After finishing all the examinations, Shen Kanyu still wanted to see his family. He asked Aunt Lin for his father's ward number. When he reached the door, he hesitated to go in. In the end, he just sat on the bench by the door in a daze. Thinking that even though there was a wall, they were still very close.
The central air conditioner was turned on in the hospital, and he sat on the bench shivering from the cold, and his clothes were too baggy, no matter how he folded them up, cold wind would get in through the gaps.
How come... so cold.
The cold made his mind messed up, and there were many messy images running back and forth in his mind. The clearest one was the image of him hugging his mother's thigh to hug him when he was a child, and his mother hugged him helplessly.
Mother's embrace is the warmest and softest place in the world. Although I only hold it for a short time every time, I really want to nestle in it again.
Did he start daydreaming again
Suddenly there was the sound of pushing the door, Shen Kanyu shivered, looked up and saw Li Qing coming out from inside, a look of surprise appeared on his face, but he soon returned to calm.
"...Mom," Shen Kanyu grinned immediately, and called out hoarsely, "I'm done, and some test results will come out later, there should be no problem, and they can be donated to Dad. "
With his pale and thin face upturned, he looked at Li Qing eagerly, like a child who got a high score in an exam and wanted to be praised by his mother.
Li Qing said to Shen Kanyu calmly, "Well, Aunt Lin told me everything."
"... Oh, good." Unexpectedly, he was not the first person to tell his mother the good news. Shen Kanyu sniffed in frustration, but laughed again after a while, "By the way, mom, egg yolk cake... Did the nurse bring it to you? Did you eat it while it was hot? Is it delicious?"
Li Qing nodded: "Well, it's delicious."
Shen Kanyu held his breath and waited for Li Qing's affirmative answer, and immediately his eyes lit up with excitement: "Really? Then I, I will buy it for you tomorrow, and I will buy it for you every day!"
Li Qing couldn't help laughing when he heard his childish words: "No need, how can I eat it every day."
"Yes, that's right." Shen Kanyu nodded, and took out a bank card from his pocket. The face of the card was in the style of many years ago. A pair of parents were leading a child.
He handed it to Li Qing with both hands: "Mom, this is for you. It contains some money I saved. You can, you can use it to pay Dad's medical expenses, and buy some things you like... okay?"
Li Qing reached out to pick it up in a daze, but Shen Kanyu was so nervous that he didn't dare to move, for fear that she would not want it. When she took it, his hands were trembling with joy, and he said hoarsely, "The password is you and Dad." And my brother’s birthday is very easy to remember, just add it when you forget. Mom, this card is also very beautiful, right? It looks like the three of you. It is very valuable for collection. You can keep it, don't...don't throw it away."
The last sentence is a plea. The trembling and low voice made Li Qing's heart ache. She held the bank card and smiled gently at Shen Kanyu: "Well, don't throw it away."
When she smiled, Shen Kanyu's eyes turned red, and tears almost welled up. He sniffed his nose hard, lowered his head and quickly rubbed his eyes to wipe away the salty liquid. At the same time, there seemed to be a surge of heat in his heart. , so that he didn't know where the courage came from, stretched out two skinny arms towards her, and said with a sob: "Mom, mom, hug..."
He wanted to ask mom if he could give me a hug, but he was interrupted by uncontrollable sobs. When he could speak again, he didn't have the courage to speak anymore, only the meager hope in his eyes full of water was left .
After all, Li Qing did not give him hope. They've been separated for so long that the hug now seems too hasty and awkward.
She didn't know how much this hug meant to him. She didn't know that he had spent his entire life giving everything he had to the people he loved. He just wanted a warm embrace, but no one had ever given it to him sincerely. So later he no longer had the strength to walk into anyone's arms, the journey was too long and the road was too cold, he could never walk again.
She said: "Okay, how old are you, and you are still the same as when you were a child. I will prescribe medicine for your father. You can go home and rest first. Maybe you will have an operation in a few days."
In an instant, his eyes were as dark as a night sky without stars and moon, leaving only boundless emptiness and dead silence, but the smile never disappeared, it was always hanging on his face, bright as the warm spring sun: "Okay, I know La!"
