Hearing this, Jiang Lishan stopped picking up the collection of poems, and put the collection of poems back on the small table a few seconds later.
Jiang Lishan knows that some mental patients will have a strong dependence on their psychiatrists, and there are also regulations in the industry that doctors cannot have excessive feelings with patients during the treatment process.
But emotions are difficult to control. Jiang Lishan originally thought that Ai Shuai would be the most troublesome and difficult patient he took over, but now it seems that the young man may be the most difficult patient he has ever encountered.
For a moment, Jiang Lishan regretted participating in this case. But such thoughts only lasted for a moment, and disappeared completely in his mind after a second.
The young man's words were too straightforward, and the emotions contained in them were difficult to sort out for a while. Even though Jiang Lishan had worked in this industry for many years, he didn't know how to respond to these words, because the young man's identity was too special —He is not like Ai Shuai, nor is he like any of the patients he has taken over, who needs him to tear open his disguise with a knife, and dig out the truth buried under their weird spirits.
What young people need is treatment and psychological counseling from a doctor, but he is not a complete doctor.
Jiang Lishan dragged the small bench out from under the bed and sat beside the young man.
The afterglow of the setting sun spilled into the house through the floor-to-ceiling windows. The young man was lying on the rocking chair, and the thick soft blanket buried him in the rocking chair, making him even more emaciated, like a narcissus on the verge of withering. may die.
Looking at him, Jiang Lishan felt for the first time that his language was so pale and his vocabulary was poor. After thinking for a long time, he could only ask a plain greeting: "Have you eaten yet?"
"I've eaten." Su Jinzhi moved on the recliner, turned over slightly, and turned his body to face Jiang Lishan. "Doctor Jiang, will you still be here with me tonight?"
Jiang Lishan smiled and said softly, "Not tonight, I have to go back to the dormitory."
"Oh..." There was obvious loss in the young man's voice.
Jiang Lishan looked at his drooping eyebrows and eyes, and actually wanted to stay like last night and sleep by the young man's side, even if he would be very tired the next day. But just as he said when he refused, he had to go back to the dormitory tonight. Some materials of Ai Shuai needed to be sorted out, as did the young man's. He couldn't stay in the ward without going back.
"You didn't sleep well last night. Did you have a nightmare? Can you tell me what you dreamed about?"
The man spoke in a calm voice, with a businesslike attitude. Su Jinzhi glanced at him and did not speak.
Jiang Lishan saw that he refused to mention the dream, so he didn't linger on this question for too long, but quickly changed his mind and asked: "Is today's movie good?"
"Well, it's funny." Su Jinzhi answered the second question.
Jiang Lishan hooked his lips: "It was chosen by the director, do you remember him? He is the doctor who took care of you before."
"Remember." The young man's words were as short and concise as ever.
The chat was dead again, and when Jiang Lishan was still thinking about other topics, the young man took the initiative to speak: "I met a man, he was wearing the same color of clothes as me."
When Su Jinzhi was talking, he kept observing Jiang Lishan's expression. At first glance, the man's expression didn't fluctuate at all, and even the curvature of the corners of his lips didn't change a bit. But as the person next to him who knew him best, Su Jinzhi It can be felt that when he finished his last sentence, the breath around the man suddenly cooled down.
"He told me that his name was Ai Shuai, that he was of British descent, and he asked me my name." Su Jinzhi saw the man looking at him, his Adam's apple was moving up and down, which was a sign of nervousness and anxiety, "but I didn't tell him."
"Yes, he is Ai Shuai. He is a very dangerous patient, you'd better not get too close to him, he will hurt you." Jiang Lishan said, accentuating the bite of the word "hurt".
A psychiatrist will not threaten patients, he will only grasp the patient's weakness, and use what the patient is afraid of to keep them away from those dangerous things. Su Jinzhi can hear from Jiang Lishan's words that the original body is very afraid of someone What hurt him can also be seen from the close guarding, or protecting behavior of the nurses - for Ai Shuai, those nurses are the guards; for him, it is protection.
Su Jinzhi showed a flinched and timid expression at the right time, and pulled the soft blanket higher up to his chin.
However, at the next moment, Jiang Lishan made a movement that made both of them stunned at the same time - he touched his head.
Jiang Lishan's fingers stroked his side face, moved to his temples, brushed the messy hair on his forehead behind his ears, and then gently stroked his hair.
This action is very soothing and can make people's hearts calm and quiet, but this action is too intimate and ambiguous, which completely exceeds the private distance that should be kept between ordinary people. It can happen between close friends or It can be a lover between relatives, but it will never happen between a patient and a doctor.
After the man finished all this, he realized what he had done, and his fingers froze on his head.
"We came back together, but he left with you, Doctor Jiang." Su Jinzhi continued, leaning his head on the recliner, "It took you a long time to come to see me."
Jiang Lishan listened to the boy's words that seemed to be jealous, curled his fingers into his palms, moved them away after clenching into fists, and lied without changing his face: "Yes, he is very dangerous, I want to protect you."
