Shen Kanyu was so dazed by Gu Yansheng's kiss, he was in a daze for a long time after the thing was over, lying in Gu Yansheng's arms panting desperately, Gu Yansheng could hear his heart beating like a drum beating, it hit his chest hard pain.
Gu Yansheng reached out and touched his pink and tender face, it was very hot, but his reaction was as if Gu Yansheng's hand had burned him, and quickly buried his face in Gu Yansheng's arms, breathless Ken comes out.
Gu Yansheng said softly: "Okay, okay, I'm so ashamed. I broke my promise, next time I kiss you, I will tell you in advance, okay?"
Shen Kanyu didn't make a sound, but nodded obediently.
"We Xiaoyu are shy, so cute." Tang Zhen looked at the back of Shen Kanyu's soft and fluffy head and wanted to touch it, so she couldn't help reaching out and rubbing it. "Is this the first time?"
Shen Kanyu nodded again, raised his head as if he wanted to look at Gu Yansheng to speak, but when he saw Gu Yansheng's chin, he lowered his head nervously, twisted his fingers desperately, and murmured: "A Sheng, I didn't let you Others have touched it... Never, the child is yours too... "
"I know, I believe in you." Gu Yansheng pulled him into his arms, wrapped him more tightly in his arms, and comforted him gently.
Shen Kanyu lay in his arms, closed his eyes, and his eyelashes were wet silently, but he tried his best to hold back, not letting the warm and sour liquid inside flow down.
He is so happy.
So happy that it doesn't matter if you die immediately.
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Tang Xiu's car was already driving very smoothly, but Shen Kanyu was pregnant, and his body couldn't stand the bumps. After driving for a few kilometers, he vomited several times, and his face was all pale. The knife was twisted, and he even wanted Tang Xiu to turn around and go back to the hospital.
"Pregnancy is unavoidable, and only people with a particularly good physique don't vomit. You don't know what your wife's physique is?" Tang Xiu patted Gu Yansheng's shoulder comfortingly, "Going back to the hospital is just a different place to vomit. It's possible but unnecessary."
"..." Gu Yansheng didn't bother to talk to him, and silently fed Shen Kanyu with water.
Shen Kanyu was very physically exhausted, lying on Gu Yansheng's lap in a daze, unable to open his eyes, and murmured Gu Yansheng's name from time to time.
"I'm here, isn't it uncomfortable?" Gu Yansheng held his cold hand, and gently wiped off the fine beads of sweat on his face, "Hold on for a while, I'll be home soon, huh?"
"I'll get out of the car in a while... let's go..." Shen Kanyu opened his eyelids hard, panting and said with difficulty, "I'm wasting time too much...you guys go back first..."
Gu Yansheng held Shen Kanyu's hand, pressed the acupuncture point for anti-emesis, and coaxed: "There is no delay, we will be home as soon as you wake up from sleep, be good."
Shen Kanyu's spirit was extremely poor, but he still refused to sleep. For a while, he was afraid that he would accidentally vomit on Tang Xiu's car, and Gu Yansheng would drive the door to push him out when he found out that he was about to vomit; Gu Yansheng found a place to buy some delicious food for her; for a while, he was afraid that Song Li would be unhappy to see him go back, so he said that he could go back to the rental house, and he would go there when he needed him.
Gu Yansheng coaxed him patiently, and managed to coax him almost to sleep, but he was still in a state of half-dream and half-awake, as if a nerve was tense all the time. Once the car bumped, he would wake up with a start, but he couldn't fully wake up , just muttering nonsense, "I'll go, I'll go, I'll go now."
Gu Yansheng knew that this was a conditioned reflex caused by the deep-rooted memories of the past, and to a large extent it was caused by PTSD, but he still felt very distressed.
In the past, in order to make money, he spent many days and nights without sleep on the live broadcast. When he was tired, he would find a place wherever he could—as long as it was not a place where normal people would sleep, he could fall asleep sitting, squatting, lying down, But they all slept very lightly. Gu Yansheng wanted to carry him to the sofa or bed several times to sleep, but he would wake up instantly when he approached, and then get up in a hurry, repeating the phrase "I'll go, I'll go." Now go."
While waiting for the traffic light, Tang Xiu couldn't help asking Gu Yansheng: "Is he having a nightmare?"
