"I didn't mean it. ∑ apex novel,"
Fang Yan squatted down and hurriedly tried to help Phoenix up.
When he just lifted Phoenix's body, the soles of his shoes slipped and he fell to the ground due to the moss on the stone.
At this time, Fang Yan had lost the ability to control his body.
Snapped---
His body pressed heavily against Phoenix's chest, and the two bodies collided heavily.
If it weren't for the warm and soft flesh underneath, I'm afraid the wound on my chest would be torn open.
Phoenix was pinned down by Fang Yan, without struggling or screaming. It's like lying on your own big bed.
She looked at Fang Yan with bright eyes and said, "Is this what you have always wanted to do?"
"No." Fang Yan quickly denied.
After a pause, he added: "I wasn't very sensible before, so I had some unhealthy thoughts-----"
Phoenix sighed softly and said: "Yes. I wasn't very sensible before, so I had such unhealthy thoughts. After I became sensible, I started to have unhealthy thoughts about others ----- now I think Doing this to Ye Wenrou? It's a pity that you can only think about it, you can't beat her anyway."
"------"
Phoenix looked at Fang Yan and said, "Although I didn't refuse, are you going to keep talking to me like this?"
"No, no. I'm going to get up after taking a rest -" Fang Yan said.
He climbed up from Phoenix's arms, and then pulled Phoenix up from the ground.
Phoenix's back was soaked by the water on the grass, and his red hair was messed up, like a red flame.
Phoenix's character has always been domineering, like a rose with thorns, a female existence like a 'flame'. Just after experiencing this, the flame was completely extinguished.
He lost his original vigor and vitality, and his eyes began to become cowardly and evasive.
That incident hurt her so deeply that she might not be able to recover for a while.
Phoenix scanned around, pointed to a big stone in the forest and said, "If you don't want to leave, just sit there for a while."
"Okay." Fang Yan nodded.
The stone was a little wet, so Fang Yan took off his coat and spread it on it, and the two sat shoulder to shoulder.
I have a lot to say, but I don’t know how to say it when we actually sit together.
It was a pus scar, a scar. Even if you wanted to open the wound and apply medicine on it, it would be the most painful when applying the medicine.
Fang Yan was afraid that if he said something wrong, he would once again hurt Phoenix's sensitive nerves.
From beginning to end, they never talked about Bai Xiu.
They never mentioned the name. Because it is a curse that cannot be solved but wants to be forgotten forever.
"Fang Yan, you shouldn't come----"
When Fang Yan hesitated and didn't know what to say, Fenghuang took the initiative to open the topic.
"I said, if I don't come, I'm afraid I will regret it for the rest of my life----" Fang Yan said with a smile. He took out a piece of sugar cane grass from his feet and gently sucked the sweet juice inside the root. This is something they often enjoyed doing when they were little.
Fenghuang also took a piece of sugar cane grass and put it in his mouth, biting it, and said: "When you didn't come, I was hoping that you wouldn't come. Because I was afraid that when you came, I didn't know what kind of expression I would use. Seeing you----I don’t know what to say to you. I don’t want to say I’m sorry anymore, but I am really sorry for you.”
"You don't have to say sorry, you have nothing to apologize to me for-" Fang Yan said: "Even if you did, you have paid it off. Is there anything more precious than using your life to make up for it?"
"I'm not making up for it. I thought at that time - I might as well just die." Phoenix said in a low voice, "Because living is too tiring."
"I understand." Fang Yan nodded. "What happened in the past is in the past, and we don't need to mention it again in the future - but you have to go back with me."
"Go back?" Phoenix smiled and asked aloud, "Go back to where?"
"Go home. Or anywhere -" Fang Yan said stubbornly: "But not here."
"Fang Yan, don't force me. Don't force me, okay?" Fenghuang looked at Fang Yan with a pleading face and said, "I can't go back, and I don't want to go back - where can I go back?"
"When I go back home, how can I face the way my family looks at me? When I go back to Yanziwu, how can I face their comments about me?"
"Go abroad. Go abroad----" Fang Yan said. At that time, Li Yun was thinking of sending General Shangxin abroad, but he was intercepted and brought back.
In Fang Yan's view, perhaps it is a good choice for Phoenix to go abroad. After all, no matter how dissatisfied the An family was with this woman, they probably wouldn't be able to kill anyone and silence her -----
"No matter where I go, they can find me. I can't escape, there is no way I can escape - even if they can't find me, I can pretend that nothing happened. life?"
"Fang Yan, it's not that I can't pass other people's test, it's that I can't pass my own test - I have too many distracting thoughts in my heart and the guilt in my heart is too deep. I will be tortured by these thoughts and go crazy." Phoenix. He said with blood-red eyes, looking almost crazy.
