For so many years, Lin Wuyu has never hated Lin Zhan. In those days when they didn't get along very much, the only place in the family around Lin Zhan that could provide him with respite and peace.
But at this moment.
He still hates it.
He hates why he came into this world.
He hated Lin Zhan who ran away with the determination to never come back, even if he was only a teenager back then.
This moment of hatred does not need reason, nor logic.
It's just that he has nowhere to vent his grievances than his parents.
Lin Wuyu didn't want to take that photo, nor did he want to see the person in that photo.
He remembered a lot of things, what he had said, the books he had read, and the things he had experienced, the only thing that was blurred was Lin Zhan's face.
He didn't know what Lin Zhan looked like, he couldn't remember anymore.
For so long that it seems like it never existed.
Mom cried very sadly and loudly.
Lin Wuyu could hear the longing and reluctance in her cry, and the pain she had suffered for so many years, and she could also feel that her fear of never seeing each other again was really coming.
On the way back, he checked the information, and his mother's illness should have something to do with her depressed mood for so many years. In Lin Wuyu's memory, she was stronger and fiercer than her father, and the only warmth was given to Lin Zhan, After Lin Zhan disappeared, Lin Wuyu hardly saw her smile again.
I have never seen her cry.
Mom's sudden emotional outburst made him subconsciously feel scared and wanted to escape.
But his mother grabbed his hand very hard, he never knew that his mother had such great strength.
He glanced at his tightly clasped hand.
Mom is still trying to get the picture into his hands.
Finally he had to relax.
Mom also let go.
The photo was just put in his hand, the front was flushed down, and a corner was caught between his fingers.
"The doctor told me to be hospitalized right away," the mother said softly, her voice trembling badly. "It's infiltrative, I found it a little late... Your dad will definitely not be able to walk away for a while... "
Lin Wuyu did not speak.
He knew it wasn't Mom's whole reason, maybe not even the real reason.
For Lin Zhan, she was willing to die.
She dared not go.
After so many years, there is no news at all, and all the clues that I once thought are disappointing.
Lin Zhan's parents have no way to face it anymore.
Afraid not.
Also afraid really is.
Fear of uncertainty has enveloped them.
Lin Wuyu didn't say anything else, when he left his mother's bedside, he had already suppressed all his emotions.
"Where did the photo come from?" He closed the bedroom door and asked Dad in the living room.
"Do you remember Aunt Yu, your mom's best friend from college," Dad said, "I used to come here to take your brother out to play when I was a kid."
"I don't remember." Lin Wuyu replied.
"She saw it, but she didn't see anyone when she chased it," Dad said. "Just this picture, it's blurry but...like."
"If this person is really Lin Zhan," Lin Wuyu looked at his father, "Have you ever wondered why you didn't see anyone when you chased after him?"
Dad looked at him.
"He doesn't want to be found," Lin Wuyu whispered, "he doesn't want to come back."
"But your mom has to see him," Dad said, "must-"
"If I don't see you," Lin Wuyu asked, "it's my fault again in the end, isn't it?"
Dad paused for a long time, finally sighed heavily, turned and walked to the sofa and sat down.
Lin Wuyu seldom felt confused in his mind. In the most stressful and chaotic days of the college entrance examination, everything in his mind was still orderly, and he could read it clearly at any time when he needed it.
It was very messy today, and I felt bored when I came out of the house.
When he came back to his senses, he was already riding a shared bicycle and was slowly pedaling towards the school.
… When did you scan the code
Can't remember.
Possibly a locked car.
It could also be a car that you forgot to lock.
When he got to the lock at the school gate, he was sure that the code was scanned by himself.
When he turned around to enter the school gate, he saw a familiar back.
Assistant Ding was walking along the wall to the right of the school gate, his strides were quite large, as if he was on his way.
He was stunned for a while. He had already sent Assistant Ding home before. In less than two hours, how could he see him again at the school gate
He stood still and wanted to shout, but he hesitated and didn't know whether to speak.
