After the little gourd was born that day, Shen Kanyu almost lost his life.
He was obviously unconscious, but he was still coughing. Mu Rujing was washing the child, but when she heard him coughing, her face changed suddenly.
Cough, chills, difficulty breathing, cyanotic lip color.
It's amniotic fluid embolism.
Amniotic fluid embolism with a mortality rate of 80%.
When Shen Kanyu was carried into the ambulance, Song Li happened to pick up Gu Yutian home from school. When she saw Shen Kanyu, who was pale and covered in blood, Gu Yutian burst into tears and climbed into the ambulance desperately. , crying and saying don't take my dad away.
The child was crying a lot and the situation was urgent, so the medical staff could only ask Song Li to take her into the ambulance.
Shen Kanyu was in a coma, unconscious of everything around him, and couldn't even feel the pain.
His heartbeat was getting weaker and he couldn't breathe normally, but he kept coughing, and the oxygen mask was stained with pink blood foam he coughed up. Almost all the instruments on his body were alarming, and all the doctors in the car were desperate. He desperately tried to do all kinds of rescue, but at any rate he was hanged.
Gu Yansheng held his cold and soft hand, half-knelt beside him, and talked to him many, many things incoherently, and he didn't know what he said, but just talked endlessly and tirelessly, like a soliloquy madman.
In the past, Shen Kanyu always pestered him, saying, Ah Sheng, would you please talk to me, your voice is very nice.
He said, I don't want to talk to you.
He smiled and said, how about I talk to you? If you like to listen, just laugh or respond, okay
He kept talking beside him, and when it came to dry mouth, he kept silent and didn't give him any response.
Later, Shen Kanyu no longer took the initiative to talk to him, but as long as he started talking first, he could still pester him excitedly for a long time.
Later, his words became less and less, he asked ten questions, he listened with trepidation, carefully weighed every word, looked at him while speaking, and finally exhausted his strength. He could only reply with a short sentence, sometimes even shaking his head and nodding instead.
By now, there was no way he could talk to him anymore.
There was no way he could bend his wet and shiny eyes any longer, and call him A Sheng in a clear and cheerful boyish voice.
"I'm sorry..." Gu Yansheng knelt beside Shen Kanyu, gently caressing his ice-cold face with trembling hands, tears fell endlessly like a broken bank, "give me a chance, stay... please You... Kanyu..."
"I know you're in pain and tired, it's my fault, I can't protect you... hold on... give me another chance."
"Little gourd has just been born... I want him to call daddy the first thing he says... If no one answers him, he will cry..."
His voice was so choked that no one knew what he was talking about except himself.
He didn't know what the people around him were doing.
Tang Xiu was comforting him, but he didn't know.
The little gourd was hugged by Mu Rujing, who refused to sleep even though he was just born, meowing and crying like a kitten, he didn't know.
Gu Yutian was so frightened that she wanted to cry but was ordered not to cry, she tugged at his sleeve and said that Daddy Tiantian was scared, you hug Tiantian, he doesn't know.
All he knew was that he was about to lose Shen Kanyu.
He is so timid, so afraid of being hated by him, he has been used to hiding in a corner where no one is around and dazed quietly for a long time. He doesn't dare to speak, he doesn't even dare to make any unnecessary noises, he always walks on tiptoe, his mobile phone is turned on to vibrate in his hand, he bites his sleeve and coughs softly, even when his heart feels uncomfortable and he can't breathe. Panting loudly, they all trembled and tried to restrain themselves and slowly adjust their breathing.
He is as quiet as a rag doll, so I haven't said I love him for a long time.
But before he fell into a coma, he shed tears and said, A Sheng, I love you.
So he felt like he was about to...lose him.
—
In the family waiting area outside the operating room, Gu Yutian was lying in Gu Yansheng's arms, crying all the time, but she didn't dare to cry out.
She was really scared. It was the first time she knew what it was to be afraid since she was a child, because when her father was around, she didn't have to be afraid of anything.
Other children are afraid of the dark, but she is not. Because my father would come to pick her up before dark every day, and would accompany her to tell stories and sing songs to him every night before going to bed, but she thought his singing was not good, so he stopped singing.
Other children shouted hot in summer and cold in winter, but she didn't have such troubles. Because in summer my father will hang a small fan around her neck, and in winter he will wrap her into a small ball that is not afraid of the cold. Although grandma always thinks that the clothes my father buys are ugly, the clothes my father bought are really warm.
Other children always feel that snacks are not enough, but she has never been hungry. Because my father always fills her backpack with delicious food, and the teacher said that those are nutritious and healthy foods, I hope other parents can learn from her father.