Su Jinzhi: "..."
Does he look like a retard? Can Jiang Lishan say such words
Fortunately, the nurse came in with the medicine at this time and broke the weird atmosphere in the room. Jiang Lishan took the medicine himself and handed it to Su Jinzhi: "I must take the medicine today."
Su Jinzhi looked down at the medicine, thinking that he might not be able to escape the fate of taking medicine tonight, but he could still win some other privileges for himself: "Doctor Jiang, can these medicines save me from having nightmares?"
When Jiang Lishan took the medicine, he saw the pills. There are sedative drugs in them. In theory, they can make young people relax and fall into a deep sleep without dreaming, but this is only a theory.
So Jiang Lishan chose a compromise answer: "It can make you sleep better."
Without affirmation or negation, Su Jinzhi swallowed the pill and bid farewell to Jiang Lishan: "Good night, Dr. Jiang."
"Good night."
After Jiang Lishan left, Su Jinzhi had nothing else to do. He hadn't bathed for two days. Although the weather wasn't hot recently, Su Jinzhi couldn't stand himself who didn't take a bath for a long time, so he could only sit under the gaze of the male nurse. Into the fully transparent bathroom.
Although this bathroom was much better than the one he lived in before, with a shower curtain separating it, Su Jinzhi felt that it was useless at all, and he was still able to clearly see people's shadows.
While taking a bath, Su Jinzhi looked at himself in the mirror, and suddenly thought of something—Ai Shuai asked his name before the movie started, and acted as if he had never seen him before, but when he came back On the way, Ai Shuai told him that he had heard the nurses mention him and knew a lot about him.
This realization made Su Jinzhi a little creepy.
Only the two of them wear the indigo hospital gown. He is a mental patient with violent tendencies and self-harm behavior, while Ai Shuai is in good health. He rolls up his sleeves while watching a movie. His arms are very muscular and his skin is smooth. There are no scars, and the character he has shown proves that he will not harm himself. The only thing left is that he has violent tendencies.
However, they were not the only two patients isolated because of violent tendencies, but he and Ai Shuai were the only ones in the indigo hospital gown.
Su Jinzhi looked at his arm covered with scars like a thin withered branch, but couldn't figure out how violent his original body was. With such a physical quality, he didn't seem like a person capable of violence.
Although he was full of doubts, the effects of the medicines he took came up quickly, making Su Jinzhi drowsy. He hurriedly brushed his teeth and wiped off the water droplets on his body before lying on the bed, and fell asleep without drying his hair.
As a result, the next day, Su Jinzhi had a fever.
The original body suffers from long-term insomnia, malnutrition, sickness and fever. It will be a matter of time. His bath last night was just a fuse. What's more, he had that dream again last night. Surrounded by corpses, but last night's dream felt more real, he could even feel the sticky coldness of blood on his hands.
Even after training in a spiritual world, Su Jinzhi is still not very courageous. He is more cowardly tonight than yesterday. Before the two heads opened their eyes, he was startled awake and never slept again. over.
The male nurse guarding him was not as gentle and careful as Jiang Lishan, and his consolation seemed indifferent and flat, so Su Jinyi shivered by the bedside with the quilt in his arms, afraid that a head would suddenly roll out from a dark corner.
After dawn, the nurse found that his face was abnormally red, and came to touch him to find out that he had a fever.
When Jiang Lishan heard the news and rushed over, the nurse was taking off his shirt and using alcohol to physically cool him down, with a cold kerchief covering his head.
"Why do you have a fever?" Jiang Lishan walked to the head of the bed and touched the young man's face. With this young man's illness, the guided treatment plan he made last night had to be postponed.
The nurse explained: "Maybe he caught a cold. Mr. Su fell asleep without drying his hair after taking a shower last night."
Hearing what the nurse said, Jiang Lishan subconsciously turned around and looked at the fully transparent bathroom in the room. He did not forget the scene of the young man inside... when he came here on the first day, and just last night, someone saw it more than he did. many things.
Su Jinzhi rested on the bed with his eyes closed. He hadn't had a restful sleep for several days. Long-term sleep deprivation can make people irritable and irritable. This situation became slightly lighter after he heard Jiang Lishan's voice Some, he opened his eyes and looked towards Jiang Lishan.
Seeing him open his eyes, Jiang Lishan immediately bent down to comfort him: "Jinzhi, are you feeling better?"
"My head hurts..." Su Jinzhi replied hoarsely, dazed by the fever.
The young man's face was always pale, but after he got sick, his face became more bloody, which made him look much better.
Jiang Lishan looked at him, pursed the corners of his lips, and turned to the nurse standing aside, his voice mixed with reproach: "Why did you get sick in just one night! How did you stay on guard last night?"
The nurse was scolded by Jiang Lishan, she looked embarrassed, but she couldn't say anything to refute.
After Jiang Lishan finished cursing, seeing the nurse's embarrassing expression, he was also a little embarrassed for a while, because he also felt that something was wrong with his recent mental state, and he paid too much attention to the patient named Su Jinzhi, This has exceeded the limit of a doctor's care for a patient.
