Unspeakable

Chapter 21

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Gu Yansheng didn't know what to say.

Is there anyone more stupid than Shen Kanyu in this world? Get a divorce papers as a birthday present.

He hadn't thought about divorce, but thinking of the scene when Shen Kanyu was with Jiang Mo just now, he couldn't help but wonder if it would be better if it was really a divorce.

Shen Kanyu, who had been waiting for his reply, had red eyes, the water in his eyes became brighter and brighter, and the hand holding the divorce agreement trembled more and more.

He moved his body closer to him with difficulty, grabbed his sleeve and shook it lightly twice, choked up and begged: "A Sheng, please talk to me...you can talk to me if you like it, okay?" , You can also scold me. Tonight... I'm leaving tonight, I want to hear more of your voice, I always feel... I haven't seen you for a long time, I won't see you in the future, you and I Let's talk..."

He felt that his vision was becoming more and more blurred, and he couldn't see Gu Yansheng's face clearly, so he raised his arm to wipe his eyes, but Gu Yansheng wiped the wet corners of his eyes before him, and sighed: "I asked for a divorce, why? cry?"

Shen Kanyu was startled, and quickly raised his sleeves and rubbed his eyes vigorously, until the skin almost peeled off, then shook his head desperately, but suddenly choked hard when he wanted to speak, he lowered his head and bit his sleeves as hard as he could Resisting not to make a sound.

All he could think about was that he couldn't cry, that Ah Sheng hated seeing him cry, but he really missed him and couldn't bear him.

He was afraid that he would never see his A Sheng again.

He was afraid that after he was gone, silly A Sheng would not know how to fight back if he was bullied, and no one could protect him.

Su Tong is getting married, Tian Tian is still young, he is afraid that no one will take care of him, he will not be able to eat enough, wear warm clothes and sleep well.

He was so sad that he didn't know what to do. Originally, Ah Sheng could spend a good time with Su Tong and live happily every day, it was all because of him that he became what he is now.

What should he do. There is nothing he can do.

"I'm sorry, Ah Sheng," he kept wiping his eyes, his sleeves were almost soaked, but his tears still couldn't stop, and he was sobbing even after he said a few words, as if he was overwhelmed with sadness when his parents scolded him. Child, "I know that I have done a lot of things wrong and there is no way to make up for it. I won't bother you in the future, okay? Can you be happier. You look so pretty when you smile, but I haven't seen you smile for a long time …”

He was sobbing too much, his voice was very soft, and he spoke intermittently. Gu Yansheng actually couldn't hear all he said clearly. He just looked at his pale face, his eyes and nose were red from crying, and sweet The appearance of crying is exactly the same, and there is an indescribable pity in the bottom of my heart.

He didn't do it lightly or hard, wiped his tears and almost scratched his face, Gu Yansheng didn't dare to wipe him with his own hands, but took out a soft towel from his pocket, and gently covered it On his face, he slowly wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Shen Kanyu's whole body was tense, he sniffed in a daze, and stared at him blankly.

This crying expression also resembled Gu Yutian very much. Gu Yansheng's heart was soft, and he couldn't help but said, "Have you ever cried in front of Tiantian? She cries exactly like you."

"No... I didn't," Shen Kanyu became flustered, choked with sobs and explained with difficulty, "I know you hate me crying, I really changed it, I didn't do it on purpose today, Asheng, please don't be angry, okay, I will... I will never cry again."

"That's not what I meant." Gu Yansheng felt that he might really not know how to joke, and it was only once in a long time that he made Shen Kanyu tremble with fright. I don't know where the daring guy used to be, but now he looks like a frightened bird.

He could only be silent for a moment, and then changed the subject: "Do you like Jiang Mo?"

Shen Kanyu stared at him blankly, as if he didn't understand what he said.

Gu Yansheng asked again: "You want to divorce, is it because of Jiang Mo? You like him, and you can be with him after divorce, is that so?"

Shen Kanyu understood now, and immediately shook his head desperately to deny it, and then whispered with a strong nasal voice: "I only like you..."

Gu Yansheng turned his head away in some embarrassment, coughed dryly, and said slowly after a long silence: "In this case, let's not get a divorce. Let's... let's live a good life and raise Tiantian."

He didn't say such a word, and his whole body was stiff at a loss. In order to ease the embarrassment, he took the divorce agreement and stuffed it directly into the trash can next to it.

"...Eh?" Shen Kanyu blinked his wet milk dog eyes, and looked at Gu Yansheng in a daze, almost suspecting that there was something wrong with his ears, but he was stunned for a few seconds before realizing that Ah Sheng must have been too busy recently. There are many things that need his help, so there is no need to divorce for the time being.

