After Tang Xiu finished dealing with the mess, he returned to Shen Kanyu's ward, and saw Gu Yansheng sitting on a bench in the corridor in a daze.
He walked over and patted him on the shoulder. Gu Yansheng raised his head and smiled at him reluctantly.
Tang Xiu sat down beside him: "How is Xiaoyu?"
Gu Yansheng said in a hoarse voice, "It's okay, I fell asleep."
Tang Xiu hesitated for a while, and asked, "Where are the fish fry?"
"... It's okay."
Tang Xiu heaved a sigh of relief, leaned against the back of the chair tiredly and closed his eyes: "This little fish fry is really big, like a little Gourd Vajra, and it will be named Gu Gourd in the future."
Gu Yansheng pressed the center of his eyebrows, and said in a shy voice, "I really hope that the child's life will not be so old, and it will be gone if it is gone."
Tang Xiu opened his eyes and raised his leg to kick him: "What nonsense are you talking about here again? Who said that no matter who the child belongs to, you will take care of it?"
Gu Yansheng groaned in pain, bent down to rub the kicked place a few times, and murmured: "But he hurts very much."
Tang Xiu was startled, and then saw Gu Yansheng's flushed eyes, and his heart ached for that kick just now.
"You kicked me, it didn't hurt much, it hurt just a little bit, but I just couldn't help shouting," Gu Yansheng lowered his eyelashes, watching the stain on his pants flow out of Shen Kanyu's body "He never yelled that he was in pain, not at all. Sometimes when I sat next to him, I didn't even know he was in pain."
He didn't say a word, and when he realized that he was sweating profusely from the pain, his lips were bitten, and the quilt was scratched, he just lifted his sleeves to wipe off the sweat on his face, raised his head and smirked at him, saying "A Sheng, I'm a little hot."
Obviously he is extremely afraid of the cold.
In the early winter weather, I found a nurse to add a quilt, and covered my body with two quilts. He huddled up in the quilt, his hands and feet were still cold, he would tremble from time to time, and he refused to let Gu Yansheng touch him. When I was alone, I ran out and bought a hot water bottle and came back to warm my hands and stomach.
Obviously afraid of the cold so much that he couldn’t do without the hot water bottle, seeing Gu Yansheng rubbing his hands to keep warm, he would still hold the hot water bottle for him with both hands and flatteringly say, Ah Sheng, you should hold it, it’s very warm, I usually wrap it in a bag, a little Not dirty either.
He always treats him well without reservation, but is unwilling to rely on him without reservation.
"By the way," Gu Yansheng's hoarse voice was slightly tired, "Did you tell him that he was pregnant?"
Tang Xiu said: "Not before, didn't you let me tell you? Besides, his mental state is too bad, and I was afraid that the child would put more pressure on him. But when I asked the nurse to send him to the maternity department, he should have heard it. "
"No." Gu Yansheng shook his head with a pale face.
Tang Xiu was puzzled: "It's not what?"
"He knew it before you said to send him to the obstetrics department. He kept grabbing my sleeve and wanted to speak but it hurt too much. I was so flustered that I didn't understand his mouth shape. Now that I think about it, he It's just calling the child."
Tang Xiu's mind went blank for a moment, and he doubted his life: "It shouldn't be, no one has told him, and I have specially told the little nurses who take care of him not to leak anything."
"Then he should...he heard what we said," Gu Yansheng said slowly, "Before today, the two of us had only discussed about the child once."
"...Damn it," Tang Xiu felt struck by lightning, "I told you that he was pregnant, and you said the child is not yours, but Jiang Mo's?"
Gu Yansheng nodded, buried his face in his palms, and said in pain: "Just now he entered the operating room by himself, and kept holding my hand, saying that the child is mine, begging me to save the child. Maybe this child It's really mine, maybe it's really like you said, I drank alcohol and did something I shouldn't do... If it's really the case, he must be very uncomfortable when he heard me say those words. "
Tang Xiu heard that Gu Yansheng seemed to be about to cry, so he sat up straight and put his arms around his shoulders to comfort him warmly: "Don't cry, don't cry, now the fish fry are here and Xiaoyu is here, everything is fine, the past is over, okay Just apologize to him and you'll be fine, huh?"
