Unrepentant

Chapter 20

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The estrangement between Gu Hongjian and Lin Size disappeared just like that because of a drunken session.

When Gu Hongjian woke up, she found herself in Lin Size's palm palace.

Lin Size was already awake and was looking at her with soft eyes.

Although Gu Hongjian still had a shocking secret in her heart that made her feel at a loss as long as she thought about it, but at this moment, Lin Size just gave her a light kiss, and Gu Hongjian decided to "let it go" first.

She was going to walk the next road blindfolded.

Gu Hongjian rarely showed a shy attitude of the youngest daughter's family, wrapping herself tightly with the quilt, not allowing him to mention anything about last night, and urging Lin Size to wash up first, and wait until Lin Size is done. Yes, just to take a bath.

Seeing Jiang Haifu, Gu Hongjian was very embarrassed, but Jiang Haifu didn't realize it. He only knew that the two of them were successful. He looked at Gu Hongjian very happily, with the words beaming almost written on his face.

Gu Hongjian was rather unhappy, and said, "What are you looking at!"

Jiang Haifu: "Uh... Congratulations to Mr. Gu."

Gu Hongjian widened her eyes, her ears slightly red, and said, "Congratulations! What nonsense..."

Jiang Haifu said: "Ah? But, you and the emperor... Speaking of which, what should I call you when you are young? Chief Gu

Lin Size just came in, heard Jiang Haifu's question, and smiled slightly: "It's a good question."

"..." Gu Hongjian glanced at Lin Size uncomfortably, and said, "Why are you back? Today is not a day off..."

She thought that Lin Size was going to court, so she slowly got up.

When Jiang Haifu came just now, she still had some doubts - why Lin Size went to Zaochao, and Jiang Haifu was still here

Turns out he didn't leave.

Lin Size said, "I won't go today."

Gu Hongjian didn't think there was any problem, she just said "oh", then pretended to calmly attack Jiang Haifu: "Shut up you."

Lin Size stood on Jiang Haifu's side: "He was right in what he asked. Which name do you think you want?"

It's up to her to make her own choice.

Gu Hongjian was stunned for a moment, then calmly said, "Let's call Master Gu as usual."

"... Ah?" Jiang Haifu was stunned.

Lin Size said lightly, "You go down first."

Jiang Haifu knew that the two were going to quarrel again, so he wiped his sweat and withdrew in response.

Lin Size said quietly, "Why?"

"Ah? What and why?" Gu Hongjian pretended to be stupid.

Lin Size said, "Enter the harem and become a queen."

Although Gu Hongjian knew that Lin Size wanted her to be in the harem, he didn't expect that he would say that he wanted to be the queen, so she was slightly stunned, and subconsciously repeated, "Queen?"

"Otherwise?" Lin Size glanced at her, "I said that I want you to always stand by my side. Although I didn't expect that when I said this back then, it would have such a meaning. But now, the Queen's position, Except for you, I don't do what he thinks."

Gu Hongjian had to admit that she was deeply moved, but she still shook her head and said, "Forget it. What the Queen wants is the mother-in-the-world. Do you think I am suitable?"

"Appropriate." Lin Size said calmly.

Gu Hongjian: "..."

What a shame he said it.

Gu Hongjian felt a little helpless and said, "No... I don't want to enter the harem."

"Why?" Although Lin Size was a little unhappy, he still asked patiently.

Gu Hongjian wanted to tell the real reason, but he held back and said, "No matter what I think, I'm not suitable for staying in the harem, obediently being your concubine... or even the queen? You know my character. ,I do not like that."

"There will only be you in the harem, you can do whatever you want, it won't be any different from before." Lin Size said.

Gu Hongjian looked at Lin Size, the more he felt happy for his words, the more painful he felt in his heart.

She pursed her lips and said, "But I don't like that either. I'm in the former court, at least there are still many things to do, in the harem I can only be in a daze. You don't have to say anything, I can still do what I want. things, you know they can't really be exactly the same."

Lin Si Ze was silent for a moment, then said, "This reason is too far-fetched, I don't agree."

Gu Hong said: "Zuo Ningyan."