Based on his understanding of the concept of a friend, he and Ding Ji are good friends. He is willing to chat and eat with Ding Ji, and he is also in the mood to quarrel with him, but if Ding Ji came to him now, he would be very moved. Beyond…
I also feel that Ding Ji's concern for him exceeds that of a good friend who has a good relationship but has not known him for a long time.
If the same thing happened to Ding Ji's family, he would send a message to ask, he would call to ask, and if Ding Ji needed it, he would go there immediately.
It's just that he won't appear directly at Ding Ji's door.
But... Lin Wuyu took out his phone and turned it around in his hand.
Maybe it was because his mind was already in a mess at the moment, and he was a little uncertain about his own judgment.
Ding Ji is different from everyone he has come into contact with. His understanding of Ding Ji is a thousand-faced chicken, and it is precisely because of thousand-faced that he is not sure what Ding Ji's way of getting along with his friends is.
After all, Ding Ji's friend Liu Jinpeng was willing to carry over 20,000 debts for him regardless of his...
When Ding Ji's figure was about to disappear at the end of the road, Lin Wuyu picked up his mobile phone and dialed Ding Ji's number.
Ding Ji's figure stopped, Lin Wuyu could see him pulling out his cell phone, but instead of answering the call immediately, he turned around suddenly.
Lin Wuyu waved at him.
Ding Ji picked up the phone: "I thought you weren't going back to the dormitory today?"
"How is that possible." Lin Wuyu said.
Ding Ji hung up the phone and started walking back.
In evil.
Gee.
Ding Ji stuffed the phone back into his pocket, feeling a little depressed.
He didn't go to Lin Wuyu's dormitory, but only stood at the school gate for a second before deciding to leave.
From childhood to adulthood, he didn't have many friends. His classmates were only friends in the same class. Others in the next class couldn't fully recognize him. His friends were those in the small square, the kind who could fight if they were not careful.
Only Liu Jinpeng, who grew up together since childhood, could endure his impatience, tolerate his mischief, and ignore his occasional alienation.
He was a little unhappy that he would be so concerned about Lin Wuyu's affairs. After all, whether he was loyal or soft-hearted, he had never been so active and enthusiastic... It doesn't matter if you change someone, but Lin Wuyu still likes men. , he was really afraid that Lin Wuyu would misunderstand what extra thoughts he had about him.
What the hell is this
"Didn't you go home?" Lin Wuyu asked, "Why did you run over again?"
"There's no one at home," Ding Ji sighed, "Pengpeng can only come out on Sunday after going to work. I'm bored."
Lin Wuyu looked at him and said nothing.
"How is your home situation?" Ding Ji asked.
"My mother asked me to find Lin Zhan." Lin Wuyu said.
"What?" Ding Ji was surprised, his voice could not be controlled, "Looking for Lin Zhan?"
"Yeah." Lin Wuyu nodded, turned around and walked slowly towards the school.
"How to find it? Smell it!" Ding Ji was a little puzzled, thinking about it and startled again, "Is her illness real or fake?"
"It's true," Lin Wuyu said, "I have to be hospitalized tomorrow."
Ding Ji didn't know why he was relieved, maybe his parents didn't make up a disease to trick Lin Wuyu back into being a sniffer dog.
"Why did you suddenly find Lin Zhan, and I haven't told you to find Lin Zhan for so many years," Ding Ji frowned, "Is it because of illness?"
"Probably, what my mother means is that I'm afraid that I won't be able to see him before I die." Lin Wuyu said.
"This disease is not so scary, and it won't be a dying wish," Ding Ji said. "Are there any clues? How do you find it?"
"My mother's friend," Lin Wuyu said with some difficulty, "I took a picture..."
"Damn it!" Ding Ji was shocked, "Where was it taken? Where's the photo? Can you be sure it was him?"
"I... haven't watched it yet." Lin Wuyu said.
Ding Ji suddenly closed his mouth.
Lin Wuyu probably didn't want to or didn't dare to look for it.
The two entered the school gate in silence, crossing the school's road.
It's not summer vacation yet, and the first and second graders are still in class. I can hear the noise from the classroom of the self-study class, as well as the shouts and laughter from the playground in the distance, and the basketball hitting the ground. Bang bang sound.
