After graduating from high school that year, Mu Qin hesitated for a long time with the application form for enlistment.
It's not that he hasn't thought about the possible happiness between him and Zhou Yue. Zhou Yue is a caring person. When he is with him, Mu Qin can experience the best and most irreplaceable time in his life. However, it was precisely because of cherishing this time that Mu Qin finally chose to give up.
He had long seen how huge the gap between himself and Zhou Yue was.
Zhou Yue's Zhou family is the most famous and famous family in that province and city. It is said that the family history can be traced back to the Qianlong period of the Qing Dynasty.
Since the fall of the Qing Dynasty, the Zhou family declined for a period of time due to the turmoil of the war at that time, but later the Zhou family started from scratch, engaged in business and stocks, real estate, and founded a first-class enterprise, which is famous in China and even in the world.
As the only son of the Zhou family's parents, the Zhou family has placed heavy expectations on Zhou Yue. He has to undergo a strict elite education since he was a child, and he needs to learn a lot, such as business and finance, business management, etc., because sooner or later he will Taking over the business of his father's generation, his life was arranged and the road paved from the moment he was born, and he only needs to move forward on this road impartially and keep moving forward.
Piano is just a hobby that Zhou Yue's enlightened parents allow him to learn. No matter how talented Zhou Yue is in music, even if this is Zhou Yue's own dream, in the end, he still can't pursue his favorite music as he likes. Can't be a musician on his stage.
Mu Qin asked Zhou Yue about his plans for the future. He thought that Zhou Yue would rebel against the life arranged by his family, but Zhou Yue shook his head and said, "That's it."
"Don't you think it's a pity?" Mu Qin looked at his beautiful hands in disappointment, "You should stand on the stage, sit by the piano, be illuminated by the spotlight, and win everyone's applause. Isn't this your dream? ?”
But Zhou Yue said: "If it is so easy to realize, it is not a dream. It is also very good for me to take over my father's business. I can make a lot of money, and I can even take you to travel around the world!"
Zhou Yue said that he was very happy, but Mu Qin vaguely saw the gloomy future between himself and Zhou Yue.
He and Zhou Yue have been in a secret relationship for three years, and he has a detailed understanding of Zhou Yue's family background. Zhou Yue's parents are the kind of people who are smooth on the surface but are actually very old-fashioned. You can see that he arranges everything.
Their family has some strange rules. They don't allow Zhou Yue to associate with ordinary classmates at school, saying that Zhou Yue's friends must be the heirs of a big family with status and status.
They don't allow Zhou Yue's grades to be lower than the top ten in the grade, otherwise they will put pressure on him and find various tutoring classes until his grades improve.
They also didn't allow Zhou Yue to fall in love, but let him have more contact with certain socialites.
Mu Qin can fully see that Zhou's parents are actually laying the foundation for Zhou Yue's future path, allowing him to get in touch with some people or things in the society since high school, and form a wide circle of interpersonal contacts. Yue can be an intern in his own company, and his achievements in high school and extensive contacts will allow him to quickly gain a foothold in the company. As soon as he graduates, he will be able to officially take over the company.
So Mu Qin can guess that the shrewd Zhou family's parents will never allow Zhou Yue to go on inexplicable crooked ways, and it is even more ridiculous to be with someone of the same sex. It will only damage Zhou Yue's reputation and make others treat him with respect. Prejudice has become a stain on the path of his life.
Zhou Yue's future must be bright. He will sit on a world-renowned large enterprise, earn money that Mu Qin can't earn in his life, and marry a noble and beautiful rich daughter. children.
This is very good, it is simply the life that many people dream of but can't get.
It's just that Mu Qin, who was young and sensitive at that time, always felt unwilling and sad whenever he expected that Zhou Yue would not have his own existence in Zhou Yue's beautiful life in the future.
He thought about fighting for it. Even though the status and status of the two were very different, Mu Qin felt that his abilities were not bad. No matter what the future holds, as long as Mu Qin is willing to work hard, he may be able to reach the same position as Zhou Yue and stand on the same level. At the same height, he will always get everything he wants.
But Mu Qin was scared.
He was poor and white at the time, and the old uncle squandered all the money in the family, and even secretly sold the house behind Mu Qin's back. Zhou Yue goes to the same university, but if Zhou Yue is asked to help, Mu Qin is very worried that if Zhou Yue pays double tuition, his family will be suspicious.
So at that stage, Mu Qin was always afraid, and he couldn't help thinking because he was fragile... What should I do if I fail in the end
If he couldn't be with Zhou Yue, if they separated, if all his efforts were in vain, would he just watch Zhou Yue and himself drift away and forget each other in the rivers and lakes
Mu Qin has always been alone, with no father, no mother, no one to take care of, no relatives and no friends. The young and immature Mu Qin puts all his feelings on Zhou Yue. The existence of Zhou Yue is the result of Mu Qin's hard work. Motivation to go down.
If you can't get it, it's better not to have it in the first place.
So Mu Qin left.
Although such a decision was made, thinking about it now, Mu Qin felt that the original decision was hasty, wrong and quite cowardly, and it was a stupid decision. Mu Qin has always regretted this for many years. He should not have left without saying goodbye like that, at least he should have said something to Zhou Yue.
But he just left the world where Zhou Yue existed.
Mu Qin could almost imagine how sad Zhou Yue should be. Contrary to the perfect maturity pretended on the surface, Zhou Yue is actually as fragile as Mu Qin. During the time with Mu Qin, Zhou Yue liked to act like a baby to Mu Qin the most.
