After Shen Kanyu was discharged from the hospital and returned home, she still had many habits that gave Gu Yansheng a headache.
Like not wanting to eat at the dinner table. After finally being coaxed to the dinner table, he refused to pick up any vegetables, and buried himself in drinking the light porridge in front of him, and waited until everyone else had finished eating, before he went to pick up the leftovers. He was very happy, his eyes were bright and bright.
For example, I can't sit still if I don't do housework. Nearly four months into his pregnancy, his stomach has begun to show its shape, and it is not very convenient to bend over. He still seizes the opportunity to mop the floor, wipe the windows, and wash the sheets. Then his back hurts so much that he can't straighten up. It hurts even to be hugged by Gu Yansheng gotta tremble.
What makes him most uncomfortable is that Shen Kanyu still has no sense of security. He lives like walking on thin ice every day, carefully pleasing the people around him. The bruised heart was handed over without reservation, trying hard to give them the last bit of effort.
Just like the countless cold winters when I was in school, Shen Kanyu, who didn't know that there was such a thing as "thermal underwear" in the world, always felt that Gu Yansheng would be cold if he wore so little, and he had to wear a lot of thick clothes to be warm, so he tried his best She stuffed her clothes for him. Gu Yansheng was so annoyed that he casually put it on for a while, and he didn't want it when he gave it back. As time passed, he didn't know where to throw it.
Later, Shen Kanyu's clothes became thinner and thinner. One winter, it started to snow at minus two degrees. Gu Yansheng saw him jumping around in school wearing a sweater, and couldn't help asking him if it was cold.
He jumped for a long time because he opened his mouth to care about him, and then he smiled and said that I am not afraid of the cold.
Mingming's lips were frost-white from the cold, their skin was dry and chapped and bloody, and his fingertips were so blue and white that there was no trace of blood. They were stiff and laborious when grasping things.
Gu Yansheng said again, you can't wear so little, don't you have too many clothes to wear
Shen Kanyu didn't seem to know how to answer his words, scratched his head and said with a smirk: "It's all over."
All his clothes were picked up from his brother's old and small clothes. When his brother's height and shape stabilized, he would no longer have any old clothes for him. He had already given Gu Yansheng the best and warmest clothes. , there was nothing he could do but learn to get used to the cold.
Even so, he still asked Gu Yansheng: A Sheng, are you cold? I'll bring you new clothes another day, okay
Without those clothes, Shen Kanyu shivered in the cold winter months, and never thought about adding a new dress to himself, but when he saw Gu Yansheng shivering, he used the money he earned from part-time work to buy warm clothes clothes for him.
This person has always loved him unreservedly in this extremely stupid way, and it has never changed.
But he could hardly find any of the clothes he gave him. Finally, I found one at the bottom of the cabinet in my hometown. In the inner pocket of the coat, there was still a bag of warm babies that had not been opened, but it had expired several years ago.
There is also a yellowed and wrinkled post-it note on the warm baby, on which is the immature and delicate font of Shen Kanyu's student days.
[A Sheng! I heard them say it works great! If you are afraid that my clothes are not clean, you don’t have to wear them, but this must be used!]
Looking at the note, Gu Yansheng recalled that no matter how much he scolded, beat, or chased him away, Shen Kanyu, who was always following behind him with a lively smile and bright eyes, couldn't help but get wet and hot.
He doesn't know how to feel wronged when he is bullied, and he doesn't know anything except being nice to others. He is really the stupidest kid in the world.
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After Shen Kanyu came back, Gu Yansheng was so busy that he had to go home every night and sleep with him. If he comes back too late, he will let him go back to the room to sleep first. He deserves to be very obedient and fast every time, but when he gets home, he still sees him sleeping on his daughter's bed, holding the child with one hand The corner of the quilt, afraid that she would kick off the quilt and catch cold, still holding a rolled up cotton padded jacket in her arms.
Those were the new clothes that Gu Yansheng bought for him. They were warm and thin. He obviously tried on a size that suited him better in the mall, but he insisted on buying them in Gu Yansheng's size, saying that it would be warmer to wear them bigger.