Lin Wuyu took Ding Ji into the dormitory. Maybe the housekeeper already knew about his situation, so Ding Ji followed him in. The uncle didn't ask more, just said, "Student Xiaolin is back?"
"Well." Lin Wuyu replied with a smile.
This is the second time that Ding Ji has come to Lin Wuyu's dormitory. It's very different from when he came back. It's full of partings.
"Drinking Coke?" Lin Wuyu asked.
"I only drink it with ice," Ding Ji said. "It's boring to drink without ice."
"I'll have to wait a while." Lin Wuyu said.
"Hey, no, no," Ding Ji said quickly, "don't run away, I'm not thirsty, and I don't need to drink anything."
Lin Wuyu didn't speak, opened the cabinet, took out two cans of Coke, and a cardboard box.
After putting the Coke into a small washbasin, he poured the contents of the carton onto the table, which looked like ice packs one by one.
"Why?" Ding Ji asked.
"I'll make you an ice cola." Lin Wuyu said, picked up an ice pack and threw it on the table.
"Do you use your mind?" Ding Ji asked again.
Lin Wuyu threw the ice pack in his hand to him. When he caught it, he found that the ice pack was actually ice, and was a little surprised: "Is this the frozen version of the warm baby?"
"Forget it, the cold storage agent and gel are used for ice compresses," Lin Wuyu said, "it's faster to cut the ice cola after a while."
Ding Ji thought it was very interesting. The two of them stood in front of the table, picked up the ice pack and threw it, then squeezed it. After the ice pack started to freeze, they cut a slit and poured the gel into a small basin.
It's like making a game.
After the gel buried the two cans of Coke, they looked at the basin together.
"This temperature," Ding Ji poked his finger in and tried, "it's pretty cold? How long can it last?"
"How long does it last?" Lin Wuyu was stunned, "Do you have fingers?"
"I said how long can this thing be frozen!" Ding Ji said, feeling that Lin Wuyu should be in a bad mood, or he would have to drive if he asked himself.
"Half an hour," Lin Wuyu said, "so I said the ice drinker has to wait."
"How much is an ice pack?" Ding Ji asked.
"About two or three dollars?" Lin Wuyu thought for a while.
"Okay," Ding Ji gave him a thumbs up, "As expected of a professional drone pilot hired by others, if you have money, these ice packs are enough to buy two cases of Coke."
Lin Wuyu suddenly seemed to remember something, and took out his mobile phone: "I forgot to pay you the labor fee."
"No hurry," Ding Ji was a little embarrassed, "I didn't do anything, so I just played along."
Lin Wuyu pressed a few times on the phone, and the phone rang after him.
"Thank you." Ding Ji took out his phone and opened the message.
It was found that Lin Wuyu sent him a red envelope.
... Is the assistant's daily salary a little too low? It took me almost two hours by car, and I climbed the mountain for 40 minutes. At the top of the mountain...
Forget it, he said it was playing, Ding Ji clicked on the red envelope: "Actually, you borrowed money directly from me..."
1 Yuan
He suddenly raised his head and looked at Lin Wuyu.
Lin Wuyu was already laughing silently while propping up on the table, and it seemed that he had laughed since he took the phone.
"I fucking admire you." Ding Ji stared at him.
"Give it back to me if you don't want it." Lin Wuyu said happily.
"Yes," Ding Ji put the phone back in his pocket, "why not."
Lin Wuyu laughed for a while, then stopped the smile, let out a sigh of relief, and said nothing, staring at the pile of gel and coke in the small basin.
Ding Ji followed and stared at him for a while, and then extended his hand to him: "I'll take a look."
"What?" Lin Wuyu was still staring at the basin.
"Lin Zhan's photo," Ding Ji said, "I'll take a look."
Lin Wuyu waited for a long time before he took out a photo from his pocket and put it in his hand.
"Did you print it yourself?" Ding Ji looked.
"It should be." Lin Wuyu said.
Ding Ji didn't speak any more, took a step to the side, and sat by the bed.
The photos are blurry, so the person who took the photos should be in a hurry and took them while walking.