The other children were afraid that their parents would beat and scold them when they got angry, but she had never been beaten or scolded. Dad always reasoned with her very gently, although she always went in one ear and out the other.
Her father had been with her since she could remember, and she always felt that her father would never leave. She was accustomed to his existence and was even a little annoyed. So every time Daddy took her out to play, she would leave without looking back. Anyway, Daddy would cook a table of delicious food for her when he came back.
The last time Dad left home and came back, she was convinced of this even more.
But now, the father who can laugh, talk, and call her baby tenderly is gone. He closed his eyes and slept so soundly that Daddy couldn't wake him up. In the past, whenever Daddy approached him, he would wake up.
She was really scared, her tears flowed crazily, and she couldn't stop, she hugged her father tightly to find some comfort, but he didn't respond to her.
She felt that Daddy was also afraid, the heartbeat in his chest was so clear and chaotic, exactly the same as her at this moment.
"Daddy, what's wrong with Dad?"
"Dad doesn't want us? Did Tiantian make Dad angry?"
"Daddy... Tiantian misses Dad, when can Dad come and hug Tiantian?"
Gu Yansheng didn't have a trace of blood on his face, his eyes were red and swollen, and his eyes were black and blue. He just hugged her silently without saying a word.
Tang Xiu took her out of Gu Yansheng's arms, straightened his messy hair, and said softly, "Tiantian, don't be afraid, Dad will come out in a while, do you want to go and see my brother with uncle? Don't you always want The younger brother? The younger brother is very good-looking, cute and well-behaved."
With two packs of tears in her eyes, Gu Yutian choked up and asked Tang Xiu, "Uncle Axiu, did dad do this because he gave birth to a younger brother?"
Tang Xiu froze for a moment: "No—"
Gu Yutian's tears flowed fiercely, but she cried softly: "Tiantian doesn't want a brother anymore, as long as her father is okay, Tiantian only wants her father!"
Tang Xiu quickly hugged the child tightly and wiped her tears: "Dad will come out in a while to look for Tiantian, don't cry, don't cry."
Gu Yansheng is still indifferent to everything around him.
Gu Yutian tried her best to suppress her emotions, sobbing and said cautiously: "If Dad is gone... will Daddy also be gone..."
Gu Yansheng's body that was originally as stiff and silent as a piece of scrap iron suddenly trembled, and then he coughed, and light slowly gathered in his out-of-focus eyes.
He took a deep breath, pulled his daughter from Tang Xiu's arms, raised his hand to wipe away the tears from her face, and said in a hoarse voice, "No, Dad and Daddy will be with you...always."
From getting in the ambulance to now, Gu Yansheng finally spoke to her for the first time. Gu Yutian finally couldn't hold back her emotions. She pouted her mouth and endured it. She choked up and called Daddy, and finally burst into tears stand up.
"Daddy is here, Tiantian, don't be afraid." Gu Yansheng responded tremblingly, hugging her daughter tightly, and gently kissed her hairy head.
"Ah Sheng..." Tang Xiu knew that Gu Yansheng was only one string away from collapse, but there was still one thing he couldn't do without him, "Go and see the little gourd... The child has been crying almost from birth to now. Drinking in the middle I drank some milk and fell asleep for a while, then woke up and started crying again."
The baby who was originally born healthy may have to be kept in an incubator after such a toss. Tang Xiu sighed in his heart.
"Can you help me bring the little gourd here?" Gu Yansheng said hoarsely, and turned his gaze to the direction of the operating room, "I have to wait for him here...he is timid, and if no one is waiting for him, he will not dare to come back .”
After Gu Yansheng finished these words, the tears that Tang Xiu had endured for a long time finally welled up in his eyes.
He rubbed his face hard, choked slightly and said, "Okay, I'll bring him here."
—
Shen Kanyu finally survived, even though it was extremely difficult.
On the day of the rescue, he had his uterus removed because of amniotic fluid embolism which caused massive bleeding. Later, he went to the operating room several times, had a heart stent implanted, and part of his stomach was removed.
The partial gastrectomy was performed by Tang Xiu. When he finished the operation, he said to Gu Yansheng exhaustedly, "You'd better make him the size of a palm, and hold him in your hand every day to protect him... He won't be able to stand another day." It’s a bit of a toss. There are knife cuts all over the stomach, and I don’t know where to start.”
