Geng Zhi raised his hand to pillow his arm, and looked towards the ceiling.
"I owe... quite a lot."
"But that happened last time, this time it should be regarded as an accident?" Geng Zhi pinched his nose, "I didn't drink much these days, I didn't expect to relapse."
Lin Yuhe looked at him disapprovingly: "After recovering from pancreatitis, one should drink alcohol cautiously."
When returning to Baixi Town for the New Year during the winter vacation, Lin Yuhe reminded him of this.
"Be careful next time." Geng Zhi said, "By the way, I'm working online now, so don't mention the hospitalization to others, so as not to affect the work progress."
Lin Yuhe stared at his face silently for a while, making Geng Zhi somewhat puzzled.
"What's wrong?"
Lin Yuhe asked: "The others you mentioned, do you mean Big Brother Fang?"
Geng Zhi laughed, "Why did you suddenly become enlightened?"
Lin Yuhe was not distracted by him, and asked, "Is it because of him that you got sick the first time? What happened to you?"
His expression was serious.
"I didn't want to pry into your privacy, and I didn't ask any questions before." Lin Yuhe said, "But I think there are problems that should be resolved, and it will only hurt more and more if you procrastinate."
Doesn't it hurt more and more as time goes by
Geng Zhi thought.
Just like a recurring disease, the surface is fine, but the inside is damaged, breaking down the body's mechanism one after another.
Lin and He saw that the other party had not spoken for a long time, and were about to speak again, but suddenly heard Geng Zhi speak.
"I thought about it many times, why we broke up and whether there is a chance to get it back."
His voice was a little ethereal, and his eyes were still on the ceiling, looking a little absent-minded.
Lin Yuhe could hear it.
How much energy did these words cost Geng Zhi
Lin Yuhe knew—he had thought about his mother for a long time, so he knew.
If the answer is good, you don't have to think about it many times.
Geng Zhi finally opened his mouth.
"There has always been a problem between us," his voice became hoarse, "I didn't notice it."
When Fang Musen was forced to be next to Geng Zhi, Geng Zhi didn't have much interest in him. At that time, although the property of the Geng family could not be compared with that of the wealthy families, it was considered one of the best in the Cangshan area. The smaller the city, the closer the attachment of people. Geng Zhi was used to all kinds of flattery since he was a child, so he didn't pay extra attention to this handsome and silent boy at first.
It was only because of Lin's mother's support that Geng Zhi remembered that face, and occasionally he would do a favor to prevent the other party from being too wronged.
There was no definite reason for the changes in the situation at first, and Geng Zhi actually felt a little dazed when he recalled it countless times later. He only remembered that it was a hot summer when everything grew vigorously. Cicadas were screaming outside endlessly, the weather was so hot that the air seemed to be twisted. Although two air conditioners were turned on in the classroom to cool down together, the sunlight coming in from the windows was still dazzling and dizzy.
Opposite the tutoring institution is the largest shopping mall in the city. During recess, Geng Zhi and his friends would often go to the dq in the shopping mall to buy ice cream. It was an era when two yuan of ice cream would be considered expensive by most families, but most of the students in the tutoring institution were regular customers of dq.
Sometimes Geng Zhi and the others come back early, and if they don’t step on the class bell to enter the door, they will see the air-conditioned but empty classroom. In the classroom, only Fang Musen in the corner is always reading with his head down.
In the beginning, Fang Musen really couldn’t keep up. Even when the teacher asked everyone to talk about his hobbies before class, he just said “reading book” dryly. The answer of the class is slightly abrupt. Fang Musen is young, and he is not suitable for this kind of tutoring for prospective international students. Geng Zhi guessed that he may not have been exposed to all-English teaching before.
But his progress is too fast.
Fang Musen always reminds Geng Zhi of the bamboo shoots that break out of the mountains and fields, so fast, so tender. His growth rate is almost shocking. When the teacher saw his composition, he just shook his head and put it down. Within a month, Fang Musen's homework became a model essay.
