[A side story without logic and consequences, please don’t be serious, otherwise the glass-hearted host will delete the post online╯^╰]
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"Mr. Gu, Mr. Gu, wake up!" Confused, his body was as light as a duckweed in the sea, Gu Yansheng seemed to hear someone calling him.
Gu Yansheng didn't want to wake up, it was hard for him to leave the world without Shen Kanyu—a world like endless purgatory for him.
Ten|After Shen Kanyu left ten years ago, he was like an empty shell, living like a corpse for ten years, just to raise the two children|to adults and leave them a family property that can be carefree for life, otherwise He couldn't bear to let him wait for him so long in the next life.
What caused him the most pain so that he couldn't sleep for countless nights was that Shen Kanyu never believed that he loved him until he left. Waking up from the near-death childbirth of the little gourd was only because he was afraid that it would be too hard for him to raise the child by himself, not because he knew that he loved him.
The little gourd's name is Shen Lu, and he is almost the child that Shen Kanyu exchanged his life for. After giving birth to him, his body is getting worse day by day. But Shen Lu likes to cling to him, so he takes care of him personally. When Gu Yansheng scolds Shen Lu unbearably, Shen Kanyu will beg him not to scold him, not to dislike him.
Because Shen Lu looked like him, he was very afraid that Gu Yansheng would hate this child because of it.
He fell ill in the bathroom on the second day of Xiao Hulu's eighth birthday.
Gu Yansheng didn't know how much pain he had that day, all he knew was that he got up very early and cooked a hearty breakfast for him and his two children, and then he didn't eat a single bite, but just sat by and watched them laughing, his eyes crooked Yes, with a slight dampness.
Later, he said that he went to the bathroom, but he didn't come out for a long time. When Gu Yansheng went in to look, he was holding a blood-stained rag in his hand, and it was poured into the bright red that he spit out.
There were traces of cleaning on the ground and on the sink—because he couldn't clean it very well, there was a faint blood red residue.
If he can still hold on, he will definitely clean up the place, and then go out, as if nothing happened, smile at them gently as always, and talk to them as if nothing happened.
But he couldn't hold it anymore.
After going to the hospital, he gradually ran out of oil and lamps, and he seldom woke up, and couldn't talk to them a few words, but one night, he silently left the hospital bed where he had been tossing and turning for several months, and gave him A very short letter was left.
The letter paper seems to have been soaked|wet|wet|wet by liquid, the surface of the paper is uneven, every word on the letter is written stroke by stroke, but it still looks messy|loose, probably because he really has no strength when writing:
Ah Sheng, Little Hulu is already eight years old, he is very sensible, he is good at taking care of himself and protecting his sister, you won't be so tired anymore. But he is still a very young child, you should love him more and don't dislike him.
It's time for me to go. I've been wanting to say a few more words to you, but I'm a little slow. You're too busy to listen to me for a long time, so I'll write a letter. It doesn't matter if you don't want to read it.
That’s right, I’m sorry to trouble you for so long, you will be a very happy family of three in the future, there will be no extra people, this can be regarded as my birthday present to Xiaohulu~ But I still hope you can meet someone you love very much He, he also loves your |'s| person very much, if such a good person is with you, the four of you are also great.
Ah Sheng, I know you hate me very much, but I want to tell you again that I really love you. Thank you so much for not driving me away all these years. After I leave, I hope you will stop hating me so much. I know it's hard, and it's okay if it's too hard.
You, Xiaohulu and Tiantian are very good, maybe you don’t like me so I will be unhappy, but I am really happy to be with you, thank you for being willing to be with me for so many years, if I am not here in the future, you will be sure Be happy every day, and be happy and safe all your life!
At the end of the letter, a line of words has been crossed out, but it can be vaguely seen that it says "I will bless you".
On the back of the letter is a picture he drew. Gu Yansheng led Gu Yutian and Shen Lu along a small road, and at the end of the road was a small house.
There is no Shen Kanyu in the painting, and there are no stars in the sky.
The family of four has lived together for eight years, and the three of them thought it was a happy family, but Shen Kanyu has always been on thin ice, counting the days every day, carefully pleasing them to live, and putting away all the sadness and anxiety He hid it very well, he never revealed it and never confided in fear of annoying people, until he exhausted his whole life, he never said a word to him: Ah Sheng, I hurt.
