In the sixth year of Pyeongchang, on September 18, there were no clouds in the sky and the weather was fine.
Gu Hongjian yawned lazily, floated behind Lin Size, and followed into Zuofu.
Today is Zuo Ningyan's death anniversary. It has been eight years since her death. Eight years ago, Gu Hongjian also came to Zuo Mansion.
Compared with the old days, the Zuo Mansion is not much different. After jumping through the HTC's low-key and simple door, stepping through the front yard, passing through the Chaoshou veranda, and all the way to the lobby, there are flowers and willows. The entire Zuo Mansion is not too luxurious, but it is very simple and elegant, just like the palace owner Zuo Xiang.
Eight years ago, Gu Hongjian went through all of this and arrived at Zuo Ningyan's room. She was waiting for the wedding party in the room. Gu Hongjian should have taken this opportunity to take her away, but she didn't.
Near there, she hesitated for a long time until Xi Po entered, and then rushed out in a panic.
Now the room that belonged to Zuo Ningyan was empty, but it was probably still being cleaned by someone. From the outside, it looked as clean as ever.
Lin Size only brought two bodyguards and three or two secret guards, and walked around Zuo Ningyan's room in a very low-key manner under the leadership of Zuo Ninghao.
Zuo Ninghao said, "Is the emperor still not going in?"
"No." Lin Size shook his head.
Zuo Ninghao didn't say anything, just nodded, and went to the ancestral hall with Lin Size. The tablets of unmarried women who died early were not allowed to be placed in the ancestral hall. The latest tablet is Zuo Ningyan's.
Gu Hongjian followed and floated into the ancestral hall, but everything in the ancestral hall showed that the Zuo family had already worshipped Zuo Ningyan in the morning, and now there was no one else except the two servants.
Seeing Zuo Ninghao, the two servants saluted and called him, and glanced at Lin Size a little puzzled, but they didn't dare to ask any further questions.
Lin Size held the incense, closed his eyes, and bowed to Zuo Ningyan three times, and then the servant took the incense and inserted it for him.
Gu Hongjian watched silently, thinking, when Lin Size worships her in the future, will she also look so sad and pious
No, he might not even bother to worship her.
Lin Size looked at Zuo Ningyan's tablet, his eyes were as gentle as water, but as deep as ink, thousands of emotions seemed to be in his eyes.
It was a look that never belonged to her, but it made her indulge in it.
It was already September 18, and in about three or four days, the news of her death would come.
In fact, Gu Hongjian could also think of it, Lin Size probably got nowhere to be sad. He told her to go to Huzhou and made it clear that he wanted her to die.
He knew what happened back then, and knew that Zuo Ningyan's death had a lot to do with her, so he asked her to pay for her life.
But Lin Size couldn't do it himself, so he sent her to Huzhou.
All of this started from September 18, Wanshun's 41st year, eight years ago.
That day, when Lin Size received the news of Zuo Ningyan's death in the palace, he was only slightly shocked. After that, he thought that something had happened, so Gu Hongjian took Zuo Ningyan away with a plan, and arranged a suspended animation by the way.
However, what he waited for was only Gu Hongjian alone.
Lin Size still didn't give up and said, "Where's Zuo Ningyan?"
Gu Hongjian was silent, lowered her head, and said slowly after a while, "I'm sorry."
"... What are you doing when you tell me I'm sorry." Lin Size said, "Where's Zuo Ningyan?"
"She's dead, haven't you heard the news?" Gu Hongjian said softly, "I didn't take her away, she's dead."
Lin Size has been able to suppress his emotions since then. He was expressionless, only closed his eyes slightly, and then said, "Did you miss? Or is it too late?"
In fact, as long as Gu Hongjian said something at this time, there was an accident on the road, and it was too late when she arrived.
Whether Lin Size believed it or not, he would not say anything more.
But when she looked at Lin Size's expression, she felt very tired, so she said, "No, I went outside her room very early and hid on the eaves, but I was thinking about whether to leave her alone until she was about to get married. I didn't even know what to do... Then she killed herself."
Lin Si Ze was shocked and said in pain, "Why do you hesitate?! You, you..."
Gu Hongjian said: "But I didn't know she would commit suicide!!! I was on the eaves and I heard her talking to Zuo Xiang, Zuo Xiang said that she wronged you, and she responded. Then Zuo Xiang left. Well... I thought it was all right!"
Lin Size didn't look at her, but said, "Why. I'm just asking you, why are you hesitating? As soon as the Minister left, you should take her away immediately!"
Gu Hongjian pursed her lips and said, "Because you want to be emperor."
Lin Size did not answer.
Gu Hongjian continued: "Yao Taishi and the eldest prince are one body, but now that Yao Taishi has forced Zuo Xiang's daughter to death, the two officially broke up - I was worried before that their marriage meant that Zuo Xiang wanted to support the eldest prince, but Now that this is the case, Prime Minister Zuo will only support you. What's more, the death of Zuo Ningyan will make Prime Minister Zuo and the eldest prince enmity. He only needs to mention this to the emperor, and the emperor will dislike the eldest prince even more. …“
"To shut up."
Lin Size suddenly said.
Gu Hongjian was stunned for a while, and really stopped talking.
"Gu Hongjian, how can you do this." Lin Size almost gritted his teeth and looked at Gu Hongjian and said these words, "How can you..."
Gu Hongjian's eyes were red: "What did I do? I didn't do anything, didn't I? Where did I say wrong?! It's the Zuo family who wants to marry their daughter!!! The Zuo Xiang has such a good reputation in the court, I still don't agree. To let Zuo Ningyan marry Yao Tianao?! Lin Size, what do you mean by looking at me like this? I tell you, it's not me who killed Zuo Ningyan! It's Yao Tianao, the Zuo family! You can hate everyone , but why are you looking at me like this?!"
