What I'm afraid of is liking itself.
Ding Ji didn't quite understand this sentence, and didn't feel embarrassed to ask more. After all, what he was talking about was Lin Wuyu's emotional experience of being better than nothing... Although he himself didn't even know that chatting was better than nothing, he still had to be polite and couldn't be unrestrained. Explore other people's privacy.
However, Lin Wuyu didn't give him a chance to ask more questions. After packing his luggage, he washed up and went to bed.
Before going to bed, he shouted, "You're almost done, you have to get up early tomorrow by car!"
Sounds like his grandfather.
"Got it!" Ding Ji responded.
After lying on the bed, he closed his eyes, listening to his breathing, he could tell that Lin Wuyu hadn't fallen asleep in the upper bunk.
"Did you come over immediately after filling out the application?" Ding Ji asked.
"Well," Lin Wuyu said, "it's not interesting to stay there, maybe the school will pull this and that."
"That's right," Ding Ji opened his eyes, "When you save the champion, will the TV station give you an exclusive interview?"
"... Stop it, how uncomfortable it is." Lin Wuyu clicked his tongue.
"It's so miserable." Ding Ji sighed.
"Do you think you can dodge it?" Lin Wuyu said, "You are such a connoisseur, you don't even look like a student at ordinary times, as long as you get into the top three, it will definitely be a typical propaganda."
"I may not be able to enter." Ding Ji said.
"Definitely enter," Lin Wuyu's arm dangled from the upper bunk, and stretched out his hand in front of him, "Believe in the God of Learning."
"Eternal life." Ding Ji shook hands with him.
Lin Wuyu smiled: "What nonsense."
"You've learned badly," Ding Ji sighed with a smile, "Is it the first time I heard your fart?"
"Yes," Lin Wuyu turned over, "I've been beaten with you and escaped my life, and I don't care about a fart."
Ding Ji laughed silently for a long time.
Tonight, Lin Wuyu slept fairly honestly, without hanging his head out of the bed.
But Ding Ji drank too much wine and hit one of his legs hanging out of the bed when he got up to go to the toilet at night.
This person shouldn't be sleeping in a bed, so he only needs to make a floor and roll around.
But getting up on time, Lin Wuyu is still very good, Ding Ji didn't hear the alarm, and these days, it's Lin Wuyu's help to get up.
When he dragged him up today, Lin Wuyu had already finished washing up.
Ding Ji swayed into the toilet half-dead, struggling to ask before brushing his teeth, "Aren't you sleepy?"
"Sleepy," Lin Wuyu said, "but if you miss the train, will you pay for my ticket? You still carry my debt."
"...I bought your ticket!" Ding Ji stuck his head out and glared at him without spitting out a mouthful of toothpaste.
"Oh yes," Lin Wuyu nodded and picked up the phone, "Then I'll write it down and deduct it from the money I owe..."
"No!" Ding Ji shouted.
"Spray me with toothpaste." Lin Wuyu said.
Ding Ji was a little helpless, and went back to the toilet. Just after spitting out the toothpaste, Lin Wuyu said again: "The road to repaying your debt is long and difficult."
Ding Ji didn't speak, he turned on the faucet and poured water on his face.
Okay, sober up.
The car I bought this time was next to each other. Ding Ji got in the car and grabbed the window seat first: "Lend me your little banana..."
"Huh?" Lin Wuyu looked at him, "Be civilized, and not too small."
"Sea star! Sea star!" Ding Ji raised his voice, "It's all yellow, I said it wrong! Little starfish! Lend me your little starfish."
Lin Wuyu pulled out the little starfish from the bag and handed it to him: "The side with the eyes is facing out."
"Oh." Ding Ji looked.
"I washed it the day I got off the car," Lin Wuyu said, "but the face-to-face side is still relatively clean."
"You're so particular," Ding Ji leaned against the window with the little starfish on his back, "how could you just take my water and drink it..."
"I'm very rude in terms of eating." Lin Wuyu said.
"...Okay." Ding Ji nodded.
It's very good for the little starfish to sleep. Ding Ji felt that he didn't do much these days, but when he walked in the car, he felt as if he hadn't slept well for a week. Before the car left the city, he would Fell asleep.