Gu Yansheng didn't know how to answer.
Tang Zhen dug out her aroma diffuser, poured a few drops of sweet orange essential oil into it, and handed it to Gu Yansheng: "Ah Sheng, put this next to Xiaoyu, it's for calming the nerves and helping you sleep."
Gu Yansheng took it over and followed suit. Sure enough, after a while, Shen Kanyu fell into a deep sleep. His body was still subconsciously curled up into a small ball, with one hand across his abdomen to protect the small gourd, and the other hand to hold the pistol on Gu Yansheng's lap. Cloth still looks extremely insecure.
Gu Yansheng heaved a sigh of relief, tucked the blanket on him, thought for a while, picked up the coat that was put aside and wrapped him tightly, then reached out to cover his hand that was holding his trousers—that cold, hard hand covered with The scarred hand has caused irreversible damage after several bone injuries, and the phalanx and wrist can be seen to be slightly twisted.
Gu Yansheng protected it firmly, raised his head and asked Tang Xiu, "Are you busy at night?"
Tang Xiu shook his head: "What's wrong?"
"Then drive for a while, don't go home so quickly," Gu Yansheng said, "He finally fell asleep, let him sleep more."
Looking in the rearview mirror, Tang Xiu looked at Shen Kanyu sleeping soundly on Gu Yansheng's lap, with his small face and yellowed hair, his heart softened suddenly, and even his nose felt a little sore.
It's not easy for this child to sleep so peacefully.
He turned the steering wheel and drove in the opposite direction to Gu Yansheng's house, and said, "No problem, I'll take you for a ride, it's no problem to go to the ends of the world."
—
Shen Kanyu slept soundly this time, Gu Yansheng covered him tightly, and the heating in the car was turned on enough, so that his normally pale face was slightly pink, and his whole face looked like a pink bird. Pink and tender peaches.
Seeing that it was getting dark, although he slept soundly, he couldn't let him sleep like this, anyway, he wanted to get up to eat, so Gu Yansheng gently scratched his palm to wake him up.
Shen Kanyu's eyelashes trembled a few times before he struggled to open his eyes. Gu Yansheng reached out to block the light for him, and looked at the hazy mist in his wet eyes, which were ignorant but very clean, just like a newborn deer , crashed into the softest part of Gu Yansheng's heart.
Gu Yansheng pushed aside his messy forehead hair, leaned over and kissed his forehead lightly, and lowered his voice very softly: "Are you awake? Do you still want to sleep?"
"Hmm..." Shen Kanyu rubbed his eyes, and made the humming sound that people who just woke up would make, but Gu Yansheng just thought it was very cute.
Taking advantage of his confusion, Gu Yansheng hurriedly kissed him again, and then said softly: "It's too late, wake up and eat before going to sleep."
"Hmm—" Shen Kanyu opened his eyes and saw a night scene outside the car window. His brain was down for a few seconds, and he anxiously wanted to get up from Gu Yansheng, but his bones were so sleepy that he couldn't lift it up. strength.
Gu Yansheng helped him up: "What's wrong?"
Shen Kanyu once again confirmed that it was dark, and suddenly felt very sad and blamed himself: "I can't buy food...how can I cook for you..."
How could he sleep for so long...wasting everyone's time and leaving them all hungry.
Seeing Shen Kanyu's aggrieved look, Tang Xiu couldn't help laughing, "Don't be silly, my little baby. If your family, A Sheng, is willing to let you do housework again, I will write my name upside down. .”
Shen Kanyu's mind turned quickly, and turned into a dead end again: "...No, it doesn't matter, I will be very careful not to hurt the little gourd. I have been doing it before, when I was pregnant with Tiantian, no Something went wrong…”
Tang Xiu: ...
"It has nothing to do with the little gourd." Gu Yansheng pulled him into his arms, but found that his legs seemed to be numb, and he frowned from his thighs to his toes when he moved his body.
Before Shen Kanyu had time to think about why it had nothing to do with Xiao Hulu, he was taken aback by Gu Yansheng: "A Sheng, what's wrong with you?"
"It's okay." Gu Yansheng wanted to smile at him, but his legs were so numb that he couldn't control his expression at all.
