After Shen Kanyu repeatedly promised that she would not leave again, Gu Yutian's emotions were calmed down, but she still stuck to Shen Kanyu and refused to be hugged by others.
It's fine to hug her, but she insisted on Shen Kanyu feeding him. Gu Yansheng was so angry that he was the one holding and protecting the precious porcelain, and he couldn't bear to be bullied by this little girl endlessly.
But Song Li was still at the side, and Shen Kanyu looked happy and attentive. He really had nowhere to vent his anger, so he could only sit aside and help Shen Kanyu from time to time, and then silently thought about how to go back. Clean up Gu Yutian.
Song Li still doesn't like to talk to Shen Kanyu very much, but at least she doesn't like cynicism as much as before - she doesn't have much chance to cynicize, Gu Yansheng sees that her expression is wrong or her tone is sharp, and she will put vegetables in her bowl, saying Mom, eat more .
After blocking his mother's mouth, Gu Yansheng picked out light and delicious dishes and fed them to Shen Kanyu. Shen Kanyu said no many times, but he was too busy feeding Gu Yutian to refuse him, so he could only subconsciously open his mouth and eat. He chewed ignorantly, his thin cheeks sticking out like a rodent, and said thank you A Sheng vaguely while chewing.
Gu Yansheng stared at his face for a while, and wanted to lean over to kiss him, but his mother and daughter were both there, so it didn't seem good. He didn't care, but he was afraid that the fish would be scared out of his wits, so he could only swallow his saliva and continue eating depressed.
He felt aggrieved like never before.
—
Shen Kanyu fed Gu Yutian a bowl of cod porridge with mushrooms, told Gu Yansheng, and went to the bathroom alone.
Before leaving Gu Yansheng's sight, he walked steadily all the time. After confirming that he would not see himself again, his steps became more hasty and chaotic.
Pushing open the bathroom door, he suddenly bent down and vomited most of what he had just eaten mixed with bile and blood.
The vomiting was too violent. He coughed while vomiting, and couldn't breathe. His eyes turned black and his soles felt weak.
Almost all the food he ate was emptied, so he couldn't hold back and fell to the ground. His chest was so painful that his throat seemed to be blocked, and it became more and more difficult to breathe. Every blow seemed to tear the entire chest cavity apart. open.
He really had no choice but to take out the small bottle of portable oxygen that he secretly hid in the inner pocket of his coat, put the mask on his face, and pressed the pump head with trembling hands several times with difficulty, sucking in big mouthfuls. Oxygen is expelled from it.
A bottle of oxygen is not cheap, and he didn't dare to inhale too much. After taking four or five mouthfuls, although he was still wheezing and coughing badly, it wasn't that uncomfortable anymore, so he put it away and put it back in his pocket .
Pressing his chest that was still throbbing with pain, he looked up at the snow-white ceiling, in front of his eyes, like a film, the various pictures just now kept appearing, he saw Tian Tian smiling at him, seeing her clenching himself The fleshy little hands of the clothes, he saw Ah Sheng's eyes so gentle that his nose turned sour, he saw the shrimps and baby vegetables he put into his bowl.
His sweet, crisp and immature voice kept ringing in his ears, calling his father, father, and Gu Yansheng's soft words in his ears, one after another, asking him to eat more. Now he is not alone. people.
He stretched out his hand to try to touch those illusory lights and shadows, his lavender lips slowly curved, outlining an arc of satisfaction and even happiness.
Those scenes that he didn't dare to dream of in his dreams before, can actually become reality. He knew that all of this would end in the near future, but he still felt extremely happy now, so happy that he would pinch himself from time to time to see if he was dreaming.
God must have dozed off, or he was too old and dim-sighted to recognize him as a disaster, otherwise how could he give such a great favor to a person like him.
If that's the case, he wishes he could sleep a little longer, he won't ask for more, and he'll try not to be like a catastrophe who constantly troubles others.
The smell of shiitake mushrooms and cod, one is rich and mellow, the other has a faint smell of sea fish. He felt sick to his stomach and wanted to vomit all the time when he smelled it, but he held back all of them and didn't attack them in front of them, and didn't even let them Seeing that something was wrong, Tiantian vomited after feeding the porridge to Tiantian. He would clean up the place in the bathroom that he had soiled before leaving after a while.