He didn't know where he went, and he didn't take anything away. Gu Yansheng frantically searched the whole world over and over again, but he couldn't find him again.
Gu Yutian cried until his eyes almost broke, and Shen Lu never took the initiative to talk to others.
Like a stray cat, Shen Kanyu has been cautiously and tremblingly with his owner for several years, and when he knew that he was going to be unable to hold on, he quietly left and left quietly in a place that no one knew.
He came alone, lived alone, brought him a home and two children, gave him everything he had without reservation, and left alone.
His last wish is: Ah Sheng, don't hate me so much anymore.
But even for this wish, he added a sentence at the end, it doesn't matter if it is too difficult.
It means that from the beginning to the end, he didn't really accompany him for a moment, or warm him up.
He is stupid and has no one to teach him. He doesn't know how to love someone well, let alone what it means to be loved by someone.
Every time Gu Yansheng thinks of these things, Gu Yansheng feels so painful that he wants to give up even breathing. But he couldn't let go of his two young children, so he gritted his teeth and lived for ten years, finally taking the medicine of euthanasia in front of Shen Kanyu's tomb.
He remembered that he was obviously dead, why can he still hear someone calling him now
Why save him and not let him die
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Gu Yansheng finally opened his eyes, and saw the anxious assistant Zhang Kang beside the bed.
Seeing him wake up, Zhang Kang breathed a sigh of relief: "Zong Zong, you are awake. You have been in a coma for a short while, and you must have had at least ten nightmares."
Gu Yansheng blinked blankly, completely unaware of why Zhang Kang was here, and what he meant by "being in a coma for a while".
He clearly remembered that he drank the medicine in front of Shen Kanyu's grave, with Gu Yutian and Shen Lu beside him, and Zhang Kang, he had already given him a high salary and fired him.
He frowned and looked at Zhang Kang, and asked hoarsely, "How did I faint?"
"Ah?" Zhang Kang was stunned for a moment, then scratched his head and said hesitantly, "Isn't today your parents' death day? You have been busy for several days. When you went to the cemetery to pay homage, you must have been exhausted physically and mentally, and suddenly passed away. "
"Parents... the anniversary of their death?!" Gu Yansheng stood up abruptly, then suffered a severe headache, and almost lost consciousness again.
"Hey! Mr. Gu, don't get excited. Listen to me, you can't come back to life after death. Your parents have passed away for several years. I know that the death of a loved one is very painful, but you have to come out..."
"Shut up!" Gu Yansheng gritted his teeth and endured the headache, reached out and grabbed Zhang Kang's collar and pulled him over, "Let me ask you, where are Gu Yutian and Shen Lu?"
Zhang Kang was stunned when he heard this: "...Are these two relatives of yours? You haven't told me."
He doesn't know Gu Yutian and Shen Lu? !
Gu Yansheng's fingers trembled, and cold sweat suddenly covered his whole body. He gripped Zhang Kang even tighter, like a drowning man clutching a life-saving straw: "Then..."
He panted, opened and closed his lips several times, but couldn't pronounce the name.
"What?" Zhang Kang wailed with a bitter face, "President, calm down and talk about something, don't drag me like this..."
Gu Yansheng took a deep breath, his eyes were red and he said: "... Where is Shen Kanyu? Where is Shen Kanyu?"
Zhang Kang thought hard for a few seconds, and then said with a sad face: "Who is this? What happened to you, did you hit your head when you passed out on the ground?"
He didn't know Shen Kanyu either.
Gu Yansheng shook off him, raised his hand to press his temple, his chest was heaving violently, and he said in a hoarse voice as calmly as possible: "I really... don't remember something clearly, please tell me slowly, slowly …”
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Gu Yansheng didn't know if he was reborn back to a past that wasn't exactly the same, or if he was brought forward to the next life.
He is 20 years old now, and his parents died in a car accident when he was 15 years old. He has almost no skills other than playing games. The early death of his parents made him desperate. First, he made a small amount of money as a game anchor for a period of time. Later, he gritted his teeth and struggled. With the help of his two uncles, Gu Yun and Tang Yanzhi, he cooperated with his friend Su Tong to found a game company called Youyu, and earned a lot of money from several RPG games. The bowl is full, and he has become a young and promising legend in the industry.
