She is used to both her parents dying!
She is used to being helpless!
She is used to having to compromise!
She is used to all kinds of bad luck and disaster!
But no, she was worried that Fang Yan wouldn't be used to it.
When a person has a bad fate and suffers many hardships, when a person endures too much pain and loss, her outer heart will become hard and her body will become strong. She shields herself from the wind and rain, and welcomes the morning glow and stars.
Just like the flowers on the cliff, after all, they are more lonely and independent than the wild flowers and weeds at the foot of the mountain.
Lu Chaoge is like a flower on the cliff, and Fang Yan was like a flower in the greenhouse.
When the flowers on the cliff see the flowers in the greenhouse, they will eventually have some worries and some pity. The wind outside is so heavy and the snow is so wild, can his thin body be able to carry it
Lu Chaoge knew that Fang Yan was suffering from unimaginable sadness, just like she had endured when she was a child. But no, she gritted her teeth and endured it. It was a tearing pain, as if I had to wake up to have an organ removed from my body.
Father, which organ of the body should he miss
He was worried that I wasn’t used to it!
Hearing Lu Chauge's answer, Fang Yan was stunned for a moment.
He looked at Lu Chaoge's pretty, concerned face and said softly: "The place where he was born has a very bad habit - the men there like to speak heroic words that value friendship over life and death. The public and private affairs are righteous and righteous, and those who do not hesitate to pay with their lives will not do so."
"So, people leave every year. Some people are buried in the weird and dangerous North Sea, and even their bones cannot be recovered. Some people die in the hot and vast Gobi, and their bodies are submerged in quicksand and left there forever. Some people die in battle, and some die of illness. Many people commit suicide by pursuing martial arts - sometimes they receive news of the death of a distant relative at noon in the spring, sometimes they receive a funeral call on a summer night, sometimes it's the Double Ninth Festival, very sometimes On New Year’s Eve—you can choose the confinement of birth, but who can choose the confinement of death?”
Fang Yan held the rice bowl and served himself a bowl of fresh fish soup, then sipped it in small sips.
"Wrong with things like that, he thought he had seen it easily. Sometimes he even got hot and thought that he could do what they could do -----" Fang Yan laughed at himself. He got up and said: "It turns out he can't do it. He is not brave, he is a bit cowardly."
"I'm not cowardly." Lu Chaoge comforted softly: "Am I too emotional?"
Fang Yan shook his head and said: "I didn't have a good conversation or drink with him when I was alive. What's the point of waiting for him for a longer time after he dies? That kind of expression - can't be called Do you care about feelings?"
"Isn't he too guilty? When he was alive, he didn't take a good look at the paintings he painted or appreciate the words he wrote. He knew that he was going to his own art exhibition, and he didn't even go over to say hello about the progress. Whether it goes well or not, he needs help - he lives in his world, he lives in his world. Although they are a family, he always feels that he does not understand him, and he does not understand him. "
"So, when he stayed in Yanziwu for three years, he read all the paintings he had done before, and even the manuscript paper on the bottom of the bookcase was not left behind. He wrote every word and every poem I carefully considered everything, and even the typos were sorted out. Some words were written very well, which proves that he was in a good mood at the time. Some words were written poorly, and he was probably very irritable at that time, right?"
"Later he discovered a secret. When he wrote beautiful handwriting, there must be something that made him happy that day. For example, he won the title of outstanding graduate of the school, or his kung fu was improved again, which made him satisfied. Progress——The day he felt the heart of Tai Chi for the first time, he drew a picture of "Morning Exercises of a Youth". A young man practiced boxing diligently in the east of the morning light. The red moon in the painting was dyed very red by him. It was very red, which proves that he must have been very excited at that time----"
Fang Yan said he didn't want to go any further and lowered his head to drink the soup.
After the warm and delicious fish soup entered his stomach, Fang Yan's depressed mood relaxed a little.
"There's nothing you don't get used to. It's just whether you can't let him go." Fang Yan said with a smile: "It's just whether he can't let him go. That's all."
Lu Chaoge looked at Fang Yan, with deep worry in his beautiful eyes, and said, "Fang Yan, why did I ask to go to Huacheng?"
"There are too many things to do. We can't keep waiting for him to go east." Fang Yan replied: "Besides, his former students----they are also waiting for him."
"Fang Yan, don't I think that is too risky?" Lu Chaoge did not believe Fang Yan's explanation and said aloud: "He knows me, he knows what kind of man I am. I have been waiting at Yanziwu for three years , and I have been waiting for three years. I thought those people would appear very soon, I thought they would be very good at messing with me - it turns out that they have not come out for a long time, as if they have disappeared from that world."