The background of the photo is a subway entrance. Ding Ji saw the name of the station, and it should be very close to H University... He glanced at Lin Wuyu, probably this was the reason why Lin Wuyu's parents asked him to find Lin Zhan, the same city.
The subway entrance was crowded with people coming and going. At first glance, he didn't know who was photographing, but after staring again, he determined that the photograph should be a young man going down the stairs.
Tall and thin, with only a vague profile.
Just looking at this profile face, he won't have any associations, but if it is assumed that this is Lin Zhan, he can see that his nose is very similar to Lin Wuyu.
"It's very vague, and it may be judged by people who are very familiar with it," Ding Ji gave a very pertinent analysis. "To be honest, if it is my brother, I will look at it like this, and maybe I will feel like me."
Lin Wuyu turned to look at him.
"Do you want to see it?" Ding Ji flicked on the photo, "Actually, your mother asked you to look for it, did they dare not."
"I may not dare." Lin Wuyu walked up to him and took the photo.
Ding Ji looked at his face.
Lin Wuyu has been practicing diligently for more than ten years to hide his emotions. Before, he didn't even dare to look at photos, but now he can look at the photos without any expression on his face.
He didn't even tremble, as if he was looking at the transcript of his ten thousand years of constant first place.
"Really?" Ding Ji broke the silence, and if he didn't speak again, he was worried that Lin Wuyu would suddenly fall asleep like the previous study.
Lin Wuyu raised his eyes after two seconds.
Before he could speak, a tear suddenly slipped from the corner of his left eye to the tip of his chin.
Ding Ji didn't even see the tears gathering and swirling in his eyes, and he didn't even have time to redden. The way this tear appeared was like a raindrop that fell on Lin Wuyu's face by chance.
"It should be." Lin Wuyu said, and he couldn't hear him crying in his voice.
Ding Ji was a little at a loss. Lin Wuyu said that he didn't know how to coax others when they cried. In fact, it was the same. Although Ding Ji himself often cried because he was full of emotions, he also didn't know how to face others crying, especially I cried so much... inadvertently.
He wanted to get a tissue for Lin Wuyu, but after quickly pressing it on his only two trouser pockets, he knew that he didn't have such a thing on his body, so he hurriedly looked left and right, and glanced at the table again , I haven't seen anything that can have the same function as a paper towel.
In the end, he had to stand up, grab the hem of Lin Wuyu's clothes, and rub it on his face twice.
"Is it dirty?" Lin Wuyu said, "the clothes have been rolling on the mountain for a day."
"You didn't change your clothes, who's to blame?" Ding Ji sighed and pulled up the corner of his clothes, "Okay, I've changed my clothes."
"Thank you." Lin Wuyu pressed his hand.
Ding Ji didn't speak.
Lin Wuyu took the clothes from his hand, lowered his head and pressed his eyes with his clothes.
Ding Ji felt unbelievable: "Has your brain been pierced by a dead bird?"
"Your hands are too heavy," Lin Wuyu said, "it just made my face hurt."
"You thick-skinned..." Ding Ji tutted, "Are you that tender?"
Lin Wuyu smiled: "Coke should be a little cold, right?"
"Wait a while," Ding Ji said, "if there is no ice, why don't you put it back..."
"Okay." Lin Wuyu pulled up a chair and sat down, looking down at the photo again.
"Dare to watch it now?" Ding Ji asked.
"Yeah." Lin Wuyu nodded.
"Don't cry anymore?" Ding Ji looked at Lin Wuyu, or if he had just seen it with his own eyes, now he wouldn't believe that this person had just shed tears half a minute ago.
"Why did my parents ask me to find them," Lin Wuyu said. "If this is really Lin Zhan, they know that Lin Zhan will not see them."
"But if you go," Ding Ji said, "if you really meet him, he probably won't hide, right?"
"Maybe." Lin Wuyu said.
"Then are you going?" Ding Ji asked.
"Go," Lin Wuyu said, "I'll leave as soon as I sign up for the application. I'm going anyway. It's the same whether it's early or late."
"Then..." Ding Ji regretted it after speaking.
After Lin Wuyu spoke, he regretted it even more.
"No," Lin Wuyu said, "I'll just go by myself, you still have to work to pay me back."