He watched Li Qing's figure disappear at the end of the corridor before turning around and walking towards the hospital gate in the opposite direction.
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When Shen Kanyu came home, Gu Yansheng had already gone out, only Song Li and Gu Yutian were at home.
He wanted to go over and say a few words to his daughter, but he was afraid that Song Li would be unhappy, so he went around silently to the other side, went straight into his bedroom, and started packing his things.
In fact, there is nothing to pack, just put the usual medicine and other odds and ends into the suitcase for clothes. Basically, there are so many things for him, and he can put them away soon.
In addition to these, there is also the mangosteen shell that Gu Yansheng peeled off for him yesterday. He asked someone to vacuum the bag and store it.
Putting away his things, he sat by the bed for a while, thinking about the things he had to do one by one, and then doing them seriously one by one.
He cleaned up and down the house, and wiped the tables, chairs and coffee tables as bright as new.
He rummaged through the closet and shoe cabinet, and sewed Gu Yansheng and Gu Yutian's loose buttons and shoes with loose threads stitch by stitch. The shirt is ironed flat.
He cleared out the ingredients that had been in the refrigerator for several days, replaced them with fresh ones, and added a new one to the nearly used up rice, oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar.
He unpacked and washed the winter quilts and mattresses, and hung them on the balcony to dry.
He thought he would do it for a long time, but before he knew it, he was done. He sat at the table and picked up a pen and paper, wanting to write a letter to Gu Yansheng and Gu Yutian.
Obviously there are many, many things I want to say, but I can't write a single word with a pen and paper.
In the end, he could only use clumsy and rough brushstrokes to draw a crude cartoon version of Gu Yansheng and Gu Yutian on the paper, let them hold hands together, and then surrounded them tightly with a big heart. After thinking about it, I drew a very small star on the upper right of them.
After finishing the painting, he took out the tacky pink love bank card that he had given to Gu Yansheng back then, wrapped it in the middle with drawing paper, wrote the password on it, and folded it neatly, just like the one he bought for Gu Yansheng before. Together with the birthday present, it was placed in a drawer in his room.
If you give it to Ah Sheng face to face, he is afraid that he won't want it. He will definitely feel annoyed when he sees him, and won't want his things.
It should be better to give it to him like this, and he should accept it.
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For Gu Yutian's birthday present, Shen Kanyu still wanted to try to give it in person, because it was a safety lock made of Hetian jade, and he wanted to put it on for his daughter himself.
He knew that Tiantian hated him very much now, and even began to repel him from approaching, so he first made a soft and sweet egg yolk boy. I ran over to find my father: "Dad, dad! It's egg yolk boy!"
"Yes, our baby has a really good nose." Shen Kanyu brought out the egg yolk baby and put it on the dining table, swallowing sweetly, stretching out his little meaty hand to grab one and eat it.
"Wait a minute, it's hot," Shen Kanyu gently held the child's soft hand, "it will be cold soon, when it is cold, Tiantian can eat as much as he wants, okay?"
"Okay!" The little girl was so greedy that she couldn't stop swallowing, but some saliva still flowed out, and Shen Kanyu help her wipe it off helplessly.
Tiantian was lying on the table, only seeing egg yolks, and she didn't say a word. She didn't pester Gu Yansheng like she usually babbled and said this and that. Shen Kanyu knew that Tiantian didn't like her, and she was afraid that she would be alone. Accidentally said the wrong thing to make the child cry, and didn't dare to speak, just looked at her quietly, wiped her saliva from time to time, or pulled her messy forehead hair back, without saying a word.
When he spoke again, his voice was much hoarse than before: "Honey, it's alright, you can eat."
"Okay!" Tiantian immediately reached out and grabbed an egg yolk baby and put it into her mouth, then excitedly thumped her short legs, "Okay, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohood
"Eat slowly, it's all yours." Shen Kanyu reached out and touched the soft back of the child's head, with a gentle smile and a little imperceptible sadness.