In the middle, Lin Wuyu woke him up once and gave him a box of lunch and a can of milk.
After he finished eating, he leaned against the window and fell asleep again.
Before falling asleep, there is still a question, I wonder if Lin Wuyu will sleep on his shoulder
Wouldn't it be uncomfortable to sleep without the little starfish
This question was answered when we approached the station.
When Ding Ji woke up, Lin Wuyu was still asleep, and his sleeping posture was different from when he was on the bed.
At this moment, he was sitting in the position, with his arms crossed, sitting upright, his head tilted back slightly, and a mask he didn't know what to use on his chin.
Do you want to learn from the mask man? It's not necessarily your brother, isn't it
Ding Ji stared at him for a while, and found that this person was really asleep. He could sit up straight and doze off, so why would he need a little starfish to rely on... Lin Wuyu's little starfish might be a placebo.
There was a sudden flash of light on the side seat.
Ding Ji glanced over there quickly, and found that the two girls were lying on the small table, squeezing each other and squeezing you, but didn't dare to lift their heads, and still had their phones in their hands.
It is estimated that the candid photo was forgotten to turn off the flash.
So unprofessional.
It should be Lin Wuyu who took the candid photo. Ding Ji judged his image. The wrinkles on his face pressed by the little starfish are still there. It is estimated that half of his face is red. He scratched his head and found that his hair was still standing.
Lin Wuyu was different, Ding Ji glanced at him again.
Really handsome, the profile of the face is clear and distinct from the forehead to the brow bone to the bridge of the nose...
Ding Ji looked away, he was afraid that Lin Wuyu would wake up suddenly and open his eyes, then it was a bit unclear.
What I'm afraid of is liking itself.
This sentence sounded inexplicably in Ding Ji's mind along with the afterimage of Lin Wuyu's side face.
Like, what's so scary
Lin Wuyu likes men, so liking for him is not just a simple liking, so is he afraid
Ding Ji felt that these words might apply to others, but not to someone as arrogant as Lin Wuyu, he didn't care at all.
What is he afraid of
Ding Ji took a sip of water.
Or maybe he's... not talking about himself
Ding Ji was startled by this thought, the bottle in his hand was not steady, it almost fell, and the water splashed on Lin Wuyu's hand.
"Huh?" Lin Wuyu opened his eyes.
"Awake?" Ding Ji put down the water bottle.
"Is it almost there?" Lin Wuyu stretched out.
"The broadcast just said it's coming soon," Ding Ji glanced at him, "Why are you putting on a mask?"
"It's easy to open your mouth when you sleep with your head up like this," Lin Wuyu tore off his mask, "Use this to restrain your chin..."
"Is your idol burden a little too heavy, Xue Shen?" Ding Ji was shocked.
"I don't have to do this with the little starfish," Lin Wuyu glanced at him, "Didn't you take it?"
"Give it back to you!" Ding Ji threw the little starfish on his lap.
Lin Wuyu stuffed the little starfish back into the bag, and took out another lollipop: "Do you want to eat?"
Ding Ji hesitated for a moment, then took the lollipop: "Why are you still carrying this, haven't you been throwing it in the living room?"
"I put a few sticks in the bag the day after I bought them," Lin Wuyu said. "If you're anxious, you can grab one at any time."
"I'm so easy to get anxious." Ding Ji held a lollipop in his mouth and wrapped his tongue around the ball of the lollipop, feeling much more at ease.
When he came out of the station, Ding Ji suddenly came back to his senses. He had been with Lin Wuyu for a week, but he didn't feel anything before. When he saw Lin Wuyu looking over at the taxi line, he I suddenly felt a little reluctant.
But why such a boring itinerary made him feel reluctant, he couldn't figure it out.
In the past, when he traveled with his grandparents during the summer vacation, he would miss Liu Jinpeng, and he would send cards and letters to Liu Jinpeng from other places, but that kind of childhood memory disappeared when he grew up.
He and Liu Jinpeng sometimes get annoyed when they hang out together for a few days. Liu Jinpeng stayed at his house for more than three days and sometimes they would fight over some shit...