These three words are really useful. As soon as she finished speaking, Lin Size's expression changed slightly, and then he said, "What?"

"She was supposed to be the queen in your heart, right?" Gu Hongjian looked at him and said, "It's just that she died, so I can occupy her place, right? But unfortunately, I don't want this."

Lin Size said with a dark face, "Why did you mention her? As I said, that matter has passed. Now it's your decision, and it has nothing to do with her."

Gu Hong said: "Then let me ask you, if she doesn't die and wants to marry you, what are you going to do? Who do you want to give the position of Empress?"

"..." Lin Size remained silent.

Silence is still the best answer that won't lie.

Gu Hong smiled when she saw it, and said, "I said it. You don't have to feel guilty about me, this is my choice... Maybe I can't win her in my life, and I don't want to fight with her for anything. It's just you, You have to see yourself clearly. You are pulling me into the harem now and treating me with a feeling that I don't know how to describe, what's the point of that? Lin Size, let's all be sober."

Lin Size looked at her quietly.

At this moment, Gu Hongjian vividly demonstrated what is meant by "forced smiles".

However, Lin Size finally nodded.

"Okay, I respect your decision." Lin Size said, "If your thoughts change, let me know at any time."

Gu Hongjian nodded silently.

Although the relationship between the two of them has not changed on the surface due to Gu Hongjian's "uncomfortable" relationship, in essence, they have become husband and wife. The relationship between the two has remained ambiguous and stable.

Every day, Gu Hongjian went to court as usual, but after that, she would always use an excuse to report something to go to Lin Size's study. While responding to the memorial, he occasionally called her to ask her for her opinion directly.

The two seem to have returned to many years ago, the atmosphere is harmonious and pleasant, with a sweet tacit understanding.

Including the fact that Gu Hongjian moved into Zhaohong Hall later, with Xiangjun as a small attendant... Probably because the process was easy and sweet, for Gu Hongjian, it seemed to be over in the blink of an eye.

Naturally, the minister suggested that Lin Size should accept the concubine. Lin Size refused on the grounds that the late emperor had passed away for less than three years. Seeing that one day he remembered this, Gu Hong asked him if three years had passed and he had been in Pingchang for three years. What will Lin Size do

Lin Size just smiled slightly, and did not give Gu Hongjian a satisfactory answer.

But when he actually arrived in Pingchang for three years, Lin Size used that painting to give Gu Hongjian an answer.

It was a scene that Gu Hongjian, who has now turned into a ghost, remembers it, and feels sweet. However, just like the painting was thrown into the brazier by Lin Size and burned to ashes, the three years from the autumn of the second year of Pyeongchang The sweet time, five years in Pyeongchang, was completely destroyed.

On that day, Gu Hongjian stayed at Zhaohong Hall for one night as usual, and on that day, he enjoyed a rare rest and slept in bed.

Lin Size left early in the morning, Gu Hongjian just thought he had something to do and didn't think much about it. It was Jiang Haifu who asked Xiangjun to inform him and called Gu Hongjian to get up. Gu Hongjian was stunned to learn that Lin Sizezhi So he left in such a hurry because Yao Tianao was caught.

The Yao Tianao, who had disappeared for many years, escaped when the Yao family was destroyed and ransacked by the nine clans, and was quickly captured.

Although Jiang Haifu doesn't know much about his previous relationship, he also knows Zuo Ningyan and her position in Lin Size's heart, but Gu Hongjian, the three-footed man known as "three feet from the sky" in front of him, can't match. of.

Therefore, Jiang Haifu was a little worried about whether the emperor would be unable to control his emotions and do things out of control. He was also afraid that the appearance of Yao Tianao would have a bad impact on the relationship between Lin Size and Gu Hongjian, so after thinking about it, he decided to come to find him. See Gu Hong.

When Gu Hongjian learned that Yao Tianao was arrested, he was stunned, his body trembled slightly, and then he said: "When was he arrested? Where is he now? How long has the emperor been gone? Tell me quickly!"

"Tell you? Then what are you going to do, kill him?!" Lin Size appeared at the door at an unknown time, his face extremely ugly.

Gu Hongjian's eyes widened, she turned around slowly, and looked at Lin Size.