From Zhang Kang's impassioned narration, Gu Yansheng can probably guess that, except for Shen Kanyu and their son and daughter, everyone else in this world exists the same as his previous world.
He didn't know what kind of mood he should be in, whether to cry or laugh, because he didn't know where Shen Kanyu was, or he didn't know if there was Shen Kanyu in this world at all.
If he wasn't here, it would be meaningless for him to come here. There wasn't even Tiantian and Xiaohulu here, so he couldn't live for a second.
If he is, where is he? How can he find him
If he is lucky enough to meet him again, will he still fall in love with him
Before he died in the previous world, he wanted to find his Kanyu in the next life. But he wanted to die with all his heart, and he never thought that if there is no him in his next life, what would be the point.
He might as well not be reborn forever.
At a loss, Gu Yansheng buried his face in his cold palm, silently shedding tears from his hands.
Gu Yansheng looked for Shen Kanyu all over the world, but he was never found.
On the night of New Year's Eve, Uncle Gu Yun called | asking him to have a New Year's Eve dinner at home, but he refused.
He was afraid that he would think of Shen Kanyu at the dinner table.
I think of the table full of dishes he often cooks: egg waffles, tofu soup, sweet and sour pork tenderloin, braised tendon in oil, garlic split back shrimp...
Shen Kanyu knows that he loves to eat shrimp, so he often buys shrimp and cooks them, then peels off the shells one by one, and saves bowls of delicious and moist shrimp for him.
He said he was disgusting, said he wouldn't eat what he peeled.
But he didn't stop buying shrimp, because he knew he loved shrimp.
He changed many ways, cooking shrimps that can be eaten with shells, or buying shrimps directly, and told him carefully: A Sheng, I bought shrimps, I didn’t peel them, I just washed them with gloves , very clean you can eat.
Afraid that he would not believe it, he showed him the receipt printed at the supermarket, and seeing that he believed it, he happily went to cook.
His craftsmanship is actually very average, and the dishes he cooks are not very delicious, and he hasn't improved much after so many years. But after he left, Tiantian would cry uncontrollably at the dinner table whenever she thought that she would never eat the dishes made by her father again, and no one would persuade her.
Shen Lu has always been a seldom talker and only likes to talk to his father. After Shen Kanyu left, he became even more taciturn. At its most exaggerated, when other people said ten sentences, he would only reply with one modal particle. My sister was crying sadly, and he just sat beside him silently, then raised his hand to wipe the corner of his eyes, put the food into my sister's bowl, and said: "Sister, eat."
In fact, Gu Yutian only wanted Shen Kanyu to come back and call her baby, but she couldn't hear it anymore.
Gu Yansheng was afraid that if he thought of Shen Kanyu at the dinner table, he would lose control like his daughter, or even more out of control than his daughter.
He drove to a small, sparsely populated village, where the ground was covered with snow, everything was covered in silver, and it was as quiet as a paradise.
At this time, almost all farmers were watching the Spring Festival Gala and having a reunion dinner in their own houses, but when he passed by a small bungalow, he saw a child wandering outside the house.
It was freezing cold, and the child was wearing a significantly larger T-shirt and a pair of washed white cotton trousers. He was lying on tiptoes against the window, with a bowl on the ground beside him.
He's not tall enough to climb on tiptoe over the window to see what's going on inside the house—the family gathered at the dinner table, eating the biggest meal of the year, a clunky black TV playing a festive movie. Spring Festival Gala.
"It's the next New Year's Eve dinner!" Gu Yansheng heard the child say this excitedly, his voice was a little hoarse, and the words were a bit leaky, but it was milky, so sweet that his heart felt soft.
He thought he would go into the house now, but he didn't expect that after he got down from the window, he just picked up the bowl at his feet, sat on the steps in front of the house, looked back at the closed door, and said : "Mom, Dad, and Brother|Brother Happy New Year, I want the family to be reunited and happy!"
Then he lowered his head and rubbed his eyes, took out a spoon, and ate the contents of the bowl spoon by spoon.
From a distance, Gu Yansheng couldn't see the child's face clearly, but he could see that he was an extremely thin little guy. He scooped out something delicious like mountain delicacies from the bowl. It didn't look like a normal meal, but rather Foods without nutrition such as clear soup with little water or gruel.
