Unspeakable

Chapter 24

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Shen Kanyu dragged his suitcase and moved into the house he had looked for a long time in advance. Thinking that I might not live here for a long time, I simply made the bed and arranged the daily necessities.

The rental price of this house is low, the lighting is very average, and the room is damp and cold. Sitting by the only window where the sun shines, he still shiveres from time to time, and has to wear a few more clothes and curl up in a ball wrapped in a quilt.

He opened the preserved egg and lean meat porridge bought by the roadside on the window sill, and was about to eat a few mouthfuls while it was hot, when he suddenly thought that he should send Gu Yansheng a text message to ask him to go home more often to accompany Tiantian, otherwise the little girl would miss her He would cry when he woke up in the middle of the night.

He originally edited a very long paragraph, and then deleted it all, leaving only two simple sentences: A Sheng, I have something to go home, you go home early to accompany Tiantian.

He put down his phone, only to realize that his palms were covered with sweat, and the porridge was already cold.

He tried to take two mouthfuls, but he felt a little nauseous. He was afraid that his physical problems would affect the liver transplant operation, so he could only press his chest and swallow the sourness in his throat repeatedly. Take a bite.

After eating a bowl of porridge for more than an hour, he finally managed to eat half a bowl. He wiped the sweat from his face and rested for a while to eat some more, but he was caught off guard and coughed, which aroused his suppressed nausea Feeling sick, he could not restrain himself from vomiting out all the porridge that he had managed to eat.

Later, I vomited after taking a bite, and couldn't eat anything.

This will not work, the operation will be done in three days, Aunt Lin said that he must take good care of his body, otherwise it will affect the operation arrangement.

He stared blankly at the sunset outside the window for a while, rubbed his wet eyes, and dug out a few bags of nutrient solution and syringes that he brought back from the suitcase.

In order to save money and time, a long time ago, when he was still in school, he learned to give himself a drip from a sister nurse in a clinic. Although I haven't played for a long time, I'm a little unskilled, but fortunately, I haven't forgotten the important details, and I started to hang the nutrient solution for myself smoothly.

After all, nutrient solution injections are not as good as food tonics. He was so drowsy and tired that he couldn’t eat anything. He hung the water in one hand and held the mangosteen shell sealed in the vacuum bag with the other hand. Caressing it gently, murmured ah Sheng, and fell asleep without knowing it.

Three days later, "Laughing in the Sea" was officially launched. Due to the high reputation during the internal beta and public beta stages, and the injection of capital from many established Internet companies, it gained tens of millions of downloads in major software stores on the day it was launched. Weibo The popularity remains high, and many game websites are scrambling to publish game guides that are not worthy of the name, just to get a wave of traffic from popular IPs.

For this reason, Youyu Studio specially held a celebration reception, which was actually a preparation for the second round of financing of "Laughing in the Sea".

"Laughing in the Sea" became popular overnight, and the funds invested in the early years are rapidly returning at a double rate. Gu Yansheng's years of hard work have finally come to fruition, but Su Tong can't see a smile on his face. He even asked him if the reception could be Postpone it for a few days.

"A Sheng, you are very aware of the importance of striking while the iron is hot, and the invitation letter has already been sent," Su Tong sighed, "What happened to you? Did you quarrel with Kanyu?"

"No," the phone still didn't receive any text messages or calls from Shen Kanyu, Gu Yansheng clutched it tightly, his knuckles turned pale, "He said he went home, but I haven't been able to contact him."

"Did you break his heart?"

"...I don't know," Gu Yansheng frowned, his voice low and hoarse, "If I did something wrong and made him feel wronged, he could tell me, but he didn't say a word, and always had a playful smile... He used to Not like that, you know he used to…”

Seeing that Su Tong's expression was not good, Gu Yansheng quickly stopped talking: "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to expose your scars."

"I know, it's okay," Su Tong's face turned pale, "Well, A Sheng, let's finish the reception first, and then I'll go with you to find Kanyu, is that okay?"