Geng Zhi inevitably noticed the boy a little more. In summer, the growth rate of many things is unreasonably fast. When Geng Zhi went to buy ice cream in DQ again, he accidentally brought back an extra cup and put it on the corner of Fang Musen's desk.
"I bought too much when ordering, and I couldn't finish it."
Seeing the quiet eyes looking up at him, Geng Zhi bit the tip of the straw wrongly, and said vaguely.
"for you."
He watched as Fang Musen lowered his head, licked the slightly melted top of the cream, and took a spoonful of cheesecake crumbs into his mouth. The blizzard of cherry cheese flavor is light pink, a little darker than the color of those slightly moist thin lips.
But for no reason, people suddenly feel that the fresh and sweet cherries are not one ten thousandth of the sweet taste of that lip color.
Geng Zhi's canine teeth grind again.
A little itchy.
Something is growing uncontrollably.
Although this first gift from Geng Zhi himself ended with Fang Musen politely asking the price of the ice cream, and Geng Zhi accepted the neatly folded banknotes without saying anything, but the two of them got together quickly up.
When young people fall in love, they always progress quickly without any worries. If they like it, they want to rush to hold hands.
Within a few days, Geng Zhi moved his desk next to Fang Musen, from the middle of the classroom to the corner. Sometimes he was too lazy to move after class, so he would sleep with Fang Musen on his pillow. Unlike other hot and sweaty boys, Fang Musen's body is always refreshing, with a clean and refreshing scent of soap.
Sleeping with him is always very comfortable, after a long time, Geng Zhi got used to the smell, and planned to ask and spray it on the pillow, as a bedtime fragrance. He asked Fang Musen whether the perfume he used was Amalfi citrus or Bulgari blue tea, both of which were somewhat similar, but not exactly the same.
Fang Musen paused obviously when he heard the question, and did not answer right away. Geng Zhi thought about the pocket money that the Chen family might give him, and consciously lowered the price by one: "Or dАvidoff's cold water?"
Fang Musen said, "It's soap."
Geng Zhi: "..."
Fang Musen thought for a while, and then said: "I also added some saponins picked from the trees in the old courtyard."
Geng Zhi later found out that asking about perfume was useless, he had to put the person on his pillow.
Time passed quickly during those days, and falling in love at this age is nothing new, but the situation of two people with different backgrounds and the same boy is a little special. But regarding Geng Zhi's matter, the teachers always turned a blind eye, and classmates and friends would not say anything nonsense in front of him.
At first, some people would mention the reason why Fang Musen was able to enter the class, but after being educated by Geng Zhi once, no one would dare again.
Geng Zhi is famous for being a calf protector, he will help his friends with anything, especially for those who fall into his circle. Someone once scolded Xiao Lin and He as "sick ghosts", and was beaten up by Geng Zhi for three streets. .
Geng Zhi's mentality towards Fang Musen is different from that towards Lin Yuhe.
It's not just caring, it's more... Possession.
Can't stop, wanting more and more.
They explored together and branded each other. The hot wind like fire filled the whole midsummer, but it couldn't warm each other's hot breath and sweat dripping from the skin.
Geng Zhi always felt that Fang Musen was very fragrant, and the scent of soap on the clean white shirt slowly soaked into his bones, like the color of water soaking into cold jade. The fragrance will become stronger at certain moments, it is clean and refreshing, but tempting and distracting.
The two of them spent nearly four months of summer, and then Geng Zhi studied in a foreign country for another year and a half.
They gave each other the most important youthful moments in their lives, the transformation of a teenager and the adulthood at the age of eighteen, and left traces in each other's lives that would not be able to be erased in the next hundred years.
But it is impossible to be happy when you are young, just like not all love can go to perfection.
After being together for a long time, Geng Zhi gradually discovered the difference between Fang Musen and his imagination. This difference subtly divides into two directions. On the one hand, it led Geng Zhi into an unexpected deeper and deeper trap, and on the other hand, he suddenly woke up from the deep trap——
Because of Fang Musen's unusual indifference and calmness.
