Unspeakable

Chapter 38

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After seeing Gu Yutian, Shen Kanyu recovered faster than before, and the injury to his left hand was not as serious as imagined.

On the day he was discharged from the hospital, he was just three months pregnant. The results of the first obstetric examination showed that the fetus had no other problems except that it was a little small.

However, Shen Kanyu's condition is not very good. His heart failure has not improved, his stomach has slight inflammation, and his lumbar muscle strain is also very serious. These will increase his burden as the pregnancy progresses. Early caesarean section.

"Is he a midwife? Has he ever given birth to a child before?" The obstetrician pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, looking at Shen Kanyu's various inspection reports, his expression was not very relaxed.

"Yes." Gu Yansheng replied.

"After giving birth, you probably didn't have a good confinement period, plus long-term malnutrition, and the uterine wall is relatively thin," the doctor said. It's hard."

He pondered for a while, then slowly said: "So I suggest that it is best to terminate the pregnancy."

Terminating a pregnancy is easier said than done.

Without this child, Shen Kanyu might not be able to survive. He had a severe morning sickness reaction, but he still worked hard to eat for the sake of the child; because there are many contraindications to pregnancy medication, he silently endured various physical discomforts without making noise.

When Gu Yansheng returned to the ward, Shen Kanyu was packing up his things with great interest. He tried to mention this matter to him, but just as soon as he mentioned the child, his dark eyes gathered light, and he said with a smile: "A Sheng, today's little girl The gourd has grown a little more.

Little Gourd was named by Tang Xiu, and Shen Kanyu liked this name very much, so he kept calling Little Gourd Little Gourd all day long.

He took the desk calendar that the little nurse gave him, and circled the expected date of delivery on it, saying that the little calabash will be born in the fall of next year, and it is very likely to be Qixi Festival, which is a very romantic day.

Gu Yansheng is a bit strange, because Shen Kanyu actually has no idea about most festivals. Except for the Spring Festival and Mid-Autumn Festival when the family is reunited, the most important days in his world are his and Gu Yutian’s birthdays, which are mentioned several months in advance every year. "Your birthday is coming up", and then every now and then I'll ask them what they want.

So Gu Yansheng asked him half-jokingly and half-seriously: "You also know that Qixi Festival is very romantic?"

Shen Kanyu nodded vigorously, with bright eyes, showing an expression like a child showing off his newly acquired knowledge: "I know! Qixi Festival is my brother's birthday. Every year, my parents celebrate it for him. Later, many of his friends will also celebrate it. Come to accompany him... and his girlfriend, I call her sister-in-law, she prepares special romantic surprises for my brother every year."

At this time, his mind was very clear, and he told Gu Yansheng one by one with his fingers, what surprises his brother's girlfriend did for his brother.

Halfway through the speech, he suddenly realized that Gu Yansheng didn't say anything, so he stopped talking, scratched his head and looked at Gu Yansheng cautiously: "I'm sorry, Asheng, am I too noisy..."

Gu Yansheng shook his head: "It's okay, I'll just listen."

"I, I don't mean anything else," Shen Kanyu explained softly, his face a little pale, "I just think... Qixi Festival should be a very good festival, and children born on this day... will be very happy."

He did not do well, and he will not have the opportunity to raise the little gourd in the future. We can only pray that he can be born on a happy day like his brother, and that he will be happy for the rest of his life.

Several times, he wanted to ask Gu Yansheng if he could hug Little Gourd before leaving after he was born, but every time the words came to his lips, he didn't dare to ask.

Ah Sheng has been very kind to him, he already has a lot, so he can't be so greedy anymore.

Gu Yansheng hesitated again and again, but still tentatively said: "Actually, the expected date of delivery for this child may not be so accurate... The doctor said that your uterine wall is too thin, and you may have a premature delivery or an early cesarean section."

Shen Kanyu immediately said: "That's okay, it doesn't matter, there is no need for a caesarean section, that is very expensive... I will give birth to him, and I will work hard."

Gu Yansheng looked at his eager and flattering eyes like a stray dog picked up by someone, touched the back of his head with a sour nose, and sighed in a low voice: "I'm just afraid that you won't be able to bear it... It's very hard."

He hadn't seen him look so hopeful about the future for a long time, and he really didn't dare to imagine the consequences of talking to him like this about killing the child.

"Silly Asheng," Shen Kanyu laughed, his lips were pale, but his eyes were bright, "I have experienced it once, how hard it is, it will only be easier than before!"

Speaking of before, Gu Yansheng became more and more uncomfortable: "It was my fault before that I didn't accompany you."

"Ah?" Shen Kanyu looked at him in confusion, and was still packing his things, "Why do you want to accompany him? No, and this time I don't need it. I'm more experienced than last time, it's okay!"