After Shen Kanyu lay in the intensive care unit for half a month, he was transferred to the general ward. Gu Yansheng accompanied him every day, massaged his body, wiped his face and moistened his lips, and told him some gossip about his parents. When the weather is fine, with the doctor's permission, he will carry him to the window to bask in the sun. He lies quietly in his arms with his eyes closed. His face is pale and transparent, and his facial features are delicate and delicate, like a fragile porcelain doll.
The doctor said that his physical indicators have barely reached the normal range, and logically speaking, he should have woken up long ago. It may be that the consciousness of survival is too weak. Someone must accompany him more and say a few words to him, so Gu Yansheng did what the doctor told him every day.
He would say the same two sentences to him every day.
"We're all waiting for you to come home, don't be afraid."
"If you feel too tired, you don't have to come back. When the children grow up, I will go find you."
Shen Kanyu fell into a deep sleep without any reaction.
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Little Hulu loves to cry very much. From birth to now, there are only three situations where he will not cry. One is to drink milk, the other is to sleep, and the third is to put him next to Shen Kanyu.
This child looks very much like Shen Kanyu. Shen Kanyu's facial features are relatively young. At twenty-five or sixteen, he still has a lingering immature youthful air. child. His facial features are put on the face of the milk doll, it is so cute that it makes people scratch their heads, anyone who sees it wants to tease and hug him.
However, the little gourd is neither teased nor hugged. Basically, outsiders cry when they touch it. Gu Yansheng can occasionally touch it, but most of the time he will cry. The newborn baby has no strength, and cries like a kitten, meowing and crying, which makes people feel distressed. If he is hungry or sleepy at this time, just feed him milk or put him to sleep. If he just wakes up from a full meal and is made to cry, then he can only be calmed down by putting him next to Shen Kanyu.
The newborn baby was chubby and white, as soft as a ball of cotton candy, with tears in his eyes and a red nose, and was placed next to his father. He immediately calmed down, biting his chubby hand with tears in his eyes, and leaned on him obediently and aggrievedly. Looking at Dad, he stopped crying and making trouble, his small body was twitching because he had just finished crying, and there was a pitiful whimpering sound in his throat, which would melt at a glance.
Once he was placed beside Shen Kanyu, he could be teased by others, whatever way he wanted to, and when he was in a good mood, he would babble a little in response. The only thing is that I can't take him away, unless he falls asleep, otherwise he will start meowing and crying again, and he has to eat his hands by his father's side until he falls asleep before he is reconciled.
There are so many people lined up eagerly waiting to hug the gourd and take a sip. The little gourd doesn’t want to see anyone, except for his father. Even if his father can’t hold him now, he will stubbornly stick to him and eat his hands alone. hand.
The little doll waited and waited and hoped, and grew from a croaked little bean to a full moon milk dumpling. After all, it was a sunny afternoon after the rain until Dad woke up.
—
That day, Gu Yansheng was making milk for the hungry meowing gourd at the bedside, when he suddenly heard an excited "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"
Since the child was born, he has been sleeping except crying, or sucking milk and eating his hands. This is the first time that there has been such a big movement.
Gu Yansheng raised his head, and saw Shen Kanyu's eyelashes trembling slightly on the hospital bed, and his pale, almost transparent face was struggling to sideways towards the little gourd.
For a split second, Gu Yansheng felt his heart constrict violently, and the blood burst out, scalding hot all over his limbs.
The doctor came in for an examination and said that he would be fine when he woke up, so don't let his mood fluctuate too much.
Gu Yansheng thanked him, stood up to shield him from the glare outside, and called his name in a low and trembling voice: "Kanyu?"
Hearing his voice, Shen Kanyu opened his eyes with difficulty, the inside was misty and hazy, but filled with the light that Gu Yansheng had been waiting for.
"Kanyu..." He bent down and gently stroked his pale and thin face, and gradually felt that he was really breathing and living.
Shen Kanyu tried his best to focus his sight, and the white mist on the oxygen mask appeared and disappeared, as if he wanted to speak, but he was too weak to make any sound.
He couldn't do without oxygen now, Gu Yansheng didn't dare to take off his mask, so he could only carefully speculate on his thoughts. Then asked him softly: "Want to see the little gourd? If you want to, just blink your eyes."
Shen Kanyu stared at him blankly, and blinked slowly for a long time.
Gu Yansheng smiled: "He's just sticking to your side, I'll show you, don't get too excited, you'll have to watch him for the rest of your life."
He picked up the little gourd who was still dancing, and the whole baby of the little gourd thumped and whimpered, ready to start crying.
Gu Yansheng hurriedly coaxed: "Don't cry, Daddy will lift you up to see Daddy, Daddy is here."