Gu Yansheng believed him at first, but later he knew it. Shen Kanyu still thought that these were not his clothes, and he would return them to him after all.
Because he never dared to wear it, he always rolled it into a soft ball, packed it in a plastic bag, and held it in his arms like a baby, pious but humble.
Tian Tian said that when Daddy was not at home, Dad would always hold this dress in a daze, sometimes laughing and sometimes crying.
Shen Kanyu really loves him, but he no longer dares to expect him to be close, as if just hugging what he gave him, he can spend the rest of his life with comfort.
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Gu Yansheng knew what Shen Kanyu was afraid of, so he could patiently accompany him and coax him. Seeing him smiling innocently and harmlessly at him with his eyes bent, he felt that everything was worth it.
But others don't know.
In their eyes, Shen Kanyu is a neurotic and idle lunatic.
When he goes out to take out the garbage, he can often hear neighbors pointing and pointing at him unfriendly.
"This little Shen is not far from mad, A Sheng is still protecting him."
"If you don't protect it, you have to protect it. You still have your own seed in your stomach."
"That's right, we have to wait until the baby is born."
"Get out as soon as you are born. Don't keep it for the New Year. It's unlucky to have a lunatic in the house."
Nestled in his arms, the daughter raised her clear and innocent eyes from time to time, and said pitifully: "Dad, Tiantian thinks you are different from before, can you be like before?... Tiantian doesn't like how you are now. "
Shen Kanyu knew that what they said was the truth, and he had already prepared himself mentally, so he would not be particularly sad, but every time he came to his senses, he looked down at his hands, which were always covered with mottled and messy bloodstains.
He told himself over and over that it was okay, recalling Gu Yansheng's warm smile and voice over and over again, but he did not collapse and lose control amidst these trivial discussions.
He needs to be stronger, and he can't cause trouble for Ah Sheng.
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Song Li had a panoramic view of all this. She couldn't figure out what was so good about Shen Kanyu that she could turn her own son against her. Although Gu Yansheng apologized to her afterwards, explained to her that she was too impulsive, and said that Shen Kanyu was so difficult, but she still found it incredible.
Did you work hard to make money before? Doesn't he know how to play games? What's so hard about playing games? Isn't he just playing in front of the computer every day? What a joy. Besides, Gu Yansheng earned back the money he earned from playing games for half his life in a few weeks.
Are you in poor health now? She didn't see much of it either. The housework is still very slippery, and I am very interested when playing with my daughter, and I am not bedridden.
Although Song Li couldn't figure out these things, she didn't have time to think about them carefully, because there were more important things waiting for her to do.
She put her granddaughter to sleep, and when she went to the kitchen to find Shen Kanyu, he was cooking a pot of soup.
Song Li walked over and asked, "What are you doing?"
Shen Kanyu was stunned for a moment, looked at her and blinked her eyes in a daze, and then said hoarsely after a while: "... brown sugar ginger soup."
Song Li raised his eyebrows: "Oh, boil it for yourself?"
"To A Sheng." It's been cold and rainy outside these few days, he was afraid that Gu Yansheng would catch the cold.
But to Song Li, he didn't dare to say so much, for fear of making mistakes.
"Is it ready?"
"Okay... Auntie, would you like a drink?"
"No, pack up and go to the hospital with me," Song Li lowered his head, looking at Shen Kanyu's swollen belly, "I have already made an appointment with the doctor. There are not many people doing amniocentesis today, so go early and return early." .”
"Okay." Shen Kanyu nodded, obediently extinguished the fire on the stove, followed Song Li out of the kitchen, packed up his things and prepared to go out.
His stomach is inconvenient, so he could only sit down and wear it slowly when wearing it. Song Li looked down at his bluish-white thin fingers struggling to put on his shoes, his slightly trembling black eyelashes, and the fact that he was pregnant and hadn't grown much. There was a strange feeling in the back of the two flesh.
After putting on his shoes, he followed Song Li, step by step, like a well-behaved child.