The expression on his face was colder than ever, and there was even a very obvious disgust and hatred in his eyes, as well as sadness.

The last time I was stared at by such eyes was many years ago, when Lin Size first learned of Zuo Ningyan's death.

And this time, the look in his eyes made Gu Hongjian feel more desperate than the last time.

Because she clearly saw the extreme disappointment in Lin Size's eyes.

He already knew, he knew everything.

Why Yao Tianao suddenly fell in love with Zuo Ningyan back then, because she didn't marry.

Why did Gu Hongjian suddenly disappear for more than a year

Why did Gu Hongjian get along so well with Lin Size after he came back, but he still refused to enter the harem

Why does she always seem to have her own secrets, always insist on not enjoying herself, and always looking for someone.

There are still many questions, the real reasons behind those, Lin Size already knows clearly.

"If it wasn't for Zuo Ninghao grabbing Yao Tianao, I would have been hiding from you by now." Lin Size approached step by step.

Then he stopped and let Xiang Jun and Jiang Haifu retreat with only a trace of reason.

Xiang Jun was loyal and loyal, seeing the atmosphere between the two, he was a little reluctant to leave at the moment, only said: "Master Gu..."

Gu Hongjian shook his head: "The emperor asked you to go out, you go out."

Jiang Haifu hurriedly pulled Xiang Jun to step back. The weather inside Zhaohong Hall was different from that outside, but it was always warm. However, Gu Hongjian looked at Lin Size who was approaching him step by step, but he felt cold all over.

"It's actually you." Lin Size said word by word, "I gave Yao Tianao the portrait of Zuo Ningyan, and asked him to come out so that he could see Zuo Ningyan who was passing by. Since then, he fell in love with Zuo Ningyan at first sight... It's actually you. , you actually did that."

Lin Size rarely used a few surprises, which showed that he was indeed shocked.

Gu Hongjian could only pretend to be calm and said, "Yao Tianao said that? He doesn't know me at all... How do you know that he is talking about me, and how do you know that he didn't lie?"

"You still want to deny it?!" Lin Size was even more angry, and even swept off a set of Ru kiln tea sets on the table with his sleeves.

It was a tribute, and it should have been placed in a more important place, but Gu Hongjian saw it by chance, and said that he liked it, and Lin Size had someone send it over as the most common tea set for her.

And now, Lin Size ruthlessly smashed the ground.

"Yao Tianao really didn't know who you were originally, but it was precisely because he didn't know you that when he was just caught by Zuo Ninghao, he said that everything was designed by me." Lin Size said, "Your first When I showed him a portrait once, because there was no one else to help you, so you went by yourself, right? He remembered your appearance. Later, Zuo Ningyan... hanged herself, and he was taken into the palace by his father. Sorry, I happened to see you. After I asked, I found out that you are my personal maid. From that time on, he thought that everything was my idea, and that I planned it so that the Yao family and the Zuo family turned against each other!"

Gu Hongjian did not speak.

"You refute, you continue to refute." Lin Size gritted his teeth and said, "Either you go to the Heavenly Prison with me now, and let Yao Tianao see if you are the same person back then!"

Gu Hong said: "So you haven't given up looking for Yao Tianao for so many years."

Lin Size said, "You never gave up, how could I give up? I thought you kept asking for him because you felt guilty and wanted to take revenge for Zuo Ningyan, so you kept going. Unexpectedly... Ha."

"But you didn't trust me completely, otherwise, you wouldn't secretly send Zuo Ninghao to find Yao Tianao..." Gu Hongjian said in a low voice.

"I don't trust you?!" Lin Size seemed to have heard a big joke and said, "You also know that you are too domineering and have no good ministers in the court. Zuo Ninghao also dislikes you—of course, he Your surname is Zuo, and you don't like him. So I didn't tell him that you were looking for Yao Tianao. Anyway, you wouldn't cooperate. He was looking for the enemy who killed his sister, so I'll just follow him. Now, Gu Hongjian, you lied to me and lied to me for so many years, yet you still blame me for not trusting you enough?!”

Gu Hongjian lowered her head and said for a long time, "Yes, it's me. Back then, Yao Tianao's love for Zuo Ningyan was indeed caused by me..."