Geng Zhi is not so arrogant as to draw conclusions on what feelings should look like, but it is impossible for him not to notice those clues.
Fang Musen will never refuse Geng Zhi, no matter how exaggerated the request is, he is a person who is close to perfection, but he never asks for it.
Geng Zhi has bought many things for Fang Musen, and he has done the operation of paying without looking at the amount very early. Every time Geng Zhi gave Fang Musen a gift, Fang Musen would not refuse, but would always return something of the same value afterwards.
Geng Zhi told him several times, and when he was angry about it, he really tossed and tossed others for several nights, but in the end, seeing Fang Musen's faint black eyes when he closed his eyes during recess the next day, Geng Zhi was the first to lose. Come down.
No matter how angry you are, you can't bear it.
But Geng Zhi didn't know whether Fang Musen would be reluctant to bear with him—does love have weight? No one can see the scale. Geng Zhi's liking is inherently possessive and protective, but he can't find the same shadow in Fang Musen.
Geng Zhi has thought about it many times, and it is inevitable that he will think of the reason why Fang Musen came to approach him.
He also knew the Chen family's plans.
Geng Zhi, who has seen countless people since he was a child, never thought that one day he would not be able to distinguish between feelings and tasks. When he had doubts about himself, he would inevitably be shaken. When he was anxious, he gritted his teeth and blurted out that Fang Musen was rigid and boring, and only had eyes for learning.
— The only thing I don’t want to give myself is an extra piece.
At that time Fang Musen listened to it with a pale face, got up silently and wanted to leave, he really made up his mind to leave, and then he was hugged tightly, like digging out muscles, the pain was inseparable.
That day was the first time Geng Zhi saw Fang Musen's gaffe, and the two had an unprecedented quarrel, and Geng Zhi finally heard Fang Musen speak and spoke to him intermittently.
"It's not a task... I like it."
Geng Zhi's throat was choked, and he suddenly dropped everything.
He kissed the thin red lips like biting, and bit Fang Musen to apologize to him for what he just said, repeating his liking over and over again.
Geng Zhi can do nothing, just protect this person in his arms and eyes.
He thought he could, could do it.
Immediately after was Geng Zhi's sophomore year, with only one year left in his three-year undergraduate program, and he was about to consider where he would go after graduation. Geng Zhi's plan is to return to China. Although he only needs to study abroad for one year, if he wants to return to China to work, it is naturally safer to go back to China to develop contacts.
Geng Zhi had already made a plan, but he did not expect such strong opposition from his parents. The Geng family expanded their overseas business early, and they have plans to immigrate in the past two years. Naturally, they will not let their son's future plans be affected by a love affair.
Geng's father directly found him a girl who was also an international student in Geng Zhi's university, and wanted to introduce him to Geng Zhi as his girlfriend, with a tough tone to calm him down.
"You have played enough in the past two years, right?"
Geng Zhi was tougher than him.
"impossible."
As May was approaching, Geng Zhi had already reached the end of the term, he comforted his lover, promised to solve it by himself, and then took advantage of the short gap between the two exams to fly all the way back to China.
With the detailed plan bound into a book and the draft already prepared, Geng Zhi planned to solve this problem face to face with his parents.
On the way, I also want to see Fang Musen who is about to take the college entrance examination.
However, Geng Zhi never expected that such a short and sharp "breakup" would be waiting for him after traveling thousands of miles.
"let's break up."
Geng Zhi has a bad temper, has a violent temper, and blurts out the wrong words when he is in a hurry, but no matter how unscrupulous he is, he has never, never mentioned the word "breakup".
Words fell to the ground with force.
How can it be mentioned so easily
Days of boredom, exhaustion, and uneasiness are like piled wet mud of residual leaves, and finally fermented and rotted into unresolved dissatisfaction. The doubt that had been cut off by hand once again sprung from the stump and became dumb, growing into an unshakable towering appearance——
Does Fang Musen really like him
In May, it was already summer in Sichuan, and the sweltering air caused Geng Zhi to experience pains all over his body like needles. He looked at the silent Fang Musen in front of him through his blood-stained vision, which was thinly red.