Lin Size said, "But you could have saved her!"
Gu Hong said: "Why should I save her?! After saving her, you offended the Zuo family, the Yao family and the eldest prince at the same time, how are you going to hide it?! How are you going to get to the position you want to be in!? Didn't you say you want to climb to the top, and then protect the person you want to protect?! You are still a few steps away, but you have to give up, what do you mean?!"
"The person I want to protect is Zuo Ningyan!" Lin Size also growled, his eyes were a little red, but he couldn't tell if it was sadness, anger, or both.
Gu Hongjian was stunned.
She looked at Lin Size and suddenly felt that she didn't know him.
That year when the winter solstice snowed, he and she slept in the desolate Baifu Hall.
"Protect the person I want to protect - Hong Jian, when the time comes, I will definitely protect you."
She didn't care when she listened to this sentence as light as snow, but she had memorized it for so long, but he said that the person he wanted to protect was Zuo Ningyan.
He has forgotten what he said.
She was obsessed with it, he forgot.
Gu Hong saw that her tears burst in an instant. She hated Lin Size thoroughly, but she also felt that she was very funny and pitiful, but she didn't want Lin Size to see her crying, so she silently lowered her head and wiped away her tears before looking back at Lin Size, said: "Lin Size, you want to protect Zuo Ningyan, but can you do it? Who told me that you can protect like this now, the road is full of thorns? Why did you take the initiative to let me kill the second prince, and now I You just came to teach me a lesson instead of saving Zuo Ningyan?!"
Lin Si Ze was stunned for a moment, and then said, "Zuo Ningyan is different. She is innocent. She should not have been involved in this muddy water."
Gu Hong said, "What about me? I deserve it, right? Just because I was sold into the palace by a trafficker, and I met Mr. Meng, I deserved to practice martial arts all the way to grow up and kill people, right? Well... also That's right, I really deserve it. At the beginning, I promised Mr. Meng that I wanted to become very powerful and to assist you, so it's natural for me to do anything for you, right. And I didn't do as you asked. To do it is a heinous crime, right?"
Lin Size said, "Gu Hongjian, I didn't mean that! Forget it, I don't want to discuss this with you now, you should leave first, I don't want to see you now."
"Do you think I'm disgusting and shameless now?" Gu Hongjian said softly.
Lin Size ignored her, almost tacitly.
Gu Hongjian laughed miserably and said, "Lin Size... You only have Zuo Ningyan in your eyes... You can't see anyone else at all. I've been by your side for so many years, why did you take a serious look at me?!"
As if finally hearing something unusual, Lin Size glanced at Gu Hongjian in shock.
Gu Hong saw Lin Size approaching step by step, and said, "If you really look at me, you will know why I am willing to follow you, and you will know why I am so sad when you say that you like Zuo Ningyan... Lin Size, you I only have Zuo Ningyan in my eyes, and I only have you in my eyes."
Lin Si Ze looked at Gu Hongjian in disbelief, and was even forced to take two steps back by her.
Gu Hongjian closed her eyes, but still couldn't hold back her tears and said, "If I don't say it, you probably won't find out for the rest of your life. I've always thought that we are just good friends, good buddies, and good rulers and ministers in the future. But I'm not reconciled... why... why?"
Lin Size looked at the line of tears she left, and was slightly lost. This was the first time Lin Size saw her cry, the first time she saw such a sad expression, as if an invisible hand gently squeezed Lin Size's heart.
"Gu Hongjian..." Lin Size finally spoke, frowning, "You..."
Before he could finish speaking, Gu Hongjian wiped away her tears and kissed Lin Size on the lips.
Lin Size's eyes widened.
Gu Hongjian didn't know how to kiss someone at all, so she just kissed recklessly and didn't know what to do anymore. Her heart was full of love and hatred for Lin Size, and she just nibbled hard with her teeth. He took a bite of Lin Si Ze's lips and pushed him away until he felt the smell of blood.
Lin Size was sluggish from start to finish, neither resisting nor responding.
Gu Hongjian looked at him, her eyes still had a trace of water vapor, she said decisively: "I'm done, what you think is your business, think I'm jealous of Zuo Ningyan and don't save her, think I'm just delusional... I'm gone, you don't have to see me again."
This is the first time she has shown her intentions, and it is also the first time she has kissed her beloved. It should have been a beautiful and shy scene, but unfortunately the current situation is completely wrong. She couldn't even say a complete and exact "I like you".
This is the worst time. Her words will only make Lin Size feel that she is watching Zuo Ningyan die on purpose.
And when Gu Hong sees it like this, she is completely in the mood to break the jar - anyway, it's already like this, where can it go wrong
All the beauty that should be there is gone, and there is only endless sadness and absurdity.
Gu Hongjian wiped away her tears, turned to open the door, and strode away. Lin Size took two steps forward to chase after her, but stopped at the door, reached out to touch the wound on her lips, and then punched angrily. Hammer on the door.
In fact, Lin Size was also a little at a loss.
Seeing Gu Hongjian crying, hearing Gu Hongjian's confession that he never expected, and biting his lip by her, he was so distressed that he just wanted to reach out and hug Gu Hongjian, as if he was a child without any suspicion or gap. coax her.
His eyes were red, not because of Zuo Ningyan, but because of Gu Hongjian.
Even at a certain moment, he actually forgot Zuo Ningyan's death.