Lin Size took a deep breath and clenched his fists.

Gu Hongjian said in a low voice, "This is the only way I could think of at the time to get the Zuo family not to join the prince's side. I know what you want to say, you don't have to speak. I admit that this plan also has my selfishness in it. ... However, I want to say two things. First, I really didn't expect the Zuo family to agree to this marriage. In my imagination, the Zuo family should not agree, and the Yao family was unhappy because of this, and the two families turned against each other. Second, after the Zuo family agreed, I was shocked, but it was irreversible, and I never thought that Zuo Ningyan would hang herself..."

Lin Size said: "You don't know? How could you not know. Zuo Ninghao's illness requires Tianshan Snow Lotus, do you really not know? Before showing Yao Tianao's portrait of Zuo Ningyan, I didn't know you had gone. How many times have you passed the Zuo family and the Yao family, do you really not know about such an important matter?!"

Gu Hongjian looked at him and said, "I swear I really don't know! I swear!"

"Does your oath make any sense?" Lin Size sneered, "Gu Hongjian, I really can't trust you anymore."

Gu Hongjian pursed her lips tightly and said, "I really... don't know."

"After so many years, from the moment Zuo Ningyan died, you have had countless opportunities to tell me about this. But you kept it from me until today." Lin Size shook his head, "Gu Hongjian, you It's really terrifying. How many things do you have to hide from me, and how long can you hide from me?"

"I swear, this is the last one." Gu Hongjian almost begged, "Lin Size, can you trust me again? I won't say it, I just don't dare to say it, I know you will definitely misunderstand... So I …”

"You refused to enter the harem because you were afraid that one day I would find out about it, right? You want to be a courtier and still have a way out for yourself, right? You keep doing things for me just to make me feel that I Without you, right? If it was just a concubine, I wouldn't have made me feel like this—you think so, don't you?" Lin Size said coldly, "Gu Hongjian, you always say I'm plotting against you. , but in fact, who is calculating who."

"I didn't plot against you..." Gu Hongjian explained weakly, "I'm just afraid..."

She was afraid of losing him.

That's all.

However, he was interrupted mercilessly by Lin Size before he could say it, and he said indifferently, "I don't know what you're thinking, or what you've been afraid of all the time. But—Gu Hongjian, what are you doing? Will it be like this?"

Gu Hongjian could never forget Lin Size's tone and demeanor at that time.

Gu Hongjian, how did you become like this

At that moment, even Gu Hongjian felt that she had changed, that she had become heinous and contemptible.

But she quickly came to her senses, looked at Lin Size, and said, "Change? Lin Size, I have never changed. The one who changed is you! Are you still Lin Size who stayed with me in the Baifu Palace?"

Lin Size was not shaken by her accusation, but became more and more indifferent: "Since you are not aware of your fault at all, I don't think there is anything to say between you and I. Before tonight, leave Zhaohong Hall, It's better to leave the capital."

"You asked me to leave the capital?!" Gu Hong looked at Lin Size in disbelief.

"We will walk together in the future, support each other, and always be by each other's side."

This was Lin Size and Gu Hongjian's original thoughts and beliefs.

When the relationship between the two was the worst and Gu Hongjian disappeared, Lin Size never gave up looking for Gu Hongjian.

Gu Hongjian didn't really think about leaving Lin Size either.

But now, what did he say

Let her go, let her go completely.

This time, he was really disappointed, and he really didn't plan to give her any chance, so he wanted to cut off all ties with her.

Probably in Lin Size's heart, it was his kindness to let her go instead of letting her die.

"Yes. The farther you leave the capital, the better." Lin Size said, "In this life, we will never see each other again."

After saying that, he flicked his sleeves and turned to leave.

Gu Hongjian looked at his back and sat beside the bed in despair.

He told her with his back that everything was irreversible.

And "I will never see each other again in this life" was also the last sentence Lin Size said to Gu Hongjian.

After that, Gu Hongjian didn't leave the capital, and stubbornly went to court early, but Lin Size blindly ignored her, and everyone realized that Gu Shilang had begun to fall out of favor.

