Shen Kanyu went to the front desk to complete the discharge procedures, typed out the bill, and found that Asheng had paid for him for many expenses, and he only needed to pay a few hundred yuan by himself.
He took out his mobile phone and wanted to calculate the total price, but there was always a blurred image in front of him, which made him press the calculator for a long time before he could figure it out.
"Thank you, Asheng..." He looked at the calculated number, muttered to himself to thank Gu Yansheng, took out the corresponding money from his backpack, wrapped it in a tissue, put it in the bag containing Gu Yansheng's coat, and left the hospital Go to the supermarket he usually goes to.
It was almost winter, the night wind on the street was very cold, and Shen Kanyu was afraid of the cold, so he had to find a sheltered place to rest for a while after walking for a while, but his hands and feet were still cold, and his lips were frosty white.
He only wore a thin and loose sweater on his upper body, and he held Gu Yansheng's thick coat in his arms, and he didn't dare to take it out to wear, so he just hugged it through a plastic bag to keep warm—mainly it would be good to warm his stomach, Don't let the child inside catch cold.
He walked all the way to the supermarket, bought some fresh meat, vegetables and fruits, and bought two warm padded clothes, one large and one small, and stood blankly at the entrance of the supermarket for a while before mustering up the courage to walk in the direction of A Sheng's house.
He would look around after walking a few steps, afraid that Gu Yansheng would suddenly appear and chase him away. Although he was only here to deliver things and would not enter the house, he was afraid that Ah Sheng would not listen to his explanation, thinking that he wanted to go back out of nowhere .
He has corrected himself, he is self-aware, but he knows that no one will believe him, and no one will listen to him.
Fortunately, he didn't see Gu Yansheng along the way. He cautiously groped to the door of his house and put his things neatly on the shoe rack at the door. When he was about to leave, he heard a sweet, crisp and tender child's voice, yelling childishly. looking at grandma.
"Grandma~ Tiantian wants this second!"
"Tiantian said she loves grandma, so grandma will get it for you."
"Sweet love grandma!"
Only then did he realize that the door was ajar.
From the crack in the door, he could see Tian Tian and Song Li playing in the living room, and he could hear them talking.
He looked at his daughter who was having fun in his grandmother's arms, and the accumulated thoughts of countless days and nights surged in like a tide. His nasal cavity was sore and his eyes were quietly moist in an instant.
He had imagined countless times that the child would act like a baby in his arms so intimately, calling dad and dad in a not-so-clever articulation, as long as he gave her a bite of his beloved snack, she would smile and say dad i love you.
But fantasies are just fantasies after all, he knew that his daughter didn't like him, even before he "brainwashed" her. Because he wasn't good enough for her, he didn't know how to love others so that people wouldn't feel bored. Without someone to teach, it is impossible to teach yourself.
He knows all these, he really knows, he has self-knowledge, he will not be as sentimental as before, he will keep a distance and never get closer.
He corrected it, can you stop hating him so much.
Can you let him take another look.
Can you just let him... just give him a hug, just give him a hug, and he will leave after another hug.
Shen Kanyu touched the door frame with his hand, trying to push it away, but his fingers trembled more and more, and he gained courage several times, but he still didn't have the courage to do it.
As long as he thought of being pushed away by his daughter's disgust and making Ah Sheng and Song Li angry, he would not dare to open the door.
And there should be no shoes for him in the house, if he walks in like this, it will get dirty.
He's... so dirty.
He needs to be content and not push his feet further. He can see his daughter because the door is not closed tightly. God has been kind to him, so he can't push his feet any further.
Both the heart and the incision hurt, and Shen Kanyu gradually lost his strength and fell to his knees. His fingers were almost digging into the hard anti-theft door, and some nails had been split, oozing bright red blood.
He let go of the door frame, hot and salty tears kept falling down, making his molted cheeks sting unbearably, but he still subconsciously raised his sleeves to wipe away the tears, sniffed his nose softly, knelt down He walked to the wall on his knees, and drew a crooked little love heart on the whitewashed wall with his nails.
Sweet, Daddy loves you.
A Sheng, I love you.
If you express it in this way, it won't bother you anymore.
Sorry I figured it out so late.
sorry.
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When Gu Yansheng saw that the person he was looking for almost went mad was kneeling and crying at the door of the house, the sudden burst of pain in his heart made his mind go blank, and he had no time to think about anything else, so he stepped up two or three steps and went straight to hug him into his arms inside.