The boy lowered his head. During the two hours, he always had only one answer of "I don't want to talk about it" to Geng Zhi's unbelievable surprises and questioning over and over again. Only when he answered the phone calls of his classmates did he reply fluently.
"Well, my paper for the second model is caught in the fifth compulsory physics..."
Maybe I was really wrong. Geng Zhi thought dumbly, how could love be more important than future.
Therefore, his position in Fang Musen's heart will never be as high as studying.
It was he who delayed the other party.
"Then let's separate."
Geng Zhi couldn't remember the tone of his words anymore, he didn't even remember whether he had finished the sentence, he got up and left after he finished speaking, and walked to the trash bin on the street under the glare of sunlight, stopped. Down.
The rotten smell spreading in the bucket made one feel nauseous, Geng Zhi tore up the printed plan page by page with a blank face, and threw it in.
Then he reached out, hailed a taxi, and rushed back to the airport.
Summer is here again.
They have broken up.
After listening to Geng Zhi's brief introduction, Lin Yuhe frowned and remained silent for a while.
Geng Zhi knew that he couldn't digest so much emotional information in a short period of time, even Geng Zhi himself had to think for many years before he understood it.
"I was too young at that time to understand."
He raised his fingers and rubbed the bridge of his nose, and said.
"I don't know what he is enduring. It took him too much energy just to approach me. Our original social circle was completely different. He had been rejected and ridiculed for a long time before, and he didn't like that kind of occasion very much, but with me Together, he sees the same people he used to see every day."
Love can transcend the barriers of family backgrounds, but it must also withstand the test of differences in family backgrounds. Geng Zhi grew up in an environment full of stars and moons, no one would think about being rude to him, but it is impossible for Fang Musen to be treated like this.
Following the trend and flattering, Fang Musen faced a hundred times more misinterpretation and malice than before. The saddest thing is that he couldn't even refute it.
Because in the beginning it wasn't simply approaching.
"What I think about the most is that he never liked me, but when I went back to China during the summer vacation, I was in a bad mood and drank a lot, so I called him...he answered."
That time, Geng Zhi was actually cheated. It was rumored outside that he was single again, so something was added to the wine, and some bold people tried to catch him. Geng Zhi sensed something was wrong, but it was too late, he tried his best to dial a number...or maybe he was already completely drunk at that time, so he called Fang Musen.
And Fang Musen actually came to pick him up.
In the crowded bar, under the mottled light and dark light, the music of the resident singer was hoarse. Fang Musen only said a word calmly to the group of people who were arrogant and refused to let him go.
"I'm his boyfriend."
The news of Geng Zhi's breakup had been rumored for a long time, but no one dared to insist on it. After all, Geng Zhi himself had never expressed his position, and when friends asked about it, they kept silent.
Fang Musen's words shocked everyone present, everyone knew how protective Geng Zhi was, and knew how far Geng Zhi could go for this lover.
So in the end, no one dared to stop them.
Fang Musen himself took away Geng Zhi who was lying on his shoulder, too drunk to keep his eyes open but refused to let go of his grip.
"I was so drunk, I was already unconscious at that time, I only knew to hold him all the time. I didn't know how much he liked me that night."
The memory of that night was washed away by alcohol and the only thing that can be remembered is the whisper in the ear, which was repeated so many times and kept hidden for too long.
"I like you."
Geng Zhi shook his fingers, looked at his empty palm, and said.
"I woke up the next day and he was gone. After that, we separated completely."
Lin Yuhe was a little puzzled when he heard this, why did they separate after they made up their minds
He asked, "Did you go to Brother Fang later?"
Geng Zhi said, "I've been there many times."
That night of drunkenness completely changed Geng Zhi's mind, he was determined to chase him back, and he made up his mind to completely eliminate the obstacles between the two.
But when he actually did it, Geng Zhi discovered that the difficulties in the actual operation were far from being solved by carefully bound plans.