From childhood to adulthood, Zhou Yue basically had no room for acting like a baby. The strict family education and heavy studies of his parents forced Zhou Yue to mature prematurely. He once told Mu Qin that when he was a child, he saw other people's children acting like a baby with their parents. Sticky together, very envious in my heart. However, whenever he wanted to act like a baby or get close to his parents, the indifferent and tough attitude of his parents always made him unable to hide in his room and cry.
So after having Mu Qin, Zhou Yue is very clingy, as long as there is a chance, Zhou Yue will rush to hug Mu Qin and bury her face in Mu Qin's neck. He will find every opportunity to get close to Mu Qin, hug Mu Qin's waist, kiss Mu Qin's cheeks, lips and eyes. Once Mu Qin gets annoyed with him and waves him away, Zhou Yue will move He stared at Mu Qin with an expression of grievance, until Mu Qin softened and beckoned him back.
Zhou Yue's clingy attitude was restrained at the beginning, but it became more and more intense as time went by. In the last year of senior year, Zhou Yue would talk to Mu Qin's cell phone almost as long as he didn't see him for a moment. Carried out indiscriminate bombardment, filling Mnuchin's mobile phone memory with various incoming calls and messages.
Mu Qin was actually a bit reluctant to delete every text message Zhou Yue sent.
That Zhou Yue who was infinitely gentle and beautiful in memory, that Zhou Yue that Mu Qin never forgot but dared not look for until now.
Now it appeared in front of Mu Qin's eyes, covered in blood and dilapidated.
He should be a nobleman living a luxurious life, enjoying the process of being surrounded by people, his path is bright and wide, so he should not appear here, this orphanage full of killing and darkness, this place should not be Zhou Yue where it should be.
"Why are you here?" That's why Mu Qin felt very puzzled, "You shouldn't be here."
Zhou Yue, who had been silent all this time, finally broke the silence. He spoke, his voice was very low and hoarse, probably because he was stabbed in the neck. His voice was not very pleasant, but Mu Qin could still hear the familiar voice. voice... After such a long absence, he finally heard Zhou Yue speaking to him again.
Zhou Yue said, "I'm dead, so I'm here."
"Impossible!" Mu Qin couldn't believe it. He stared at the man in front of him, "Why did you die? How could you die!"
"Death will come at any time, today, tomorrow, or even now." Zhou Yue said hoarsely, and took back the hand on Mu Qin's belly as he spoke, and seemed to be a little reluctant at the end, so he half-kneeled on Mu Qin's stomach. He put his hand on Mu Qin's thigh and raised his head to look into Mu Qin's eyes. His movements were like a knight swearing an oath to the princess in front of the temple.
Mu Qin looked at him, then froze, feeling a sudden unspeakable sadness in his heart, Mu Qin realized that if Zhou Yue really died, then think carefully, the farewell ten years ago... was actually a farewell.
If they don't meet again in this game.
Mu Qin felt a faint dull pain in his chest and heart, which was subtle and long-lasting. The pain made Mu Qin a little breathless. He couldn't help the pain and asked Zhou Yue: "How did you die?"
Zhou Yue didn't answer immediately, but after a long silence, he raised his head and smiled at Mu Qin, but the bandages on his face made his smile not obvious at all, and he said to Mu Qin: "Before... the day you disappeared For a while, I was in a hurry, and I looked for you everywhere."
Hearing this, Mu Qin opened his mouth and stopped talking. He wanted to apologize to Zhou Yue. Zhou Yue must have been very sad when he left without saying goodbye.
But Zhou Yue was still very skillful in grasping Mu Qin's thoughts as before, Zhou Yue shook her head slightly to him: "I know you want to apologize, but you don't need to."
"On the contrary, I should be the one who apologized... In fact, I was very aware of the tremendous pressure you were under at the time. Your family situation is not good, the economy is so tight, and the gap between you and me makes you feel hopeless. I know you I may want to give up, and your departure is also within my expectation."
Zhou Yue continued: "But I was too confident at the time, thinking that I could get you back."
"To be honest, when I found out that you applied for enlistment and went to the provincial army, I was very happy, because I have always wanted to find an opportunity to get rid of the control of my parents. Enlisting in the army is an excellent reason. So I also proposed to my parents that I I wanted to go to the army for two years, but my parents didn't agree to it at first, but I said that for my future, training in the army will make me stronger. My parents thought it made sense, so they agreed."
Hearing what Zhou Yue said, Mu Qin looked at Zhou Yue with wide eyes in surprise: "But I haven't seen you in the army."
"Of course I haven't. Originally, I really wanted to join the same company as you, and I specially asked a superior officer to help me bridge the gap, but something went wrong in the middle. It seems that my father intervened, so I was sent to the A more advanced troop training base."
"I stayed there for two years. You know... a place like the army, if you enter it, you are a member of the country. Unless you retire, you don't want to come out easily. I was trapped there very anxious, and I was anxious to find it every day. You, but there is a lot of training waiting for me every day. At that time, the instructor told me that I can only approve the vacation after completing the training, so I train very hard... "
"So your hands became like this?" Mu Qin regretted, and looked at Zhou Yue's hands with distress. They were no longer the hands that could play the piano beautifully in memory.
"It's okay." Zhou Yue saw that Mu Qin was sad for him, and comforted Mu Qin instead. He couldn't help it, and reached out to touch Mu Qin's cheek cautiously, "My hands are strong, and I don't want to talk about it anymore. Can't play the piano either."
After finishing speaking, Zhou Yue looked at Mu Qin obsessively with his only right eye, "Mu Qin, you are still as good-looking as before."