Gu Yansheng shook his head: "I don't want to trouble you, you are not in good health, and you have been too busy with the launch of the game during this period, so go back and rest early after the reception."

After Gu Yansheng finished speaking, he turned around and went to work, Su Tong looked at his back, his eyes dimmed slightly.

On the day of the "Laughing in the Sea" celebration reception, Tang Xiu brought Tang Zhen to the venue half an hour earlier.

Tang Zhen wore a little red dress, her long legs were wearing red velvet high heels, her long hair was slightly curly but smooth like waves, it was astonishingly soft and smooth, her curved eyebrows and small red lips, her smile dazzled the passing men .

"What are you looking at, rascal!" Tang Xiu slammed the car door angrily.

Tang Zhen covered her mouth and said with a smile: "Oh, brother, why are you losing your temper? Blame me for taking away the admiring gaze that should belong to you?"

"You..." Tang Xiu wanted to lose his temper, but when he saw his sister's bright and big hooked eyes, he looked away sullenly, "I really shouldn't have brought you out today."

"Stingy!" Tang Zhen made a funny face at him, and stepped on her high-heeled shoes to walk gracefully and gracefully to the venue.

There was a "boom" in Tang Xiu's mind, and he shouted angrily, "Stop! How many times have I told you not to keep walking like this! What a twist! Hey!!!"

He cursed and chased Tang Zhen halfway, then remembered that he hadn't locked the car, so he turned back to lock the car cursing.

Facts proved that the more he panicked, the more hell he was. He locked the car and was about to chase after his sister, but when he turned around, he hit someone, and the car keys flew out.

To be honest, Tang Xiu felt that at most he just brushed against him, and it really wasn't considered a hit. Unexpectedly, the man let out a low muffled grunt, staggered two steps, and fell directly to the ground.

Tang Xiu was stunned for a moment, and quickly squatted down to help him: "Excuse me, are you alright?"

He touched his body and felt hot to the touch, the man had a fever.

He might be very afraid of being touched by others, so he cowered and hid aside, struggling to touch Tang Xiu's keys that had fallen to the bottom of the car, the movements were extremely slow, and he would cover his stomach from time to time, as if his stomach hurt.

He took out Tang Xiu's car keys, and when he handed it to him, his skinny hands with bluish knuckles were trembling, as if they didn't even have the strength to hold a small bunch of keys.

He wore a face mask and his bangs fell to his eyelashes, revealing only a pair of wet eyes full of fear, like a frightened stray dog.

"I'm sorry... I didn't... do it on purpose..." His voice was so hoarse that Tang Xiu couldn't make out what he was saying with all his efforts.

He took the key: "Are you unwell? I'm a doctor, may I take a look for you?"

"No, no," he shook his head, stepping back in extreme resistance, "It's contagious, it's contagious... can't, can't pass it on to you..."

"... My God, what are you talking about?" Tang Xiu really couldn't hear what he was saying, but he repulsed others so close that he couldn't insist on being a stranger, so he could only keep a distance of a few meters Follow him.

The clothes on his body didn't fit very well, they were too baggy, blown by the autumn wind like a plastic bag full of air, but it made him even more skinny, as if he would not be able to bear the wind any stronger and would be broken at the waist.

Tang Xiu didn't expect that he was going to the reception as well, but when he walked to the entrance of the venue, he was stopped by the security guards because his clothes were incompatible with this place and he couldn't produce an invitation letter.

"Please let me in."

"The person I like is inside."

"I wanted to go in and see him, I just went in to see if he was okay."

He begged in a hoarse voice, but no one could hear what he was saying clearly. His voice was too hoarse and too weak. He just spoke intermittently, and no one could understand him even with their ears upright.

Tang Xiu couldn't bear it, so he stepped forward and showed his invitation letter to the security guard, with a gentle and seductive smile attached: "Little handsome guy, it's convenient, he is my friend."

The security guard scratched his head and said honestly: "Okay, then you can register."