When Shen Kanyu saw his hand pressing his knee, he immediately figured it out: "Is your leg numb? I'll rub it for you, I will!"
Now Gu Yansheng can't wait to hold him in his hand and protect him, he really can't bear to let him bother, especially his left hand has not fully recovered, but seeing his big eager eyes, he can't bear to refuse him and say no: "You take it easy... don't hurt your hands."
"I will massage," Shen Kanyu seemed not to have heard his words, put his hands on his legs and began to massage them with moderate strength and rhythm, "My brother is often sick and can't move in bed. Lying down, the blood does not circulate, the muscles may atrophy, I will give him a massage when I have the opportunity, he said it is very comfortable... Are you comfortable, A Sheng? If you are uncomfortable, tell me."
"It's almost there, don't press it anymore." Gu Yansheng felt that the numbness was not so severe, so he quickly pulled his hand up.
Shen Kanyu withdrew his hand and said stubbornly: "I'll rub it for you for a while... Your legs are still hard, and the blood hasn't flowed away yet, so it must still be uncomfortable... I'll help you, it's okay."
"It's really not necessary, it's ready," Gu Yansheng moved his leg, motioning him to look, "It's working now, no need to press it anymore."
"Oh... good." Shen Kanyu curled up his fingers and took his hand back.
Ah Sheng probably didn't like him touching him all the time.
While unconsciously twisting the fabric at the corner of his clothes, Shen Kanyu raised his head and smiled at Gu Yansheng: "Ah Sheng, I can do...a lot of things, cooking, massage, laundry... I can also repair some electricity and appliances, Those curtains and carpets that are difficult to wash, I can also wash... I have already thought about it. When I go back, I can help you with these. If, you don’t like what I do, I can, I can go to someone else’s house Do it, make money for you... ok?"
In fact, he didn't do these things very well. The best thing he did was playing games, but he knew that his left hand was no longer good enough. He couldn't even hold the bowl steadily when eating, as if there were many small bugs stuck in his bones. Bite, it hurts badly.
After helping Gu Yansheng to press his legs, his hands started to hurt again. He was a little worried that he would not be able to do these things until the baby was born: "I didn't sleep so long on purpose today to waste time, I will definitely do it next time." I can set the alarm clock and do what I need to do well... I, I... "
He was self-criticizing as if talking to himself, the more he talked, the more nervous he became, the more confused his mind became, and finally he could only look at Gu Yansheng with pleading eyes: "If I don't do well, tell me, A Sheng, I will definitely change it , the little gourd is born, don't... drive me away, I want to see, I want to see him... I want to see him."
—
He really wanted to see the little gourd. After seeing Tian Tian, he was more and more eager to see the birth of Xiao Hulu, and to see their family of three happily together.
He just wanted to take a look.
Don't be like when Tiantian was born, she was carried away before he even took a look.
At that time, Ah Sheng was very busy with work, so he also left.
In order to save a little money, he chose an ordinary small hospital with insufficient manpower, and the doctors and nurses were very busy. He wanted to see the child, but they responded perfunctorily and did not take care of him. Lying on the hospital bed, feeling very cold and wanting to sleep, I picked up the mobile phone that was placed aside, edited a text message and sent it to A Sheng.
[A Sheng, I feel a little cold, can you come back and hug me? I miss you again.]
He waited for a long time, but Gu Yansheng didn't return.
Without giving up, he edited another one.
[A Sheng, can you bring your child over to find me? I want to see you guys.]
Gu Yansheng still didn't reply.
He still didn't give up, he was still waiting, he felt that Ah Sheng would definitely bring the child back to him.
But he is getting colder and colder.
The lower body wrapped in the quilt seemed to be gushing out sticky and warm liquid uncontrollably. The more it flowed, the faster it flowed. The sheets gradually became soaked, and the smell of blood came to the nostrils.
He finally knew something was wrong, but he didn't have the strength to call the doctors and nurses, nor did he have the strength to stand up and ring the bell.
He clenched his phone tightly, desperately resisting the dizziness caused by excessive blood loss, and sent another text message to Gu Yansheng.
[A Sheng, I'm a little tired, let's sleep first, remember to wake me up when you come, please? I'll wait for you to come over.]
