"Abdominal pain and bleeding are caused by examination stimulation. There is nothing wrong with the puncture operation itself, largely because of his poor physical condition and unstable mental state," the nurse repeated the doctor's confession while hanging the water on Shen Kanyu, "said To put it bluntly, it’s scary.”
The nurse struggled to find a place where the needle could be inserted on the back of Shen Kanyu's hand covered with countless needle holes, and slowly inserted the needle into it. She couldn't bear it.
There was only a layer of skin left on the back of the hand, and it was full of needle holes. The needles almost pierced into the bones, which was really painful.
Shen Kanyu flinched in pain, and unconsciously groaned in his drowsiness.
Gu Yansheng quickly took his other hand, kissed his forehead, and kept softly comforting him. Shen Kanyu vaguely heard his voice, murmured his name, and then called Xiao Hulu.
Gu Yansheng whispered in his ear: "I am here, and the little gourd is also here, they are all here."
Shen Kanyu wrinkled his nose, his expression looked aggrieved, his eyelashes were wet, he groaned and said that he didn't want to get injections, and he didn't want to spend money.
Gu Yansheng coaxed: "You can only go home after the injection."
Shen Kanyu stopped making trouble this time, nestled obediently in Gu Yansheng's arms, and fell asleep again in a drowsy state.
Gu Yansheng heaved a sigh of relief, looked up and saw that the nurse had finished the injection, but still stood there looking at Shen Kanyu, wondering, "What's wrong?"
"Your wife is so cute," the nurse couldn't help showing her auntie smile, "How old is he?"
"... 25."
"He's so cute at 25, much cuter than a 5-year-old child," the nurse sighed. "My boyfriend just graduated from college, and his face is paralyzed all day. He's not cute at all. I want to throw him away."
"Hmm..." Gu Yansheng didn't know what to say, so he could only hold Shen Kanyu's head in his arms.
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When Shen Kanyu was in a coma, he tossed once because of nightmares, but after waking up, he was very quiet. Gu Yansheng helped him to sit up and he sat up, asked him to drink water and he drank water, fed him porridge and he drank porridge, Gu Yansheng wanted to hug him Him, he just stays in his arms obediently, when the two meet their eyes, he will bend his eyes and smile.
Most of the time, he protects his swollen belly and doesn't say a word. Only when Gu Yansheng talks to him, he will respond, but they are all short and slow, as if he is afraid of saying the wrong thing. Every time I say a word, I will think for a long time, and after I finish speaking, I carefully observe Gu Yansheng's face to make sure that he is not angry or unhappy, so that his tense and stiff state will be relieved.
He used to be so talkative, he could talk endlessly when he spoke, and he talked about Gu Yansheng inside and out, but now it is difficult for him to say a complete sentence.
In the evening, Gu Yansheng went out to buy porridge for him. When he came back, he saw that the hospital bed was empty. The backpack he had placed on the bedside table was gone, but the coat he bought for him was still neatly folded and placed on the bedside. There was a note on it with a short sentence:
[A Sheng, I'm going home first, if you need me to do something, just call me.]
Gu Yansheng's originally flustered mind calmed down a little after seeing the note, he knew that the home Shen Kanyu said was definitely not going back to the home where he and Gu Yutian were, but the rental house he had been talking about before.
He always makes the distinction very clearly, and usually never says "go home", but only says "go back", "go back to A Sheng's house", "go back to A Sheng's place".
He was afraid that Shen Kanyu would run away, so he quietly installed a positioning software in his mobile phone. Using the software, he quickly located Shen Kanyu's current location - it is a community not far from the hospital, it has not been repaired for a long time, it is old And shabby.
Gu Yansheng stared at the little red dot on the screen, and chased all the way to the bottom of the building where Shen Kanyu was. As soon as he entered the stairs, a damp musty smell hit his face, making it uncomfortable to breathe.
The door on the second floor was not closed tightly, Gu Yansheng held his breath and pushed the door open, and the small room could be seen at a glance.
The whole room was very dark and damp, except for a small window by the bed, where the afterglow of the setting sun could shine down at this moment.
—
Shen Kanyu curled up in the afterglow.
This is the warmest and safest place for him, where he will not cause trouble to others, and no one will drive him away. If Ah Sheng needs him to go back to do something, he can go back soon.
This window happened to be facing the direction of Asheng's house, so when you miss Asheng and Tiantian, you can just look here.
