Ding Shengguang, the playboy, was about to get married, and He Xian was shocked to find that there seemed to be very few bachelors left around him. This discovery was like a very funny horror movie, which was really scary but also had some funny moments.
Lin Sitao has been living/semi-living with him for almost a year. This is the most amazing relationship he has ever had.
He originally thought that being with Lin Sitao was a spur of the moment thing, and even though it was sweet at the beginning, he might regret it one day. But that was not the case.
The longer they were together, the happier he became.
Winter weekend nights are the most comfortable. The nights seem infinitely long, the room is quiet and warm, and they have plenty of time to take their time.
Lin Sitao never stopped swimming with him in the summer, and gradually became more enthusiastic about swimming than he was. The lines of her back became tighter and more beautiful. When she lay there, he couldn't help but touch it, like touching a big, sleek cat.
He heard the news from Zhao Shuqing two days ago. Teacher Jiang was pregnant. It was said that the baby was conceived through test tube. She had suffered a lot, but fortunately she got pregnant. Zhao Shuqing was very happy.
Everything went according to Zhao Shuqing's plan.
He was not surprised at all, the only thing that surprised him was that when he heard the news, he didn't feel anything. The lingering sadness in his heart when he broke up with Zhao Shuqing had disappeared without a trace.
He had known when they broke up that the pain would go away, but he hadn't expected to be so happy now.
If he could go back five hundred days and tell himself back then, "You will be happy. You will be happier than when you were with Zhao Shuqing."
He would definitely laugh at himself for deceiving himself: "Impossible. Absolutely impossible. Zhao Shuqing is my true love."
But now that I think about it, Zhao Shuqing's choice no longer meets the standard of true love...
He could now look at the matter more rationally. In fact, neither he nor Zhao Shuqing was willing to make concessions or sacrifices for each other.
Love does not require long-term patience.
At least his love for Lin Sitao is not.
"What are you thinking about?" Lin Sitao suddenly turned and looked at him.
He Xian smiled and gave Lin Sitao a series of kisses on his back.
"Something boring."
He asked Lin Sitao: "When will we have a day off? Let's go out and play."
Lin Sitao didn't have much more time than He Xian. He had to plan well to find time to go out and play.
They had originally planned to go skiing and have a trip to Harbin in winter, but because they couldn't find time and Lin Sitao didn't have time off, they kept putting it off. A few days later, He Xian went on a business trip to Shanghai, and Lin Sitao spent a somewhat leisurely and lonely week alone.
As soon as He Xian returned to the hotel that day, he video chatted with Lin Sitao.
"I went somewhere after the meeting today," he said with a smile.
Lin Sitao vaguely guessed it.
He Xian went to the construction site of that year - now it is a bustling place with heavy traffic, and only the bridge remains there.
"Only the bridge is still there," said He Xian.
Lin Sitao also laughed: "I know."
“I searched online and I could see everything on the map,” he explained.
He Xian had taken off his coat and was only wearing a sweater and shirt, lying on the bed in the hotel, wearing glasses. Looking at him like this, Lin Sitao only missed him even more.
“But seeing it in person felt different,” He Xian said. “It was like… the opposite of things have changed. I was very happy there.”
He walked on the bridge in the evening. After ten years of winter and summer, he felt calm when he stood here again - the scars were still there, but he could touch them like the rough bark of an old tree.
Lin Sitao was looking at him earnestly on the other side of the screen, with a focused expression like a student listening to an online class.
He Xian could see that he was still worried about him.
He smiled and said, "I'll be back tomorrow and I've brought you something."
The day He Xian came back, they started to make love in the living room. Lin Sitao felt that he had experienced many firsts since being with He Xian. This was the first time he deeply felt what it meant to be reunited after a short separation.
They agreed to go to Shanghai together during the Chinese New Year and walk on the bridge together.
Lin Sitao said, "Are we going to reenact the scene at that time?"
He Xian said: "Aren't you afraid that I will fall down?"
Lin Sitao said easily: "I will hold you well."
They leaned against each other for a while without speaking. Lin Sitao had asked He Xian about what happened once before, but He Xian denied that he intended to commit suicide at that time.
Since He Xian has already denied it, he won't ask again. This is He Xian's own problem. He won't force He Xian.
But today He Xian seemed to want to say it out.
"Sometimes, it's just a matter of one thought. If I had jumped at that time, maybe someone would attribute the reason to my breakup with Song You. But it's not..."
"Song You was just a trigger. I was a real mess at that time."
There was only one thing He Xian wanted to clarify to Lin Sitao—even if he wanted to commit suicide at that time, he didn't want to die for Song You.
He was just disappointed. Not so much disappointed with Song You, but disappointed with himself. He had never received a complete, unique, and lasting love. Never.
Of course, he woke up the moment Lin Sitao rescued him—he shouldn't die. He almost did something stupid.
He leaned over and kissed Lin Sitao's neck, resting his head on it. He whispered, "Thank you." This was He Xian speaking ten years ago.
Lin Sitao hugged him. He was always fascinated by He Xian, even though He Xian had such a fragile side, he still found him charming.
He said gently: "When you go back to J City during the Chinese New Year, you can stop by Shanghai first, stay in Shanghai for two days, and then go to J City." He has already arranged the itinerary.
He Xian asked him: "When are you going to the Northeast?"
They finally found time to go to Northeast China in December and celebrated their anniversary in the snow. He Xian thought it was very romantic and Lin Sitao was also very happy.
But when He Xian came back, he felt very cold. As soon as he got home, he took some medicine and fell asleep on the bed.
In the middle of the night, He Xian's cell phone rang. Lin Sitao felt that the ringing sounded urgent and hurried in the dead of night, which frightened his heart. He Xian was still sleeping soundly due to the effect of the medicine.
Lin Sitao pushed him and said, "He Xian, answer the phone."
He Xian nodded, and Lin Sitao helped him answer the phone and put it to his ear.
After just two words, He Xian sat up.
After hanging up the phone, he started to get dressed and called the driver to pick him up.
Lin Sitao asked him what happened.
He Xian shook his head, but still said, "It's not a good thing."