He didn't know if he pressed the send button, so he fell asleep so tired.
At that time, he thought that he would never see Ah Sheng and the children again, and he hadn't come home to make dinner for them, would they be hungry, would they blame him for being incompetent at all.
Before he completely lost consciousness, he was really scared. He was so scared that he tried to hold his eyelids and kept crying. He thought that if God could give him another chance, he would definitely reform himself, as long as he could see Ah Sheng and the child again, he would do anything.
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"If I don't drive you away, no one will drive you away." Gu Yansheng didn't think that sleeping for a long time would make him sad like this. After all, no one has ever said that he should go shopping for vegetables, but his mindset has already changed. That's it.
He hugged him and whispered in his ear: "No one will drive you away. You and I, as well as Tiantian and Xiaohulu, are going to be together for a lifetime. You just have to stay at home obediently." Just don’t run away, I’ll earn the money.”
Gu Yansheng's warm breath slammed into Shen Kanyu's side face one after another, making his eye sockets hot and sore, and those beautiful words that sounded like auditory hallucinations kept coming from his ears, making him feel less and less real. Can cautiously reach out and touch him.
Gu Yansheng held his pale and thin fingers, put them to his lips and kissed them lightly, bent his eyes towards him, and smiled gently from the tip of his brows to the corners of his lips.
"Asheng..." Shen Kanyu's eyes were red again, "I like you... I really like you..."
Gu Yansheng's smile became brighter, but the corners of his eyes were moist: "I know, I always knew."
"Don't leave." Shen Kanyu grabbed the corner of his clothes and begged in a low voice.
"Okay," Gu Yansheng leaned closer to Shen Kanyu's still pink face, and said softly, "If I don't leave, can you let me kiss you?"
You are really cute and lovely. Gu Yansheng shouted in his heart.
"Ah?" Shen Kanyu's eyes were still wet, but his face turned pinker. He quietly glanced at Tang Xiu and Tang Zhen in front of him, and reminded softly, "Brother and sister are still here."
"No, we're not here," Tang Xiu said decisively, "Please do as you please."
"Well, not here." Tang Zhen followed her brother's footsteps decisively.
"... Mmm!" Before Shen Kanyu could understand what they meant, Gu Yansheng had already supported his neck, leaned over and kissed his lips.
Shen Kanyu's body was very stiff at the beginning, Gu Yansheng bit his soft lips lightly, he let out a muffled grunt, and his whole body fell limp, and Gu Yansheng pressed him on the back of the seat and wiped it off without any resistance .
After being gnawed twice a day, Shen Kanyu's whole body was full of meat and vegetables. In addition, he vomited up all the food he ate, and his whole body started to suffer from hypoglycemia, and his stomach growled violently.
Tang Zhen couldn't help laughing out loud: "We Xiaoyu are hungry? What do you want to eat? Brother Axiu treats you."
Gu Yansheng hugged him and asked, "What do you like to eat? We'll take you there."
Shen Kanyu's face was still pink, he lowered his head and thought about it for a while, then whispered: "Sweet."
"Well," Gu Yansheng frowned, "Be more specific?"
Shen Kanyu thought for a while, and said: "Preserved egg porridge with lean meat, the kind with red dates and corn kernels..."
"It's so simple? Have you got rid of a bowl of porridge?" Tang Xiu smiled, "Okay, I know a place that has pretty good porridge, and there's a Jiangsu-Zhejiang restaurant next to it. The Longjing Shrimp, West Lake Vinegar Fish, Osmanthus Glutinous Rice and Lotus Root are all good. It’s fresh and sweet, and I’ll take you there.”
Seeing him foolishly nodding and saying thank you, brother, Gu Yansheng probably didn't know what those dishes Tang Xiu was talking about, and his heart began to feel sore again.
He asked him what he likes to eat, but he couldn't answer. If he was forced to tell, he would report what he and Gu Yutian liked to eat.
Before he asked what he likes to do, he said playing games, but he couldn't answer anything else.
He changed the way and asked him what he usually does.
He obediently counted them one by one with his fingers: cooking, shopping, washing clothes, picking up the children, paying utility bills and internet bills...
Shen Kanyu's entire life was handed over to him.
It was a heavy love that he could never repay for the rest of his life.