Even so, he still felt very happy, as if a bowl of preserved egg and lean meat porridge fell from the sky. He was afraid that he would not be able to catch it, so he opened his mouth and touched his neck at a loss. Lips smirked at Gu Yansheng: "I'll listen to you, don't leave now! A Sheng, if you need me to do anything, you can tell me, I will definitely help you, anything is fine!"

"...Okay." Gu Yansheng felt that Shen Kanyu didn't seem to understand what he really meant, but he didn't know how to express his thoughts clearly, so he could only nod his head and say yes in a gentle voice.

Shen Kanyu looked at him with a smile, his eyes were curved and bright: "Thank you, A Sheng! Then shall I move out today? I have packed all my things and can move out anytime!"

Gu Yansheng was speechless for half a second before saying: "...why move out if you don't want a divorce?"

"Then don't move! Whatever you say is what you say!" Shen Kanyu was so excited that he didn't feel pain all over his body, and his strength seemed to come back. He stood up with the help of the tree two or three times, and ran to the bench to lift himself today. I went out to show him the things I bought in the morning, and said hoarsely and hospitablely, "Look, Ah Sheng, I bought very fresh mangosteens and oranges. I just tried a mangosteen. It's really sweet, and it's that kind It's sweet and not greasy. Let me peel one and give you a try, okay?"

He took a mangosteen out of the bag and tried hard to peel it off, but he couldn't use his left hand, and he couldn't hold the hard mangosteen with his right hand alone.

He was so anxious that his forehead started to sweat again, he raised his head and smiled palely at Gu Yansheng: "I'm sorry, A Sheng, the mangosteen is too hard, let me peel an orange for you!"

He hastily changed an orange, eagerly peeling it hard but quickly with slightly trembling hands.

Gu Yansheng looked at his left hand, which he had bandaged up at some point, trembling so badly that he couldn't cooperate with his right hand at all, but he peeled it off very fast.

He peeled out a fresh orange and held it in front of him like offering a treasure: "Try one. Look at me peeling it. My exclusive orange peeling magic technique, my hands didn't even touch the pulp, and it didn't get dirty. You can eat."

Gu Yansheng kept staring at his left hand, and didn't pick up the orange for a long time. Shen Kanyu suddenly came back to his senses, thinking that he was really frightened out of his head. Asheng never ate the fruit he peeled. The prawns that came out were disgusting, as was the fruit that came out.

"I'm sorry, I..." Shen Kanyu took the orange back, "I don't mean anything else, your lips are very dry, I'm afraid you're thirsty, so I'll... why don't you peel it yourself, would you like to eat one, it's very sweet of… "

Gu Yansheng stretched out his hand to hold the wrist of his left hand, the movement was very light, but he flinched a bit, and the orange in his hand just fell.

The distance between the two was very close, Gu Yansheng could hear his heart beating like thunder, and he could also feel him trembling.

"Don't be afraid, I won't beat you," Gu Yansheng gently put his left hand in his palm, "You went to the hospital early in the morning?"

"Hmm..." Shen Kanyu observed his face nonchalantly, and nodded gently, "The doctor said there was no major problem, so he did a fixed treatment, no... didn't spend a lot of money."

"Did you only check your hands?" Gu Yansheng looked up at him, "Is there any discomfort?"

Shen Kanyu was afraid that Gu Yansheng would think that he had many faults and wasted money, so he shook his head like a rattle, and then looked at him devoutly and seriously.

In fact, he doesn't feel uncomfortable now, looking at Gu Yansheng, he is so happy that he wants to jump up and spin around.

Gu Yansheng looked at his big wet and innocent eyes like a deer, always felt a little disbelieving, he hesitated for a moment and said: "I'll take you to see it again."

"No, no, no, I won't go! Go again, the doctor should laugh at me!" Shen Kanyu shook his head desperately, wishing to use all the cells in his body to reject Gu Yansheng, "Ah Sheng, let's go home, I want to make Tiantian feel better quickly." Take a bite of this mangosteen."

"There is no rush for this moment."

"It's urgent, let me tell you, this mangosteen has just been taken out of the freezer. After the mangosteen is frozen, you must eat it quickly, otherwise the taste will become bad." Shen Kanyu picked up the bag and looked at it. The fruit inside, "Asheng, do you see any fruit that my aunt likes here? If not, you can drop me off at the supermarket ahead and I'll go buy it. What does she like?"