"I know you feel bad, but things have reached this point, and what we have to consider is the best solution - I don't think it is the best solution for you to become a monk."
"I think so." Phoenix said. "Even if they are dissatisfied with me, will they still come to trouble a nun who is a monk? Also, these days I have been living on the mountain, I feel extremely peaceful inside. I serve the Buddha wholeheartedly and study Buddhist scriptures diligently. The pain will be relieved a lot - just what I need."
"Fang Yan, before I made this choice, I was confused and at a loss. I didn't know what my next step should be, and I didn't know what my future would look like. But after I made the choice , my mind calmed down immediately. I know better than anyone else that the current state is the state I want most - don't try to persuade me anymore, okay?"
Fang Yan remained silent.
This result was something he was unwilling to accept.
However, he didn't want to add more troubles to Phoenix. He hoped she could survive this.
Phoenix stretched out his hand to touch Fang Yan's face, gently relaxed Fang Yan's frown, and said: "Fang Yan, I don't want you to come, but I'm still very happy that you are here----women always It’s so contradictory.”
"As you just said, let go of all the past things. It's like we just met today----Fang Yan, promise me, okay?"
"Okay." Fang Yan gritted his teeth and said.
"I want to drink strong wine." Phoenix said.
"Okay. I just saw a farmer when I was going down the mountain. I'm going to buy some meat from them."
Fang Yan's current physical condition is not good, and it is unrealistic to hit a rabbit and a pheasant with stones. The best way is to find hunters in the mountains to buy these things. There is definitely no shortage of game for people in the mountains.
"I want to be ambushed from all sides." Phoenix said.
"Okay, I'll borrow the pot from their house and make an ambush for you."
Fang Yan glanced at Phoenix, stood up and ran towards the way he came.
Phoenix looked at Fang Yan's back dreamily, chewed the sugar cane grass in his mouth and swallowed it into his stomach.
Like it's Fang Yan!
Fang Yan came back soon.
He had a sack on his shoulder and a large pot in his hand.
Fang Yan put the cauldron on the ground and took out everything from the sack.
Every time he found something, he introduced it to Phoenix like a treasure, just like the first time he took her to the mountains to hunt rabbits and create an ambush from all sides.
"This is dried rabbit----"
"This is half a pheasant. This is the only half they have -----"
"This is the dough they were given - they originally used it to make pot stickers at night, but I borrowed it -"
"This is oil and salt--this is dried chili pepper picked from the wall of their house--"
Fang Yan took out a white plastic bucket from his pocket and said, "I didn't expect it? They also have bulk spirits. I just took a sip. It's not as clear as Yanziwu Shaodaozi, but it tastes very good." Not bad----The elder brother said it weighed three kilograms. I haven't touched liquor for a long time. Let's have a good drink in a while----"
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Fang Yan followed Yanziwu's example and built a simple stove on a piece of dry ground using a few large stones. I put the big iron pot in the stream, washed it, and put it up.
Clean the rabbit and pheasant again, cut them into large pieces with a blade, and put them into the pot piece by piece.
Just grab a handful of wild mushrooms and green beans and throw them in, and then add a certain amount of stream water.
Because it had just rained, the most difficult step was to find hay and firewood.
Of course, this is not difficult for Fang Yan. He dug several rabbit holes, which contained soft, dry weeds.
He also pulled out some old branches from under some rocks that had not fallen into the rain, and then used a lighter brought from a farmer's house to light the hay. The fire burst into flames.
Fenghuang happily helped light the fire beside him, and from time to time he burst into laughter like silver bells when he was amused by Fang Yan's words. The laughter spreads far and is the most beautiful sound of nature in the forest.
This scene is so familiar, exactly the same as when they did the House of Flying Daggers at Yanziwu.
Wait until the soup boils and the meat is cooked. Fang Yan poured in the prepared oil and salt seasoning. I threw a handful of chili peppers into it and poured some spirits. The cauldron began to smell fragrant, and even the mist that emerged made people unable to help but greedily inhale it into their lungs.
Fang Yan opened the wine barrel, took a sip, and then handed the barrel to Phoenix in front of him.
Phoenix took the wine barrel, raised his neck and took a big gulp.
"Eat meat." Fang Yan handed the chopsticks cut from tree branches to Phoenix.
Phoenix took the chopsticks, picked up a rabbit leg from the pot and ate it.
The rabbit legs that had just come out of the pot were too hot, and Phoenix ate them too quickly. It was so hot that she stuck out her tongue from time to time to take a breath of cool air.
However, she still ate greedily regardless.
She chewed the rabbit meat with a look of embarrassment on her face, tears streaming down her cheeks.
From now on, there will be no more Phoenix!