That dream has been recurring since the first night he came to this world, the content is occasionally different, but it always revolves around the same room, and then contacting his identity, Su Jinzhi guessed the dream a long time ago The room in the house was the scene of the crime, and No. 1's words just confirmed his guess, so Su Jinzhi wasn't too surprised.
It's just that the headless body that died was his father's words...
"Then the murderer is me?" Su Jinzhi asked No. 1.
"Whether it is still to be confirmed." No. 1 said, "It is not written in your medical record that you are the murderer."
"If it's not me, who else could it be?"
"Your father is an intermediary in drug trafficking, and he has a list of drug lords in his hand. There are many people who want to kill him, and the original body is so weak. Before killing his father, he probably died Killed by him."
Su Jinzhi asked again: "What if it is a split personality? There is another personality in his body, and that personality killed his father."
Number One said: "The director who came to treat you thought you were a person with a split personality, but Jiang Lishan didn't think you were a person with a split personality."
Yuan Cheng had no mother since he was a child, and was beaten by his father for a long time.
Under such circumstances, the original body is indeed prone to schizophrenia, and a separate personality is created to protect him—or bear the pain on his behalf. The character of the object personality is often opposite to the subject personality. If the object personality is violent, it is indeed possible to kill the father in self-defense.
However, the memories between the split personalities of schizophrenia are often not connected. After the original body entered the hospital, no matter what the doctor asked him, he kept silent, and even cut his arm to commit suicide. After Su Jinzhi arrived, he completely lost his previous memories. , so the director thinks that Su Jinzhi is one of the split object personalities, so he has no memory of the past.
But Jiang Lishan believes that Su Jinzhi just suffered amnesia after being stimulated, not a split personality. Because if it is a split personality, there must be a transition point between personalities, but so far no doctor has found that Su Jinzhi has a personality transition, nor can he find a personality transition point.
Of course, the biggest loophole is that the original body has no ability to kill his father. It takes a lot of strength to completely cut off the head of a grown man. The original body has been abused for a long time and his body is weak. He is unable to do this. .
Su Jinzhi felt that the biggest suspect was the original body after hearing No. 1's words: "He is just weak, not disabled, so he might not be able to kill people, right? Haven't you seen more details?"
"That's just your medical record, not your criminal record." No. 1 was speechless, "The record must not be that detailed."
Su Jinzhi said: "You said Jiang Lishan didn't think I was a murderer or a person with schizophrenia, right?"
"Um."
"Is this his fixed cognition?" Su Jinzhi recalled what No. 1 said, to make Jiang Lishan realize that this is not the real world, he had to break his fixed cognition, "Then I just need to prove that I am a murderer, or a personality Isn't it okay for schizophrenic patients?"
"That's right, but how do you prove it?" Number One asked him, "Pretend you are a schizophrenia patient, or kill someone with your own hands? In the latter case, I can ask Number Zero to help you."
Hearing No. 1 say this, Su Jinzhi immediately remembered the way No. 0 in the world stabbed him with a knife, and after a moment of silence, he said: "This is a bad idea. After all, it's killing someone. Don't you feel any psychological burden? "
Number one said: "This is a virtual world, will you feel a psychological burden if you play a game and kill a monster?"
"But this world is too real..." Su Jinzhi sighed, "It's so real that you can't judge whether it's fake or not."
Number One didn't speak any more.
Su Jinzhi said: "I'd better pretend to have a split personality, number one, do you have any good suggestions?"
"No, I have never had a split personality." Number One reminded him, "But you can find another person."
Su Jinzhi immediately realized who Number One was referring to: "You mean Ai Shuai?"
"Um."
Su Jinzhi thinks about it, regardless of whether Ai Shuai is really split personality or not, imitating him is a good choice, after all, even Jiang Lishan can't tell whether he is really a split personality disorder or not.
"But Jiang Lishan doesn't allow me to get too close to Ai Shuai." Now he stays with Jiang Lishan every day, and has no chance to get in touch with Ai Shuai at all.
"I think you shouldn't listen to Jiang Lishan like that, you should resist him." No. 1's voice was a little cold, "Just like I reminded you not to fall in love with him and indulge in these illusory worlds, your lives here The more beautiful and stable you are, the more you want to stay in this world forever, even if you die.”
Su Jinzhi couldn't refute, after all, he had such an idea more than once.
"I will find a way to find Ai Shuai."
One said, "You have to hurry up, we don't have much time."
"I see."
Su Jinzhi responded, frowning and thinking carefully about how to get close to Ai Shuai. He knew that one day, he should have a good relationship with Ai Shuai.
His mind was full of messy thoughts, and he didn't even notice that there was a person sitting beside him. It was Jiang Lishan who stroked his hair, and Su Jinzhi came back to his senses.