When he walked out of the stairs, Song Li was shivered by the cold wind outside, and a plastic bottle filled with brown sugar water appeared beside him, which was handed over by Shen Kanyu.
"Auntie, drink some, this can warm you up," Shen Kanyu said in a hoarse voice with lowered eyelashes, not daring to look directly at Song Li, "you won't be cold after drinking it."
Song Li stared blankly at the bottle of brown sugar water, not knowing when he secretly poured it, so he hesitated for a while before taking it.
Shen Kanyu smiled, his eyes were bright. His facial features are all good-looking, with a bit of immature youthfulness, and he smiles like an innocent child, which is quite pleasing.
This was Song Li's first time observing Shen Kanyu at such a close distance, and a part of her heart began to soften quietly, but she hadn't noticed it yet.
If only she had noticed it at the time, she would not have sent Shen Kanyu to sex again.
She drank the gum gum ginger soup, it was really warm and sweet, she couldn't help but drink a few more sips.
Shen Kanyu gently reminded her: Auntie, be careful.
Song Li let out a "hmm", and after pondering for a moment, he said: "I can actually see the current state of you and A Sheng. I don't know what you are doing. After racking your brains so hard to make him give up on you, Playing these little tricks again—your uncle provoked me back then, and I used these little tricks on him, but there is always a limit, and if you play too much, you will look like a crazy psycho."
Shen Kanyu lowered his head in a daze, and listened carefully to every word she said, holding his breath, all the thin blood on his face faded away, he raised his blue and white thin fingers, and rubbed his eyes vigorously.
Song Li continued on his own: "Ah Sheng is very busy at work, so he doesn't have time to coax you and accompany you like this every day, you have to have a sense of proportion, don't cause trouble for him all day, no one can bear it You, you know it yourself, even Tiantian can't stand you, saying you're weird—did you hear me?"
Shen Kanyu responded hastily: "Listen, I heard it."
"You'd better not put one ear in and one ear out, A Sheng won't be used to you all the time," Song Li said, "Let me tell you the truth, anyone will turn to their own flesh and blood relatives. I'm angry, isn't it okay now? Don't take yourself too seriously, you will fall badly."
"Auntie, you misunderstood..." Shen Kanyu's voice was very hoarse. He coughed a few times and felt a fishy sweetness in his throat. He swallowed, raised his head and smiled at Song Li, "Asheng is not because of me He is angry with you, he is afraid that something will happen to the child, he is not because of me. You have to, you have to trust him... You are a family, a family forever... "
He paused for a long time every time he said a word, carefully but laboriously considering every word of his own, for fear of saying something wrong: "You also... don't feel angry or unhappy because of me, it's not worth it... I … When the baby is born, I will go.”
"If the child really belongs to us, Ah Sheng, who will drive you away, don't act like a guilty conscience," Song Li glanced at his swollen belly, and whispered, "I don't know whose son this child is."
"It's A Sheng's." Shen Kanyu said softly, his arm was covered with bloodstains from his unconscious scratching.
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Because he had asked someone to take care of it in the hospital, Song Li took Shen Kanyu directly to the examination department.
The examining doctor looked at Shen Kanyu's previous examination report, and couldn't help but ask, "There are no problems with all your screenings. Why do you have to suffer the crime of doing sheep piercing?"
When Shen Kanyu heard the doctor's words, his eyelashes trembled a few times, and he looked up at her in a daze: "doing this...does it hurt?"
"It's like an injection, the pain will still hurt for a while, and generally speaking, it's still tolerable."
"No," Shen Kanyu shook his head with difficulty, "child, will the child hurt?"
The doctor laughed: "It won't hurt the child, don't worry."
Shen Kanyu laughed: "Okay."
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After Shen Kanyu finished the amniocentesis, Song Li could not be found. The doctor said she was waiting for the DNA test report.
Shen Kanyu sat on the bench and waited for a while, when the phone rang suddenly, it was Gu Yansheng calling.
"Don't be crazy when Ah Sheng calls you, don't let him hear that something is wrong."