A few months later, during the Qingming Festival in the sixth year of Pingchang, it was probably the incident of Yao Tianao that reminded Lin Size of Zuo Ningyan. A very similar woman, He Fangning.

Lin Size was extremely surprised. At the same time, he finally accepted the concubine, and all the officials in the court were relieved. Although they all knew more or less about the relationship between Gu Hongjian and the emperor, but because of Gu Hongjian's special status, he always felt this way. People can't be concubines, let alone spread branches and leaves for the royal family, and hinder the emperor from accepting concubines. It's really hateful.

But when Gu Hong saw that the emperor had "fallen out of favor", he accepted a concubine, which further showed that the emperor did not accept a concubine before because of his own tactics, and the ministers were even more guilty and complicated.

After another month or so, Lin Size probably saw that Gu Hongjian refused to leave the capital, so he waved her hand and sent her to Huzhou.

Three months later, Gu Hongjian turned into a desolate soul and returned to the capital.

Whether it's more than ten years of being together, or three years of sweetness, or an overnight confrontation, everything is like a dream.

At the end of the song, the crowd dispersed, but Gu Hongjian still clings to this dream and refuses to wake up.

[twenty two]

Pyeongchang six years, September nineteenth.

Gu Hongjian lightly circled around Lin Size.

Because she was really bored, she recalled everything that happened with Lin Size, and she couldn't help laughing when she thought of the last sentence "I will never see you again in this life".

Because to Lin Size, this sentence is probably a prophecy.

But for her, it didn't count.

There was no news from the front line early in the morning, so Gu Hongjian's news will probably come tomorrow. Gu Hongjian was almost impatient, but he could only suppress the restlessness in his heart.

Zhao Yunyuan was promoted, and no one had any opinions. He was upright and honest. Although he didn't form gangs, he didn't have many enemies. In short, it was ten thousand times better than Gu Hongjian.

Going down to court, Zuo Ninghao walked to Zhao Yunyuan's side, Gu Hong knew that Zuo Ninghao was definitely going to talk about something related to him, so he leaned over to listen, only to hear Zuo Ninghao say: "Brother Zhao, congratulations ."

Zhao Yunyuan smiled politely: "Thank you."

"Actually, when you and Gu Shilang were named champions at the same time, it was unfair to you, and she has developed better than you over the years, which is even more of the emperor's partiality." Zuo Ninghao said, "Fortunately, the emperor has finally figured it out now. "

Zuo Ninghao, this little bitch, really came to speak ill of her...

Gu Hongjian was quite confused.

Zuo Ninghao hated Gu Hongjian so much, not only because he was present during the interrogation of Yao Tianao and knew that his sister's death had something to do with Gu Hongjian, but also because Gu Hongjian and Lin Size completely fell out the next day, Gu Hongjian went up to court as usual, but was stopped by Zuo Ninghao when he went down. Zuo Ninghao was aggressive and wanted to fight her.

Seeing that he was in a low mood, Gu Hong was naturally in no mood to pay attention to him, but seeing that he was desperate, he said coldly, "It seems that you don't know yet, why did your father agree to the Yao family's marriage in the first place."

Zuo Ninghao didn't expect Gu Hongjian to say this, he was stunned and said, "What? Wasn't it because the Yao family was pressing too hard..."

"Heh, with this little brain, you can be the head of the Dali Temple." Gu Hongjian teased unceremoniously, "The Zuo family and the Yao family were equally powerful back then, so there's no such thing as persecution. Have you ever thought that since you were young, your body You, who are not easy to be sick, how come you got better after your sister died?"

Zuo Ninghao looked at Gu Hongjian in disbelief and said, "You are talking nonsense!"

"Heh. You can go back and ask your father who gave the iceberg snow lotus that saved his life back then. What did you get it for?"

Zuo Ninghao actually took two steps back in shock.

Gu Hong saw a cold snort and left, ignoring him.

As for Zuo Ninghao's hatred for Gu Hongjian, after he realized it, he rose a step and reached a new height.

So Zuo Ninghao came to Zhao Yunyuan so naively to say these things, and Gu Hongjian also felt that it was normal.

However, Zhao Yunyuan was as upright as always: "The emperor has his own considerations, and I don't have much opinion."