"I didn't cry." Gu Yansheng stiffly denied every word, but his eyes were red.
"Okay, okay, you didn't cry, you didn't cry, you are the strongest little baby. Come, I will reward you with some small gifts," Tang Xiu smiled and took Gu Yansheng's hand, and put a small bag and a USB flash drive on the In the palm of his hand, "In the bag are fragments of the infusion bottle that injured Xiaoyu. On it are the blood of Xiaoyu and the fingerprints of... mad dogs. There is a surveillance video in the corridor in the USB flash drive, how she jumped at you and how she bit you The inside of the little fish is clearly photographed, and with these two things, you can put her in a cell."
Gu Yansheng held the thing in his hand in a daze.
"And this." Tang Xiu picked up another big bag, which contained a lot of fresh and plump strawberries, which had been carefully washed and covered with glistening drops of water. "The little fish wants to bring it to his father. They don't care too much, we Ah Sheng should eat it like a ginseng fruit, right?"
Gu Yansheng took the strawberry and said sincerely, "Thank you."
"Thank whom?"
"Thank you."
Tang Xiu raised his eyebrows: "Who am I?"
Gu Yansheng was stunned for a moment, and then said in embarrassment, "Thank you brother."
"Well, dear," Tang Xiu patted Gu Yansheng's head very satisfied, "Then you eat strawberries slowly, and give Xiaoyu some to eat when he wakes up, I have to leave beforehand."
"Aren't you going to eat it?" Gu Yansheng held him back, "Don't you like strawberries very much?"
Tang Xiu rolled his eyes: "I don't eat dog food, thank you."
He would really like to eat it, if there is nothing wrong with his stomach.
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Shen Kanyu is a person with a good memory, but there are some things that he always tries hard to forget. For example, the endless abuse and abuse suffered in childhood, and all the indifference and alienation encountered later.
He forced himself to forget all that, but he would still wake up from the nightmare in the middle of the night, shivering from the cold sweat all over his body.
In fact, he can never forget it, so he yearns for warmth even more, and hopes to keep a little warmth by his side through his own efforts, so that those things will not make him so painful, so that he can sleep well.
But his so-called hard work hurt too many people, so in the end he left nothing behind. The second child with Ah Sheng should have been given to him by God after taking a nap, so it was taken back later.
He dreamed of a chubby little doll sitting on a white plush carpet, holding a powder-blue feeding bottle and gurgling milk. When he turned around and saw him, he dropped the feeding bottle and grinned. The toothless little mouth smiled at him, calling dad and dad in a childish voice, while thumping its short, fleshy hands and legs, crawling towards him.
His eyes were sore, his heart ached, he knelt down and picked up the child with trembling hands, dragged the back of his limp head, and kissed his hairy head lightly.
The milk baby laughed even more, her big eyes narrowed into two slits, and she excitedly flapped her hands and legs in his arms, and gave him a milky kiss back.
Shen Kanyu pressed against the baby's warm and soft face, tears welled up silently.
This is the picture he has imagined countless times before and after Tiantian was born since he was pregnant with Tiantian, but it has never been realized. He has not done well at all, so the child has never liked him. Either before or after he left.
He called her baby, but she didn't want to answer him.
He wanted to kiss her and hug her, but she kept avoiding him.
He said baby daddy loves you, she said I only want daddy to love you.
He has never been a father, he failed the first time, and he will never have a second chance.
He gently kissed the child in his arms, his heart ached terribly, his eyes filled with water were full of pity and reluctance.
Sorry, Dad didn't protect you well.
Dad doesn't have any skills, he can't learn anything after living for so many years, and he can't take care of you well when you come.
You're going somewhere better than here.
