment. Beside him, he also shuddered, unable to pronounce a single syllable in his throat.
Fine beads of sweat seeped into his palms, reminding him of the rancid black room, the dirty mud, and the scalding temperature that brought severe pain.
He had tried his best in the conversation with his brother just now, but he didn't expect that he would freeze in place helplessly so quickly. He thought he was weak, and that he might need someone's encouragement to continue. However, no one around him urged him to "Don't be afraid, you have to face it bravely." Instead, someone touched him. The nape of his neck, just wanting to reassure him.
Qi Ji's expression beside him was no longer as childish as usual. He even darkened his eyes, picked up the cigarette from the table, handed one to Lu Yang, and said, "Then tell me, what are the consequences? We also They’re all quite curious.”
Lu Yang calmly took the cigarette and threatened: "Didn't I just say that I have killed people?"
"Really?" However, Qi Ji looked at him coldly for a while, and spoke without a trace of trembling in his voice, "You only dare to kill people with last-ditch wounds, and you don't dare to stab the vital trash. You have killed someone before? You don't dare to provoke your colleagues. You only dare to follow others and attack an innocent student who has no power to control you, but you have killed someone? The court only sentenced you to four years, but you have also killed someone? Do you have a mine at home? "
Lu Yang's gentle eyes were slightly startled, and veins appeared silently on his forehead. Cui Xuezhi on the side also said leisurely: "This friend, have you seen Shanghai Beach?"
The eyes of several people met, and Lu Yang narrowed his eyes slightly with a hint of disdain. Shen Ye also followed Cui Xuezhi's words and continued: "There are some things that none of us want to expose, but seeing that you are so confident, I will I think you are pitiful - then I’d better tell you clearly, do you think... who are you really, the best among people, the eldest brother in society? "
As he spoke, his tone seemed to be teasing, but also a bit serious: "This is Shanghai, not the small city where you were born. Do you really think you can do whatever you want here? Do you have any misunderstandings? We are casual here in Shanghai. Can I cripple one of your hands for just a little money?"
Manager Cheng, the only local person in the room, almost beat him to death, but he secretly winked to prevent the aggrieved manager from speaking.
Lu Yang didn't mind showing the resentment in his eyes. After a while, he glanced around and directly called Qin Jue's name. He seemed very calm and very deliberate: "Qin Jue, if you don't come back with me, I told them and everyone that you were gay."
His voice was filled with absolute confidence - after all, except for "Fanhua" who had publicly stated that he wanted to pursue Qin Jue, most of the others here were straight men who were addicted to games. He didn't believe it. They trained, ate and slept together every day. You won't feel sick.
As for Qin Jue, it is even more impossible not to be afraid that he will publicize this kind of thing that can be called a childhood shadow. What's more, the other party is now considered a public figure, and he is definitely more afraid of being dug out for such a shameful identity - the fact that the other party is not with that "Fanhua" yet is the best proof.
Looking at Qin Jue's face that instantly turned pale, he knew very well that the scene of forced contact between him and Chen Feiran must be flashing through his mind, and it was impossible not to feel a physiological sense of nausea.
So soon, he smiled secretly as if he had won easily, and tried to walk over and drag Qin Jue over - no one could get rid of the word blood connection.
However, unexpectedly, someone next to him grabbed his wrist and suppressed him hard.
Lu Yang was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect that the guy in front of him who was half a head shorter than himself was so strong. The other person's calm voice had a clear Cantonese accent, which didn't match the fierce movements: "Brother, calm down. Why bother?"
Lu Yang couldn't help but look around at the people around him with doubt and vigilance - they were not surprised that Qin Jue was gay
He had no choice but to sit back temporarily, but he had no intention of retreating.
Qin Jue likes the same sex. Qin Jue caused his mother to run away in despair, and also made him unable to control himself and became as violent as his father. Therefore, he could not let him go.
He came prepared. He was going to tell more details to make these straight men hate the disgustingness of homosexuals poking at the back door with him. But at this time, someone around him finally couldn't control himself and burst out laughing. As if taunting him: "... I thought it was such a big deal, and you just said this?"
He raised his gaze, but before he could find who was laughing, another voice rang out: "Xiao Qi, please make arrangements?"
Silver light shone outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, shining on everyone's faces in the living room. Before Lu Yang could react in the dazzling light, Qin Jue's hands on his knees curled up in his field of vision. Then, that Qi Ji He actually leaned over and kissed Qin Jue's lips in front of everyone.