Sometimes, not only the patient will have a feeling of dependence on the doctor, but the doctor will also have a feeling of dependence on the patient. Once the patient’s experience is too pitiful and the only thing he can rely on is the doctor, the doctor will feel that he is all the support of the patient, so Excessive attention to the patient.
This feeling became more serious after he had seen the youth's case last night.
Jiang Lishan could feel that he was abnormal, but he was powerless to reverse the situation.
He thinks this may be because the patients he has been in contact with are some high-IQ mental criminals, they often have high education and elegant conversation, you need to peel off the candy of lies wrapped in layers to find the truth Sandwich.
And youth is the only difference.
He is weak and pitiful, and a little carelessness will make him feel uneasy and fearful. He also does not have a spiritual castle made of iron and stone like Ai Shuai. What he has is a ruin of ruins. For Ai Shuai, he Knives, guns and artillery can be used, but for young people, he can only dig carefully with a small shovel.
Jiang Lishan took a deep breath, and stopped admonishing the nurse who was watching the night last night. Instead, he took the alcohol from him and physically cooled the young man himself.
When he came in, the button of the young man's jacket had been unbuttoned, his pale chest was exposed, and the color of his breasts was very light, but Jiang Lishan didn't pay too much attention to this beautiful color, because the young man The protruding ribs on his body are even more eye-catching, making it impossible to ignore his weakness and pity.
Jiang Lishan smeared alcohol on the boy's armpits and neck, and after wiping it once, a nurse entered the ward and whispered in his ear: "Doctor Jiang, it's time to conduct a psychological test on Ai Shuai."
Jiang Lishan glanced at the young man on the bed, his eyes were closed, and he seemed to be asleep.
"Let's go." Jiang Lishan handed the alcohol to another nurse, "What's wrong with him, come and find me immediately."
And after Su Jinzhi left Jiang Lishan, he immediately started calling number one: "number one, number one, eavesdrop on the two of them."
Su Jinzhi is very concerned about the word Ai Shuai, after all, he is another patient of Jiang Lishan, Jiang Lishan is very gentle every time he visits him, but this is not because he likes him, but because he is his patient. As long as Su Jinzhi thinks that Jiang Lishan will be so tender and affectionate to another person, even if it's because of work, he will feel uncomfortable.
What's more, Ai Shuai didn't look like a good person at first glance, seeing how gay the gays were, Su Jinzhi was not at all relieved that he and Jiang Lishan would be alone together.
"You just need to eavesdrop?" No. 1 asked him, "I can broadcast live to you."
Su Jinzhi couldn't ask for more: "Good good good good good good!"
A minute later, an electronic screen appeared in front of him, and it was projected on the ceiling. Su Jinzhi only needed to open his eyes to see it, but this scene was a little weird to the nurse.
But Su Jinzhi can't control that much, because Jiang Lishan has already met Ai Shuai over there.
When Jiang Lishan was talking to him, the room he was in was very cozy, there was tea and milk provided, and he spoke in a soft voice, he was treated like a child, but Ai Shuai didn't have such treatment up.
It is indeed the same as what he saw yesterday. The place where Jiang Lishan and Ai Shuai met was in another room. There was no lighting window in this room. The only window was the surveillance window. The glass on the window was specially made. to everything outside.
The walls and floor of the room are all gray, and the tables and chairs are also dark black. The whole room gives people an extremely depressing and serious feeling.
But Ai Shuai who happened to be sitting in the middle of the room was smiling.
The corners of his lips were slanted, and he was even humming. After Jiang Lishan pulled out his chair and sat down, he whistled: "Morning, Doctor Jiang, I have been waiting for you here for a long time."
Jiang Li didn't raise his head, he was sorting out the documents in his hands, his expression was calm, and his voice was also very indifferent: "I thought you wouldn't want to see me."
"Oh, I didn't want to see you before." Ai Shuai nodded, and within a few seconds he laughed again, "But it won't happen in the future. I will look forward to meeting you every day."
Su Jinzhi was furious when he heard the words, he didn't dare to tease Jiang Lishan so blatantly, how could Ai Shuai have such a face? With his yellow teeth
Jiang Lishan's expression didn't change much, as if he didn't hear Ai Shuai's voice, but Ai Shuai's next words made Jiang Lishan raise his head suddenly: "Because I smell cute smell on you .”
"You just came from the lovely room." Ai Shuai folded his arms and leaned back, squinting his eyes and sniffing the air intoxicatedly, "This room is full of his fragrance."
Su Jinzhi reacted after hearing it: "The cutie he is talking about, can't it be me?"
Number one said: "It should be, after all he said that those who wear light blue hospital gowns are idiots."
Su Jinzhi didn't answer, and continued to focus on the electronic screen. After Ai Shuai finished speaking, Jiang Lishan put down the document in his hand, crossed his fingers on the table, and said in a calm voice, "Are you finished?"