After all, Geng Zhi was still too young, the first 20 years of his life were smooth sailing, he was under the shade of his family, only then did he realize how difficult it is to disobey his parents.
Not to mention persuading his parents to agree to his marriage with the same sex, even helping the Chen family without the help of his parents seemed impossible.
During that time, it was the first time for Geng Zhi to socialize so intensively, to work so busy, and to participate in all kinds of drinking parties like his life, just for those who listened to Geng's father not to embarrass the Chen family, and to make up for what should have been done for Fang Musen. Chen's help.
Only now did Geng Zhi recall that Fang Musen was originally sent to him by the Chen family in the name of a good relationship, but Fang Musen never asked for anything during the two years.
Whether it's for the Chen family or for himself.
The bar that asks for others can no longer be like the party where Geng Zhi was entertained before, with indescribable involuntary control, and the paralysis of alcohol will also remind Geng Zhi of that day and that night in the bar.
Later, I couldn't tell whether it was socializing or drinking too much. In the end, Geng Zhi suffered from acute pancreatitis due to excessive alcohol.
At that time, although Geng Zhi had handled the outside affairs almost safely, his relationship with his family was still tense. Geng's father was as violent as Geng Zhi, and even pointed at his nose and cursed to sever the relationship between father and son. After being hospitalized due to a sudden illness, Geng's father finally changed his tone and was no longer so tough.
"At that time, I felt that the affairs of the Chen family and our family were settled, and I finally had the confidence to find him to get back together. That was the first time I talked to him."
Geng Zhi said.
"He didn't see me."
"He seems...he doesn't really want to fall in love anymore," Geng Zhi said after thinking about it.
"After the freshman year started, I didn't tell him when I went to look for him again. I wanted to go quietly and stop him in person."
In the end, Geng Zhi really saw Fang Musen, on campus, with his classmates. Being far away, Geng Zhi couldn't hear what they were talking about, only saw Fang Musen smile from a distance.
September is the end of summer. In the summer breeze, the boy in the white t-shirt looked brisk, happy and dazzling.
It is completely different from the silent appearance of being ignored and excluded at the banquet and in the counseling institution.
"He's supposed to be shining and attracting all eyes—if he wasn't oppressed by my side."
For the first time, Geng Zhi was shaken by the idea of getting back together.
"I went there a few times after that, but I didn't tell him. But Komori is very keen, and he discovered it after many times."
"Gradually, I didn't go there anymore."
Lin Yuhe breathed out a short breath. He was still a little overwhelmed with digesting this complicated story. He asked, "What about this time? Why are you determined to chase after Brother Fang?"
"On the one hand, my parents completely agreed."
Geng Zhi said it very plainly, but Lin Yuhe knew it was not that simple at all. Although he was young and didn't know about the relationship between Geng Zhi and Fang Musen, the relationship between Geng Zhi and Geng's father was quite bad a few years ago. side.
In recent years, Geng's father was seriously ill, and within ten days he issued three critical illness notices, walking on the verge of life and death, and Geng Zhi went all over the place to find the best treatment plan for him. In the days, the father and son finally reached a reconciliation slowly.
From the firm opposition back then to the active questioning about the progress of Geng Zhi and his first love now, it is really hard for Lin Yuhe to imagine how much effort Geng Zhi has exhausted in this transformation.
But regarding this, Geng Zhi only mentioned one sentence before changing the subject.
"On the other hand... Do you remember the day he said he was going on a blind date?"
Lin Yuhe nodded: "En."
That day Geng Zhi bought big puffs, Lin Yuhe remembered that Fang Musen asked for leave the next day.
Geng Zhi raised his hand slowly, covering his eyes with the back of his hand.
"It was because of what happened that night that I couldn't let him go."
—
Conservative treatment for pancreatitis usually takes about a week, but Geng Zhi was discharged from the hospital the day after Lin Yuhe came to visit.
He and Fang Musen are still cooperating at work, and there is a dinner party tonight. Although Geng Zhi had been in contact with him online in order to give people space, he really couldn't bear to give up on this rare opportunity to meet.