"What are you thinking about?" Jiang Lishan asked, shaking his palm in front of him.
"Ah?" Su Jinzhi blinked, staring at Jiang Lishan in a daze.
Jiang Lishan pointed to the book in his hand: "You've been reading this page for almost fifteen minutes."
Although Jiang Lishan was doing his own thing just now, he still divided his attention to the young man on the small sofa. As a result, he found that after the young man took the book in his hand, his eyes kept staring at the opened page Look, even if young people read books very slowly, it's not like they haven't flipped through them for more than ten minutes.
What's more, Jiang Lishan noticed that the focus of his eyes was not on the words at all, but fixed on a certain place in the air.
Jiang Lishan would never have guessed that Su Jinzhi was talking to No. 1 at that time, and of course Su Jinzhi would not tell him unless he wanted to "make his illness worse".
"I..." Su Jinzhi paused, and then said, "I'm thinking about Ai Shuai."
As soon as Jiang Lishan heard the name, he immediately frowned slightly, and asked him, "Why are you thinking of him?" The man's voice was low and gentle, with a sense of guidance, "I told you, He is a dangerous person, Jinzhi still remember?"
As he spoke, Jiang Lishan lightly touched his gauze-wrapped arm, reminding him: "He still hurt you."
Su Jinzhi couldn't think of how to answer the conversation for a while, glanced down, and suddenly said when he saw the dark blue slippers on Jiang Lishan's feet: "But we all wear blue clothes."
Jiang Lishan's eyes froze, but he didn't speak.
Su Jinzhi continued: "Ai Shuai told me that we are good friends who wear the same color clothes."
"No, he's lying to you."
"Then why are he and I the only ones wearing blue clothes?" Su Jinzhi asked him, "Obviously everyone else is wearing light blue clothes."
"Doctor Jiang, Ai Shuai wears blue clothes like me. You say he is a dangerous person. Does that mean that I am also a dangerous person..."
Su Jinzhi felt that he was about to succeed in his sophistry, but Jiang was still old and spicy. Jiang Lishan was worthy of being an expert, so he immediately thought of a reason to refute him, and touched his face with his lips with a smile: "How could it be? Jinzhi Not a dangerous person, of course you and Ai Shuai both wear blue clothes because you are both my patients."
Su Jinzhi: "..."
Reasonable and convincing.
He actually forgot about this, indeed, there are only two patients in Changshan Mental Hospital wearing indigo clothes, they are him and Ai Shuai, and both of them happen to be the patients Jiang Lishan is in charge of.
"Oh..." No. 1 sighed faintly, "It's better to let No. 0 come out and kill people."
"I'm a good citizen." Su Jinzhi was also very worried, "Even if I want to kill, who will I kill? Where did I get the murder weapon? Do I strangle people with my hands? And I want to prove that I am only the murderer of that murder. Just kill anyone." People like Jiang Lishan will only think that my condition is getting worse."
Jiang Lishan regarded him so strictly that he wouldn't even let him touch the razor, let alone let him have a chance to get in touch with a lethal weapon. Even if he wants to prove that he is the murderer of that murder, he must first prove that he has schizophrenia. Otherwise, with his current appearance and temperament, no one will believe that he can kill chickens, let alone kill people.
"Then you should go to Ai Shuai first." No. 1 said, "He must be very willing to see your patient."
Su Jinzhi didn't expect that one day he would be reduced to the point where he would be friends with a mentally ill patient, and he had to prove that he was a murderer.
Jiang Lishan looked at the young man without speaking, stared at him for a while and didn't know why the young man suddenly said that he wanted to visit Ai Shuai, after thinking about it, Jiang Lishan still said: "If you really want to see Ai Shuai, I'll take you there when your wound heals."
"Really?" Su Jinzhi was still worried, but Jiang Lishan thoughtfully gave him a pillow.
"Well, Ai Shuai did something wrong and he has to be punished, so he can't come out for a few days." The man hooked his lips and gently embraced his shoulder, "It will be played again in the courtyard next Sunday." Group movie, both you and him can watch it."
When Jiang Lishan mentioned Su Jinzhi, he remembered that he and Ai Shuai had watched a movie together. At that time, Ai Shuai laughed at the patients in the light blue hospital clothes as idiots.
Ai Shuai's performance at the time made Su Jinzhi feel that he was the idiot, but now, he might have to learn from Ai Shuai and how to be an idiot like him.
Because of the matter of Ai Shuai and No. 1's warning, Su Jinzhi didn't dare to get too close to Jiang Lishan these two days. He wanted to have a loving relationship with Jiang Lishan, but just like No. 1 said Yes, if they get too close, Jiang Lishan may become more immersed in this world.
Su Jinzhi thought he was hiding his emotions well, but he didn't know that Jiang Lishan saw all his anxiety.