Shen Kanyu was taken aback, his whole body almost twitched in his arms, and when he found out that it was him, he was so panicked that his face was pale, his tongue was knotted, his face was covered with tears, but he still tried his best to squeeze out a flattering smile Come, choked up and said incoherently: "A Sheng, you, you listen to me, explain, I didn't go in, I, I came to deliver something, I put it on the shoe rack, I'm leaving now, I'm leaving right away."
He didn't expect that Gu Yansheng didn't beat him, nor did he drive him away immediately, as if he was still willing to listen to his explanation, he hurriedly clutched Gu Yansheng's sleeve, gasped and said with difficulty: "I didn't mean to... I stayed so long, the door wasn't closed. I think, I want to see Tiantian, I kind of miss her, I'm sorry... "
"Your clothes... forgot to take them, I'll bring them back... I also bought some fruit, all very, very fresh, and, two coats..." He raised his head, his dark and cloudy eyes trying to focus on Gu Yansheng , begged in a low voice with red eyes, "Keep it... okay? Don't, don't throw it away, keep it, it's very warm. I know you... don't like me buying it, and I won't buy it in the future... this time You guys, keep it..."
He wants to buy some more warm clothes for them, because it seems that this winter will be very cold, but he doesn't have enough money. He has left two or three months' rent money for himself, and he has already spent almost all of it. That house He still wants to rent.
Gu Yansheng's head is still blank, and he can only subconsciously respond to Shen Kanyu's words with nods and "um". The feeling of regaining what is lost always makes people ecstatic but at a loss. It is no different from the rest of his life after a catastrophe. Follow him, to dispel the sense of unreality.
Tang Xiu followed Gu Yansheng, walked over to weigh the things on the shoe rack, and couldn't help but gasped.
It was very heavy, he had never lifted such a heavy thing in his life.
Shen Kanyu is as thin as a dried fish, the incision on his abdomen is as big as a small fry, and he is dressed in rags. Carrying such a heavy thing from the hospital to the supermarket and back home in the early winter weather is something that humans can do. Son... It's really driving people crazy.
"Tang Xiu." Gu Yansheng suddenly called him in a low voice, his voice was hoarse and slightly trembling.
Tang Xiu quickly agreed: "Huh?"
"Bring me a coat." Gu Yansheng felt that the person in his arms was as cold as a piece of ice and was shivering all over, so he picked him up and put him on his lap, took the coat that Tang Xiu handed over and put it in his arms. He wrapped it up tightly, and wiped his wet face lightly, "Is it cold, is this better?"
Shen Kanyu stared at him blankly, then shook his head desperately, trying to take off his coat: "No, it's not cold, this... this is your coat, I can't wear it..."
Gu Yansheng pressed his cold hand, then held it in his own and covered it: "Be good and dress."
When Shen Kanyu heard "Be good", he immediately sat down obediently and stopped moving. He just sniffed his nose in a daze, rubbed his face indiscriminately, and murmured: "But if I pass through, you won't move." Will wear it again, I know...the clothes are warm and nice..."
It's really a pity to get dirty by him.
The current him should be even dirtier in Ah Sheng's eyes, after being touched by others... he is even dirtier.
Gu Yansheng couldn't hear what he was talking about, so he could only warm his hands and ask softly in a hoarse voice: "Didn't I say I would take you home? Why are you running around again—don't wipe your face, you're almost wiping it broken."
Shen Kanyu stopped what he was doing, slowly digested Gu Yansheng's words, and stared blankly at him with red and wet eyes: "Can you really... come back?"
Isn't it a dream? Ah Sheng really wants him to come back
Gu Yansheng sighed, couldn't help touching his messy hair, and nodded slightly.
"Okay, okay, I'm back!" Shen Kanyu nodded vigorously, his smile was still bright, but his eyes were always dark, and Gu Yansheng couldn't see the light or smile in it, only endless humility and humility Please, "A Sheng, I listen to you! But can you... can you tell me in advance what you want me to do? I rented a house outside, I can... not sleep here, I finish my work every day. You can go back there, you ask me to come over again, so that you don’t have to bother you too much... can you tell me?"
Let alone Gu Yansheng, Tang Xiu couldn't bear to listen to such words: "What are you talking about, you are his wife, and you are not their nanny!"
Shen Kanyu was stunned by his yelling, lowered his head and pressed his chest uncomfortably, and murmured: "I don't want money..."