Having a dinner together means that there are a lot of people, so Komori can feel more at ease without having to be alone.
Thinking about it, Geng Zhi felt that he was acting affectionate, probably even if he sat across from Fang Musen, the other party would not look at him more.
But he was content to be able to look at people.
During the meal, Fang Musen really turned a blind eye to Geng Zhi, and Geng Zhi didn't bother him, but heard a few colleagues casually mentioning a few words during the chat, saying that Brother Fang has been very busy these two days and seemed a little tired.
Geng Zhi involuntarily looked at Fang Musen a few more times, until he saw Fang Musen frowning slowly at the dinner plate in front of him, Geng Zhi had no choice but to control himself and keep his eyes closed.
The dinner party was over, and it was still early. The colleagues who had a good time didn't want to leave, so they hit it off and went to a nearby bar to renew their stall.
Geng Zhi had nothing to do, when he ate, he used the excuse that he had just eaten cephalosporin and didn't drink, and then he went to the bar to order milk. He saw that Fang Musen seemed a little hesitant at first, but in the end everyone wanted to go, Fang Musen didn't say anything, and agreed, probably because he didn't want to disappoint his colleagues.
Geng Zhi knew that Fang Musen didn't like this kind of occasion, but he didn't expect Fang Musen to sit in a corner and drink by himself in silence.
Fang Musen's movements were not rough or rude, on the contrary, he was a little careless, with a bit of indescribable provocativeness. But the speed at which he drank was jaw-dropping—almost as fast as he could eat in a hurry.
Geng Zhi frowned, and someone next to him noticed Fang Musen's strangeness, and asked in a low voice, someone said that Tezhu Fang seemed to be in a bad mood these days, and he worked overtime all night, maybe he was a little stressed.
These days Geng Zhi has been in the hospital, and he has always disapproved of Lu Nan's way, so now he doesn't know what happened to Fang Musen.
Is it about the Chen family? Lin Yuhe said that Lu Nan is not too busy these days, so why does Fang Musen stay up all night
Before Geng Zhi could think about it, a waiter brought a glass of freshly mixed cocktail.
Colleagues were surprised: "Is our wine ready?"
The waiter put the triangular cup in front of Fang Musen, pointed in one direction, and said, "It was ordered for this gentleman by a customer over there."
"..." Everyone silently glanced at Fang Musen, sure enough, sitting in the corner couldn't hide Fang Tezhu's face.
Fang Musen was still drinking the Black Fang in his hand, without raising his eyes.
"No thanks."
The waiter hesitated for a moment, and suddenly a voice came from behind him.
"Don't like martini? How about a different flavor you like?"
A strange young man came over and looked at Fang Musen with raised eyebrows and a smile.
It was the guest who delivered the wine that the waiter pointed out just now.
The sound of the bar sound was turned up very loudly, and the colleagues who sat a little further away couldn't hear the movement here clearly.
But no one expected that what Fang Musen said next shocked everyone.
Fang Musen said: "I have a boyfriend."
The colleagues were silent for a moment, and looked at Fang Musen dumbfounded.
When did this happen? !
No, no, who is that boyfriend?
There is a senior in the team who has worked with Fang Musen for many years, and explained: "No, Brother Fang will say that when he is drunk, but it has been many years, and we have never seen each other. It must be a joke..."
They were talking to colleagues, the voice was not loud, the young man didn't hear it, and was still talking to Fang Musen with great interest.
"What a coincidence? I just don't have one. The two of us really complement each other..."
Before he finished speaking, he was photographed.
"What are you doing?" The young man turned his head impatiently, only to see a man who was half a head taller than him with a bun in his hair smiling kindly at him.
"Take a step to speak."
The young man took another look at the other party. Although this person was good-looking, he was not his type. He waved his hand, trying to keep the other party out of the way, when his arm was suddenly held.
The young man's teeth were sour, and he almost didn't cry out on the spot. "you… !"
He gritted his teeth in pain, and finally heard a sentence over the loud music.