Shen Kanyu firmly remembered Song Li's words, pressed the answer button, his gray lips wriggled with difficulty, and called A Sheng softly.
"Well, what are you doing?" Gu Yansheng's voice was smiling, warm and soft.
Shen Kanyu also laughed, trying to stabilize his voice that trembled slightly due to weakness: "I just finished breakfast and I was watching TV."
"Are you still throwing up?"
"Stop vomiting."
"What do you want for lunch?"
"Porridge."
"Drink porridge again?" Gu Yansheng smiled, "Okay, I'll bring it back for you later."
"Okay." Shen Kanyu obediently responded.
"There's a meeting, I'll call you later, huh?"
"Okay." Shen Kanyu's voice became softer and softer.
Hearing the busy tone from the other end of the phone, his fingers trembled a few times, but he couldn't hold the phone again after all.
His stomach hurts so much.
It's cold all over.
Warm and sticky liquid flowed out of his lower body silently.
He opened his mouth, but felt that it was extremely difficult for him to even breathe, and he had no way to call for help. He bit his lip with all his strength, brought back a little bit of his consciousness, then desperately stood up from the chair, and moved towards the crowded place with difficulty, but the strength in his body was quickly drained, and the black mist was heavy in front of him Press over.
"Kanyu! Shen Kanyu?!"
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Jiang Mo accompanied her sister for the prenatal checkup.
The moment he saw Shen Kanyu, he almost suspected that his eyes were blurred. When he saw him last time, he was not so thin and skinny, and his face was not as white as paper. When he picked him up, there was nothing in his arms—most importantly, he looked She was pregnant, but her lower body was dyed bright red.
On his thin gray wrist, there is a wristband that reads "Amniocentesis No. 16".
Jiang Mo hugged him and called the doctor while looking around, there was no Gu Yansheng, no one he knew who should be by Shen Kanyu's side at this time.
His older sister is in good health, and she was fat and fat during her pregnancy. It was just a routine check-up. When her brother-in-law had an emergency meeting, he asked him to accompany her throughout the whole process. He sent a WeChat message every few minutes to ask about the situation, which annoyed him very much.
Amniocentesis is an invasive examination, if there is any error, it is not an exaggeration to say that one dead body and two lives are not exaggerated. There is no one around Shen Kanyu, and his lips are so chapped that he bleeds, and no one gives him saliva or something. eat.
Jiang Mo watched Shen Kanyu being carried away by the emergency personnel, and looked at Shen Kanyu's blood on his hands and clothes, his hands trembled with anger, and his whole chest felt a dull pain.
He picked up Shen Kanyu's phone that had dropped on the ground, and found that just five minutes ago, Gu Yansheng had talked to him on the phone.
Shen Kanyu's note to Gu Yansheng has not changed for more than ten years - it is a symbol of a little sun.
Jiang Mo once asked him why he didn't note his name
He said that he didn't want to make the notes too unfamiliar, but if the notes were too close, Ah Sheng would be upset if he saw it.
He pressed the little sun and dialed Gu Yansheng's phone number.
As soon as the other side answered, he couldn't bear to curse: "Gu Yansheng, I'm fucking your mother, I don't care what you are doing, come to the Provincial People's Hospital within ten minutes, don't even catch up with your wife and children!!"
Tang Xiu, who was chatting with the beautiful lady in the obstetrics department, vaguely heard someone scolding Gu Yansheng, so he followed the source of the sound curiously, and was almost hit by a man with a livid face and broke his shoulder.
The man was obviously very angry, and hurriedly apologized to him. Before Tang Xiu could say that it was okay (in fact, he wanted to say cnm more), he left without looking back.
Tang Xiu clutched his shoulder in pain and almost lost his breath: "What the hell is this...Iron Man..."
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On the first reaction to picking up a dead fish.
Tang Xiu: Gu Yansheng, the fish you raised is dead and come back to catch it yourself!
Jiang Mo: Gu Yansheng, come here and collect the corpses of your wife and children!
Gu Yansheng: ...