He put the child on the carpet, and the child whimpered and grabbed his sleeve, two bags of tears instantly filled his big eyes.
He smiled softly, and gently pulled off the child's soft and fragile hands.
The milk baby watched him get up and leave, wrinkled his nose and pursed his mouth, raised his little head and cried all day long.
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With severe pain in his heart, Shen Kanyu coughed with difficulty, and woke up from his sleep. His lower abdomen was sore and unbearable. He stretched out his hand to press, but someone gently grasped his wrist.
He turned his head to look over with difficulty, and met Tang Xiu's gentle smiling face: "The fish fry are still inside, it will hurt if you press it like this."
Shen Kanyu was stunned.
He was stunned for a while, staring blankly at Tang Xiu without blinking his eyes. When he came back to his senses, he didn't see the slightest joy and excitement. He just lowered his eyelashes silently and said, "I Got it, I won't press any more," she gently stroked her lower abdomen without making a sound.
He doesn't dare to communicate with people now, and he can stay by himself as much as possible, firstly because he is afraid of disturbing others and annoying others, secondly because he is very stupid in speaking and doing things, afraid of hurting others, or Bring them something bad.
Tang Xiu stroked his withered, yellow and soft hair, and said with a smile: "The fish fry are still there, are you unhappy? Do you still miss A Sheng?"
Hearing Gu Yansheng's name, the ignorant Shen Kanyu who just woke up finally had some strong reactions. He murmured "Asheng" several times, and then grabbed Tang Xiu's sleeve with a pale face: "Brother Axiu, is Asheng injured? My mother... did my mother... hurt him? Where is he?"
Tang Xiu was stunned for a moment, and quickly said: "No, he just..."
Before he finished speaking, he saw Gu Yansheng standing at the door. He was about to tell Shen Kanyu, but Gu Yansheng shook his head, motioning him not to speak.
"Then is he angry? I remember that I bleed a lot..." Shen Kanyu raised his hand and touched the wound that had been wrapped in gauze. Heart-piercing scenes emerged clearly in the hospital corridor. He was anxious His eyes were red and he spoke incoherently, "Did I stain the clothes that Ah Tong gave him? Brother Ah Xiu, he may... don't want to see me anymore, can you say sorry to him for me? Then, then ask Can he give me the clothes, I can wash them clean, I have washed them many times before, and they are all very clean, no blood can be seen."
Since he suffered from heart and stomach problems, he has coughed up blood and vomited blood many times. He always has tissues on his body, and sometimes it will get on his body when he has no time to cover it. If it happened in the middle of the night, and I couldn't get up because of sweat and heavy clothes, I would vomit on the quilt in a daze. He didn't have many clothes to wear, and only a thin quilt, so he tried various methods to clean up all the blood.
Tang Xiu heard something was wrong, and asked suspiciously, "Why do you wash bloody clothes so many times?"
Shen Kanyu didn't understand what Tang Xiu wanted to ask, he just thought that he might not believe in himself, and just repeatedly assured that he could really clean it up, and refused to answer his question.
Tang Xiu could only express that he believed he could clean it first, and then asked him: "Are you often injured, blood stained your clothes, or did you vomit blood because of some discomfort... or both?"
Shen Kanyu still didn't understand Tang Xiu's intention, just looked at him blankly and nodded.
Tang Xiu frowned: "Haven't you even thought about going to the hospital? Doesn't it hurt?"
Shen Kanyu shook his head: "I'm not afraid of pain."
Tang Xiu couldn't believe it: "Aren't you afraid of vomiting blood?"
"This... it's not contagious, you don't need to go, it will be fine in a few days... the cold and fever will go away! That is easily contagious... it can't be contagious," Shen Kanyu smiled palely, "the hospital is too expensive. The money for a bottle of water...you can buy a lot of fruit."
Gu Yansheng took a deep breath, and then let it out with difficulty. He remembered that his forehead was injured before, and he was worried that he had tetanus, so he wanted to take him to the hospital. He also said the same thing, "it will not be contagious."