"She likes all of these," Gu Yansheng took the bag from him, "I parked the car in front, let's go, go home."

Shen Kanyu was stunned for a moment, staring blankly at Gu Yansheng's calm and gentle side face, it took a while to recover, his eyes lit up little by little, and finally nodded vigorously and smiled brightly: "Well, go home!"

It's good that he has a home again.

Ah Sheng gave him a home again, even in the last few days, he already has a family.

Shen Kanyu, do you know how lucky you are

But you, what can you do

Gu Yansheng didn't say a word about Su Tong's marriage, and Shen Kanyu didn't dare to say a word. He clearly knew that this was a bomb that would be ignited sooner or later. On the day it exploded, he would be left with no skin or even bones. live.

But that's not what he's afraid of, he's just afraid that Ah Sheng will be sad.

Perhaps the most important reason why Ah Sheng asked him to stay was not because he needed his help, but because he didn't want to let a villain who made him suffer so easily leave easily, so he had to pay the price he deserved.

It doesn't matter what the cost is to him, as long as he can be happy.

Gu Yansheng usually talks less, and even less when he is in a bad mood, and now his complexion is not particularly good-looking. Shen Kanyu was afraid that he would be unhappy, so he kept telling him some sweet and funny stories, and his voice became hoarse as he spoke. But because of the shallow curvature of Gu Yansheng's mouth, the more he talked, the more excited he was, and he was dancing and gesticulating on the seat while wearing a seat belt, sweating all over his head.

Gu Yansheng saw that the seat belt would not be able to restrain him, so he said helplessly: "Be good and don't move around, where do you get the strength just after the fever subsides?"

Shen Kanyu blinked his eyes and said, "The fever has just subsided, but it has been gone for a long time, okay?"

"... Do you want me to give you a sweet child seat so that you can sit still?"

"No, no, no, I'll sit still, I'll sit still now." Shen Kanyu smirked at Gu Yansheng, raised his hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead, and exhaled tremblingly, his face was very pale, as if exhausted with ash.

Perhaps his heart couldn't bear his emotions and movements, it was beating too fast, he had difficulty breathing, and his head was very dizzy, but he didn't dare to take out the medicine, and he didn't dare to ask Gu Yansheng to open the window to breathe, so he could only look at the Looking out the window, gasping for breath and enduring it.

He vaguely felt that Gu Yansheng was looking at him, maybe because he saw him suddenly quiet, and noticed something was wrong. He wanted to say something to him, but his mind was so empty and dizzy due to lack of oxygen. Finally, he said incoherently what he wanted to say the most in his heart: "A Sheng, if you...are unhappy, you must find someone to talk about it, don't bear it by yourself, it will hurt your health. I will tell you about it tomorrow. Do it well, you can, you can hit me or scold me. You have to... be happy."

Gu Yansheng pursed his lips, watched the road in silence, and tightened his hands on the steering wheel. After a long while, he said in a deep voice, "I won't hit you again in the future."

Shen Kanyu didn't say anything more, Gu Yansheng turned his head and looked over, he was already asleep, his head was fishing bit by bit, he couldn't help shaking his head and laughing.

Gu Yansheng parked the car on the side of the road, got out of the car and rolled down Shen Kanyu's seat, lifted his head and put a pillow on him, and took a blanket to cover him.

While covering the blanket, Gu Yansheng saw that he was holding a peeled orange in his hand, with some dust on it, it should be the one that just fell on the ground, and he didn't know when he secretly ate two or three petals.

Grabbing things when it hurts, running outside when sick, picking up things that fall on the ground, who taught him.

Gu Yansheng lost the orange, came back and tried the temperature on his forehead, it didn't burn anymore, but it was still frighteningly cold.

He turned up the temperature of the air conditioner and was about to return to the driver's seat, but he heard Shen Kanyu's voice, so hoarse and weak that he thought he was hallucinating, and turned to see his dry and gray lips struggling to open and close Then he bent down to listen.

Shen Kanyu didn't say anything nonsense, just kept calling Ah Sheng, and his eyes became wet when he shouted, and the tears wet his eyelashes, and slid down his pale and thin cheeks, and the flow became more and more turbulent. Gu Yansheng patiently helped him Wipe, while comforting with a gentle voice: I am here, stop crying.

He thought of the way he just cried, biting his sleeve and enduring it, wishing to use all his strength to wipe away the tears, afraid of being seen by him, and a slight pain appeared in his heart.

So sad, do you only dare to cry when you fall asleep

It's okay to cry in front of him.