"... What did you say? What don't you want?" Tang Xiu suspected that his ears were broken.
"Don't scare him." Gu Yansheng turned his head and looked at Tang Xiu reproachfully.
"I scare him...??" Damn, can you polish your pig's eyes to see who your pet fish is afraid of now. Tang Xiu was so angry that he wanted to curse, but when he saw Shen Kanyu's trembling back, he could only grit his teeth and hold back.
Tang Xiu's persecution made Shen Kanyu so anxious that he began to sweat, afraid that he would get angry if he said the wrong thing and drive him away, his lips trembled for a long time before he said cautiously: "Ah Sheng, I really... don't want money, I just want, I just want to see Look at you, I promise to leave after finishing my work every day, I won't annoy you, I don't want anything, really, you believe me."
He wiped the sweat from his face indiscriminately, panted because of palpitations, and smiled hastily at Gu Yansheng, his lips were a little blue: "A Sheng, you are usually, busy, and if you don't have time to take care of the house, I can help you." , and you don't need to spend money... In this way, do you think it's good? If you think it's not good, I, I can go now, it doesn't matter... "
Gu Yansheng listened to his nonsense for a long time, and was so distressed that he didn't know what to say. He wanted to interrupt him several times, but he also remembered Tang Xiu's words not to interrupt him. She held her in her arms, and after considering the words in her heart, she said slowly: "I let you go home just because I want you to come back. You don't have to do anything, just stay at home obediently, don't run around anymore, just alright."
Shen Kanyu listened dully, raising his hand from time to time to wipe the sweat off his face, the more he listened, the more dazed his eyes became.
Gu Yansheng sighed, "Did you hear that?"
"Ah... Listen, I heard," Shen Kanyu responded hastily, subconsciously nodding repeatedly, "A Sheng, I listen to you, I listen to you..."
He repeatedly wiped the sweat with his injured and twisted left hand, panting and trying to get out of Gu Yansheng's arms, with his head buried very low: "Ah Sheng, I'm sorry, I'm a little hot, I, I'll go outside for a while..."
Gu Yansheng saw that his face was turning blue and purple, his breathing was getting rougher and harder, and he was trembling when he spoke. He subconsciously wanted to shake his hand and ask him what's wrong, but found that his uninjured right hand was desperately scratching. Walking up the hard concrete steps, his short nails had already been torn apart, and blood was oozing out silently, while he was curled up in his arms, his whole body was cold, and his whole body was shaking like chaff.
Gu Yansheng felt that he was also cold and stiff from head to toe: "Shen Kanyu... Shen Kanyu!"
Tang Xiu hurried over and helped Shen Kanyu's shoulder to check the situation - he knew that Shen Kanyu's heart was not good, and he went to the cardiovascular department to study from time to time, and now he knew it was angina pectoris at a glance, and immediately stopped Gu Yansheng: "Don't do this Loud, his heart can't take it."
Gu Yansheng didn't dare to shout anymore, so he could only try to gently break off his hand holding the steps, coaxing him in a soft voice while breaking: "Stop scratching, okay, just shout out if it hurts, it's okay..."
Shen Kanyu still didn't let go, didn't yell out, just panting with difficulty. Tang Xiu didn't know how he was able to endure this pain, maybe only a mute would stay silent when the pain was so severe.
Tang Xiu endured the soreness in his nasal cavity, quickly took out the prepared nitroglycerin tablet from his pocket, and let Shen Kanyu swallow it. Fortunately, the effect of the medicine came on very quickly. Seeing that the symptoms were relieved, he immediately said: "Go back to the hospital immediately, I'll drive first. You can't carry him on your back, you can't breathe with him on your back, and don't go too hastily, don't go too fast." Bump him, or he may cough up blood. Remember to keep talking to him, it's best not to let him lose consciousness at this time."
After Tang Xiu finished speaking, he turned around like a rocket and rushed downstairs.
Gu Yansheng nodded, and according to what Tang Xiu said, he picked up Shen Kanyu and went downstairs smoothly, but he couldn't say anything. His throat was so sore that he couldn't say anything except calling his name over and over again.
He heard Shen Kanyu responding to him, using his last strength.
"A Sheng, I'm here..."
"I'm fine... don't be afraid..."
Gu Yansheng's heart was so painful that it was about to burst, and his eye sockets became moist uncontrollably.
The fool.