He should be doing well, and he will work harder in the future, and he will definitely do better and better.
So... just give him a little more time.
Can you.
He raised his hand and covered his eyes with his arm, and his sleeve was soaked silently by some kind of warm and salty liquid.
Asheng, Tiantian, I really like you guys, I love you guys very much, thank you for giving me the chance to correct, and for being so kind to me.
Can you, don't go too fast, don't drive me away too fast, I will try my best to do everything well, please stay a little longer.
Just give me a little more time, please.
—
When Shen Kanyu came out of the bathroom, he saw Song Li approaching him.
He stared at her blankly, didn't know where to put his hands and feet, so he stood there and called auntie.
Song Li looked him up and down, frowned and said: "I don't think there's anything wrong with you, you should leave the hospital as soon as possible. It's too exaggerated to lie in the hospital for a month."
Shen Kanyu nodded in a daze: "I see, I will talk to the doctor later, if possible, I will..."
"I heard from Asheng, are you pregnant again?" Song Li interrupted him, turned on the tap, and said like gossiping, but he couldn't hide the doubt in his tone, "I know the relationship between the two of you, Ah Sheng will never take the initiative to touch you, did you play some other tricks to make him obey you like this?"
Shen Kanyu's hands hanging by his side trembled slightly, and he opened his mouth with a pale face, but he didn't say anything, he just shook his head.
Song Li took a step closer, stared into his eyes and asked, "Then this child belongs to our family, Ah Sheng?"
Shen Kanyu still couldn't say a word, his hands trembled more and more, he grabbed the corner of his clothes and nodded slightly.
Song Li could see that he was trembling, but he didn't speak, so he pretended that he was guilty, so he sneered and said: "Is it true? Wait for the amniocentesis in four months to find out. If not, I don't think so. You should get a divorce too."
"Yes... yes, I have an agreement... I have it here," Shen Kanyu said awkwardly. The agreement that was thrown into the trash can by Gu Yansheng before, he actually picked it up again, and he thought he would use it sooner or later, so he put it away, "It's also okay... don't be so troublesome, I heard, I heard that the two people are separated. If it's been a year, you can... terminate the relationship, I'll go directly... that's fine, it's okay."
Song Li was almost pissed off by him: "Aren't you admitting that this child is not Ah Sheng's?"
"No, I..." Shen Kanyu hurriedly shook his head to deny, but his mind was in a mess and he couldn't speak clearly, which made Song Li impatient.
"Okay, everything will be clear after the puncture. Besides, this thing—" Song Li took out a beautifully packaged box from his bag.
Shen Kanyu recognized at a glance that it was a birthday present for A Sheng before he left home.
"I suggest you take this thing back. In our hometown, it is extremely unlucky to give clocks and watches on birthdays. I think this is not just our custom. Everyone should know that this is a taboo. You should keep it for you. Do it yourself." Song Li looked at him coldly, with vigilance and disgust in his eyes.
Shen Kanyu's face was extremely pale, he looked at the box blankly, then at Song Li, his chapped lips trembled for a while, and murmured: "I'm sorry, auntie... I don't know..."
Song Li sneered, his eyes full of disdain. I don't know what kind of tricks he is playing. He used to be so eloquent that he could say ten words, but now he pretends to be pitiful for someone to see. Anyway, she doesn't want to see: "Okay, don't pretend, take it back quickly."
Shen Kanyu stretched out his hand, his fingertips trembling violently, and he couldn't quite see the exact location of the box—he couldn't eat, and his blood sugar was too low.
The light in the bathroom was warm, Song Li couldn't see that his face was so pale that it was almost transparent, but he saw him trembling non-stop, still thinking that he was guilty, so he pressed the box into his hand irritably.
Shen Kanyu squeezed his fingers hard, but still couldn't catch it, the box fell to the ground, and all the contents fell out.
A watch, a pink bank card, and a piece of paper.
The entire surface of the watch was shattered because the surface of the watch fell to the ground.
Song Li didn't expect this to happen, she froze on the spot, looking at Shen Kanyu a little at a loss.