Shen Kanyu's criterion for judging whether to go to the hospital is whether the disease is contagious.
Tang Xiu had an incredulous expression on his face: "You are an anchor, how can you be short of money?"
"I want to save money for Asheng and Tiantian, and..." Shen Kanyu's eyes darkened, and he didn't say who else, "I don't know anything except playing games to make money. I want to buy more things for them , fruit, food, clothes, etc., but... the things I make are not good, and they don't like to go home to eat, and the fruit and food are often spoiled... and they don't like to wear the clothes I buy-I can't choose well Good-looking, not picky... I can't do it well... "
He remembered that in the past, he always prepared a table full of meals with great interest, waiting at home and waiting for a call from Gu Yansheng not coming home for dinner, and he just stood in front of the table in a daze to watch the food get cold. I miss Gu Yansheng terribly.
He thought about the reason why he didn't like to go home to eat, whether it was because he didn't cook well, or whether it was because he always liked to hang around the dining table when he was eating.
But he can see him too little in a day, he just wants to see him more, and really miss him every day.
He remembered that every time he bought thick winter clothes for Asheng and Tiantian, he hung them in a place within reach before they went out, and repeatedly reminded them to dress warmly, but when they left home, they never picked them up. over the thick coat he had prepared.
He used to have the cheek to force Tiantian to wear a warm cotton padded jacket. When Song Li saw it, he took it off for his granddaughter with disgust, saying what age it was, and someone bought such an ugly big padded jacket for a little girl to wear.
He doesn't know how to choose nice clothes, he just thinks it's good to wear thick and warm clothes, he is afraid that it will be cold outside and they will get sick and catch a cold.
He is always so self-righteous, so he can't do anything well.
Shen Kanyu lowered his head and rubbed his eyes, his tone choked up slightly: "So, so I want to save money for them so that they can buy their favorite things. But I, I have been in the hospital for too long this time, and it may take I spent all the money I saved for them... Brother Axiu, when can I be discharged from the hospital, I want to see if there is any other way to make money, I don't want Asheng to waste money... "
Seeing that Gu Yansheng couldn't help but want to come forward, Tang Xiu gave him a vicious look to make him stop, then turned his head and whispered to Shen Kanyu, "Why do you think it's a waste?"
Shen Kanyu murmured: "I can't play games anymore... I'm... useless, and I can't take care of my children well. I don't even know... why A Sheng still cares about me. Every time I ask him if he needs me He won't tell me what to do."
When Tang Xiu heard him say "I'm useless", he felt a twinge of pain in his heart: "Little fish, you are not a tool, nor are you dispensable, you are indispensable to both A Sheng and Tiantian. Missing people. Haven't you noticed that Ah Sheng has been very nice to you recently? I swear to God, I have known him for so many years, and I have never seen him be so careful and patient with anyone, you are the first. "
"Asheng has always been very kind to me... recently, very good recently, really, but I..." Shen Kanyu closed his eyes in pain, and said with a choked voice, "I'm not worth it."
"You're worth it." Gu Yansheng couldn't control it anymore, trembling with a hoarse voice.
Shen Kanyu's thin back trembled, and then turned his head stiffly.
Seeing his pale face, the thick gauze on his forehead, and the red rabbit eyes filled with water, Gu Yansheng stared blankly at him trembling for a long time but never called out "A Sheng", and couldn't hold back anymore. Unable to control the emotions in his heart, he stepped forward to caress the back of his head, covered his eyes, then bent down and kissed his bloodless, cold and dry lips.
He only kissed lightly, and he was afraid of scaring Shen Kanyu, so he kissed him lightly, then hugged him, and whispered in his ear: "I was too nervous just now, maybe I didn't make it clear."
He paused, and said softly but clearly in a whisper: "You are worth it."
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Gu Xiaohulu: Boom, papa didn't want me before I was born.
Tang Xiu: Did you agree not to eat dog food? ? God spare who! ! !