The little gourd bit his hand, his mouth was puckered up to hold tears, but when he saw Shen Kanyu, he froze, stared blankly at Shen Kanyu for two seconds, then let go of his hand, and bent his eyes Opening his small toothless mouth, he revealed his first smile from birth to now, and even let out a milky smile.
He stretched out his short fleshy hands to Shen Kanyu, begging for a hug.
Shen Kanyu stared blankly at the lively and lovely little gourd, his eyes became moist in a short while, tears slipped from the corners of his eyes, and fell into the pillow drop by drop, and the pillow cover was instantly wet.
His needle-pricked hand trembled, as if he wanted to lift it up and hug the child. Seeing this, Gu Yansheng quickly grabbed the little gourd's hand and reached for Shen Kanyu's.
The little gourd touched Shen Kanyu's hand, his eyes were almost laughing, and the five tender and soft fingers that were always curled up in a ball opened awkwardly and grabbed one of Dad's fingers.
The child's hand was soft and warm, as if wrapping Shen Kanyu's insecure heart with a piece of the best down feather. Completely disobedient, he could only let the little gourd hold him foolishly, and tears flowed down the pillow uncontrollably.
"It's okay," Gu Yansheng gently wiped the tears on his face, and whispered softly, "From now on, you can hug him every day. He wants you to hug him the most. Don't worry now, huh?"
Shen Kanyu nodded vigorously, and the oxygen mask began to be covered with fog again. He seemed to smile, and then opened his wet eyes again, staring at Gu Yansheng intently.
Gu Yansheng also looked at him intently, and immediately understood: "Tiantian hasn't finished school yet, she will come over as soon as school is over."
Shen Kanyu seemed to be smiling again, his eyes were slightly bent, although the smile was blurred because of his weakness, but to Gu Yansheng, it couldn't be more beautiful.
But he still looked at Gu Yansheng, as if he had a lot to say to him, he panted for a while and gathered his strength, after all, he raised his other hand with difficulty.
Gu Yansheng quickly put down the little gourd, and held his skinny and cold fingers: "What's wrong?"
Shen Kanyu couldn't speak, but with Gu Yansheng's support, he stroked his face with difficulty.
Shen Kanyu's hands are very cold, because many places are covered with a thin layer of calluses because of doing housework all year round. It is such a cold and rough hand, but the movement of stroking Gu Yansheng's face is extremely delicate and gentle. He can feel the indelible treasure and nostalgia hidden in his trembling fingertips.
"Asheng, you... lost weight..." Gu Yansheng heard his faint voice, with a choked cry, "Is it... very hard? I'll help you... I'm back."
Gu Yansheng held his hand, smiled with moist eyes: "I've been arguing with you, did you hear that?"
Shen Kanyu looked at him bewilderedly, gave a soft "hmm", then shook his head and said softly, "It's not noisy."
Gu Yansheng sighed softly, leaned down and kissed his pale and cold forehead, choked slightly, and said, "Thank you for coming back..."
At that moment, Gu Yansheng suddenly realized that he never knew how much Shen Kanyu loved him.
From the moment Shen Kanyu opened his eyes, maybe he just wanted to talk to him, finding Xiao Hulu and Tiantian was all because of his self-righteous understanding.
He didn't have the strength to speak for such a long time, and he didn't even have the strength to hold the little gourd back, but he was able to touch his face and say "A Sheng, you've lost weight".
There is only one person in this life who treats each other wholeheartedly, but he bullies him until he is dying. When he is so tired that he no longer wants to open his eyes, he relies on him to love him and begs him to stay.
Finally he did come back.
After he woke up, the haze that had lasted for several months was swept away, and the whole city was clear.
May every day in the future be a clear sky.
The author has something to say: Thank you everyone, "Unbelievable" is here! (It's really a bad ending 1551) This is the end of writing a few essays on impulse. There may be extra episodes, or there may be nothing at all and just rush to open a new pit (*/ω＼*) Let’s just let it go.
The new pit should be Jiang Mo×Tang Xiu, sweet abuse to HE. I will move to Old Ford because I am really afraid of being swallowed by my mother... Jiujiu posted a little trial chapter in the skirt, which can be seen in the skirt (you can also read the complete forty-four chapters in the skirt that was swallowed messily) , I have posted the skirt many times, because I swallow it once I post it, so I don’t post it anymore, everyone scrolls up to find it, in short, everything follows the fate~
Finally, I still want to thank everyone. I really didn’t expect so many people to watch this impulsive product. Whether it’s forwarding, commenting or likes, there are more than ever. I will try my best to bring you more responsible works in the future, bow! !