Asheng's house is the place he yearns for the most. There are people he loves the most. Every morning when he wakes up and sees them, he feels very happy and satisfied.
But there is no place for him.
He's just annoying when he's there.
He knows all this.
Fortunately, he also has a home, a very warm home.
When the little gourd is born, he can also go home and stay safely until the last day of his life.
Thinking of this, he felt very at ease, leaning against the wall with his knees hugged, and soon fell asleep.
—
Gu Yansheng had never seen Shen Kanyu sleep so peacefully. He wrapped him in a blanket, and stretched out his hand to test the temperature of his forehead, but he didn't even wake up, just breathing smoothly like that, and fell asleep soundly.
Gu Yansheng began to look at this room - the size and decoration were very similar to Shen Kanyu's bedroom at home, instant porridge, dried radish and suitcases were all there, almost all the furniture was very close to the bed, but there were too many A kitchenette.
There was a table at the end of the bed, and there was a desk calendar on it, which looked like a gift for buying something. The desk calendar was still in October last year, and he circled it with a pen on October 13th, and wrote "Dad's surgery" Four words. A few leaflets were pressed under the desk calendar. On them were various part-time jobs and part-time job advertisements. He also circled some of them with a pen. Basically, they were manual jobs with high wages and short hours.
There is a cardboard box next to the bed, which contains several bags of nutrient solution and syringes, and a wastebasket next to it, which is full of waste paper balls stained with dried blood.
So the last time he left home, the "going home" he told Gu Yansheng should also be returning here. He spent many days before and after the operation here.
He remembered that what Shen Kanyu talked about the most in the past few days was "I have no money now, and I will make money in the future". His parents wanted his organs, but they refused to pay for his hospitalization.
How much pain must he have had after the operation? With such a long incision, no painkillers, and the sheets were all deformed and shredded by him, the pain should be so painful that he couldn't lie down or sleep.
At that time, he just wanted to drink some water, or eat a bite or two of clear porridge, but no one could help him.
Such a picture, Gu Yansheng thinks about it, is a heart-wrenching pain.
—
On the opposite side of the bed is a wall, on which some photos are pinned with pins. There are ID photos of Gu Yansheng when he was a student, a full moon photo of Gu Yutian, and a group photo of Gu Yansheng holding her toddler when Gu Yutian walked on the first day. In addition, there are group photos of Shen Zhihang, Li Qing, and Shen Tanxi, but Shen Kanyu is not in any of the photos.
On every pin with a picture on it, there is a small peace charm. Gu Yansheng caressed those amulets, and looked at the congratulations on them such as "happy family", "healthy and happy", "safety in life", his eyes unconsciously became sore and moist.
He has been giving all his life, but he is forced to the point where he is afraid of disturbing others even when he gives. He hid in this damp and dilapidated hut, still praying every day and night that others would be safe and happy.
Gu Yansheng stood quietly facing the wall for a while, then turned around and walked back to the bed, took off his shoes and carefully climbed onto the bed, took the sleeping Shen Kanyu into his arms, and put a thick coat on him.
Shen Kanyu still didn't wake up, and still slept soundly and soundly, not because he was with Gu Yansheng, but because this place gave him enough sense of security.
At home, there is a 1.8-meter bed, soft and flat Simmons, light and warm silk quilts, and an air conditioner with a suitable temperature. Gu Yansheng hugs him to sleep, and he wakes up many times a night. It may be a nightmare, or it may be because A little movement around me. Most of the time, Gu Yansheng could find out that even if he hugged and coaxed him, he could still fall asleep. But sometimes Gu Yansheng was too tired to wake up, so he would run to his bedroom and sleep on a hard bed without any bedding.
—
Shen Kanyu slept until he was hungry before waking up.
He stared sleepily at the window and wall in front of him, a little confused, so he remembered that he was lying on the window and leaning against the wall to sleep, and now they were far away from him.
Before he could understand why he was so far away from the window, he began to wonder why he was leaning against something soft and warm behind him. He rubbed his eyes and wanted to look back, but a kiss fell gently on his forehead .
Shen Kanyu stared blankly at the person in front of him, dazed for several seconds, and then slowly called out his name: "A Sheng..."
"Yes." Gu Yansheng responded gently.
Shen Kanyu's heart beat faster, and his tongue was knotted badly: "Why... why are you here?"
