She was already calm at first, but the arrival of her family made her mood waver again.
Master Jinghui said it wrong, because she had resentment and hatred, so she couldn't sleep all night. If some problems are not solved, she is afraid that those messy emotions will drive her crazy.
Is it possible, how can such a thing be dealt with clearly
Can that wounded heart and that gloomy world be restored to its original state
Full of grievances and strong melancholy, I returned to my room, only to find that there was an extra man in the room I lived in.
Lotus Temple is not very popular, so there are few nuns staying there. Including Fenghuang and Yeyi, there are seven people, each of whom can have a separate room. I could have two or even three if I wanted to----
The man carried the wrong phoenix on his back and walked on his knees in front of the statue of Guanyin in the room where she chanted sutras and prayed every day.
His body was straight and lean, and his waist looked particularly slender and strong.
With his waist and back and long hair shawl, even if you can't see his face, you can still tell that he is a handsome and passionate man.
There were words in his mouth, his voice was rapid but unclear. It's hard to tell what's going on in his mouth.
He was so focused that he didn't even notice that there was a woman watching behind him.
Phoenix saw the man's back, his body stiff and his face ashen.
Her body wanted to retreat, but she stood there without moving.
"I'm afraid he'll kill me?" the man said. The voice is gentle and has a hoarse magnetism.
He had just been praying to Guanyin Bodhisattva, and in the blink of an eye he asked such a callous question.
He looks like a gentleman robber or an elegant pervert.
"Fear."
The moment she heard the man's voice, Phoenix suddenly became peaceful.
She looked at the man and said aloud: "If I kill him, all the karma will disappear. The physical body will be liberated, and the soul will reach the other side. Although that solution is not perfect. Perhaps, then he can Enough for a real good night’s sleep.”
"Arrived at the other side?" The man's voice was calm, but Phoenix could hear a trace of ridicule. "That world doesn't have the so-called Pure Land of Heaven? Does that world have it? If all the eminent monks and great virtues are as innocent and unscrupulous as they advertise, then why do they need to enjoy the incense and golden bodies of believers? That world is better than Isn’t the world even more filthy?”
"I was wrong that there was hatred in that world." Phoenix said.
"What about me?" The man stood up, turned around and looked at Phoenix in robes, and said, "Am I living well?"
"Not good." Phoenix shook his head. "He made the mistake of having hatred."
"Well, he can understand my mood at this moment." The man grinned, but did not make any sound when he laughed. Shallow, fleeting and fleeting. "I have two hatreds and two guilts. I hate my family and hate them for ruining my life. I hate myself and hate myself for not having the courage to change my destiny. I feel guilty about Fang Yan. I have been cruel to him since he was a child. time----but I have hurt him before. I wronged him and felt guilty. I didn't like him, but I used him all the time. He was reluctant to kill me, but they used it to kill him----"
Phoenix's face turned red, wondering if that man really understood him. It was much deeper than she thought.
She grabbed the door frame with one protrusion, and her legs holding the door frame pinched the fragile door panel and made a rattling sound.
"He can't afford to fault Fang Yan, and he can't afford to fault me -" Fenghuang said. "He doesn't know if he can't fault me or Fang Yan. The more he thinks about Hong Hong's problem, the more he hates his family and himself. Since that incident happened, , he will never have a good night's sleep again. Regret penetrates his bones, and poisonous snakes eat his heart."
The man sighed softly and said, "Do you know what he choked on while kneeling in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva just now?"
Phoenix shook his head and said: "He doesn't know. He heard me say a long time ago that I don't respect gods and Buddhas, let alone ghosts----"
"No. He doesn't respect gods and Buddhas, and he doesn't believe in ghosts. But no, maybe they really exist in that world?" the man said softly. He looked into Fenghuang's eyes with pity and said, "The An family wants to take me back. He can understand that kind of thing. My uncles are very face-seeking people. How could they allow their own women to become nuns?" He also heard the wrong words between me and them, and he also heard the wrong words between me and the old nun--he knew that I hadn't had a good sleep for a long time, and I looked very tired--- -He knelt in front of the Buddha and recited the "Medicine Master Lazuli Light Tathagata Initiation Mantra" to me. I hope that the Bodhisattva can bless me without illness or disaster, and I can sleep sweetly."
Phoenix's eyes were wet and he said, "Why bother?"
The man grinned and said: "Is it true that in novels and movies, a person like him must be the number one bad guy in Tiandong? Is it possible? Bad people also have feelings. Bad people also like to be with a woman." , I started to like her from the first time I saw her, day after day, year after year. Even if you know whether she likes other men, even if you know whether she is flirting with others - it's like a dog."
"Why are you begging to come out?" Phoenix said with a choked voice. "Everyone thought I was dead----he thought I was dead too----"
"He also thought he was dead." The man squinted his eyes and laughed, and said, "It turned out that Yongwan came over. When he opened his eyes, even he was shocked -----"
"Hong Xiu, let me go. If you can get away from Yuanji, don't come back without asking." Phoenix pulled the man's legs and arms, trying to drive her out, to a place where no one could find him.
"He will leave." Hong Xiu looked at Phoenix and said, "When he comes, please take me with him."
Phoenix shook his head and said: "He won't leave. He won't go anywhere. He lives there, with mountains, water and Buddhist scriptures -----"
"The attitude towards life is too negative," the man said. "I should have a more colorful life. He can give me that kind of life. Fang Yan doesn't have that kind of courage."
"Hong Xiu----"