"So, I left Yanziwu, left Yanjing, and came to Huacheng, which is the most dangerous and also my weakest place - I want to use my life to lure the snake out of its hole? Fang Yan, that is too dangerous. Go back. Let's go back to Yanziwu. It's the safest place there. They can do anything -----"
Fang Yan's eyes were filled with a frightening red light, and the red spots were covered with mottled red bloodshot eyes. He looked at Lu Chaoge and said in a calm voice: "Can we always solve the conflict? They killed them." His father, just let him kill their whole family. I think, can you please help me?"
"-------"
Fang Yan saw Lu Chaoge's surprised expression and asked, "Are you not used to it? He used to be so shut-up. If he encountered such a problem, he would use another way of expression ----- He would tell me that he was a pacifist, and then secretly trick their whole family to death. That's not his style, right?"
Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "Indeed, that's my style - he hopes that I won't be who I used to be. Although I had a vicious mouth at that time, I was very kind-hearted. I was very willing to think about them."
"No, he can't do it." Fang Yan patted his heart and said, "Every morning it's like being burned by fire, which tortures people so much that they can't sleep. When did the fire be put out? , he can become what he was before."
"Then they should take their time. Don't rush." Lu Chaoge said. "What should I do in Suzaku? Are you ready to go back and become a teacher?"
"Don't be a teacher." Fang Yan said: "His current mentality is not suitable for being a teacher. He is afraid that he cannot control his emotions."
"Teacher, you don't like the things I'm good at." What would I want to do if I wasn't a teacher? "
"School security guard. "Fang Yan said.
"Security?" Lu Chaoge almost spit out the fish soup in his mouth. If she didn't seek to maintain an elegant posture, she thought it would be difficult for her to control such a thing.
At that time, a rising education star in the Huacheng education circle actually wanted to be a security guard in the school--wasn't the contrast too strong
"He used to like educating people, but now - he just wants to protect people." Fang Yan looked at Lu Chaoge and said with an unprecedented serious tone. "Later he realized that living was the most important thing. He hoped that those he cared about would not be harmed in any way."
"It's too tiring to do that."
"It would be tiring if you don't do that." Fang Yan said. "He didn't do that before, that's why he's so tired now."
Lu Chaoge sighed softly and said, "What can he help me with?"
"Help him take care of Chao Yan." Fang Yan said. "He will need money in the future, a lot of money. He will need resources, all kinds of resources - he not only wants the strength of a person, he needs the strength of a family. At that time, he will He can confront the conspirators hiding behind them head-on. Only then can he chop off their dirty legs and pierce their dirty hearts."
Lu Chaoge nodded and said: "I have been mourning in Yanziwu for three years, and he hasn't visited me for three years - he put all his time and energy into the development of Chaoyan Technology. He knew that one day , he hopes that when I come out, Chaoyan Technology can be my strongest backing ----- he thinks, Miss Qin also thinks so."
After Fang Yixing's funeral, Qin Yitian left immediately.
She became her mother's assistant and one of the decision-makers in the Qin family business.
Her eyes have always been on Chaoyan Technology, and she used the resources and connections of the Qin family to protect Chaoyan's development.
Without the support of Qin Yitian, without the support of the Qin family, Chaoyan Technology, which is as fragile as a child and has endless potential, would have been torn into pieces and swallowed by those ambitious people.
It can be said that if Lu Chaoge hadn't stood in front of him and attracted the artillery fire, and if Qin Yitian hadn't stood behind and used thunder, the two small flames of Chaoyan Technology would have been extinguished long ago.
"He owes us a lot." Fang Yan said solemnly.
He didn't say thank you because those two words were too weak to express his feelings at this moment.
Lu Chaoge smiled silently, started to clear away the dishes, and said, "I'll watch TV for a while, and I'll stay at his place from now on."
"------" Fang Yan felt uneasy.
He felt that he was in a bad mood now and was not suitable to think about things between men and women.
Moreover, there was a lack of emotional ingredients between him and Lu Chaoge. He felt that he was not ready - it would not be appropriate to sleep together rashly, right
Fang Yan was in a dilemma. He didn't know what kind of reason should be used to reject Lu Chaoge's invitation without hurting the woman's proud self-esteem.
Because he seldom shut up during those three years, he felt that his language ability had seriously deteriorated.
"He has already tidied up the room for me." Lu Chaoge walked into the kitchen carrying the dishes and chopsticks.
"------" Fang Yan then knew whether he was thinking too much.
(ps: Thanks to Brother Xingye for the 10,000 reward, the local tycoon is mighty and domineering. Thanks to Brother Xieyue Qingfeng for the 30,000 reward, the Guards are galloping across the east!)