"I'll be with you," Gu Yansheng said softly, but firmly. He watched Shen Kanyu put an orange peel in a plastic bag into his bag, and stopped him with a frown, "What are you doing with this?"

Shen Kanyu's hands trembled, trying to pull the orange peel out of Gu Yansheng's hand, but his strength was no match for him.

He was a little anxious, and begged Gu Yansheng softly: "A Sheng, please give me this, I want..."

"Don't pull it too hard," Gu Yansheng frowned, "I can give it to you, but tell me why you keep it?"

"This, this orange, you peeled it for me..." Shen Kanyu didn't dare to pull any more, fearing that the bag would be damaged, so he lowered his head and murmured, "I want..."

Seeing that his eyes were a little red, Gu Yansheng realized that his tone was a little aggressive just now. He wanted to say sorry, but he had already been frightened.

"I want this... this is what you gave me..."

The mangosteen shells that A Sheng peeled off for him, he obviously preserved them in vacuum bags, but they still seemed to be slowly breaking down.

Maybe he really... can't keep anything, but he's still getting more and more insatiable.

But he still wants it very much, otherwise, if he leaves in the future, the mangosteen shell will be broken, and he really doesn't have anything that has Gu Yansheng's aura, what will he do when he misses him.

Shen Kanyu lowered his head and rubbed his eyes, brave enough to continue begging Gu Yansheng: "Asheng...can you give this to me? I don't want it in the future, okay? Give me this..."

Gu Yansheng couldn't hear his meowing voice the most. Although he didn't mean to act like a baby, and he was too stupid to act like a baby, but it was much more lethal to him than Gu Yutian's acting like a baby.

"Here you are." He surrendered helplessly.

"Thank you, A Sheng!" Shen Kanyu happily took the orange peel, smiled gratefully at Gu Yansheng, smoothed the bag evenly, and carefully put it into his bag.

Gu Yansheng looked at him as if he had found a treasure, and sighed helplessly.

He couldn't bear to have to compete with a mangosteen shell every day, so he secretly poked a hole in the vacuum bag so that it would break.

Unexpectedly, after the mangosteen shell, he would compete with the orange peel again.

He was still depressed, but he heard Shen Kanyu's voice trembling and flustered beside him, muttering in a low voice, "Why did the one who was clearly here disappear?"

"Cough, is it this?" Gu Yansheng coughed, and pulled up his suit sleeve, revealing a watch. The surface that was shattered into snowflakes was repaired at some time. It looks brand new and bright, and the dial is deep. Pure sapphire blue, filled with thousands of stars.

Shen Kanyu opened his eyes wide, looked at his watch in disbelief, and then at Gu Yansheng, his heart almost stopped beating, and he opened his mouth for a long time before making a sound: "This... this... what are you doing?"

Gu Yansheng took it for granted, "Isn't this your birthday present to me? I..."

"No... no!!" Shen Kanyu anxiously covered Gu Yansheng's mouth, cold sweat broke out on his forehead, "This is unlucky... it can't be given as a birthday gift, Asheng, take it off, take it off..."

Gu Yansheng was very surprised by Shen Kanyu's movement of covering his mouth, and felt that his stammering but still trying to speak was extremely cute, so he grabbed his wrist, pulled him into his arms, and rubbed him Hair: "There is nothing auspicious or unlucky, I like it and it is a good gift."

"Not good..." Shen Kanyu looked down at the watch and murmured. He looked at the vast galaxy on the dial and felt that it was like a bottomless black hole, which made him feel helpless and panicked.

It's not the watch's problem, it's his problem. He is a disaster star, and what he gives to others will always bring bad luck to others. His self-righteous contribution is always causing pain to others.

"That bank card is...cute," Gu Yansheng thought of the vulgar pink card face, and couldn't help laughing, "I won't move the money, but I'll accept the card—and then can you explain this painting?"

Gu Yansheng took out the piece of paper and spread it out, fully revealing the clumsy and rough stick figure on it: an adult is holding a little girl by the hand, and there is a small black dot in the upper right corner.

"Is this me and Tiantian?"

With a pale face, Shen Kanyu nodded lightly, and whispered: "I drew a skirt for her... She is too young to wear a skirt now, and when she grows up, she will..."

Tiantian grows up and wears a little skirt. She must be the cutest and most beautiful little princess. At that time, she was the jewel in the palm of Ah Sheng. There was a little gourd who followed her and called her sister in a childlike voice, and there were many, many other girls. All of her friends will be by her side.

He wanted to see that picture very much, but he knew he had no chance, so he drew it.

It's a pity that he doesn't know how to draw, and the drawing is not good-looking at all. If Tiantian knows that he has made her so ugly, he will definitely be angry.

Gu Yansheng didn't know where he came from to see the dogmatic theory that two or three-year-old girls can't wear skirts, anyway, he didn't have any objection to what he said, so he smiled and said: "Well, you can choose for her when the time comes, and you like it." Let her wear what kind of skirt."