Taking advantage of Tiantian's happiness, he quickly took out the safety lock and waved it in front of Tiantian like offering a treasure: "Baby, look, what is this?"
"What is it?" Tiantian opened her eyes wide curiously, "It's so beautiful!"
"It's Dad..." Shen Kanyu's throat suddenly choked up halfway through his words, and he didn't dare to tell the truth, so he changed his words hastily, "It's a birthday present from Daddy, Daddy is too busy to have time to bring it to you , dad help you put it on, okay?"
"Okay, okay!" Tian Tian stuffed her mouth full of egg yolks, and replied vaguely, "But Si Tiantian's birthday hasn't come yet, so why are you messing with Senri now?"
Shen Kanyu was stunned for a moment, his pale lips parted, and he said hastily in a hoarse voice, "Because, because Daddy loves Tiantian so much, I also told him that I would wait until his birthday, and he couldn't wait."
Tiantian was very satisfied with this answer, giggling until her eyes almost disappeared.
Shen Kanyu also smiled, bent down and put the safety lock on her daughter's neck.
"Dad, what's the use of this?"
"This, this can bless us Tiantian to become more and more beautiful, happier and happier, and we can always eat the best egg yolk boy!"
"Wow! So spicy!!"
Shen Kanyu smiled and helped Tiantian wipe off the egg yolk foam from the corner of her mouth, and said with crooked eyebrows, "Do you like Tiantian?"
"I like it!" Tian Tian grabbed the safety lock and kissed her, "Daddy really loves me hot!"
Shen Kanyu nodded vigorously: "Yes, Daddy loves you the most."
You should always love Daddy the most, as you promised Daddy before.
Dad also loves you very much, really loves you, but I hope you will never know, just pretend that Dad has never appeared, so that you will always be happy.
Shen Kanyu looked at his watch, the time was almost up, and he was afraid that he would be reluctant to look at the child any more, so he touched Tiantian's face and let her eat slowly, while he dragged his suitcase and hurried to the door.
Tiantian looked at his back, as if she felt something in the dark, put down the half-bitten egg yolk boy, jumped off the chair and chased to the door: "Dad, where are you going?"
Shen Kanyu didn't expect her to chase after him, he turned his head stiffly, and stared blankly at the child's big clear and innocent eyes, his nasal cavity became sore uncontrollably, and his eyes also became hot.
"Daddy has to go out for a long time every time he pulls a big suitcase. Do you want to go out for a long time too?" Tiantian grumbled, "When are you coming back? Tiantian still wants to eat a lot of egg yolks."
Shen Kanyu's heart was twisted into a ball, but he tried to laugh, squatted down to hug the child, kissed her chubby face, and whispered in her ear: "Tiantian will have better food Egg yolk, trust dad."
His voice was so choked up that he was trembling, but he didn't notice it, he still smiled and whispered in his daughter's ear: "Baby, Dad is leaving first, goodbye."
He was afraid of being pushed away by the child, so he only hugged for a short time, and then let go, but he was already so satisfied that his eyes were moist.
thank you baby.
Thank you for willing to listen to my farewell.
Daddy will always love you.
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Shen Kanyu said goodbye and didn't look back.
Gu Yutian stood there blankly, looking at the closed door, and stretched out her small fleshy hand to touch her wet face.
She didn't cry, but why were there tears on her face.
She was too young to figure it out, so she walked back to the table silently, wanting to continue eating egg yolks, but accidentally knocked over the remaining half bowl of egg yolks.
She stared blankly at the egg yolk baby that had fallen to the ground, pursed her mouth and began to cry loudly.
When grandma heard the movement, she hurried over to hug her and coax her, saying that she would buy her better egg yolks, but she didn't know what was wrong with her, the more she cried, the more she wanted to cry, and she couldn't stop, she just wanted to cry .
She cried until her face was disfigured and her hair was messed up, her voice was hoarse and her strength was gone, so she hugged her grandma's neck and whimpered that she wanted Dad.
Grandma, I want Daddy.
Sweet wants daddy.
But she felt that her father would not come back again.