He felt a pain in his heart, and couldn't help walking over with his legs, step by step, getting closer and closer, and gradually he could clearly see the child's facial features—
His footsteps stopped abruptly, his body was as stiff as if frozen, even his breathing stopped suddenly, what was still moving all over his body was the tears gushing silently from his eye sockets.
Delicate flat eyebrows, the wet | wet | wet eyes of a small lying silkworm buried in the bottom of the eyes, like the eyes of a newborn puppy.
This pair of eyebrows and eyes was branded in his heart, Shen Kanyu's eyebrows and eyes.
Those eyebrows are the most vivid and beautiful. When he always looked at him with a smile, he never looked directly at him. Later, those eyebrows would still smile at him crookedly, but they would quickly avoid them, and they would never look at him again. See the light.
When the child heard the movement, he raised his head, blinked his big eyes and looked at the big brother|brother who came from nowhere.
Bumping into such innocent and transparent eyes, Gu Yansheng suddenly felt dizzy, his legs were weak, and the hand hanging by his side trembled subconsciously. Everything is a dream, and it shatters into bubbles at the first touch.
"Beautiful brother|Brother, can't you go home?" He is still very young, and his voice has not yet reached the stage of changing his voice. When he is not hoarse, his voice is crisp and fresh, as tender as a sprout in early spring. "Have you eaten yet? I can do this." Here you go, I'm already full!"
He stood up and stretched his two thin arms, and held the bowl high to him, seeing that he would not pick it up, thinking that he couldn't reach it, so he stood on tiptoe hard, desperately trying to give it to him: " Pretty Brother|Brother, you eat!"
As if waking up from a long dream, Gu Yansheng slowly squatted down in front of him, catching the bowl with one hand and putting it aside, while firmly embracing that small soft body with the other, taking off |Take off your coat and wrap|hold him.
After too long, he hummed and chirped a few times before falling asleep again.
Gu Yansheng found a small blanket to cover him, got into the driver's seat and prepared to drive the car, but found that the car couldn't start because it was frozen for too long.
He tried a few more times, but failed to start the car, so anxious and helpless, he called Tang Xiu.
As soon as Tang Xiu heard him say that the car had broken down in a ravine, he opened his mouth and cursed: "Young Master, you are celebrating the Chinese New Year, see if what you are doing is not a human thing? Running around like a turtle does not lay eggs and birds do not shit | The car broke down in a broken place, why don't you just put it outside and live and work in peace and don't come back?"
Gu Yansheng knew that he was swearing fiercely, so he would definitely not be slow to go out. Sure enough, after he finished his tirade, he said, "I'm driving, and I'm dead, you little bastard only thinks of your brother at this time, don't|shame|face."
He didn't know how far Tang Xiu drove the car, but after waiting for less than half an hour, he arrived. As soon as he arrived, he began to scold Gu Yansheng endlessly until he saw Gu Yansheng holding a beautiful child. car, his rhetoric came to an abrupt end: "Who is this?"
Gu Yansheng didn't answer Tang Xiu, but wrapped the child a little tighter with his coat, and said anxiously: "He has a little fever, please show him quickly."
Tang Xiu quickly dug out his medical kit, did a simple check-up on the child, and then threw two pieces of antipyretic stickers to Gu Yansheng: "It's not a big deal, it should be caused by changing teeth—one sticks to the forehead and the other sticks to the navel. .”
Gu Yansheng pasted a cooling sheet on the child's forehead, then gently and carefully lifted|opened the child's clothes, revealing|exposing a slightly sunken belly and distinct ribs, his pupils suddenly constricted.
"It's malnourished at first glance, what a cute child, won't the family give him food?" Tang Xiu paused, and then asked, "You haven't told me yet, where did this little baby come from?"
Gu Yansheng put on the antipyretic stickers, and said coldly: "I will take the child home without a family."
Tang Xiu blinked his eyes twice: "Uh, take it back and raise it...?"
"Um."
"... What about after being raised?"
"marry."
"..." Tang Xiu put on a face of "Ning really shocked me|Mom", started the car silently, and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead while driving.
The world of young people is so exciting.