"useless."
Wen Jiubai seemed very sad, but sighed helplessly, and said calmly.
"Gu Yu, you and I are destined. There is reincarnation in karma, and there is no escape."
"Nonsense!" My voice suddenly rose, and my chest was filled with a kind of anger that I couldn't understand. "Whether it's cause and effect or fate, just cut off that kind of thing!"
"If only it were that simple." Wen Jiubai whispered, unable to tell whether he was talking to me or muttering to himself.
Before I could say anything else, Wen Jiubai interrupted my thoughts.
"Before I leave, let me tell you one more thing." Wen Jiubai said nonchalantly, "The 'Zhen' in the Zhen Gua has another interpretation besides the celestial phenomenon 'Thunder'."
"What?" I asked subconsciously.
"The eldest son." Wen Jiubai said clearly, "The first born boy in a family. For your family, he is also the only one."
I woke up suddenly from this ridiculous dream, and I couldn't return to reality for a long time. When I reacted, I realized that my forehead and body were all wet with sweat. And Wen Jiubai's voice was still ringing in my ears.
"The eldest man..." I muttered the word unconsciously, trying to wake up my muddy brain.
It was pitch black outside the window, I sat up from the bed and picked up my phone. Looking at the time, it was only three o'clock in the morning. I breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that my nameless nervousness was absurd. Just when I was about to get up from the bed and go to the bathroom, the phone in my hand vibrated suddenly.
I was startled, trembling all over, and almost dropped my phone to the ground. After frantically holding it, I looked at the name on the screen, but froze.
The bell echoed abruptly in the empty room, extremely ear-piercing. I bit my lip tightly, not wanting to pay attention to the voice, but the fear in my heart still drove me to press the answer button.
The moment the call came through, my mind went blank.
what to do? What should I say
Before my confusion was over, there was a voice on the other end of the phone. It was a woman's voice, very gentle, without any trace of hostility.
"Xiao Yu, is that you?"
"Yes." I answered almost without hesitation.
This is such a hypocritical greeting. You haven't spoken to each other for several months, but you have to act as if you just chatted yesterday when you come up.
But even so, I responded subconsciously. It seemed my reaction was more repulsive than a hypocritical mother.
"Haven't you slept so late? What are you doing?"
"No... I just woke up." I replied bravely, "I got a call right after I woke up."
"Are you lying again?" Mother's voice seemed to be talking about the weather, as if it was so natural for me to lie, "How could you get a call just as soon as you woke up? Tell me, what the hell were you doing just now?" ?”
Here it comes again... Here she comes again. But if I didn't answer the phone call just now, I'm afraid I would have to accept a more terrifying reprimand.
"No, I really just woke up..." I said a weak excuse that I didn't even believe myself, and I was ready for a stormy reprimand.
There was silence on the other end of the phone, and then my mother said proudly, "Forget it, I already knew you were a little liar. Dogs never spit ivory out of their mouths. If you don't tell me, I won't ask. Sooner or later you will Just drown in that shit in your own mouth."
My fingers holding the phone tightened, and my whole body trembled violently. I even have a feeling that if I push harder, the phone should be crushed by me.
However, impatience will not work. Opposite is my biological mother, which I know very well.
"Okay, how is school life?"
Although I know, she asked this question just as a casual cutscene, there is not even a trace of emotion in the words.
"fine… "
Sure enough, as I expected, my answer had just finished, and she couldn't wait to lead the topic to the next question.
"Does your hair still look good?"
There was a thud in my heart, and my heart was beating violently. I subconsciously reached out and touched my short bangs, but on the surface I was still strong and calm, and responded without changing my face.
"Well, it's still there."
"What are you wearing now?"
Shirt and jeans.
"It's... a new dress my mother bought for me."
"Really?" Mother asked suspiciously, "You are a liar, you won't lie to me!"
"no, I can not… "
"That's good." My mother cleared her throat, and I realized that what she just said was just a foreshadowing, and now I'm going to start talking about the real thing.
"You can come home during this eleventh holiday. Don't go to school, I have already submitted an application for withdrawal to your school." She said calmly.
It was as if a thunderbolt had exploded in my head, and I couldn't help but raise my voice instantly, "What did you say!"
"I've made it clear enough. I'll go home tomorrow. I've already bought the train ticket for you."
"No!" I shouted almost subconsciously, "I want to go to school here!"
"What are you going to learn!" Her voice became sharper, almost shouting into the phone. And this kind of voice is the most familiar to me.
"Do you know what happened at home! I've never seen such an unfilial child like you! Mom finally called you once, and you didn't even ask how mom is doing. Hmph, go to school? You go to I don't know that you just want to avoid me and hide from home! Do you think that the money I gave you for your education fell out of thin air! Why don't you know how to be considerate of mother at all! "
"But I really like it here!" I shouted with all my might.
"I knew it! You don't like anything but home, don't you!" Mother's voice was so piercing that I had to hold the phone some distance away from my ear. Oh! Look at you, what do you look like! If I could stay at home with my parents every day when I was young, I would probably be moved to tears! At that time, I didn’t even have a decent dress, let alone long hair. No, there is no door, you are simply living in the blessing and don't know the blessing!"
"But Mom, I really don't want to..."
"Think about it, what to think about! Don't think about anything! I've already completed the procedures for you to drop out of school, and I have the ability to quarrel with your principal!" My mother gave me an ultimatum, "Gu Yu, I warn you, the train The ticket is at two o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow, take your ID card to pick it up yourself. If you dare not go home, don't enter the house again, hear me!"
After putting down these harsh words, my mother hung up the phone. I threw my phone on the bed, my chest heaved violently, but I couldn't say anything. Fingers gripping the edge of the bed board tightly, thinking in a trance.
… It would be nice if it was dead.