After Tang Xiu cooperated with the registration, he found that the person who was still by his side disappeared at some point.

Shen Kanyu entered the venue, avoided the bustling crowd, and found a remote and dark corner to stand.

He just finished the operation, the incision didn't heal well, he kept having a fever repeatedly, and just fell down again, he was still shivering with pain, and couldn't even stand against the wall, so he stretched out his hand and grabbed the handrail next to him tightly , trying to focus his distracted sight on the stage in the distance.

Apart from playing games, it can be said that he knows nothing about other things on the Internet, and he has no idea about the popularity of "The Cang Haixiao" on the Internet. When he was queuing up to get the medicine in the hospital, he heard the high school students next to him talking about how "Smile in the Sea" was so fun. A celebration reception would be held in a few days, and top equipment and out-of-print skins would be drawn at the reception.

Before the operation, he thought that he would never wake up again, but he really didn't expect that he would have the opportunity to hear and even see the success of "Laughing in the Sea", to hear Gu Yansheng's voice, and to see his shining on the stage. look.

Although he couldn't see or hear clearly now, he knew he was there. He listened to his distant voice like an auditory hallucination, looked at his figure blurred into a light and shadow, and smiled like a child who accidentally picked up a precious treasure, joyful and frightened.

A Sheng, you are really great.

I finally waited for this day.

You have finally succeeded, and you will never work as hard as before.

It will get better and better in the future, and it will always be better.

A staff member came down to hand out post-it notes and pens, saying that he could write a wish related to the game and paste it on the wish wall. Later, he would choose ten cards to realize.

Holding a pen, Shen Kanyu drew on the post-it note almost exactly the same picture as before with trembling hands: Ah Sheng holding Tiantian, both of them smiled with crooked eyebrows and mouth corners.

The difference is that there is no star in the upper right corner.

He can no longer be that star.

Mom said he was a disaster.

During the operation, he suffered from sudden heart failure and nearly stopped. In order to save him, the doctor almost missed the prime time for liver transplantation. So although the transplant was successful in the end, his father's prognosis may not be as optimistic as before.

He explained to his mother that he really told the doctor before the operation that no matter what happens, he can be left alone, as long as his father is safe and sound, the doctor clearly agreed to him at that time, and he really doesn't know why the doctor To lie to him.

Mom beat him anyway.

Because anyway, he almost killed Dad, almost.

He is a disaster star, he has no way to become a star that can bless Ah Sheng again, he is just a disaster star that will bring misfortune to others.

He hunched over, held the post-it note, closed his eyes and gently kissed the two little people painted on it. The salty and warm liquid dripped continuously on the thin paper, and quickly wiped the entire post-it note. They were all soaked soft and wet, and the pen and ink were smeared, and gradually it was impossible to recognize what was painted on it.

He tried hard to squeeze to the side of the wish wall, but he couldn't squeeze through. The incision was too painful. He clutched his upper abdomen tightly, but it hurt like tearing when someone touched his body.

Between pushing and pushing, the post-it note broke into two pieces.

He held the two scraps of paper in the palm of his hand, staring blankly at the wall of wishes that he could never reach, tears streaming from his empty eyes.

But he didn't cry aloud, he was as quiet as air in the crowd, and as pale as foam.

He heard the girl next to him say, "Hey, I think I see Gu Meiren looking at me! Oh my god, he's so pretty!"

"Dream, the lights on the stage are so bright, and there is darkness under his stand, if you can see you, you must be a ghost."

"Oh so!"

Is that so

Is that so, so Ah Sheng couldn't see him all the time

It turned out that the person he loved was always in the light, so he couldn't see him no matter what.

Then can he say that he loves him again

He must not be able to see or hear it in the light, and it will not disturb him.

A Sheng I love you.

I miss you too.

This should be the last time I see you.

But I can't even see your face clearly.

I can't bless you and Tiantian anymore, I'm sorry.

You must... be happy and safe.