After a pause, he pointed to the black dot in the upper right corner: "This is?"

"Yes, it's dirty, it's dirty," Shen Kanyu said hastily, with a trembling ending, "It's meant to be wiped off... the dirty thing, I forgot to wipe it off... I repainted a picture later, but it didn't work. lost."

"You also know that this painting should be repainted? No one has painted it all," Gu Yansheng sighed, "Draw it now? I have a pen here."

"Okay~" Gu Yansheng didn't pursue the black spot any more, Shen Kanyu heaved a sigh of relief, took the pen handed by Gu Yansheng, and like a schoolboy obediently doing homework, he lay down on the paper and drew on the empty side of Gu Yansheng in the painting I drew a little boy, and drew the little girl's little skirt more finely and beautifully, and then erased the little black spot with the eraser at the other end of the pencil.

When Gu Yansheng saw his "masterpiece", he almost fainted: "What is this... what about you?"

When he said just now that he didn't draw a complete picture of people, his mind was full of Shen Kanyu, and he didn't remember the doll in his stomach at all. Now it's good, Shen Kanyu painted him.

"Me?" Shen Kanyu looked at Gu Yansheng, blinked slowly and blankly, "I don't need to..."

This is the most complete family of three. Ah Sheng has the son he wants, and Tian Tian has the younger brother he wants. This is complete, and it would be too redundant to draw him.

He also... doesn't deserve it.

Even as a star occupying only a small position, he is not worthy.

He once thought, if he died and was cremated, could A Sheng scatter his ashes in the backyard of his house, so that he might still be able to see them, but this was too troublesome for A Sheng, and he was too dirty, They must have been sick at the thought of him in the backyard.

You agreed to find a place to die secretly, and you can't go back on your word.

"What do you mean you don't need it?" Gu Yansheng sighed, and took his hand holding the pen, "Come on, I'll take you to draw."

He held his hand, and just as he put it on the paper to draw, he felt the back of his hand wet with some warm liquid.

Gu Yansheng was stunned for a moment, and as soon as he turned his head to draw out the paper, Shen Kanyu raised his inflexible left hand and rubbed his eyes vigorously, his body was tense and he did not dare to move.

"Don't wipe it, don't wipe it with your left hand," Gu Yansheng quickly pulled his hand down to protect it, and hugged his scrawny body into his arms, "It's okay, it's okay to cry, don't be afraid."

"Asheng, don't be so nice to me, I don't deserve it," Shen Kanyu refused to cry anymore, and sucked his nose hard to prevent his nasal and crying voice from being too heavy, and then begged Gu Yansheng seriously , "You know what kind of person I am. If you do this, I will... make progress, like before... Do many, many bad things... It's good that you are like before, it's good to be like before..."

"You haven't pushed your limits at all," Gu Yansheng said softly, "You are very obedient."

"I have..." Shen Kanyu gripped Gu Yansheng's sleeve anxiously, as if he wanted to tell him seriously about his advancement.

Knowing that he couldn't say anything, Gu Yansheng simply bent down and kissed his slightly parted pale lips.

Feeling that he wanted to struggle, Gu Yansheng hugged his soft waist, deepened the kiss gently but stubbornly, used his tongue greedily but carefully to warm the place it could touch, over and over again.

Shen Kanyu had never been kissed so delicately and tenderly before, and he couldn't move. His cheeks were hot, his heart was beating like thunder, and his whole body was limp, as if he was being lifted above the clouds, feeling like he was floating and weightless.

Knowing that he would be out of breath after kissing for too long, Gu Yansheng let go of his lips and kissed the tear stains on his face and the teardrops on his eyelashes. Once the wet lips sensed his weak and small response, they would intensify their lingering lingering with him.

Repeated this several times, Shen Kanyu couldn't stand it at all, and Gu Yansheng couldn't sit still when he was holding him, and let Gu Yansheng support him to fall limply on the bed, his panting became more and more severe, the sound was so strange that he wanted to cover his own mouth Mouth.

"Master, are you alright? I've been off work for half an hour—" Tang Xiu opened the door loudly, saw the scene in front of him, retreated like a ghost, and covered his ears with lightning speed. He stared at Tang Zhen's eyes behind him.

Tang Zhen: "...what are you doing?"

Tang Xiu frowned: "There is a pervert eating fish."

Tang Zhen rolled her eyes: "...I've seen it all. What happened to him kissing his wife? Why do you call him a pervert?"

Why don't you go crazy, make such a pure and lovely fish panting.

Tang Xiu said stubbornly: "Children can't watch."

"Ten minutes older than me?"

"Every second is big. If you have any dissatisfaction, just ask Dad why he gave birth to you later."

"..."