Ding Ji stared at the back of Lin Wuyu's head and followed behind him dully.
"Order two cars or one car?" Lin Wuyu hesitated for a while, "Call one car, take you back for a while, and then I'll go back to school."
no need!
Call two cars!
Split up and go back!
Ding Ji thought decisively, then nodded: "Okay, let's take a car then."
Obviously still in the same city, and should go to the same school in the future, but after getting in the car, Ding Ji felt that the atmosphere of separation was very strong.
This made him a little anxious, so he glanced at Lin Wuyu.
"Huh?" Lin Wuyu looked at him.
"Are you going home?" Ding Ji wanted to ask him for another lollipop, but changed the words after thinking about it, "Do your parents know you're back?"
"I'll go back tomorrow," Lin Wuyu said, "I'll follow my train of thought tonight. I'll go home and talk to them. It's not just about Lin Zhan, but also about my mother's illness. I can't help much, but neither I plan to ignore it completely."
"There's something I didn't feel ashamed to ask you before, after all, I still..." Ding Ji lowered his voice, "I still owe you money."
"Then you can ask shamelessly now." Lin Wuyu said.
"...Just," Ding Ji whispered, "Can you pay for your tuition by yourself? You and your family are stuck like this, can they give you money?"
"I have." Lin Wuyu also whispered.
Ding Ji nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
Lin Wuyu only said that he had it, but did not say whether the family could give money, nor did he say how much money he had, and he was not easy to inquire.
I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure.
The car arrived at the grandparents' house first, Ding Ji got out of the car, he hesitated for a while across the window, not knowing what to say.
"Bring it to grandparents," Lin Wuyu said, "I'll call you before I leave, I have to come and get something."
"Okay." Ding Ji nodded.
He turned around quickly and walked quickly into the corridor.
Lin Wuyu's words made him very unhappy, and he skipped the time when he directly filled out the volunteers. Before he set off, he didn't intend to meet him again.
Ding Ji suddenly felt that he was very boring, and the thought that he had been pondering back and forth before was like a mental retardation now.
What about a child prodigy
Where did this intelligence come from
After returning home, his mood was still a lot higher, and he was happy when he saw his grandparents.
"I just bought some messy food for you in the supermarket," Ding Ji fell on the sofa, "I don't know what it is."
"I don't know what you still take!" Grandma patted him complainingly.
"I didn't take it, Du Lin Wuyu took it... He also gave the money," Ding Ji said a little to Lin Wuyu's displeasure, "I don't know what he took, you Open the box and take a look."
Grandma said she was talking about waste, but she happily opened the box and took out the messy stuff inside: "This is candy, this is preserved fruit... Ouch, let me see what this is... This is for the old man. Fan, it's pretty nice..."
"What is this little box?" Grandpa asked.
"This box is so beautiful..." Grandma said, "This is not ours, it must be bought by Xiao Ji as a gift. Who gave such a fashionable box to the old man and the old lady."
"What?" Ding Ji leaned over, he didn't remember a fashionable box.
Grandpa handed him a red square box.
He had never seen this box, and there was no such thing in the supermarket. He opened the box with some curiosity and saw a layer of translucent paper.
Then he reacted instantly.
This is supposed to be a clay figurine.
When he and Lin Wuyu were wandering around looking for something to eat, they passed a clay figurine shop with many cute little clay figurines.
... This was given to him by Lin Wuyu.
But when Lin Wuyu went to buy it, he didn't know at all.
Immediately, I felt like I couldn't tell what it was like.
He carefully lifted the layer of paper inside and saw a small mud...chicken.
"I'll go to yours!" Ding Ji put the box on the coffee table.
Grandpa and grandma took the box and glanced inside, and suddenly couldn't hold it back with laughter.
"Is this a gift from the little fairy?" Grandma asked with a smile, "How cute, take it and put it in the house, and it will fall when it hits the ground."
Ding Ji stood up reluctantly, took the box and went into his room.
Standing in front of the desk for a while, he turned on the lamp, took out the mud chicken... no, put the mud chicken under the desk lamp, and took a closer look.
This chick is really cute, with a round head and a round head, and a small red crown on his head.
Well, it's a rooster.