"I'm his boyfriend."
The slight smile in the man's deep voice made the young man's scalp go numb with fright.
In the next second, he was forced to walk away.
Five minutes later, Geng Zhi came back, and the table had already explained Fang Musen's astonishing words just now, and the lively atmosphere resumed.
This excitement did not include Fang Musen who kept his head down.
Geng Zhi frowned, and asked the colleague next to him: "Advisor Fang is still drinking?"
"Yeah, one bottle of Black Fang has bottomed out, and I have to pour a second bottle," the colleague scratched his head, "I didn't expect Brother Fang to drink so well."
What a fart.
Geng Zhi smiled and said: "But after drinking so fast, the wine is almost gone. Let's go to the bar with Fang Tezhu and order a few more drinks."
He asked around about the drink that everyone wanted to add, and finally walked in front of Fang Musen, and walked neatly away Fang Musen was holding the second bottle of Black Fang that was about to be poured.
"Let's go get some more drinks."
Fang Musen looked at his suddenly empty hand, and blinked dully.
His long eyelashes flickered, and the light reflected on them moved.
Geng Zhi couldn't help clenching the wine bottle in his hand.
Fang Musen was obviously drunk, that's why he followed Geng Zhi without objection and walked away together. There were too many people in the bar, it was too crowded, it was Geng Zhi who protected the people and went to the bar in the end.
When walking halfway, Geng Zhi suddenly heard a slightly hoarse voice.
"Not you."
"Huh?" Geng Zhi asked, "What?"
Fang Musen didn't look at him, and whispered, "Your boyfriend is not you."
He actually heard what Geng Zhi said before taking that young man away.
Geng Zhi's breath stagnates, then gradually calms down again, and he said slowly: "Isn't it me?"
"no."
Fang Musen was bumped by the person next to him, and couldn't help frowning.
"It's not you..." His voice was a bit vague, "Go away."
Geng Zhi spoke patiently and asked him in a calm tone.
"Who is that?"
Fang Musen closed his mouth and stopped talking.
He concentrated on walking forward, but was trapped by the circled hands of Geng Zhi behind him, unable to move in the noisy crowd.
"Can't you tell me? Who is it?"
Geng Zhi leaned against his ear and asked softly.
Fang Musen wrinkled his nose, as if impatiently being asked, he said, "Anyway, it's not you..."
"You hurt me so much that day."
He said.
"I said no and you didn't listen."
The arms around his waist suddenly froze.
The night after returning from the bar many years ago suddenly reappeared in front of my eyes. The messy bed sheets were so soaked that I couldn't even look at them carefully.
When I woke up early in the morning, I saw that there was no one in the room, only blood stains.
Cruciating, shocking.
"pain".
One word pierces the heart again.
"… sorry."
Geng Zhi's voice was extremely hoarse, almost choked in his throat, unable to read.
"I was drunk that night, so I didn't hear you, sorry."
The person in his arms moved, as if he was uncomfortable being strangled by the arm, Geng Zhi hastily eased the pressure a little, and the person didn't move again.
"Don't be sorry."
There was a slight warmth on the forearm, and it was Fang Musen who put his hand on it, his movements were very light, and his voice was light and ethereal.
like a dream.
"You're still drunk..."
"I can only say I like you when I'm drunk."
The crowd on the dance floor of the bar is crowded, but the surrounding noise fades away like a tide. In the momentary silence, only the vigorous beating of the heart through the arteries remained in my ears.
Yesterday, in the hospital, Lin Yuhe asked Geng Zhi why he suddenly wanted to get back after many years, and Geng Zhi mentioned the night of the blind date.
"That day I lost my temper and kissed him."
At the most painful moment, Geng Zhi thought that Fang Musen hated him, and regarded him as a scar, a pus scar, an unbearable period in his life that he wished he could not eradicate.
After kissing impulsively, Geng Zhi was also ready to be disgusted and detested.
His knee that firmly trapped the other party suddenly touched something.
... Fang Musen was kissed hard by him.