Zuo Ninghao curled his lips and said, "Well, I also know your personality. However, since you have become a censor, then you must continue to take responsibility for impeaching Gu Hongjian in the future. Gu Hong back then When I saw Sheng Ji, when no one dared to speak of her, only you dared to come forward. Unfortunately, my father was still in the court at that time, and I was not allowed to participate. Now my father cannot go to court due to illness, and I will definitely wish you well. Hand in hand."

Zhao Yunyuan was a little helpless: "If Gu Shilang has something wrong, I will naturally say it. But if she did nothing wrong, how could I impeach her for no reason."

Zuo Ninghao gave an "uh" and said, "Well, I just... say something."

Seeing Zuo Ninghao coldly looking at Gu Hong, she thought to herself, I'm so sorry, you guys don't have a chance!

After running to eavesdrop on the conversation between Zuo Ninghao and Zhao Yunyuan for a while, Gu Hongjian consciously returned to Lin Size's side. Lin Size went to court and went directly to the study to correct the memorial. Gu Hongjian felt bored, but he was very familiar. After all, this is how the two of them got along in the past.

It's just that he can't see her now, and he won't walk over quietly when she's drowsy asleep, cover her with a quilt, and finally carry her back to Zhaohong Hall in person.

Gu Hongjian sat flutteringly by the window and looked at Lin Size, but Lin Size just turned her head and looked at the window, stunned.

Lin Size was rarely in a daze, or at least never in a daze, so at that moment Gu Hongjian thought that Lin Size was looking at him, and was stunned for that.

But soon she was relieved, because Lin Size was only looking in this direction, but his eyes did not meet her own.

Also, how could he suddenly see himself.

Gu Hong felt guilty and floated away from the window.

Lin Size stared at the window for a while, suddenly coughed a few times, took a sip of tea, and silently turned his eyes away, then called Jiang Haifu in.

"Huzhou...cough...Is there any new news?" Lin Size asked.

Jiang Haifu wiped his sweat, why did the emperor keep asking this recently...

But he can only honestly say: "No... If there is any news, Xiao will inform you as soon as possible."

Lin Size probably also realized that he didn't need to ask, and said, "Well."

Then he rubbed his eyebrows - why does he always feel uncomfortable

Obviously the latest news is good news.

However, Jiang Haifu noticed Lin Size's cough and said, "Your Majesty is not feeling well? Or should I call an imperial physician to take a look?"

Lin Size said, "No need."

Gu Hongjian was floating behind him, her mood was a little complicated, this person is really, he was coughing, why didn't he see an imperial doctor.

He clearly sent her away, so why did he keep secretly asking about Huzhou

but…

Gu Hongjian thought that soon, Lin Size would no longer need to ask.

And Gu Hongjian's prediction was correct. The next day, the latest battle report came, Huzhou had been captured, all the soldiers were resting in Huzhou, and Deputy General Wang had started to treat the epidemic in Huzhou.

And Gu Shilang, died in battle.

The messenger said this sentence, all trembling, and the voice did not dare to be too loud, and the court was clearly silent, but because of his words, it was more like a stillness.

Lin Size, who was sitting on the dragon chair, said softly after a while, "What? Say it again."

"Gu, Gu Shilang and the enemy general Baili Cen met head-on, the two fought, Gu Shilang lost, was picked off the horse, and then died..."

The man above didn't speak for a long time.

The messengers and the ministers did not dare to speak, and silently raised their heads to look at the emperor.

However, seeing Lin Size's eyes closed, his head resting slightly on the back of the dragon chair, he actually fainted.

There was a mess of porridge in the hall, and everyone yelled at the emperor and the imperial doctor. In the end, Gu Hongjian just stared at Lin Size, as an emperor, emperor, and big man, he was hugged by his personal guards like this. It's early morning...

Gu Hong wanted to laugh, but couldn't.

She was looking forward to seeing Lin Size's reaction.

Unexpectedly, he just fainted. really...

The few words "Miss Lin" many years ago were really not in vain.

But is he sad

He is sad.

His coma was indeed due to the news of her death, right

Gu Hongjian was actually a little unsure.