Ding Ji put the chicken on the small shelf of the desk.
Subconsciously, he took out his mobile phone and wanted to take a picture and send it to Lin Wuyu.
But after holding the phone for a long time, he put it down again.
Forget it, let's do it for now.
I'll talk about it when I finish Lin Wuyu's little bookshelf.
After Lin Wuyu returned to the dormitory, he never went home, and he never answered his father's call on his cell phone. When the call came in, he pressed mute and put it on the table, letting the phone ring until it hung up automatically.
Mom's surgery time has been arranged, and the hospitalization has also gone smoothly. He has not reported the matter of going to Lin Zhan. He has not found anyone, and he has not even seen similar people.
He doesn't need to answer his dad's phone anymore, and he doesn't need to have any communication with them anymore.
There are still two days left to check the score. Lin Wuyu glanced at a large box placed beside the bed. It contained the rest of his clothes. Everything else was in Ding Ji's place. After filling out the application, he could leave easily. .
Whether Lin Zhan can find it or can't find it, he doesn't want to let his parents have shadows in his life.
Staying in the dormitory every day is not uncomfortable for Lin Wuyu, reading books and playing mobile phones, going to the playground, and throwing a few balls on the basketball court when no one is there.
The only thing that made him a little strange was that Ding Ji never contacted him again.
Ding Ji must have seen the chick he stuffed in the box, but he didn't tell him... You can't be angry just because you gave a chick, right
Ding Ji has a very quick temper, so he won't be angry about such a thing.
It can only be because of some of their attitudes.
Lin Wuyu didn't plan to find Ding Ji either. This man is sensitive and careful. At this time, he can't be sure of Ding Ji's thoughts. The status quo should still break the deadlock, and he wasn't even sure whether Ding Ji would continue their friendship.
Just... let's do it first.
Lin Wuyu got up very late that day, feeling calm and arrogant.
I don't know why I can sleep so well, but when I woke up, it was because the phone kept ringing, so he couldn't go back to sleep.
The call was from Lao Lin. Lin Wuyu picked up the phone and heard Lao Lin's voiceless roar as soon as he connected: "Lin Wuyu! Have you checked the score!"
As soon as Lin Wuyu heard this news, he knew that Lao Lin must have checked his score, all his information was with Lao Lin, and Lao Lin's out-of-tune news, his grades should be very good.
"Let me know when you find out." Lin Wuyu smiled.
"You're quite calm?" Lao Lin shouted, "You know how much you score you won't be so calm!"
"How much?" Lin Wuyu has always been quite sure of his grades, and he didn't worry too much about the grades.
Until now, at this second, he seemed to wake up from sleep and suddenly became nervous.
The hand holding the phone began to shake uncontrollably.
"Aren't you going to check it yourself?" Lao Lin said, "What if I'm too old to see the wrong thing?"
"Your child hasn't even been born yet," Lin Wuyu said, "it's not going to fade away..."
"Seven hundred! Thirty-two! Darling!" Lao Lin couldn't hold back, and before he could finish speaking, he shouted out the score, "Baby! Dad loves you! Did you hear that! Seven hundred and thirty-two! This year's champion It's you! It's you, it's you, it's you... it's you!"
"...I heard it." Lin Wuyu said, feeling that Lao Lin wanted to sing without saying a word.
"Are you in the dormitory?" Lao Lin asked.
"Yes." Lin Wuyu said.
"Wait for me, don't go!" Lao Lin's voice was a little panting, "I'll go look for you now, you wait for me in the dormitory!"
"Well." Lin Wuyu responded.
After hanging up, he stood in the dormitory for ten seconds before regaining his senses, and slammed his phone on the bed.
Then he threw himself in front of the table, patted the table for more than ten times, and then turned around in the dormitory, kicking the legs of the bed and running around in circles.
After running for a few laps, he jumped onto the empty bed next to him, and stomped and stomped on the bed board, and the bed board made a cracking sound when he stomped it.
In the end, he threw himself back on the bed, smashed the bed board a few times, buried his face in the pillow, and cried aloud.
I cried so loudly that I felt so loud.
While crying, he kicked his legs a few times, and stopped when he hit the iron bedpost.