Shen Kanyu supported the sink and squatted down slowly, groped to pick up the watch, and gently wiped off the dust on it.
Song Li didn't know why he was groping around on the ground, he wasn't blind, and the light here was very bright. But when he squatted down, she suddenly felt that even with such thick clothes on, the child was still shockingly thin, not the stature that a pregnant person should have at all.
Seeing that he couldn't touch the piece of paper after touching it for a long time, she couldn't help but stepped forward to help him, but she didn't expect his hand to change position suddenly, and her heavy heel just crushed him hands.
For a moment, she seemed to hear the sound of bones breaking, which made her scalp tingle.
Shen Kanyu shuddered from the pain, and knelt down on the ground exhausted, with a short and hasty whimper that was extremely suppressed from his throat.
—
When Gu Yansheng brought Gu Yutian over to see this scene, his heart instantly exploded in crushing pain.
Gu Yutian burst into tears with a "wow", and rushed over to push Song Li away: "Grandma is bad! Why did you step on Dad! Grandma is so bad!!!"
Song Li was also frightened, swallowed his saliva and said with difficulty: "Grandma didn't do it on purpose..."
Gu Yansheng couldn't control Gu Yutian or Song Li, he stretched out his hand to help Shen Kanyu up, but as soon as he touched him, he shrank his body into a ball in horror, trembling as if falling into an ice cave, hoarse With a bloody voice, he said vaguely and chaotically: I know I was wrong, and I will never do this again.
Gu Yansheng carefully wrapped him in his arms, and repeated softly in his ear: Don't be afraid, it's me.
"...A Sheng?" Shen Kanyu gave up protecting himself and let Gu Yansheng hold her.
"It's me, I'm here." Gu Yansheng hugged him tightly.
"A Sheng..." He grabbed his clothes, like a drowning man grabbing the water plants on the bank, choked up slightly, and called his name over and over again.
"I'm here." Gu Yansheng answered him patiently and gently over and over again.
He is really going crazy.
He thought he made it very clear to his mother that he liked Shen Kanyu and wanted to spend the rest of his life with Shen Kanyu. There were many misunderstandings in the past, and he didn't want to pursue it anymore.
He thought his mother believed it.
Just now he felt that Shen Kanyu had been in the bathroom for too long, so he wanted to come over to have a look, but his mother said that she happened to be going to the bathroom too, so he asked him to take care of Tiantian, and she could just come and find Shen Kanyu.
He actually let Shen Kanyu face her alone.
He didn't dare to think about what she had said to Shen Kanyu. If he just stepped on his hand, he wouldn't be so afraid.
Gu Yansheng lowered his head and saw that Shen Kanyu was holding a brand new watch in his hand, but the glass on the surface was shattered to pieces. On the ground was a pink bank card that looked very old, and a piece of crumpled paper. It depicts an adult leading a little girl, with a small black dot in the upper right corner and a line written by Shen Kanyu at the bottom.
[A Sheng, I wish you a happy birthday.]
Gu Yansheng's mind was immediately confused, and he couldn't figure out what happened in the middle for a while, so he just picked up all those things, looked up at Song Li, and said hoarsely: "Mom, maybe you didn't pay attention to what I said, so You also have no way to understand how important he is to me. I didn't think about it, I won't bring him to see you again, and please don't take the initiative to appear in front of him again. "
The meaning of clearing the boundaries in these words is too clear, Song Li said in a panic: "A Sheng, calm down first..."
"I am not calm, I am not calm when I bring him out to see you," Gu Yansheng interrupted her coldly, stood up and took two steps with Shen Kanyu in his arms, then stopped suddenly, took a deep breath and then slowly He spit it out, his voice trembling, "I told you clearly, he is pregnant, he is not in good health, pregnancy is really hard and dangerous... I don't know how you can bear it."
"Asheng—"
"You take Tiantian away first. Next time I will ask a friend to pick her up. Don't worry about your running around."
He was really distressed to the point of going crazy.
The person he held in his hands was afraid of being melted, and it was fine if others didn't cherish it, and threw him to the ground without hesitation.