Gu Yansheng said softly, "I'm here when you're here."
Shen Kanyu stared blankly at his red and swollen eye sockets, and reached out to touch them: "What's wrong with your eyes?"
Gu Yansheng avoided his hand, turned around to get the insulated lunch box at the side, and said hastily, "Are you hungry? I brought you porridge."
As soon as he hid from Shen Kanyu, he became anxious: "A Sheng, are your eyes uncomfortable? Let me take a look for you..."
He tried hard to pull Gu Yansheng back, but his strength was too weak, and he couldn't stabilize his center of gravity. He couldn't pull Gu Yansheng, but fell backward clumsily.
Gu Yansheng hurriedly pulled him back into his arms, but just hugged him without saying a word.
Shen Kanyu let him hold him obediently, but he was still very worried about his eyes, and just about to ask again, he felt his shoulders wet silently.
It was a very warm liquid, and it fell on it one after another. After he realized what it was, he felt a burning pain in his shoulder. The pain spread directly to his heart, and he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't move.
His Ah Sheng cried.
He didn't know what to do, and he was so sad that he wanted to shed tears.
"I'm sorry..." Gu Yansheng hugged him tightly, as if he was about to melt into his flesh and blood, his voice was uncontrollably choked, but he was still trying to suppress it, afraid of scaring the person in his arms, even though he knew that he had already scared him , "I know... I'm a jerk that's hard for you to trust, give me one more chance... okay?"
Shen Kanyu hurriedly agreed to him: "Yes, yes, Ah Sheng, don't cry, don't cry..."
"Stop running around," Gu Yansheng sighed tremblingly, "I'm really afraid that one day I won't be able to find you..."
He stabilized his emotions and let go of Shen Kanyu, only to find that Shen Kanyu cried worse than him, his whole eyes were red, tears kept falling, he was sobbing badly, and he was in a hurry to wipe his tears, I want to wipe my tears again.
"Why are you crying, idiot." Gu Yansheng wiped it for him dumbfounded.
Shen Kanyu's tears fell more fiercely, and he kept saying sorry, because he was sobbing and talking intermittently, and Gu Yansheng couldn't hear what he was sorry for, so he wrinkled his nose like a child and held a cat crying bag He raised his sleeves and wiped his face back and forth, but couldn't speak clearly, and suddenly felt that what the nurse said before was really very correct.
"He's still so cute at the age of 25, much cuter than a 5-year-old kid."
What kind of virtue did he accumulate in his previous life to meet such a person.
Gu Yansheng coaxed him pitifully while wiping his tears, "Okay, okay, I'll kiss you if you cry again."
Hearing this, Shen Kanyu sniffed his nose and tried his best to hold it back. As a result, the twitching was no longer severe, but the tears flowed more fiercely. He kept wiping his eyes, choked up and said, "Woo... I can't help it..."
He knew that Shen Kanyu cried like this, and the pregnancy factor also had a great influence. Excessive estrogen secretion makes it easy to lose control of emotions. He looked down at his swollen belly, which was soft and well-behaved, and immediately felt that he was even cuter, so he couldn't help but said: "Cry as long as you cry, if you can't stop, forget it. "
With tears in his eyes, Shen Kanyu watched him getting closer and closer in a daze.
"I'll just kiss you."
Gu Yansheng said softly, and leaned over to kiss his bloody thin lips, which were covered with many tears, and tasted salty, but he felt it was extremely sweet.
After the last kiss, Gu Yansheng already knew how to make Shen Kanyu limp and let him lick Shiì, this time he not only repeated the same trick, but even more wantonly tested every sensitive place of him.
Sure enough, Shen Kanyu was so kissed that he couldn't move, and he didn't know how to respond, so he let Gu Yansheng eat and wipe it off, and from time to time let out one or two whimpers that sounded aggrieved.
Gu Yansheng was afraid that Shen Kanyu would not be able to breathe, so he could barely stop. Shen Kanyu's cheeks were pink and teary-eyed, lying in Gu Yansheng's arms panting non-stop, his head was blank, and his eyes were spinning.
Gu Yansheng kissed his hair with eyes full of pity, and said in a soft voice, "I'm really sorry for making you work so hard all these years... you will gradually trust me in the future, okay?"
He lowered his head, held Shen Kanyu's face in his hands, looked into his eyes and smiled softly: "I like you, so I will stand by your side to protect you."