Shen Kanyu's left hand is densely covered with scars, bruises are hard to remove, and the phalanges are twisted. When the weather is cold, the ten fingers and the heart are piercingly painful. Gu Yansheng rubbed medicine on it and massaged it with hot compresses every day, and it has just improved a little bit. Although it is still not flexible, at least it won't make him so painful that he can't sleep.
Even if Song Li didn't know this, so many scars on that hand were visible to the naked eye, and the fingers were so pale and thin, as if they would break if they were lightly folded. Gu Yansheng was afraid of hurting him when holding it, how could she bear it? Stepped on it.
He felt that he might never be able to forgive in his life, even if that person was his biological mother.
He will never give him to anyone again.
—
Shen Kanyu had a low-grade fever, leaned on Gu Yansheng's arms in a daze, sweating intermittently, his lips were chapped and his forehead was hot, but his palms were unbearably cold.
He gripped his watch tightly, refusing to let Gu Yansheng take it out, and kept apologizing to him in a daze, saying that he didn't do a good job today.
He said he vomited everything he ate, the child must be starving in his stomach, and he didn't take good care of the child.
He said that he had made his aunt angry again, and he had tried to say as little as possible because he was afraid of making her angry, but she was still angry.
He said that he really didn't know that clocks and watches cannot be given on birthdays, and he will definitely not do this again next time.
He said he would change, and begged him not to drive him away now, but to give him another chance.
Gu Yansheng lowered his head and kissed his gray and cold lips gently, and said hoarsely, "It's not your fault, it's because I didn't take good care of you."
He wanted to hail a taxi, but it was too close to the hospital, and the driver was unwilling to pick it up. Fortunately, he met Tang Xiu who was off work.
Tang Zhen was in the back seat, and when she saw Gu Yansheng put Shen Kanyu in, she quickly and cautiously stretched out her hand to meet him, and then couldn't help saying: "Brother, Xiaoyu is so light, maybe not as heavy as me."
Tang Xiu gave a somewhat uncomfortable "hmm" and checked Shen Kanyu briefly. He confirmed that there was no major problem other than a low fever, and then looked at Gu Yansheng: "What's going on? Didn't you come out to see Tiantian, who bullied him?" gone?"
Gu Yansheng sat in, let Shen Kanyu lean on him, and said in a hoarse voice: "My mother didn't know what she said to him... and stepped on his hand, the left hand."
Tang Xiu returned to the driver's seat and started the car. He reversed the steering wheel and asked, "Is your brain flooded, or is your battery missing, or is your ass installed backwards? Let him be alone with your mother? You don't know what state he is in right now. ? And you really think you can change your mother's life just by saying a few words... "
Tang Zhen said angrily, "Brother!"
Tang Xiu swallowed the more serious words, glanced at Gu Yansheng, and said coldly: "If you treat the delicate koi like loach and keep them barren, I deserve to love you to death."
Gu Yansheng didn't say a word, just hugged Shen Kanyu who had fallen asleep, and gently held his trampled left hand in his palm.
Tang Zhen stroked Shen Kanyu's soft and yellowed hair, sighed and said, "Brother, why do you think Aunt Song has the heart? Xiaoyu is so cute, if I have such a cute brother, I will hold him in my arms every day Rubbing your face to play."
Tang Xiu murmured, "You have an older brother, so don't worry about your younger brother all day long."
"That's different, you're not cute," Tang Zhen glared at him, "I'm serious, if he was my younger brother, if he was born in our family, he would definitely be the most favored little baby in the family. Dad likes this kind of cute baby the most." Good and cute kid."
Tang Xiu laughed out loud: "That's right. Then you let Young Master Gu borrow you for a few days?"
"No." Gu Yansheng finally spoke out, and refused very resolutely.
I don't know why, this "don't" made Tang Xiu want to laugh very much, the anger just now disappeared instantly, and he even wanted to tease Gu Yansheng: "Why are you so stingy, I will give it back to you when you gain weight."
"No," Gu Yansheng said sullenly, wrapping Shen Kanyu's coat tighter, "I will never hand him over to anyone again."
This time it's not just Tang Xiu, Tang Zhen also finds this kid's proclamation that he monopolizes his favorite toy very funny: "Okay, okay, I won't compete with you, you can raise it yourself."